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2007 26 October :: 6.31pm
Rueben and I just saw Across the Universe. It was a great movie.
I don't know what more to say.
It presented realities.
I've always had a problem with reality. Not reality in the sense of knowing what's going on in the 'real' world, but my alternate realities. The ones in my head. The reality of what could happen. What might happen, what seemed to happen, what didn't happen, but seemed like it did.
I've had this problem since I was a small child.
I feel like I have so much to say, but I can't possibly scratch the surface here. I want _____ . I need _____ .
I'm good at playing by the rules, but that doesn't mean I like it.
I think I'm Marxist leftist...whatever that means nowadays.
I'm writing a speech on Mike Gravel and one of the articles I found while researching was called: "Mike Gravel, more Leftist than Marx"
How can I rely on words to explain myself when they simply can't? That's one of the things I've learned these past few years. I envy those who can use words to their advantage. I just fumble with them. I don't get them.
I got music and I turned my back on that. What do I have left? Two years of college, and three more to go so I can teach kids of average ability how to read the sentence: The cat sat on the mat.
Let's face it, without some time of national initiative on the part of the people, this country will never be more than substandard in anything but blowing things up.
Oh the things I could have done, you could have done, we could have done, if only we were given the chance. The opportunity. Limited opportunity isn't enough to make humanity what it should be.
Everything should be unlimited. Free healthcare, free education.
I don't care if we need to be like China and weed people out at sixth grade. Look who's on top. China.
Why would you let children who will never get it hinder the children who could change the country? Why do you bring down the best to make everyone average ? What good does that do?
It kills everything. It killed me.
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2007 26 October :: 6.26am
This day has possibility.
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2007 24 October :: 9.19am
I know what they're doing is wrong, but that doesn't keep me from being scared shitless.
I guess we'll wait for Legal Aid to call us back so we can set up an appointment with the lawyer.
So this is what it's like to be an adult...
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2007 20 October :: 5.26pm
Canada is on to my spying and has moved its operations underground.
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2007 19 October :: 8.50pm
The Jessa and Andy Show?
You changed the saying.
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2007 19 October :: 11.05am
So, this weekend should be pretty good. Leaving for central at 2, then me, Katie, and Brian are going to Brian's parents house for a weekend long slumber party! Oh and of course, plenty of partying at MSU! Kara and Sam are coming out Saturday. Should be oodles of fun!
Aaron is out in Cali right now with his sis, then he's going to Alabama, and hopefully he's coming home. I miss him!
In other news, my mom had her monthly check up at Henry Ford Hospital yesterday. For those of who are still in the dark, my mom finally got her liver transplant, actually on my birthday of this year. The appointment brought good news, they're starting to back down the steroids. Everything seems to be looking a little bit on the bright side! Have a fun weekend kiddies!
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2007 18 October :: 12.37pm
My professor for my Latin American Literature class took us to Java City, the on campus coffee house, for class.
...and it was awesome.
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2007 17 October :: 9.49pm
Midterms. So tired...
My brother got married and it was good. I have pictures on facebook for viewing pleasure.
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2007 15 October :: 11.48pm
:: Mood: exhausted
so I was stumbling like a fool across the internet, bored with facebook and myspace, and all of a sudden, out of no where, it hits me smack in the forehead: WOOHU!
So I feebly remembered my password, logged on, and started to read. So many memories, so many lost friends, so much evidence as to how immature I was...:/ Really. Although, in high school I apparently had a larger vocabulary and was a tad more witty in how I structured my sentences. Meh.
The times may have changed, the people are different, and the situations altered, but undoubtedly, there is still issues with life. And undoubtedly, they will be posted here from now on. I heard it was good for the soul to release the tension through paper, or the keyboard. I need to be eased, starting tomorrow. The wine is kicking in and I have class at 8.
Until tomorrow,
Amylynn
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2007 15 October :: 7.28pm
Woohu.
IS.
BACK...
I thought I was going to die.
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2007 12 October :: 11.38am
It's a slow day on my friends page....I'm a bit disappointed, guys. I don't get to watch soaps because I'm in class.....I need entertainment somehow!!!
Anyway.
I'm heading home in about an hour for Charlie's wedding. It's going to be grand. I just cleaned the apartment and my room, and I just have to wash the rest of the dirty dishes and clean Patrick's bowl.
I don't know. It's just been so busy, and there is stuff in my head, but I haven't had time to think about it....
[edit] I have a craving for sushi. Yes.
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2007 10 October :: 6.00am
I have a class soon, and a book I need to read to write a paper that was due yesterday.
Last night, when I was walking back from university band, I stepped on a leaf and it crunched, and I very much enjoyed it.
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2007 9 October :: 1.08pm
Today is nice and calm and blue and a little cloudy, and not at all evil and sticky and gross like the past few days.
I have a feeling, somewhere in me, that I can't put a finger on, but I know it's there. I hate that, not being able to identify what I feel.
I signed my major today. I am officially an English major going for a Bachelor of Science in Education, Secondary Certification degree...thing. I'm going to sign my minor in a few days, I think. I need to get this stuff done, especially since the new bill came out for Higher Education that has some stuff in it about tuition assistance for to-be teachers. I need that! ME! Right here!!
I feel _____ .
What is that blank? I feel....straight line? I feel, underscore? I feel.....blank? White? Spacey? Wiped out?
No. Not really. Sometimes I hate that I only have seventyish years on this planet, and I've already used up about one third of them. What have I done in my one third of a life time? Prepared for the second third, I guess. Is that a waste? I'm not sure. What if the second third ends up being about preparing for the third third...and what if the third third is preparing for death...then am I just living my whole life to die? Always preparing for a moment that will never come. What am I trying to achieve? What is the goal? Yes, to have a job, a car, a house, a family maybe....but...why? To have a stable life for the future? What future? I'm afraid that I will have lived my life constantly trying to over achieve in a world that doesn't notice me.
I have poured my emotions into this text box so many times...
just an observation.
I don't understand how I function. I don't believe that there is an afterlife in the Christian sense of the word. I don't believe in a heaven or a hell...maybe a little waiting room with Cosmo and National Geographic magazines from 1988.
What keeps me from being totally depressed about living a whole life, and then just dying, like i was never here in the first place? How do i not be upset when I waste days doing things that I hate, because I know that I will never get those days back?
I know what the meaning of life is: ______________ .
I am feeling rushed.
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2007 9 October :: 9.43am
I knew being patient would work out. =]
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2007 5 October :: 12.24am
I have a communication theory exam tomorrow morning that I'm not prepared for. I have a speech to give on monday that I'm not prepared for. I need to start doing some preparation!
Oh man.
So...I got the brother of the month award, which is pretty awesome, but not so awesome because it doesn't mean anything to anybody but me.
whatever.
I need to go study: relational dialectics! proxemics! symbolic interactionism! oh the horror...
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