Love me or leave me

:: 2006 6 March :: 8.16pm

24 hours till im home...w0000000000000000000000t

:: 2006 6 March :: 3.18pm

I called it. Everyone hates the new guy. Oh yeah, it's official. His nickname is Skittles now and he might be the biggest prick that ever existed. I figure, I'll work mornings on days he has off and nights when he's scheduled to work. And everything will stay civilized.

"I have a halo, it's just a little tarnished right now."

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I hope I know what I'm getting myself into, because I don't think I could take another fall.

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Series 1-8
[ series 1 ]
Name: Dennis
Birthday: 8-7-85
Birthplace: Grand Rapids
Current Location: Cedar Springs
Eye Color: hazel
Hair Color: dark brown
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: leo
Font: whatever
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music: anything really
Cartoon: family guy
Color: red
Car: the hooptie! just kidding
Slushy Flavor: the strawberry banana at work is good
Magazine: meh
TV Show: House
Song at the Moment: i dunno
Language: english
Spice Girl: they all suck
Food & Beverage: quesadillas and diet coke
Subject in School: english
Weekend Activity: im usually working
Frozen Yogurt: yuck
Roller Coaster: not a huge fan..
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[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase: "that's what she said"
First thing you thought when you woke up: wanting to
Last image/thought you go to sleep with: alarm clock
First feature you notice of opposite sex: two beautiful eyes
Best name for a Butler: Jeeves
Wussiest Sport: badminton
Your best feature: hair
Your greatest fear: death or heights
Your greatest accomplishment: either being the lead in the musical or graduating high school
Your most missed memory: high school
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[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke: coke... pepsi actually gives me headaches
McDonald's or Burger King: ugh.. gotta say bk...
Single or Group Dates: single
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers: who cares
Dogs or Cats: dogs
Rugrats or Doug: doug haha
Single or Taken: i prefer taken, although i am single.. ugh
Monica or Brandy: brandy
Tupac or Jay-Z: jay-z
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes: leann
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: hate em both
One pillow or Two: two
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa: hot chocolate
Cappucino or Coffee: cappucino
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[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday: yes
Have a crush: yeah
Think you've been in love: no
Want to go to college: yes
Like high school: i did like it my last two years
Want to get married: eventually
Type correctly: most of the time
Believe in yourself: yes
Have any tattoos? Where: no
Have any piercings? Where: i used to have one years ago.. the hole never healed up either.. my ear
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're a health freak: ha no
Get along with your parents: my mom, not my dad
Like thunderstorms: yeah
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[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be married: no idea... anything before 30!
Number and names of children: i dunno, two would be cool... as for names, I have no clue
Where will you be at age 20: right here, typing this thing
Dream wedding: girly question
How do you want to die: morbid question
Dream job: teaching
Country you'd like to visit: Great Britian
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[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color: blue
Best hair color: brunette
Short or long hair: long
Best height: shorter than me
Best weight: doesn't matter... not too skinny
Best clothes: preppy is nice
Best first date location: i dunno
Best first kiss location: doesn't matter
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[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal: when I was around 5
Rings before you answer the phone: 3
What's on your mousepad: its one of those blue ones with the gel wristguard
How many houses you've lived in: three
How many schools you've gone to: 2
Bedroom carpet color: ugh, its a nasty beige color, like we've got in our whole house.. i hate it
Shave your head for $5,000?: in a heartbeat
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people: machete, a huge box of matches, and a tent
Best time of your life so far: senior year
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You've been totally Bzoink*d

3 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 5 March :: 9.40pm

hmm, i spent 480 dollars to find out, "its not there"

...

i also made the mistake of allowing her to make me think i was something special to her, by the way she talked to me inside of the game as well as out, now now i see that she talks to EVERYONE like that...hmm

1 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 3 March :: 6.24pm

His name is Mike Morris, and I believe he is pure evil.
An evil parasite has crawled its way into our store. I will do everything in my power to exterminate it. He is no good.

Is payday here yet? The $1.82 in my checking account is getting pretty lonely.

EDIT: He made you cry? It is now my PERSONAL business to get that asshole out of our store.

7 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 2 March :: 8.20pm

Thanks to my mom, I have minutes on my phone and gas in my car.

Geez, those moms come in handy.

:: 2006 1 March :: 10.38pm

I hate not having any money.

If you need to call me, call my home phone 696-0007. My other phone is out of minutes. Yes, I have a prepaid. If you wanna know why, look above.

Isn't :fuck: a great word?

Anne, you are loved. And wanted.

Allison, one of these days I WILL beat you at chess. Unfortunately by that time, we'll be too old to know what chess is.

2 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 28 February :: 11.53am
:: Music: Behind Blue Eyes -Limp Bizkit

"Behind Blue Eyes"

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

[Chorus:]
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

[Chorus]

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

[Chorus]

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

this song inspired me...

so everything you ever told me was a lie was it?
and you said that YOU have trust issues? IMO you have truth issues

4 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 28 February :: 4.21am

It's great to have friends that are there to pick you up when you fall.

I wouldn't trade them for anything.

3 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 25 February :: 7.22pm

a verbal five fingered slap to the face
Ouch.

Why do I even bother?

It is true, the higher you are the harder you fall.

I hate myself for even thinking I could actually be happy.

My fault entirely.

Am I really that horrible?

2 find grace | Open your eyes

Tails

:: 2006 25 February :: 7.24am

i hate the casino...they suck they are loud boring and make you lose 20 bucks LOL>!

1 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 24 February :: 9.47am

"The only thing keeping me going is someone special to my heart. I don't know if I love him, but I do know I care a lot for him. He makes me smile when I'm down. He makes me laugh when I think it is impossible. All I have to do is just look at him and every thing, all the pain, the frustration...everything just goes away. Its like I'm in my own world with just him and no one can come in to hurt me. When I'm about to fall, he is there to catch me. I love his red hair, I love his laugh, I love the way he treats me, and the way he knows the right things to say. I love everything about him..."

where did that go? how did it go away so quickly? and MOST importantly, how can i get it back

Tails

:: 2006 23 February :: 12.53am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Silence and the sound the computer fan makes.

not to much man
so, i have more hours at the catoring company again but i still totally need a full time job so that i can MOVE OUT...i mean i kinda sorta gave up cause i spent so much time bitching about it by the time i do move out it wont seem cool anymore and everyone will be like "matt your just a little bitch like always, cept now your a little bitch with an apartment, bitch!" and ill smile and laughing and then kill myself with more cancer. which i need to stop doing. but anyway. so yeah i guess life is at an odd odd standstill. things arent bad. things arent good.

I'm getting 80.92 cents for income tax from arbys...

Megan...not sure how to start addressing the issue.

Do you bring up past problems to fix them if your just now finding out all the really imporant details?

I should ask for some more W2's from the catoring company...cause i have gotten 3 of them...and just keep forgetting to fill them out...then i lose them and bad stuff happens to me when the IRS dosent understand how im getting such large monetary assests without having and form of a job...

But when my free time's gone will you promise me this? That you will please bury me with it?

8 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 22 February :: 8.44pm

wading pool?

3 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 22 February :: 11.15am

well, things are going over like a lead baloon, jade doesnt seem to give two shits that im here anymore, its really great i swear. i clean up the house every day before she gets home from work, dishes, making the bed, sometimes dinner, when she actually tells me what she wants me to make. then she gets home, then just sits down to play WoW, talking to like 5 other people in the same way that she talked to me before we started talking about seeing each other in real life. im trying not to be jealous, after all, she was only talking to them, but then i see some guy saying some lewd things to her ina whisper...that was too much for me... then a couple days later she goes into her own channel w/ that person on vent, understandable, they are questing together and such, no biggie, but then once he has to log she goes AFK and calls him (i assume its him) on the phone. all the while im just sitting here...wondering what the fuck i did so wrong, what made her decide im not worth anything more then a glance and a hello when she gets home. obviously i missed it, and ive been over everything like a million times already now, and i dont see anything. she has a problem w/ my being jealous, and ive told her im working on it, but i dont see her helping me to work on it at all. OH MUTHER FUCKING WELL, FUCK THIS, FUCKING WASTE FOUR HUNDRED DOLLARS...well...at least the flight was fun, and i got this awesome keyboard...to make matters worse, another girl told me that she liked me before i left, one who i liked too...but i ended up tottaly blowing her off for this!!! what the fuck is wrong w/ me????

4 find grace | Open your eyes

:: 2006 18 February :: 9.12pm

KoRn- "Coming Undone" is fucking AWESOME