(So Many Assume) <marquee>...So Little Know...</marquee>

:: 2005 22 May :: 7.52am

Good Morning.

We are at the hotel right now. But I guess I have to go. I'm coming home tonight!
<3 ash

4 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 21 May :: 5.06pm

[ saturday ]
alright, so my dad was supposed to come today, totally didn't, but who thought he really was anyway? ;/ um.. jacki's trying to set me up with this different kid. maybe jill will decide to take everything i say and flip it to make me look like a bitch again. that'd be.. special. um. okay, so yeah. i got different things going on in my mind right now, and none of the solutions are good. infact, they're worse than bad, but i'll keep my comments and emotions to myself, for they will not be taken by somebody and spread around the world like before. i'm tired.

jill's mom called me today. that was nice. she told me happy birthday, and even tho i don't like jill anymore, that don't mean i get to ignore her lol. so.. yeah. i wasn't planning on ignoring sandy at all, i love that woman like a second mom, and i'd like to keep it that way for as long as possible. that was probably one of the two highlights of my day so far.

the second was i went into baskin robbins today, saw lisa and carrie. i love them. conda was working too, but i dispise her with great passion, and so was angela. i like angela, but i don't really talk to her that often. um.. gotta blast.

oh, dee's open house is today. i think i might go back over there because i have the power to do stuff like that. jake's home now :) i gotta see him. that'll be fun.

i'm out now. don't feel like sittin here anymore.

loves it,
- Jejuan

:: 2005 21 May :: 11.33am

I have a photo shoot tomorrow so I am leaving this afternoon to go wherever the place is at and we are staying in a hotel and then it is tomorrow and I have no clue how late it is going to go for so I'm not sure if I'll even go to school on Monday. We might just come home on Monday or something. I don't even know but I'm pretty excited I guess I just am in a bad mood because people make me that way. I hope everyones weekends are good. ttyl.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 21 May :: 2.31am

yet again.. another long friday.

tonight wasnt bad at all though, metron was.. but metron always is. after that i went to lazerskate for our naplean dynamite late nighter... that was great. keegans dance crew came up and break danced, and vince and bobby came up and they rapped.. it was sooo fun.. had to have been the funnest night of work that i've ever experienced.

i just got home from keegans house, vince and bobby are over there... it makes me so happy that the 4 of us can hang out together, and its totally fine. that i can feel like just one of the friends or one of the guys is awesome... cuz i love those guys. when i see em' i just get all like awwwww then my stomach turns all over because im just so excited to see them..... im a nerd, i know this.

i have a lot to update.. but ehh.. whatcha gonna do right? im tired and we have a red flannel thing at the golf course early in the morning... bring on the.... errmmm... golfers? suuure.. that works. tomorrows gonna be jam packed... but im to tired and lazy to talk about it..

night loves.

:: 2005 21 May :: 1.10am
:: Mood: happy

Tonight is when I decided I give up. I wasnt going to give up just for you but I can't do this any more. Now you can get what you want and you don't have to worry about me. It will make it easy for you. Everything will be better for you. I don't wanna make this harder than I have to. This is how you want it to be so this is how im going to try to make it. Theres so many things I want to say but you just don't listen to me anymore.Trying to change you only changed me and the only thing I wan't is the only thing I can't have. Sick of crying, Sick of trying, Sick at heart of missing you.

I lost. You win. I'm done. Great. Good night.

:: 2005 21 May :: 1.38am
:: Music: ciara ft. ludacris - oh

[ productive ]
just how my night was.. not. i didn't do shit today. i.. woke up, got online, talked to somebody, got offline, went out to dinner with my mom, went and bought a cake, came home, went to tj's, came back home. woo..

but anyway, i'll talk about the highlight. i met jacki's 2nd 'friend' for me. bruce. he's from arkansas lol. he got a cute lil accent. i love it. and he looks familiar, but.. whatever. he's nice. i like him. jill was there too, but i don't think i can ever look her in the eye or.. at her really.. at all.. for very long without feeling the urge to punch her in the face. but.. anyway, yeah. so bruce is cute and.. he smells good. lol. he's 21, so that's fine. i don't gotta problem with that. he's nice. gotta good voice lol. it made me smile the first time i heard it. so cute lol. im such a GIRL.

okay, so yeah. that's.. it. i'm gonna go lay down maybe. we'll see.

holla!
- Jejuan

jennapie

:: 2005 20 May :: 10.16pm
:: Mood: moody

It's completely killing me inside. It wasn't even a kiss. But that DOESN'T EVEN MATTER! Why must I care?

1 Chance | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 20 May :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: happy

We get it. Thank you for prooving our point. Your entry says it all. I should have never believed you in the first place. Here all this time I thought you knew what you were talking about but you were just on a mission to bring me down. Everything I say you find a way to make it sound like I was born yesterday. Everything you taught me doesn't mean a thing now so I'm going my way.

just_peachie

:: 2005 20 May :: 1.39pm

News just in: We can't do it.
So I am officially not walking. Thank you Mrs. Dolbee. Have a fan fucking tastick life everyone. I'm out.

3 Chances | Words Of Hope?

jennapie

:: 2005 20 May :: 11.13am
:: Mood: contemplative

This is NOT fair. I loved him first, and now it seems like it's the last thing that I could ever have. I hate having feelings. It makes everything so wonderful and amazing when you're happy, but when you're not, it makes everything ten times worse. I LOVED HIM FIRST! He was my first love.

2 Chances | Words Of Hope?

paradox

:: 2005 20 May :: 1.45am
:: Music: Front~Line- She's a blessing

"This girl is perfect, she's outlined in sevens
Shes a blessin from God, sent straight from the heavens
To keep us in check, from the devils threats
and with you up above us, we'll do nothing less...."

*Reminscing...

It's almost been 6 months. That's a long time. I hope that it's been as great of a time for you as it has for me. We've really shared alot together. Experienced many firsts with each other, and just enjoy each other's company! I love that... I read a reply to Erika's journal and it said "You and Keegan restore my faith in love". Now That's really touching to know that we can play that effect on others, but the one aspect that is the BEST part, is that Erika and I aren't in love. Not yet. It could happen, and I hope it does, but we're not there yet. *Smiles

Tonight was cool, Bacaloriette was really spectacular, and really touching. I had just gotten on the road of finding a relationship with God, and then I got busy. Kind of lost it a little bit, but after tonite, I'm really anxious to continue to pursue a relationship with him. Plus we danced pretty good. Lol...

We also had a "Battle" down at a club later tonite. It was easy. The kid Pop-N-Locked. and he couldn't handle the breakers. We pulled some stuff, people went nuts, and then we just hung around for a lil while, then left. The club itself was wack. Bah watcha gonna do?

That's all for now, Take it easy all...

-K. Loye

http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net

:: 2005 19 May :: 9.31pm

I knew you weren't going to. You don't even care anymore. I'm going to make this easy for you. So thank you.

Katy and Aaron had a nice conversation about me the other day. I feel so, I don't know what the word is but I guess I feel bad. I should. I screwed up. I'll fix it though.

The O.C. tonight was the best episode I've ever seen. I couldn't believe what happend...I cried..I just sat there like "omg" lol. It was just nuts.

I think Sam knows something that she shouldn't. Everytime we talk she looks at me like shes disapointed in me, like I did something that I shouldn't have, and she found out. Thats what I'm starting to get and I can think of quite a few things she heard/found out. Whatever it is, it's weird.

But tonight I had so much fun. You won't even believe who I ran into. Him and then I also seen little miss princess bitch.

but anyways I'm on my moms computer since mine is broken and she is mad at me anyways because we argue everyday now and it's her computer, so I guess I should go since I just got in trouble.

By the way- this just upsest me. I can't do this any more. I can't think about this. I have got to stop.

Seriously. It's getting out of hand.

BigBen61

:: 2005 19 May :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Led Zeppelin

work
I just got home from my first day back to work sence my surgeory, i'm pretty sore but it was a nice night. Except for the lady who yelled at me because we ran out of size 1 roller blades, and all i could do was apologize and offer a different size rather then saying well now you get no blades.

1 Chance | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 19 May :: 8.05pm
:: Music: ashley gearing - can you hear me when i talk to you

[ i love not being in high school ]
it's.. just a blast. all the drama shit is gone.. -rolls eyes- well. for me it's gone. because when somebody pisses me off, i can just ignore them forever and move on with my life. i enjoy that. i really do. so i have.. many problems. if you didn't know that already, then you do now. but.. moving on.

alright, so i decided i'm not gonna be jill's friend anymore. i.. decided this on my own. why? because. i can't stand her anymore. she called me a liar. nobody calls me a liar about my own thoughts. so i'll just.. move on with my life without her input. that whole.. kevin thing. yeah, i don't care bout the HIM part, i got over that real fast. but then i decided to.. call jill the other day, and talk to her about it cause.. she was presisant on talking about it. so i told her, and then she called me a liar about something i said and i was thinking. um.. i don't believe you are my brain, and i do believe you misunderstood what all i said about the matter, but that was your decision. now.. i'm not ending my friendship with jill because of kevin. hell nah. i'm ending it because she called me a liar about what i was saying. i wasn't telling her about somebody else, i was telling her about me. how the fuck can i lie about what i was thinking? not possible. but, whatever. that's my thing. people can't call me a liar anymore, because i'm not gonna waste my time on proving myself to somebody who i shouldn't have to prove myself to. it takes too much time and energy. that's not the only reason though, that's just the main one. and the whole kevin thing in general is a big one. okay. oh, and just cause i gotta walk with her, don't mean i gotta talk to her.

so i had another epiphany the other day, and earlier today. i been cool by myself. i like being by myself, so i've decided on a few things. i just need one other person that i've been talking to to.. help me out i guess. i'm pretty much.. indirectly asking this person. but, anyway. i'm moving.. someday. into dorms. i want to move into the dorms of university of central florida. i really do, but we'll see how that goes. or i want to move into the dorms of a university here. i'm just.. not sure yet. i want to go to florida, quick. i've wanted to move there since i was 9 so i'm going to, damnit. and my mom said she'll help me. i just.. need to find out when. i believe i'm done now.

loves it,
- Jejuan

ps. i changed my lil look here. it's.. special :)

2 Chances | Words Of Hope?

EyesOfCrystal

:: 2005 19 May :: 1.27pm

...nothing to do.
I might be getting my nose pierced tomorrow. that will be cool.
Schools almost over.
I miss my best friend Andrea. I want her to come back like she promised.
I love tony and i miss him being at school. Ever since he left, the days seem to go by soooooooo slow. its sad. At least we're the 'leaders' of the school now.....big deal.
Bye

brokenmentality

:: 2005 19 May :: 2.03pm

chemistry can burn in hell.

2 Chances | Words Of Hope?

breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 19 May :: 11.15am

Jenna, I really, really need to talk to you cos im not so happy anymore. In fact im miserable. I want him back but i deserve this.

1 Chance | Words Of Hope?

tonyp.

:: 2005 19 May :: 6.13am

well its my second day of no longer being a student, theres nothing to do.
my b-b-q in the parking lot today got rained out so its gona be tommorow
im getting a tattoo tommorow as well
i dont know what im gona do for a job. i think im going to apply at wal*mart
i miss school
i miss you all
love you erica

4 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 19 May :: 3.49am
:: Music: the calling - our lives

[ thinking ]
i was just listening to this song, thinking about graduation.. then i started thinking about ryan. and how he wanted to graduate just as much as any of us, then he made a mistake, and he can't walk. i wanna cry for him. i really do. i'm not gonna, but i just.. do. i feel bad for him. i realize he made a big mistake, a stupid one, but everybody makes mistakes, and they have consequences. but depriving somebody from doing something they were working 13 years for is something that shouldn't happen. punish him, just don't take away his graduation.

i wanna talk to him. i wish i was closer with him, so i could talk to him, and ask him questions.. but i can't. i know ryan, he's a good kid, but i don't know him that well. that works with.. a lotta people to me though. like.. dan laatz. last day of school, he told me to jus call him up sometime. i can't do that. i know dan, and i talked to dan a lot in school this year, but i'm not that close with him. same with keegan loye, tyler mull, and.. just.. a lot of people. then there are people i wish i didn't know outside of school, which will remain nameless. seniors that i like, but wish they were just school friends. well, actually, only like one.. but that's fine. i can't.. change it now. i'll be.. going someplace. central. michigan or florida, who knows. but one of them. my aim is central florida, but.. yea. we'll see.

my birthday is tomorrow, and i graduate in 1 week. and.. my dad is coming up on saturday. :( i don't really want him to, but oh well.

alright, i'm done. time for bed. and.. it's 4 am lol. awesome.

loves it,
- Jejuan

3 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 19 May :: 12.07am

What I really meant to say was I'm sorry for the way I am.

Here it is plain and simple, I love you.

Paradox

:: 2005 18 May :: 10.40pm
:: Music: Akon- Mr. Lonely

WOOO HOOO! Talent show in Godwin Heights we took first! We did a pretty good job in all honesty, Bobby ripped it spitten a hott song. Man. It seriously was great. Then we came out and did our breakdancin thing, and added a little touch. We won it. 50 bucks divided by 5 so 10 bucks a piece. But hey! it got me some food!

I'm so glad that Erika got to come to. It makes me so happy of how supportive she is for my passions. It was really comforting to have her be there, and know that she's watching me and bein proud. Really makes me feel good.

Tomorrow's the performance at Cedar Springs Auditorium at 6:30. Bacaloriette! Be there!

-K. Loye

http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net

eyesofcrystal

:: 2005 18 May :: 1.54pm

Today was really messed up with the seniors not being here. The hallways were honestly silent most of the time and so empty. I was sad, i had no one to walk with inbetween classes. :( i guess thats really all i needed to say. Ive got alot on my mind right now...but not the kind of stuff i should talk about on woohu. so everybody have a better day than me.
Bye

3 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 18 May :: 4.17pm

I don't think I care anymore.

So I guess he probably likes her now, so that means he lied. Oh well I guess.

But anyways Emily Sorensen and I are going to hang out with him soon since he's asked us like a million times now and we never could but we both want to so were gonna sometime soon. It should be fun.

Our computer at my moms is broken so that means I wont be online much anymore but it's not like I'm missing something or anything.

but I will update more later.

:: 2005 18 May :: 3.04pm

[ score ]
i'll admit it..

i slept till 2:30..

and liked it.