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2004 7 August :: 2.00am
I can't be online right now. All there is on this computer is IMing and journals. So not many mood improving things. Just had a good conversation with the Keister. Emotions suck. Especially when you can't control them. And you don't even know why you're thinking them. And the only reasons you come up with only make it worse, because why would you flip otu abotu such small things?
So seeing as A) It's late at night. and B) I'm alone. It's best that I'm not online.
I will be awake though. Because I'm just insane.
uuumm...yes. Bye I guess.
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2004 6 August :: 12.42am
Im tired. But sleep doesn't look like it'll happen anytime soon.
I honestly feel kinda crappy right now. Not a bad night, just bad thoughts that won't leave me alone.
Reality finally catching up with me I guess. I kinda just want to disappear.
I know I shouldn't though. Because reality will always be there, no matter where I run to.
Trying to find quotes from Thoreau. Something I read a while back that kind of relates. But it's not working.
Want to hear a funny story though? So Jackie was over. And my sister was being..weird. So we, well I, attacked her with shaving cream. Then she came back with shaving gel. Lol
You'd be surprised how far the gel shaving stuff shoots. :-) Good times.
I haven't laughed that hard in ages.
It was cool.
Just be careful. It's a bitch to get out of the carpet. :-)
I got ten cigar boxes today. They're really pretty. I just need a use for them now.
I'm only working one day this week. :-( Poo. This week is shaping up to be very bad. I guess I'll just wait and see what happens.
Poo on a big fat hairy stick.
Ok. Good bye.
-Patrice
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2004 5 August :: 12.57am
:: Mood: sleepy
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I feel weird. Am I the only person who's had a pretty good week? I mean, granted I've been tired as hell every day but it's been awesome. I'm really enjoying what I've been doing for the past week and a half. I abosolutely love it! I actually feel....good. It wasn't until last week that I finally admitted that I'm not tone deaf! I'm not going around going "Oh, I'm the best there ever was" because whoa damn...that is no where near true....I need to reach 30 something before I'll be considered awesome....maybe. But I realized I don't suck as much as I've always thought I did. That "voice" inside has been hiding all these years and I finally got a quick preview of it before it fully develops. It feels awesome to know that I'm capable of singing a certain way. It's such a rush. High notes being a rush? Yeah, whatever....what's more of a rush to me (now) is hearing my voice improve when I position my jaw differently. It's truly amazing and it's such a great feeling. The only thing I really don't like about this workshop is the hours. It's so freakin' long. I'm exhausted by the time I come home. In the past 3 weeks, I've only really gone out once. I've left the house but usually because I have a certain purpose. I'm too tired to leave the house. I just want to sleep...but then I remember I have to practice...and then I never get to it because I am Queen of Procrastination. ::Sigh::
I'm feeling very sleepy now...I'm gonna go to bed. That's what I said 2 hours ago but I never did because I decided I should run before I do....and then I needed to go in the shower because I was hot and sweaty and smelly....so here I am now...sitting in front of the computer screen about to pass out because I'm so sleepy.
So I go now. Goodnight.
Always, Sandy
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2004 4 August :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Enya
Fucking relaxing bath...
im gonna pop mr. bubble's bubble
set fire to burt's bees hives
shoot dove
put venus in a good fly trap
and rip apart all the water molecules in the universe.
yes.
my bath sucked.
i inhaled bubbles.....and it hurts like fuck in the bronchial tube...
then i got soap in my eye from burt's bees...
the water wouldnt get hot...
the other day i cut myself with the razor
and im cursing dove although its done nothing but run out on me.
not to mention, my brother walked in on me...it wasnt that bad ::shrugs:: although i think i would have preffered someone else...
anyway.
ive been a real basket case this week....i cleaned the whole downstairs
Mood swings like CRAZY!
Attracting the male more
and crazy driving
yup...im not even gonna bother writing about today...its not that intresting to anyone but jen...and she was there...
basically i felt like a little kid all day...
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2004 2 August :: 1.06am
:: Mood: ::shrugs::
:: Music: Five For Fighting
My eyes hurt. I'm really not all that tired. Just very...___________......if that makes sense. So not good, not bad. Just kinda here.
Jill's was rockin' awesome. Party. And it was a party. Haha. Woo. :-P
I feel stupid updating everyday. Who reads it anyways? Who really cares what pointless thing is going on in my life or what sad stupid thought I'm thinking today??? Um. Yeah.
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2004 31 July :: 12.50pm
Do you know what would be fun? A machine that erases your mind. And clears out every bad thought and just leaves the good stuff. I would like that.
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2004 31 July :: 11.37am
"When people don't express themselves, they die one piece at a time."
I should really shower soon. I don't know when I'm leaving for the Jillian's. And I still need to pick up my senior picture outfit. I'm excited for tonight. and Tomorrow. It should be fun.
And I'm gonna be in a good mood. I'm gonna be happy and smiling. Because who wants to hang out with someone who's always pissed off? It gets boring. and annoying. So :-). Okay people. Bye.
-Patrice
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2004 30 July :: 12.45am
:: Mood: ecstatic
Books
i've recently finished this book and i was like omg its awesome....and hten me and mel started talking about writers and books we were reading and i was like you shud read this book and shes like omg i love that book!
We had a "you read that book and liked it me 2" "didnt u love the part whent hat happened"
So i recommend to all of you who read this journal (patrice ) to read the book BECAUSE its awesome adn (not directed at patrice) it teaches you an important lesson i wont tell you what it is. The writing is really cool.
You Dont Know Me by David Klass
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2004 29 July :: 11.20pm
I'm doing my nightly update. Not much to say. Learned to knit. Finally watched West Side Story. Saw Farenheit 9-11 with Sarah. It was fun. Then yeah, I'm here. Dreading my final and planning on sleeping really soon. Good night.
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