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lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 1 May :: 8.58am
:: Mood: :)
:: Music: Carve Your Heart Out Yourself - dashboard confessional

i eat emo for breakfast :P
GOOD MORNING!

yes it is saturday
and i am up at 8:49
i am...patiently...waiting.
today i am goin to boca with el equipo
to watch a girls lacrosse
and boys lacrosse game
eeeeeeeeeee!
im so excited
and i just cant hide it
never seen a lacrosse game before
wooooha

waiting till 11:30...
andie*

1 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 30 April :: 5.49pm
:: Mood: happy//letting go
:: Music: one year, six months- yellowcard

you know who you are
Crash
my world falls
you grin
on the sidelines
my heart is heavy
while yours jumps
free




"A dream, all a dream, that ends in nothing, and leaves the dreamer where he lay down, but I wished you to know you inspired it."
-Charles Dickens


Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
-Yellowcard

goodbye
andie*

2 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2004 29 April :: 8.42am

Im g0nna make y0u l0ve me babbii
Heyy ..
s0o yessterday me n sarah went sh0pping round 5iish .. t0 get 0ur dresses, twin 0utfitz, n jamie'z prezent . . all we g0t waz 0ur twin 0utfitz which R prettie dam kute !n me n sarah had fun runnin round lol =] "d0 y0u have AT&T" BAMMM!! lma0 * g0od timez.. . .Mark & Daniela were there and Josh & Nick.. n0ne 0f us knew l0l.. s0o i hung 0ut w/ muh baybee f0r a lil bit "i think i smell j0sh !! " lma0 l0ve y0u babe!!. . than we saw krista & alison!! i havnt seen them in s0o l0ng !! =D Krista is s0o sweEt !! i <3 her !

n0thin iz g0in rite anym0re =/

im always there f0r y0u
. . but y0u have never ever beEn there f0r me .
im starting to relise wh0 aRe reallyy my friendz . . `nd wh0 never were:-\

8 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


lala91

:: 2004 28 April :: 11.00pm

What if i am the way i am forever and there is nothing i can do about it?
reasons, everyone alwayz wants reasons why i am the way i am. honestly, i would like to know myself. so i write about hwta hurts, what feels good, what makes me cry and what makes me feel. i wanty to know why:
i cry
im screaming silently inside
im happy for a moment and then i lose it.
im free but i hold back.
i hat emyself when i look in the mirror.
i drown in self pity.
i am ashamed.
i hide from everything.
i feel more then i can take.
and i just really want to know why i am unable to be whole. was i born with a failure inside of me that doesnt allow me to change? i spend my days scared. what if i never change? what if there are no reasons at all? what if im the way i am forever and there is nothing i can do about it. so i look for an answer to make the confusion go away. every day i wake searching with only the hope that someday something will be found that will make this endless longing go away.

have you ever wanted something so badd you couldnt breathe??

i cant breathe

7 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2004 27 April :: 6.37pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music:
T.V.

ii thiink ii neEd y0u babii
=[ Ugh - - i havnt wr0te in here in a while . .

friday - went t0 a dance with Kayla .. danced with s0me sexy 6th graders, lol m0st 0f them turned me d0wn th0 ='[ teaaar . . n we g0t lyk 21 gl0w stixx . . than went 2 Nick'z . . hung 0ut @ markz n watched m0viez -- than went t0 nickz gain hadd a reallie badd head ace =[ . . went h0me ar0und 11

Saturday -- sarah walked 0ver early -- went t0 chris's . . tyler was there -- the 4 0f us jus played basketball , swam n watched m0vies we playyed CLUE! l0l - it waz pretty funn . .

sunday -- waz reallie tired s0o jus stayyed h0me . .


M0nday - -

wasnt s0o g0od =[ m0st 0f y0u alreaddy kn0w whyy but its all better n0w - - sept that mark hates me =/

HaPpy AnNivErSeRy SaRaH - - 2 m0nThZ bAyBaY !! l0l 2/27 !!




eVeRy tImE yOuR LiPs mEeT mInE
iT sTiLl fEeLs LiKe ThE fIrSt TiMe
aNd iF yOu lOsT eVeRyThInG
I`d KeEp On sTaNdInG bY yOuR sIdE
aNd BoYiT sEeMs LiKe EvErYdAy i FaLl dEePeR iN lOvE wItH yOu
- - - - - - :
v
Nick -- i l0ve y0u !!

3 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


Rina

:: 2004 26 April :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: other computers

my journey seems to end at your doorstep
today was agonizingly slow.

i was eagerly anticipating the end of the day when i woke up this morning.

i felt very shy. like a little girl keeping a secret. ana said i looked small and cute. and i started to wonder what other people might think of me. i am a very curious person.

i didnt talk very much. i was kind of hoping that if i stared at my watch enough the day might go faster. or if i didnt talk to anyone, the day wouldnt slow down any more than it had already.

it didnt work.

now i am at my mother's office. this place is so bland i can hardly stand it. it screams that it needs more than white covering its walls. it feels like some sort of penitentary. but each time i come here it doesnt seem as bad. i hope that doesnt mean im accepting that it wont change. i hate being forced to accept things. thats why im so good at arguing. i can pick fights so easily i scare myself.

yesterday my mother took me and my sister to 'Mamma Mia!' at the barbara b. mann hall. it was a musical. and i have to say, it was alot better than i had expected.

and for those of you who read some of my story, would it be too much to ask for feedback? i dont know if i should continue writing it.

5 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


lala91

:: 2004 25 April :: 8.49pm
:: Music: roses-- outkast

haha
ive been sayin that a lot latley.
this weekend was 0ok.. i had a softball game firday night, and we won. and then catherine, bailey, and lacey spent the night. we did eachothers hair and nails.. it was funN. we talked about just about everything. i really missed mia and kayla goldman this weekend.. ne wayz. saturday catherine , lacey, my mama and i went to "the tanning place". i g0t a playb0ii bunnii sticker and itz s0o cute!! l0l. [[sexy-- catherine]] then bailey and kristi came and picked me up and we went to malikes party. it was s0 fun.. well until the piont when catherine started bo0tii dancing [[or at least thatz what i think it was]] l0l. uh.. i spent the night at baileys with kristi, and in the morning i was the last one up and kristi hadD already went h0me. s0 i called mah momma and she came and g0t me.. when i g0t h0me my aunt came and s0 did mia [[finally]] we babysat mah cuzin while mah parents and mah aunt went to the beach. me and calli made up and we're c0ol n0w.. read ur journal if you d0nt beleive she l0ves me...
www.livejournal.com/~_canes04_
itz the bigG font at the t0p. lma0. and then chris t0ok mah writing.. where i use the 00's for mah oo's.. he sed itz his n0w.. "calli tell him t0 st0pP!!!" l0l.
35%!!!!
ne wayz im g0nna g0 make a belt f0r kayla valente.. l0l j/p
- x0x0x
LaLa

2 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


Rina

:: 2004 24 April :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: switchfoot

your eyes sparkle in the moonlight
good saturday night.

went to the movies with my geeker and monkey. and andrew came too. (for those of you who dont know carina lingo: i went with sydney, chelsea, and.. andrew.)

we went to the gap and terrorized it a bit. then we walked to black hawk cafe. i got a mocha latte. with this cool sugar stuff they have. mmm good. i would have to say that it rivals starbucks.

saw ella enchanted. dude. that movie is cute. and from what i've heard, completly different from the book. before the movie started i put a gum wrapper on my shoe. you know how you peel off the foil-y type stuff off the 'extra' gum. you've all done it. well, i put some on my shoe.

after the movie we went to black hawk again. i couldnt resist. i bought another mocha. with the cool sugar stuff. but sydney got one too.

so now i have consumed two mochas within 2 hours. i think wired is a bit of an understatement.

2 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


Rina

:: 2004 24 April :: 1.47pm
:: Mood: bleh
:: Music: the reason - hoobastank

and the light that guides is fading
i get glasses on monday.

this weekend is going to be lame. i have two projects to do. joy, oh joy.

and teenage drama is living in my house. sound the alarm.

i miss having places to go. friends to see. non-stop talking on the phone. school is taking over my life. im going to beat it back with some sticks pretty soon.

start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2004 23 April :: 8.39am


KraZedBlOndie69: teen drinking is very bad!
COBIA69: NO ITS NOT =-O

KraZedBlOndie69: teen drinking iz very bad!
zac000lz8946: huh?

KraZedBlOndie69: teen drinking is very bad
WoWo CoWo 1490: why?

KraZedBlOndie69: teen drinking is very bad !
bLu eyed fLoosie: y0 i got a fake id thO
DING DING DING !! g0 Lee! <3.

11 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2004 22 April :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: She wantz t0 m0ve --* lma0 Ashy!!

0ne day y0ull miSs mE lyk i miSseD y0u..*
Hey my shweet sexi beautiful people !
im in a gr8 m0od.. t0dayy was really g0od .. 1zt period we played with clay playy d0 all class - l0l w0rk it !! 2nd period - t0ld gh0st st0riez .. l0l that waz kinda fun =P LunCh me n Ash were singin l0l.. TAKE A L0oK @ Y0UR GURL .. SHE L0VES IT !! lma0* 3rd peri0d- tezt =/ .. 4th period .. hung out w/ Mark & we wr0te 0n each 0ther all peri0d cuhz we hadD n0 w0rk =] than parent pik up -- hung 0ut w/ my cripled sister .. l0l shez hurt herr f0ot & iz 0n crutchez cuhzZ she stePped 0n a t0oth pik lma0 -- dumaSs !! l0l jk i l0ve y0u baBez ! t0marR0w . . im h0pefulLy g0in t0 the dance [ i n0 im lamMe-- itz f0r Xtra creddit ] w/ Nick'z sister Kayla ! n were g0nna sit in the c0rner, make funN 0f everyune, eat , n ask 6th graDerz 2 dancce l0l.. yayy !! than nick'z m0mmy iz pikin us up n were g0n bak 2 their h0use =] . . n i gett t0 C muh babii finallyy..

i remember the day we met started 0ut lyk n e 0ther dayy y0u were jus an0ther kute face in the croud
what i didnt kn0w than - - that dayy w0uld change mii life f0rever i l0ve y0u -- *

p.s. i f0rg0t t0 tell y0u h0w felicia saved my life AGAIN !!! we were at the m0vies n she rannn int0 my armz -- * l0l n than we were talkin n this DRUNK m0ter cycle man was SPEEDING d0wn the street `nd we rann n she pushed me 0utta the way -- * l0l !! x0x0x0x0

3 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 22 April :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: happy// feel like dancin
:: Music: tuesday's gone - lynyrd skynyrd

down the strip
tears would be running down my face. i bit my tongue which restrained my fist from strikin the wall. i needed to escape.

i called you

when you picked up the phone and you heard me say hello between sniffles you right off the bat knew something was wrong. always when i said hello versus my usual hey, hola, yo, howdy..

you knew the drill

i could hear the whizzing of the bad muffler as you pulled into my neighborhood. i snuck out with my red baseball cap on to cover up my swollen watery eyes.

you always put my favorite song on and put up with my singing off key. we would ride through town with the windows down. the brutal wind blowing our hair around. after a stop at the 7-11 and one blueberry/cherry mix slurpee, i was better.

the hat got thrown in the back of your car and sat on the floor with the numerous fast food wrappings, important school papers, and clothes.

my once crying eyes now peered through the wind and soaked up the flashing world that was passing by my window.

sitting at the longest light in town. beating on the dashboard along with the radio. thinking how unfair it was to have to wait an eternity to turn on to the strip.

the green of the light lit both of our faces up and we both grinned and you grabbed my hand as we turned down on to the infamous strip.

i looked at you as your foot slowly pushed on the gas button. the car was flying down the strip along with our hair as the wind stormed through the car and whipped us in the face.

breathing in the ocean air, everything that was weighing down my soul evaporated. i caught you glancing at me and i squeezed you hand a little harded. i whispered i love you in to the wind. the smile that spread across your face told me that the wind had whispered my secret to you.

andie*

2 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


Rina

:: 2004 21 April :: 10.15pm
:: Mood: hyper//ecstatic

HOLY FREAKING MOTHER OF COWS.

i heart the WB. you have no idea.

3 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


Rina

:: 2004 21 April :: 2.52pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: brand new colony

run away for this place is no longer stable
i am so tired. of everything.

i am tired of tying on little bells to my feet and dancing for everyone. they expect me to be so happy all the time. its just way too hard for me right now.

besides that, im sure everyone already knows that i am getting glasses. and that they are rectangular. no, they are not "emo" glasses. and you can keep your stereotyping to yourself. i know it can be hard though.

i had my prism concert yesterday. no big. i played when they told me to. that was the extent of my excitement.

off to do schoolwork.

4 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2004 19 April :: 10.42pm

i love you jllane elizabeth dahms .. 28 dayz

1 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


thoughtskill

:: 2004 19 April :: 9.35pm
:: Music: MY BAND!!


KraZedBlOndie69: PLEASE O PLEASE LET ME SUCK UR COCK?!?!?!
So Cal 1449: lmao
So Cal 1449: ok!
So Cal 1449: when? ;-)



KraZedBlOndie69: PLEASE O PLEASE LET ME SUCK UR COCK?!?!
juggalo8989: ok
juggalo8989: when

KraZedBlOndie69: please o please let me suck ur cock?!?!
Stevkant08: y?
KraZedBlOndie69: y not?!
Stevkant08: lolo ok if u reallly want to
KraZedBlOndie69: yesss

KraZedBlOndie69: please o please let me suck ur cock?
JsBrattyGirl05: alright
KraZedBlOndie69: lol
JsBrattyGirl05: onli cuz u sed plz

KraZedBlOndie69: PLEASE O PLEASE LET ME SUCK UR COCK?!?!
Roxy XoXoXo Babe: my salsa makes all the pretty gurls dance and want to take off there underpants!
THERE WE GO!!! <33 g0o fefe!

1 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 18 April :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: i want you bad - offspring

long live the sunscreen song!!
Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

- Everybody's Free To Wear Sunscreen- Baz Luhrmann. lyrics by Mary Schmich-

andie*

start it all 0ver...


lala91

:: 2004 18 April :: 9.15pm



omg today was s0 fun... i went over to chris's jack's [[typo]][[lol]] house and hung out.. it was s0 fun. we went 0ver t0 kaitlyn blanchetts h0use but she wasnt home s0 we walked home n played vide0 games. i g0t t0 c his cl0set. lol. n sally sed the camel had 4 humps [[lol chris jack!!]].. we played the guitar and watched nightmare bef0re christmas. "my fav0rite character is the fourth step and the little fish thing thatz in the m0vie f0r .5 seconds.
um n therrs a l0t 0f inside j0kes but u will never find 0ut ab0ut them b/c then they wouldnt be inside jokes. they w0uld be 0utside j0kes.. ugh. lol
alrighty ima go
<<3 LaLa [[sally]], w/e

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lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 18 April :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: happy//dance-y
:: Music: run dmc - its tricky

hooked on phonics
yesterday i walked into my aunts casa yesterday

i saw my uncle

i read his shirt

i ask, "i'd rather be in my garbage???"

my aunt looks over, "i'd rather be in my GARAGE."

andie*

1 dr0p everything | start it all 0ver...


lala91

:: 2004 18 April :: 2.39pm
:: Music: reach-- twisted method

yesterday i went wakeboarding w/ bailey and her family and some of their friends. i cant wait til mia gets home.. im bored. i think im goin to the xfest!! yay.. mah dad just got me the twisted method cd. itz pretty good. their from cape coma s0 thatz pretty c00l. um. kayla got me yesterday.lol. "im moving in 2 months". grrr..
my bro got into cape. lol. his 3rd choice so he's just goin on the waiting list for mariner. lol. i hope he gets in. I DONT WANNA GO TO CAPE. lol. is there still gonna be school choice next year tho?
im burned. it hurts.
minutes have gone by and i still sit and wait for mia.. lalala
wow. i really cant imaginelife w/out her. hmm
im goin to target to get a cd.. cant decide what to get tho.. hoobastank?? iunno.
i like the song the reason but kristi claims thatz her song s0 i dont want to take it [[cough cough]]
who made up the word cough? thatz funni ..
well i guess ill wait for mia alone.. wouldnt want you to be put thru the misery.. well, most of you ne way. lol
love
lala

start it all 0ver...

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