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2005 11 May :: 6.44pm
Today I got into my locker for Lisa, Shelby made me but Lisa wanted to see it.
I'm really mad that I don't have my purse or cell phone. I feel like I need my cell phone. I'll get it back on Friday even though I'm not sure where my purse ended up.
This is high school, Everyday we go to the same school, but yet we find it hard to make time for each other. We once were best friends. I'm sure you remember. We used to tell each other everything. We used to get along and not fight. We used to be there for each other. We used to hang out- we used to call each other, most of all you used to care. You used to have time for me you used to be nice, and you used to always promise me we would always be friends and look where we are now. I don't even know what we are. I doubt you can even call us friends. We've both messed up this friendship but now its almost too late. We've missed so much going on in each others lives it can't compare to anything else..You frickin wrote a whole paper about me before and you told me that I was your best friend and that you loved me. You told me you were sorry for all those times you hurt me and made me cry. You said that nothing would come between us and it looks like your wrong. I miss how you always used to sit by me, I miss how you always would make me laugh, I miss how we were never apart, I miss how you used to open my locker and leave me notes, I miss how we used to go out to lunch, even though I always got caught, I miss how you used to wait for me everyday and we would just go in the library and talk, I miss those times. I miss the times you would say hi to me in the halls and hug me everyday. We see each other in the halls and pass by like we don't even know each other, like nothing ever happend with us. I miss the times when you would come over just to say hi, I miss the times when I went to your house, I miss everytime. Today was the first time I think I've actually talked to you in a long time and you hugged me, yes you hugged me. Its a big deal since you haven't done that in a very long time. The truth is I missed you, I missed how things used to be, and most of all I'll always miss you.
This is high school, this is where you realize that in 5 years, you wont even know your "best friends".
And sometimes I wonder how I manage to say all that. It makes me want to cry just thinking about it.
I feel really bad, for hurting you. I hurt you sometimes and I don't even know it or mean to. I've never once meant to hurt you. I wouldn't do that. I don't want you to ever think that, I'll always care.
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2005 10 May :: 9.57pm
:: Music: Armor G ft. One~Take- Time
Tick Tock Tick Tock.. 3 days of school left! Ahhhhh... it's really hard to believe that it's here. It's finally here after 14 years of school (Preschool and kindergarden) I have finally reached the state that I never thought I would be at. I remember when I was a freshmen looking at the seniors, and thinking "Damn... there big, I'd never be that big, they look so old.." well.. I was right, I'm not that big, and I don't look like I'm a senior, BUT I AM! Yes. 3 more days till no more school...
Stratford is creeping up here as well, I'm excited to go and spend the time with Erika, enjoying new things that are out of the ordinary, although we're everything but ordinary as it is.. *Smiles...
Okay this is an open invite for all people to come to my open house. JUNE 18TH FROM 1-4 PM! I LIVE AT 13595 LIME LAKE! NEED DIRECTIONS OR ANY QUESTOINS CALL ME! 616-696-3071 AND I'LL ANSWER ALL QUESTIONS THAT I CAN!
ALSO ANOTHER OPEN INVITE!
Starting in June each Wednsday, down in Grand Rapids there's something called "Blues at the mall" it's right downtown on Pearl and Monroe, and we breakdance there for about 2.5 hours. from about 6-9ish... so come as much as you can and watch our crew! 61syx TecHnique!!!!!!
We've got some shows comin up here, one next week wed. at Godwin Heights for Bobby's talent show, and then next week thurs. at Cedar Springs Auditorium we're performing for Baceloriette (sp?) at 6:30.. Be there at least to the one in cedar!
Well I guess thats all.. Take it easy everyone!
-K. Loye
http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net
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2005 10 May :: 10.01pm
I want a boy.
A nice and bad boy.
A boy who has shaggy hair and lets me play with it.
He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga.
He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt.
He'll call me at 3am and ask me what I’m doing.
He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice.
He'll text me every morning before school saying "Have a great day babe I love you!".
And he always whispers something sweet in my ear.
He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band.
And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.
When I cry he'll tell me I'm too beautiful to and he'll kiss every tear.
He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me.
All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them.
He'll stay up with me all night when I’m sick.
When we're walking together he'll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear.
He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect.
We always end up laughing about silly fights.
We wont get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it.
Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me ... Every time he kisses me.
He'll tell me he'd die without me.
He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day.
He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy.
he wouldn’t be scared to cry in front of me--
--and would hold me when i cry ..
he'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he’s ever met.
We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing.
He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch
snowflakes on our tongues
He would grab my waist and kiss my neck.
And we'd always take pictures in photo booths.
He'll let me go places with his mom.
We would play tag and not care who’s watching.
We'd kiss in the rain.
And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again.
I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me,
and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize.
I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars.
Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house
When we kissed our hips would be pressed together.
I want someone to be there no matter what ... always and forever *
Perfect.
I'll be his everything.
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2005 10 May :: 9.05pm
Today was a pretty good day. In 1st hour we do the same thing everyday and it gets more boring as the days go on so Lisa and I talk the WHOLE hour, 2nd hour I sit by Brittney, Britt, and Katelyn so we talk most of the time, 3rd hour is drama so thats a whole new world in there lol, 4th hour was pretty fun I guess Katelyn and I are so dumb in there and we just hang out with Matt and Bruce. Bruce was mad at me all last week for the dumbest reason and finally yesterday he started talking to me, I knew he couldn't actually stay mad at me as hard as he tried and hes the one who wanted to sit by me for the school year so why sit by me and be mad? Makes no sense. In 5th hour I sit by Elyse, Tyler, and Britt and Elyse has been gone a lot so it's been pretty quiet in there and Mr. London came up to me the other day and was like "I see your not talking very much " and then Nicks like "No its just quiet because Elyse isn't here, she talks all the time" I was like "yeah she does talk a lot" and Mr. London was like "you talk just as much as her it's just your not loud, shes LOUD" and I told Elyse what he said and she started cracking up. He told her the only reason we are still sitting by each other is because he likes us and she plays golf and he still doesn't seem to get that even though we talk all hour we turn in every assignment and we both have A's in that class so he can't say much. In 6th hour its so boring we watch movies EVERY day. I swear we've watched them for the past week n a half. Last week we disected baby pigs and I named ours Gordy haha. That was my exciting day and about a million people asked me if I got my hair cut, and the answer is no I haven't got it cut because I'm growing it back out since I got 4 inches cut off of it about 4 months ago but it just looks differen't because I never wear it down.
The other day when anatomy was disecting cats I walked by and I seen Shelby and she ran out and she touched me and I was like "sick dont touch me your disecting a cat" and shes like "Oh I didn't touch it yet I swear" and she started to wipe her hands all on my face and shirt im like "your sick shelby" shes crazy sometimes and today after school Shelby always comes to my locker and I just cleaned my locker out the other day not to mention that in my locker that I brought home two pairs of shoes from when my friends borrowed them and then I never brought them home and a blanket and some other things were in there that I have no idea how they managed to get there so anyways Shelby was like I bet you can fit in your locker and so I'm like yeah maybe and so I fit perfectly in there and shes like let me shut it and I was like noo way I would freak out and shes like please and all these ppl were standing there and they were like forcing me to do it so I told shelby my combo and she shut it and for like the 1st minute I could hear her laughing hysterically and she tried to open it but she couldn't get it right and then she kept trying and I was like "SHELBY LOL SHELBY" and like 2 minutes later she got it open and now she wants to show Lisa so we have to do that again. It was quite scary in there lol.
Aaron thinks I'm mad at him, I think hes mad at me. He told me today that he doesn't even think were friends anymore and I felt really bad because I don't want him to think that ever it's just I didn't want to talk about what was wrong the other day and he gets mad that I don't tell him but I didn't even tell anyone but Lisa. But things are better now and we talked.
When I came home today my brother and his friend were in my room on my computer and I was like hmm way to be in my room n all but my brother always has friends over and they are always in my room, all the time. I swear they are all obessed with me and my room.
Brianna- you should tell her off. I wanted to today after school because she was just annoying me and I think she knows that I don't like her anymore anyways but thats too bad. Yeah Friday we are going and Dan is taking us. Ok.
Jenna- I have to tell you something about that girl lol whos better than us, remember? The one we don't like. Next time we talk remind me to tell you.
Isn't it just nice of her to pretty much ignore me for the past two weeks and then realize "oh I want to be friends again, I miss you blah blah blah" how thoughtful,more like, how unthoughtful.
But I just realized that I talk too much.
I think the thing that scares me the most is that I think I need you.
I'm starting to get the impression that I don't matter anymore.
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2005 10 May :: 1.37pm
Okay, so MAYBE it just hit me that the seniors will be gone, for good this friday. Im so upset. I really am about to cry thinking about who im going to talk to next year. I cant stand anybody else in this school with the exception of jordan, ashley, etc.
I really, really really hate her. She thinks shes the shit and shes not! shes just NOT! Ashley says shes "annoying". I agree. She drives me bonkers and i want to throw something at her face. Anyways.
Seniors.....I love you....Except the ones that i dont like ( i cant think of any at the moment but im sure thes a couple ) oh of course...why marisa rendak....why wouldnt i hate her please somebody ask me why i hate her and ill GLADLY ANSWER YOU!!!
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woosa....
Okay im chilled. So. It was our anniversary yesterday which was alright. He got me flowers. But he had his first day of school so he left around 4. I cleaned my room from top to bottom. Re-arranged EVERYTHING . It was hard work. took me until 10 to finish and at 10:30 dan came back over. I really was suprised. You know wearing very..."summary" pajamas. Alittle embarassing. I opened my curtains and he was standing at my window !!!!!!!! How rude is that
Anyways. Ashley....I did talk to dan friday were going shopping alright??
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2005 9 May :: 6.54pm
I forgot to mention that on Friday in drama our class was in the auditorium and I was backstage with H and there was a shopping cart that someone in a differen't class stole for their skit and H dared me to get into the baby seat of it to see if I would fit and of course I did the dare and I fit and he started pushing me around in it and he pushed me in the hall ways it was so embarrassing and everyone was talking to me and I was like "H bring me back" and he kept showing everyone and hes like "isn't this the cutest thing you've ever seen" and then Adrianne started taking my picture it was quite the adventure lol, Brianna knows, sorry he wouldn't let you push me lol hes mean j/k but umm make sure you ask Dan.
I think everone was mad at me today for not staying after school with them but I couldn't and I do have other things to do thank you very much.
I don't think I've ever felt this way before. It sorta makes me sad. It's like you gave me wings and told me not to fly, thats exactly what you did.
I just want you to care and I just want you to try but I guess that is just too much to ask from you, it always has been.
but this week is going to be rough I can see it already, but I'l try to make the best of it even though it seems like my world is ending.
what have I gotten myself into?
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2005 9 May :: 1.42pm
This weekend was intense. I was officially single for about 3 minutes. I couldnt take it anymore. The fact that he didnt trust me. [ or just said it to piss me off], the constant argueing, the whole pie.
I got to go to work for about meh... 25 minutes Yesterday. I quit. Those people stab you in the back and i dont get my bonuses. all 94.50. Im pissed.
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Anywhoo. I guess dan will be here after school to pick me up. Hooray. [somebody please sence my sarcasm.] Today is our anniversary. Once again... Hooray. How we made it this far without slicing each other at the throat is beyong my knowledge. lol. Its not that ....idk. Idk anything anymore. All i do know is that... i just dont feel special. I used to be able to walk into a room and i would glow. What is wrong with my glower? or i would stare into his eyes and just sparkle and shine out of my control. I was so lost in love i would walk around slap happy and nothing in the world could get me down. Nothing. Now its like... Oh dan. Your on your way. Hmm. let me rush to make myself pretty [ and i really dont] its like i dont care anymore. When i told him that i couldnt handle all this chaos that we've been going through and that we should just end it.. It broke my heart. I felt pain. Physical pain in my upper chest. I couldnt explain it but i called jordan and she calmed me down. Thank you jordan. and sorry if i got you in trouble for calling at ...ehh 3 am. Lol Your my girl :) Oh yeah and did you ever find out why allyn called you at midnight??
Im done babbling. Im upsetting myself again
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2005 9 May :: 10.14am
this weekend was so good.
saturday night... i woke up at 5 and looked over at this perfect person sleeping next to me... never in my life have i felt so content and happy. i'd wake up and find myself away from him and quickly snuggle all back up to him, softly kissing his back.... he's such a beautiful person. and it was such an innocent night, because thats how we are. perfectly content with being together without BEING TOGETHER... and i love that.
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2005 8 May :: 7.06pm
It's the truth and I know it and you know it and the truth is what kills me. I can't accept that and I don't want to. I knew it would be this way it's just as for now it was keeping me happy but it can't keep me happy anymore. It's like I'm waiting for everything to fall, because I know it will happen, I just don't know when but I know it is going to and I can't stand that. I basically just had a reality check. I can't change anything, I can't change the way things are or the way things are going to be. It's going to happen and theres nothing I can do about it. So it's almost like now I'm just hanging on for nothing. I don't even know what you want from me anymore.
And I don't believe that everything happens for a reason.
I just think I'll tell you thank you.
It looks like the one person I need most isn't here for me anymore. To you, I screwed up and this is my fault, it always is. (notice the sarcasm) But w/e I need you but that doesn't matter anymore so next time you need me don't come running back to me like last time.
And thank you for noticing, you never have before so why would you now? You wouldn't and thats my point. You'll never get it. You'll never understand and you'll continue to see the reasons why I'm stupid for not letting go but I'll just pretend things are okay so I don't have to explain it to people like you, who could never understand.
I just want to talk to you really bad.
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2005 8 May :: 5.05pm
Wow...one more week left of High School for everyone. Except me, I'll be staying until May 25th.
Through out my whole life, I've been known to cut things so dangerously close that at the last minute, or second, I manage to pull out of a deadly dive and stay alive. I'm just hoping that this will be one of those times. I've been waiting for this for so long, and I will actually feel like I deserve it...if I can pull it off.
Other than that, I've got college calling me from the near future, and keeping me pressing on. It's not about the education really, just the experience. And definitely the freedom. And getting away from all those fake, drama-infested, immature inhabitants of cedar springs. I'm glad that I've made new friends, and I've weeded out the good and the bad. There is some family that I want to get away from, and prove myself to. I can't wait.
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2005 8 May :: 3.07pm
:: Music: brooke valentine - million bucks
[ i hate my life ]
my mom's a piece of shit that won't be nice to me and gets drunk and fucks random guys, j's an asshole that disappeared, and i'm a fat ass girl who can't do anything right, nor look good with whatever i wear.
life sucks, and it's way too fuckin long.
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2005 8 May :: 12.53pm
:: Music: Craig David- Fill Me In
Wow, I wish I knew how to explain the things that went on through my mind last night...
Your mom's so cool... ;)
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2005 8 May :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: Weezer~Beverly Hills
I'm so sick of it always being the same. I can't take it anymore, I want something more,something better than what I've had in the past. I wish I could make it all happen on my own, but I can't. I hate to say this but I need somebody. I wish I had you.
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2005 6 May :: 4.42pm
:: Music: The Temptations- My Girl
Ahhh... 1 week from today is my last day of high school EVER! That's seriously weirding me out a little bit. Oh well.. Life goes on ay? I'll miss everyone though... Wow... I really will... *Looks back at memories...
I love this song, and it's got that break down instrumental, I'm going to write something to it, and make a my girl remix. MUAHAHA...
I've got a new AIM s/n for anyone who cares... You can delete Itschaboy1take if you ever had it, cuz I won't be on there any more, My new one is Bboy Stance05
We've got a number of shows coming up in the next couple months and we actually get paid for them, I'm excited! I'll keep you updated as well...
Erika... I dunno what to say... We're so great for eachother! and we're thugs! ;) *youll get it if you see our prom pics...
Well that is all... Take it easy everyone..
-K. Loye
http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net
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2005 6 May :: 1.48pm
When you want to just scream at the top of your lungs and no sound comes out and tears fall down your face is rock bottom.
Two hard questions I That i face every day are
"What happened to us"
"How are we falling apart like this"
But the one that scares me the most is
"Why cant i walk away from you, why cant i Just end it"?
It sounds so simple. Someones not happy in a teen relationship... you get out right? not right. We fought last night he drove away and i felt pain. Literal and physical pain in my chest and my stomach. I thought i was going to die. What is wrong with me?
My life is way too demanding and unbelievably overwhelming.
Anyways.
JENNA GILLETTE- i told you i wrote you a poem for your birthday so here it is. Sorry if its alittle late i love you!!!
Once every year
It's a day just for you
TO get to have it your way
And do whatever you want to
Growing by the minute
Getting older each day
Every year
You cant wait for someone to say
"Jenna best wishes"
& "Jenna blow out each candle"
But what i'll say is how im
Envious of the situations you can handle
So look into the sky
And find your shining star
Loving, caring
and an incredible person, you are.
After this
Birthdays will fly by
If im nowhere to be found
Happy birthday x100, JennaPie
:) *smiles for jenna!!!*
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2005 6 May :: 8.19am
"Cause I love you and I need to know" 1st of all he don't love me, he can't love me when he doesn't even know me that much and 2nd of all he doesn't need to know.
Brad is talking to me. I haven't talked to him since last year. He wants to hang out soon and party. Hmm..ok.. Sounds like a plan!
This weekend is going to be awesome.
Jenna you are confusing me lol but correction: Zoe my cousins baby was born on my birthday, November 14th, 2004 and she wasn't supposed to be born until Dec. Or Jan.. Okay I think that makes sense now.
But Shelby just 2wayed me and was all whispering and was like "ashley, where are you" im like "at home but im going in soon" and shes like "okay you better" and in the background I could hear Mrs. Tanis talking and then not even 5 mins. later Tyler calls me. I swear if I'm not at school they're all gonna die or something. But I suppose I should go to school today since I can't miss 3rd hour and 6th hour.
But off to school I guess..
a.s.h.l.e.y
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2005 6 May :: 7.56am
So, usually i come on here whining about every little thing thats going wrong. I could do that today, however im feeling very considerate of everyones time.
So we'll talk about...Idk.
I got nothing.
Im getting away this weekend. Kinda sick of my life : hence: im Getting out of my house and away from my cell. Just to be somewhere where dan isnt down my back 24/7 and my mom isnt constantly yelling at me and. Yeah..It'll be paradise even if its behind a dumpster!. Heaven.. lol Not that i like hangin around dumpsters but you know what i mean hahaha. hah.
Saturday I have no clue what im doing. I have to work unfortunately on sunday i have work. I swear school and work, there like forcing me and dragging me in there by chains. But im staying positive today so **SMILES**. Tonight.
TONIGHT: is friday, i have absolutely NO FRIGGIN' PLANS, and my boyfriend is being a...... very very nice guy!....
Somebody please sence my sarcasm ^^^
So friday, saturday, nothing to do. Somebody please call me to hang out because im feeling extra, extra lonely.
Jenna, jordan, ashley. that means you
Love all
Im content.
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2005 5 May :: 4.06pm
So I had a pretty good time at prom. Surprisingly, dinner sucked well....ALOT. We went to Charlie's Crab...which i expected to be better than any restaraunt I had ever been to....but I think it was actually the worst I've ever been to. But oh well.....I had a pretty good time at prom. I wish the DJ was a little better and played louder music (wahoo for us underclassmen..he's playing at homecoming next year)
Umm....we went on a field trip today..it was ok....
Uhhmmm......summer is almost here......the seniors are leaving in like 6 days...im gonna miss them.....well...a select few of them anyway....
Nothing else to say that I can think of.....bye.
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2005 5 May :: 1.59pm
Why is it whenever me and dan are fairy-tale ish...theres always some other S*** that goes wrong?
Why wouldnt my family treat me like im stupid.
I am.
My mom is always on my case.. But i mean i couldnt be doing THAT much wrong. I dont have much to be compared to. [My brother]. My brother who does nothing but lay on his porky little butt all day long. Yeah. Whos 21 and has been an alchoholic since he was my 12. Thats my blood alright. I swear the only thing we have in common is our last name. Other then that its 2 strangers in the same house. Meh what'cha gon' do right???
Jeez. Yesterday was some hard work. I got home from school. Hung out for about a half hour. Went to work. got out early. Stopped at dans. WEnt home and SLEPT...oh it was the best night sleep too. Unfortunatly i was freezing because i slept on the couch but it was just too .... perfect.
So my dad called me yesterday somewhere in the mess of me coming home from school and leaving for work. I guess hes doing better with his cancer, but im still very upset with him. He confessed alot of stuff to me about why he was so aggressive and why he was so upsetting. No matter what, i'll love him. Even when he dies i still will...wanna know why? yeah..you tell me cos i have no clue. He doesnt deserve it. But i guess its cos hes my dad. I'll always love the old him...but the new him will change. Or i'll be gone.
Hello...all you bored people............
Ahem...
HellooooooooooooooooooooOOoooooOOOOOOo
Why are my friends drifting away again? lol
Yeah my friend chad is available again cos he dumped heather. Idk shes not really girlfriend material. Shes too...outgoing, to courageous, too much of a party animal. Yep thats her alright. Not that its bad. I love heather to death she will just..one day be ready to have a relationship but right now shes more concerned on having fun!
ATTENTION ASHLEY SONEGO::
WE NEED TO HANG OUT. Ok im done typing in caps but fer real. We need to hang out. Thanks for tha sucka today homie.
ATTENTION JENNA GILLETTE::
WE ALSO NEED TO HANG OUT! IM TIRED OF GETTING BLOWN OFF AND IM NOT TAKING NO FOR AN ANSWER :)
ATTENTION JORDAN PORTER::
YOUR MY GIRL DAWG! LOL i knew that would make you laugh. So i dont have plans for saturday. One of you three had better call me cos i wanna go bowling damn it!!!
So tonights oc night. Im very excited. I couldnt be more happy. I really dont think i could unless my mom fell off the face of the earth..That'd be nice. Also pie would be nice. mmmmmmmmmmm.
Yeah. Im still that tired and im talking about pie so i should probably exit stage left.
AdIoS aMiGo'S
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2005 4 May :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: guilty
My parents went out to eat tonight, again- -without any of their kids. *pssh* who does that?
My sister and I bought my mom a $267 ring for Mothers Day. It's gold and it has pink diamonds on it. It's so pretty.
This weekend I have to go to Lansing for some modeling thing. My friend lives there so we are staying at her house and we have to do a fashion show on Saturday. I'm excited but I really have no idea what is actually going on and how its going to work. Modeling takes up all my time and weekends. I don't get to see my friends that much or my family but this is what I wanted I guess and this is only the begining..
I'm happy that The O.C is going to be on for two hours tomorrow that just makes my day, or my week lol. It's pretty awesome that the three people I like most on American Idol are all in the top three so that also makes my day.
I still can't believe that my cousins baby was born on my birthday. That really is one of the best birthday presents ever and she wasn't supposed to be born until December or Jan. but she was premature and it just so happend to be on my birthday that she was born. Pretty cool.
but I'm just rambling on and I have nothing else to say so I guess I'll just stop now.
Love Much,
Ashley***
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2005 4 May :: 2.21pm
My day just went from bad to worse in 10 minutes.
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2005 4 May :: 2.11pm
the symphony today was awesome. there was about 1,800 people that came out and it was just soo cool. it really is rewarding to see how happy just one simple concert makes them. for most of those people thats like the biggest outing of the year.
yeah.... it was great.
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2005 4 May :: 1.59pm
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Trust. . .
is way over-rated.
Seriously think about it. How many of you out there can say that they trust 5 non family members with their life huh?
I just need friends. REAL friends that is. Aquaintances are great yeah but they ware off. You can tell who your real friends are…but if your not technically real friends yet..what do you do?
Jenna I really, really need to talk to you so when you read this please call me yeah blahdy blah I have work but I don’t care. You call my cell any freakin’ time you want.
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2005 3 May :: 10.12pm
how dare that keegan charactor put me on hold...
today was so good.. right after school we went home and took a 2 hour nap. and when i woke up, keegan had dinner all ready for us.. well his mom made it *laughs.. heaven knows keegan didnt* but he had it all ready cuz his mom and emma left for emmas soccer game. UH when emma woke us up to let us know they were leavin.. she's like, you're candles drippin wax all over the tv.. and we looked over and the candle keegan lit on top of his tv had a steady line of wax the WHOLE way down it... we're like what the heck... laughs* that was short lived though.. cuz then we fell back asleep... i have way to many of keegans clothes! today i was wearin his shorts and a big shirt, and i probably have like 2 other pairs at home... my moms always like , does he have any clothes left! but its all good.... maaaaan i ramble to much.. but its ok, cuz nobodys required to read them.. so if they do and think MAN this girl rambles.. then they're the fools who wasted their time reading it. *smiles sweetly... woohu for fools and boring entries! seriously though... unless you wanna read about keegan, my stressful busy life, or worthless tidbits of fun information.... this is NOT the journal for you.
tomorrow we've got that grand rapids symphony... im excited. i love the symphony.. we're going with the senate to help disabled people get into the concert. every year they put on a concert for people in wheelchairs and mentally challenged people and they need volunteers to help wheel them in to the devos place since they'res so many of them. its an awesome experience... and it counts as community service hours.. so next year you all should sign up to go.. im sure you could go with the senate.. we encourage volunteering. next year i hope to provide a lot more volunteer opportunities through student senate. i headed up a commitee this year but we didnt do anything.. next year i'll have way more time to organize since i'll have an entire credit hour dedicated to student senate (ed ex with Mr. A) i guess thats what all the exec presidents do their senior year.. im excited. its gonna be a good year. watch out for us, cuz we're gonna hit you full force next year with so many new and awesome things. and if theres anything you want to see done, any type of event, let me know or one of your class reps know... cuz thats what we're spose'd to do, is be YOUR voice.. im so sick of people complaining about things that we plan when they dont even take the time to give input. let your voice be known.... hmmm, im not sure why i just went off on a student senate rant... but heyyy.. its late, im tired, and its alll good.
of course my cell phone would not get service anywhere... of course it wouldnt even get service in CEDAR SPRINGS... not like i'd ever NEED it in our home town or anything.. i was about to throw it out the window fer sure... gahh.
i got a lot of * you look cutes* today... the funny things is emma picked out those shirts when we went shopping together.. *laughs..* she saw the black one and was like aww that'd look so good, so i tried it on and it did. im gonna have to deal with the fact that keegans sister is more sylish than me! *laughs and cries...
im so excited for this summer.. we're gonna go to the beach alot. i didnt get to at all last summer cuz i worked EVERY day. if you go back and read last summers entries.. you'll see how depressed and tired i always was. i seriously broke down like every week because i felt like ya know it was the summer i turned 16 and i didnt get to do anything ever. sometimes i feel (felt) that i've been forced to grow up and mature to fast through things that i've gone through. but im a responsible girl with a strong head on my shoulders. i've got direction and passion to pursue a purpose thats been pre-destined for me by the power i want to strive to live my life by. what an awesome feeling. to know that someones always got your back, always got you covered in times of need, even if they're presence isnt physically visible. i've gotten better with accepting the fact that i cant do things alone... and thats one thing thats gonna make life so much more bearable.. and its gonna make me more able to fulfill a life that used to be so empty.
well kids, im tired.... *kisses*
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