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2004 22 May :: 5.23pm
last entry in woohu
well my money didn't get in on time.....sooo....no more woohu-ing for me. so sad. :'-(
so i created a new journal for all you journal lovers...visit me there ok? wonderous! here's the link:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/sandatthebeach/
well at least that's the site....i don't know how to make it into a link...yeah i'm not very good with this....so....there it is. visit me there!
i still need to customize it so it doesn't look boring. alrighty...
love ya all and toodles! hehe
Always, Sandy
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2004 22 May :: 2.05pm
Now And Then...
It's normal for things to be shitty.
As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened that we just can't.
Things will happen in your life that you can't stop. But that's no reason to shut out the world.
-I'm going to tell you something i wish someone would have told me when I was your age.
- Oh yeah? What's that?
-Your parents aren't always right.
- No shit.
- If you don't fall in love, you can't get hurt.
- But it sure is lonely all by yourself.
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If you haven't seen it, you should. It's good. Come over sometime dudes.
-Patrice
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mudpiegrl
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2004 21 May :: 6.29pm
:: Mood: i don't know
:: Music: chevelle
"what a man's got he'll learn to hate"
i cant even say how i feel except really let down and hurt and today was horrible...it was forever long even though it was shorter than a normal school day...im sooo tired and school's nearly out...
but im failing almost everything...
phelan gave me yet another speech...
i didnt get a thespian letter...
i nearly cried so much today...during the assembaly i counted 19 joesph shirts to distract myself...and you know i never try to distract myself...
jen was talking "we only have a week of school and then were sophomores!" it made me laugh b ut when youre a freshman and sophomore...all you want is to be an upperclassmen...then you get there and wish you had three years left....the responsibility and missing people hits you.
you're an adult.
you've spent all your life longing for the privlages of later curfews and the ability...whining about bed times and being grounded...
you turn eighteen and the control is gone...
it's like the women in africa that have rings that hold up their necks...and you know if they took them off, their necks would be weak, maybe so much that they would break.
you will spend the rest of your life "remember the days"...talking only of memories, grievences, fallen wishes, broken dreams. you'll talk to your friends, knowing things, rather than making up your own renditions...imaginary worlds and animals for bedst friends drift away, selecting only some very special people to remain in such an enchanting world...
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toki
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2004 21 May :: 1.43am
:: Mood: confused
Does anyone have a nice hole that I could hide in for a few days? Things are too discombobulated. ::sigh::
My room flooded again. I'm rooming with the sister. Party.
I should get some sleep. School tomorrow, lotsa homework not done...Why? I'm lazy...Wooo lazy.
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2004 21 May :: 1.44am
:: Mood: working
:: Music: Slipknot-"Duality"
Slipknot-Duality
I push my fingers into my eyes
Its the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But its made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It pushed it's way inside
If the pain goes on...
I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I’ve waited as my times elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I wished for this
I bitched at that
I’ve left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I’ve gotta say what I’ve gotta say and then I swear I'll go away
But I cant promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You laughed at me cuz you left me no choice
I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!
Pull me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces
Then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I’ve found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems
I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It pushed it's way inside
If the pain goes on
I’m not gonna make it!
All I’ve got
All I've got is insane!
I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It pushed it's way inside
If the pain goes on
I’m not gonna make it
good song...dL it...i like it a lot.
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2004 21 May :: 1.35am
:: Mood: complacent
so i decided that i will be happy until they start chemically engineering strawberries and oranges...
our grandparents think we're missing out not being able to pick them in our backyards, but man, imagine what our kids'll miss having real strawberries...half the fun of eating strawberries is that you have to dig through the plastic straining box to find the perfect ones...no mold, no soft spots, big, bright red, fully ripe....super sweet...
but then they would be perfect every time...
and our kids would have to choose between the two huge sweet ones...but i think they'd lose some flavour too... yea adios...
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sandatthebeach
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2004 20 May :: 10.54pm
if my money doesn't get in on time....then i will link you guys to another journal.
well i guess i'll just give you guys a different link maybe tomorrow or something. so in case this one gets deleted....you can still read about my complaints (hah).
Always, Sandy
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mudpiegrl
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2004 20 May :: 7.23pm
:: Mood: confused
"excuse me, but could you please help me find my way?"
so ive been thinking, which is not necessarily (that doesnt look right?) a good thing, because, as im sure you know, thoughts of mine are, well, over animalized. yes, animalized...because i dont over anylize...but rip and shred all thoughts, squish and stick until pryed. Although not necessarily (god damn it!) negative, still....bad.
im sure you remember the hul situation- and if you dont well...
i went out with hul-ay for three and a half months, but before we broke up (which was my doing), he began to break down. he, well, i guess, went nuts for a time. he refused to shower or brush his hair or teeth and didnt eat. he stopped being bouncy, fun hul for a whole two weeks. Everyone was worried about him. he just moped and wouldnt talk to anyone. so one day i went to talk to him...and i dont know if i did any good but what he told me is that he had given up. he was sick of trying to be aliveanimate, so i suppose he stopped trying to hide a sort of depression... and i dont know, it was depressing to me to see him like that- not only becasue i liked him and knew him as a happy person, but because i began to feel it was my fault.
so now, this is the issue:
Mr. Neil is beginning to not be happy neil. i have never known neil, in a year and a half, to be brought down for more than a day. and its happening to him. and i dont know what to do, because he doesnt seem to want to talk to me or be around me, and im sure no one else has noticed cuz i think he tries to be hyper to show off some. and yea...hes just not neil like at all and im worried...
so im wondering if you'll answer this question:
do i or have i depressed or upset any of you for more than an hour or so?
i know i have the ability (heh) tendancy to piss you off or upset you. but to the point where you lose all hope?
::sigh:: yea i dont know...this would be the sixth time that things have happened immediatly after or around the time that im hanging out with the person, either one day or in general time (weeks). yea...so...if you could, please...
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2004 20 May :: 6.57pm
so its been awhile since i wrote- i have a lot of hmwk right now so im supposed to be doing it but since its been forever since ive come onlyn, i figured id just say hello!
year's nearly over-cant wait
graduation's nearly here- can wait.
okie adios
eating strawberries in chocolate frosting
:)
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2004 20 May :: 6.05pm
oh crap
i didn't send in my money yet. it's 4:50 now....the mail's already gone...shit. do you think it will get there by saturday if i sent it in tomorrow? probably not...right? since it's in michigan? damn. i kinda liked having this journal. oh well. if the money doesn't get in my saturday.....then goodbye to everyone. cuz my username will be deleted if it doesn't get in. ::sigh::
Always, Sandy
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