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_♥_
On the subject of purple hearts:
If you get injured on the front line, you receive a purple heart.
My grandfather turned down a purple heart when he cut himself while putting up a tent.
All you have to do is get injured on the front line. So don't go into this "being an idiot…jumping in front of bullets" thing because you can get one from cutting yourself on a tent.
It doesn't even matter. Who cares who did what or was in where?
My opinion is that Bush needs to be ousted. Are you any better off than you were four years ago? Is the country any better off? Then why re-elect a guy who didn't help at all?
And that's all I have to say about that for probably forever. This is why I don't talk about these things. You will probably never hear from me on this topic ever again.
I love you all.
P.S. Jackie, you're my new best friend.
P.P.S. I wouldn't trust FOX News if they said the apocalypse was imminent. They're run by not only a bunch of conservatives but also the man.
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2004 23 July :: 3.24pm
WARNING: VASTLY OPINIONATED POLITICAL ENTRY AHEAD!
PROCEED WITH CAUTION!
I'm not one to talk about religion or politics, even in casual conversation, so when I have an entry like this, you know it's something I feel strongly about.
I wish I could vote this year.
I turn 18 at the end of January, missing the election by three months. (Or two, depending on how you count things.)
I don't feel too frustrated when I compare myself to Ben. His birthday is the 8th of November, six days after the election.
I guess my point is that I was tolerant of Bush's reign of stupidity and lies politics for a while.
My mom is one to strongly support and tell her views so she began to tell me about all of her conspiracy theories. At first, I didn't believe a word but as everything she predicted when Bush was elected came true...
And the things that drive me now to make this entry are trivial compared to most points you will probably shove in my face but these are the things that have got me mad. These are the things that have got me wanting and craving to be able to vote.
Point one: the war in Iraq. Really, that's all I'm going to say on the subject. I don't want to offend people and I don't want to start some huge discussion.
Point two: the revelation that the Pentagon "inadvertently destroyed" the papers noting Bush's service in the Texas Air National Guard. I'm no conspiracy theorist and I'm sorry but it seems all too convenient that all of a sudden (before the election) the papers talking about where the president (who is running for re-election) was during his service in the military (during which he deserted) are "inadvertently destroyed". Hm. That just doesn't make sense to me.
Point three: talk of delaying the election because of possible terrorist attack. Are you fucking kidding me!? The president of the United States (running for re-election) thinks there is going to be (conveniently) a terrorist attack disrupting our "democratic process". Don't make me puke my guts out, please! That's too much.
I can't understand what politicians expect the American people to believe!
Injustice and liars make me mad. Politicians make me mad. I could never do that.
So now you all can yell at me and tell me how I'm wrong and blah de blah.
I don't like making entries like this but I thought that hey, it's my journal, it's there for expressing my opinions.
Plus I wanted to rile people up.
I think I'll cry if Bush gets re-elected.
On a happy non-political note: my brother is playing Tales of Symphonia and he has to sneak through this group of people. He was so unsuccessful, he wouldn't survive a minute playing MGS.
I love you all.
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2004 23 July :: 1.45am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: fan ::zzzzz...fffffff...zzzzzz...fffff...::
Play-Doh (acutally fun-dough, but eh..)
im playing with play-doh yay!
i just wnat neil
yes.
thats all.
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2004 23 July :: 12.13am
:: Mood: happy
Ninja pirates shall rule the world!
I can be such a spoiled brat sometimes that it makes me sick.
I was not in a good mood earlier today and I took it out on just about everyone, including (when I called him) Nick. Yarr. Not good. It makes me mad when I'm so horrible like that.
On the upside, I made a toothbrush bracelet and hung out with Ben and Nick.
The bracelet isn't that great but it was the first time I had ever done it. I need to bend it a little more.
Oh but it was fun! If anyone wants a bracelet, give me a toothbrush and I'll make you one.
Hanging out with Ben and Nick was, as always, very much fun.
In the end, I have a Jones soda and all is good with the world.
I love you all.
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2004 22 July :: 5.10pm
Paitence
Guns & Roses
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah
Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it
...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but baby the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....
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2004 22 July :: 4.55pm
:: Mood: meh
i've paid for your belief with mine
you stoop so low you'll never rise
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2004 21 July :: 4.55pm
:: Mood: calm
I can love but I need his heart...
Lamb has some of the most beautiful music ever. The lyrics are fantastic and the music is hauntingly beautiful.
It gives me goosebumps.
It's just the thing to tide me over until The Cranberries crank out a new CD.
Gorecki sounds like a great make out song and Gabriel is just pretty.
I've needed a new obsession.
I love you all.
P.S. I love rain!
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2004 21 July :: 11.48am
Everlast
What It's Like Lyrics
We've all seen the man at the liquor store beggin' for your change
The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked and full of mange
He ask the man for what he could spare with shame in his eyes
Get a job you fuckin' slob's all he replied
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues
Then you really might know what it's like [X4]
Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love
He said don't worry about a thing baby doll I'm the man you've been dreamin' of
But three months later he said he won't date her or return her call
And she sweared god damn if I find that man I'm cuttin' off his balls
And then she heads for the clinic and she gets some static walkin' through the doors
They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner, and they call her a whore
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to choose
Then you really might know what it's like [X4]
I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green
I stroked daddies dimes at least a couple of times
Before I broke their heart
You know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends on where you start
I knew this kid named Max
He used to get fat stacks out on the corner with drugs
He liked to hang out late at night
Liked to get shit faced
And keep pace with thugs
Until late one night there was a big gun fight
Max lost his head
He pulled out his chrome .45
Talked some shit
And wound up dead
Now his wife and his kids are caught in the midst of all of his pain
You know it crumbles that way
At least that's what they say when you play the game
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to wake up to hear the news
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to lose
Then you really might know what it's like [X4]
To have to lose...
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2004 21 July :: 2.15am
:: Mood: contemplative
so im going on vacation from the journal for a while.
all my entries are going to be restricted for a while...mostly becasue they'll probably be about you...yes thats right...no bullshit here
bye
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2004 20 July :: 4.43pm
I love it when a one hour thing turns into a four hour ordeal. I was ornery but it was something to do. I liked it.
But now I'm bored again. I need to go somewhere and do something.
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2004 20 July :: 11.35am
:: Mood: annoyed
Whatever uppers my mom is on makes her not only creepily happy but also gives her a total disregard for anyone and anything that happens around her.
But here I am complaining about stupid trivial things.
We're all going to get our teeth cleaned at noon. That gives us a little under half an hour to complain to my mom that she's wasting our summer and freak out because we have to get dressed.
Yarr.
I love you all.
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2004 20 July :: 3.52am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: U2~where the streets have no name
all your life, you're told
"dont live to make other people happy"
unless of course, your family is like that...
thats all you know and so therefore expect others to do so too
and those who did not grow up in that atmosphere learn that if they do not make people happy, those people who grew up that way, than they go away
no one likes to piss people off.
but who actually wants to live to make everyone else happy
and so thats why im telling you
im sick of it
if i piss you off
you're going to have to deal with it; chances are you've pissed me off too..
if you arent going to tell me about it...then dont...
deal with it...and i trust you wouldnt care enough about me then...because your anger would lead to your avoidence.....and im sick of trying and i
i hate those times where you want nothing more than to just lay down and be there...
let everything go
because you know that someone doesnt want you there.
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2004 20 July :: 2.37am
LIVE
Lightning Crashes
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
Her placenta falls to the floor
The angel opens her eyes
The confusion sets in
Before the doctor can even close the door
Lightning crashes, an old mother dies
Her intentions fall to the floor
The angel closes her eyes
The confusion that was hers
Belongs now
To the baby down the hall
Oh now feel it, coming back again
Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
Forces pulling from the centre of the earth again
I can feel it
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
This moment she's been waiting for
The angel opens her eyes
Pale blue coloured iris presents the circle
And puts the glory out to hide, hide
Oh now feel it, coming back again
Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
Forces pulling from the centre of the earth again
I can feel it
Barbara Lewis (1973-1993)
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2004 20 July :: 2.04am
:: Mood: so many feelings
:: Music: "chill out and take a load off" mix
oh the words i wish i could tell you...
there are so many things im feeling...
but i couldnt type them in here
i couldnt tell them to someone
nor could i write them down
i'd want to tell you how sorry i am.....if only i knew what for...
its one of those times where i need to vent
but i couldnt possibly
im trapped in a world where i've allowed everyone else to talk so much
that they've gotten used to it
and my feelings seem to be unimportant.
and if they are important
i couldnt say them
because i only hurt people by saying them
i try so hard to make them feel okie
but then i mention things
and feel horrible
i know no one will read this
but for whatever i did...
although i didnt try to hurt you
im sorry.
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2004 20 July :: 12.13am
I'm so eloquent...
Everyone, right now, listen.
Nick's grandfather has lung cancer. His mom got laid off the other week and...she's not doing that great. His grandmother is sort of not good either.
So please, if you could, pray for Nick and his family. Or keep them in your thoughts. Or do a dance for them. Or whatever.
Thanks.
I love you all.
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2004 19 July :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: My Fair Lady
I love this movie.
What do you write on the back of pictures with? Every pen I try works for a bit then stops. I don't want it to rub off either...
Don't talk of stars burning above
If you're in love
Show me!
Tell me no dreams filled with desire
If you're on fire
Show me!
Haven't your lips
Longed for my touch
Don't say how much
Show me!
Show me!
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2004 19 July :: 2.31pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: the fish
so senior picutres today...i think i spend less time getting ready for dances...lol
so ill finish about the concert later...but check it out tnt...
went to the Renaissance Faire yesterday with Q, Stunkel and Q's family.
twas a party...better had i had money but still good
oh look...now am listneing to chevelle
:)
adios
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2004 19 July :: 1.25am
coke a midnight is not good when you have school tomorrow
Last night was so fun! Aol radio, Vernon Hills Rave, and crazy chatrooms at 5 am...oh boy i had fun. and i need to sleep because i have school tomorrow which is very poopy.
Spencer came over today, and then he fell asleep so i scrapbooked, he slept for 2 hours and i woke him at dinner time and he said he felt better so thats good. Then o man all i have to say is Disney Wedding Cakes are Amazing! oh wow! yeah ok im tired now i think
goodnight
<3
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2004 19 July :: 12.05am
:: Mood: sad
Compared to the world, life and all your worries are so trivial.
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2004 18 July :: 1.45pm
I love you more than life.
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2004 17 July :: 7.48pm
:: Mood: lonely
TWODAIE
Today, I woke up at ten to seven, got ready and stuff for the Ren fair thingy. Nick showed up around 8 and Shayna showed up around sometime.
The Ren fair was awesome. Everything was so cool. I really want a corset now. The dresses were really pretty. It wasn't too hot out so it was a pretty awesome day.
We left around sometime in the afternoon and Jackie dropped me and Nick off at my house.
Nick left a bit ago for another all-nighter at eDen.
The end. My life is so interesting. I just fit twelve hours into a few sentences.
I love you all.
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2004 17 July :: 1.52am
How can i stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
it could be any better than this?
your all i want
your all i need
your everything
I miss you like the air i breathe
Words dont mean a thing
ive given you all my time
all you do is leave
theres nothing so precious
as something thats gone away
i need to know
why you feel the need to love me so?
i will remember you
will you remember me?
Breather again
you have a way
that makes it hard to sleep alone
here i am
alone again
when the world spins around
its out of my hands
your staning outside my window
rain pouring down
all i see is sunshine
on a rainy day
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2004 16 July :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: FFIX
Swearing for emphasis. POINT IN BOLD
I just realized that I never listed the books I got in California and Oregon. It was a long time ago but meh. I want to show off.
Most families go on vacation and get souvenirs or something. My family came home with tons of books and three new kites.
Here's what I got:
- An English-Russian/Russian-English dictionary for Ben and Nick. They always were sort of wanting to learn Russian so I thought it'd be a cool thing to do. It has no cover so I'll have to fix it up first.
- A compact Japanese dictionary because I wanted something I could take anywhere.
- Another Japanese dictionary that's mostly kanji. I'll probably get a bigger one anyway.
- Terre des hommes by Saint-Exupéry, the same guy who wrote Le Petit Prince.
- A book for Katie. I hope she thinks it's cool.
- A Japanese workbook thing from the International Christian University or something weird like that. They have a funny way of doing romaji but it's a pretty awesome workbook.
- Kanji flashcards. It's not a book and I didn't get it at a bookstore but they're still pretty awesome. I still hate kanji though.
- Le petit prince. I still have the school's version but I thought I might as well get my own.
- A gigantic French-English/English-French dictionary. It's a damn good one too. It was pretty cheap.
- L'étranger by (Albert) Camus. My mom says Camus is hard enough in English but he's pretty good. She read this book in English.
I also got the best books ever in French. I still can't believe it. I'm still geeked. I got The Golden Compass (Les royaumes du Nord) and The Amber Spyglass (Le miroir d'ambre). Fuck. Yes.
I didn't get The Subtle Knife because it cost too much. But it doesn't matter. The Amber Spyglass is my favorite book in His Dark Materials and I have all three in English anyway.
I started reading Les royaumes du Nord but it's hard. I have to look up almost every other word either in my dictionary or in the English version.
Anyway, that's it. Just some bragging. I never do it and I was delaying it but I couldn't help myself.
This'll be my last update for today. I'm going to the Silver Leaf Renaissance Fair(e) tomorrow and I'm going to try to actually get some sleep since I'm going to have to be ready at 8 (in the morning!).
I love you all.
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2004 15 July :: 7.01pm
Wenderlish
today was nice. Went to school made food...gave wender sleeping pills, beat him up for hating being small...psh. then went to VH days with jorie, hul, kyle, q and stunkel. well really we went to dominkcks then q's house. didnt spend too much time with carnies. o well. so yeah
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2004 16 July :: 5.18pm
Les fleurs sont éphémères.
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2004 16 July :: 2.44pm
tis been a loooonnnnggg time...
yeah its been awhile since i've updated this thingy......might as well tell ya meh week, eh?
starting with sunday, i guess...
Sunday: went up to sarasota, and visited my family from virginia, at the beach thats up there.....my god, eye candy everywhere X'D like everywhere i turned there was hottness..after that i went home, and took a nice long nap from the swimming-ness....
Monday: went to sun-splash, and saw a lot of people from school..it was creepy...and omg theres one lifeguard there, i was looking around and i swear i saw this topless woman! and i float past it in the river..and its this guy, with the most girly hair...im like O.O;;;;;;;.....but he was rather cute....so eh...
Tuesday: i had guard practice...it wasnt too bad, it was actually fun..until it came to marching left and right while spinning....that was confusing...lol.....but i got it right after awhile ^_^;;;
Wednesday: i woke up at 3:30! ^_^ hehe..than i went swimming!!!! and went out to practice...wasnt too eventful...
Thursday: eh, Practice.....which was actually fun! we learned the first set of flagwork! my god it was hard though...but i took a flag home and i'll work on it today ^_^;;;
Today: nothin has happened at all....hehe.....im still waking up X'D.....
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2004 16 July :: 2.53pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Socialburn
Everyone...
But somehow I know that we're gonna be alright. But somehow I know that we're gonna be fine.
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2004 16 July :: 1.11am
:: Mood: worried
The passing of time leaves empty lives waiting to be filled
New layout.
Lyrics from here and here.
Wings from here.
Icon from who knows where. It'll probably change a thousand times anyway.
I love you all.
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2004 15 July :: 7.41pm
:: Mood: sad
Elektra dropped Socialburn.
I just found out.
If a band loses its label, does it usually fade into nothing?
But none of that matters.
Brigitte got in a car accident...
Not good.
She's okay, thank God.
I want to hang out with her more.
I hope she's feeling alright...
I love you all.
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