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playmate101

:: 2004 16 June :: 5.51pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: #7 on Writings on the Wall // Destiny's Child

plain jane neighborhood fun.
hehe. ms. danielle groton slept over last night. party!

walked over to jb's & mike's house. got them. then jb made me a seal and threw hula hoops over me. ummm then franky came outside. we all talked and then went to franky's house. um... franky is nasty. that is the end of that story. so we ran to my house & grabbed money & took a long walk to albertsons. ummm frank's friend picked him up 1/2 way there. thank god. um... we got there and everyone working gave us a look like we were high, but i don't do that shit. so i said something to jb and he tackled my ass straight on the floor in the middle of aisle 6B.... yikes. we bought gummy worms & coke & stuff... then my stupid debit card didn't work. ugh! so danielle paid for it. i owe her. um.... we got stuck in the rain. walking back. so we chilled under the gas station & then i said "fcuk it, i'm gettin' my ass home b4 it rains harder" so we took a "short cut" according to mike... but it didn't feel like a short cut. it was more of a field of dirt & mud. whatever we made it home around... 11:30pm. then they came over to my house and we sat in my porch playing monopoly forever. jb & mike are evil players. yikes. so around 2am they left & danielle & i sat around my room... talking... girly junk... remembering old times.. music..... u know the drill. we found an interesting discovery that trevor from last boy standing in the YM magazine is on facethejury.com. ironic. we don't have lives. then we final went to bed around 5am. but we stayed up an extra 1/2 hour cause my dad tooted outta his ass in his sleep & we heard it.... from the living room. so yeah then we had the giggles. but we eventually fell asleep. danielle woke me up around noon... i can't blame her... i sleep like a rock but there is so much noise in my house... w/e. then we called over jb and mike. we played monopoly AGAIN and mike kicked our ass... AGAIN.... biatch. we will get him one day. uhhhh... then we sat in my room beating the shit outta each other for pillows and blankets. that was an LOS moment. i wish i had a video camera. the things u tend to do when u get bored. so many personalities together... so different, yet we all get along so easily. it would just prove that every clique in high school has the ability to get along.

frank = goth, jb = jew/ wannabe surfer / wigger, danielle g = wild, brittany = party girl, michael = computer geek, robert = car dude, ryan = boca boy / party/ surfer, me = small preppy girl, danielle b = funny, open-minded, trent = druggy / thinks he is hot & can get any girl attitude, shane = the only black dude haha muah!, travis = druggy, courtney = party / funny / crazy girl.

wow. but i miss those days. anyways i just took a shower & since mommy has bitched that she doesn't WANT to take me anywhere.... this means once again i have been rejected to see jonah. w/e him & alexie are going to the movies. already saw the movie tho. =/ enjoy muah! <3

taken from ellen <333 ya girly! xoxo


My life is rated PG-13.
What is your life rated?

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playmate101

:: 2004 14 June :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: i want 2 party.
:: Music: one way or another // blondie

its life.
one day - fighting with ur boyfriend because ur jealous.... and selfish.

another day - hanging out with a friend... just a simple girl's night & enjoying loud music, laughs, talks & movies.

then u get a voice message from ur boyfriend & remember why u told him yes when he asked u out 8 months ago. and u spend endless hours of the nights on the phone talking & torturing. only he knows tho.

plus u get ur hair cut & do some shopping.... not spending any of ur OWN money.... its awesome. <333

confessions of a blonde bombshell. fun. sexy. pretty. innocent. lovable. cute. hot. wild. crazy. girly. glam. i want to party. dance on tables, dress up, & just have fun like paris & nicky. what a wild girl. <3 me. enjoy ur summer. cause i am enjoying mine.

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boricuababy

:: 2004 14 June :: 8.07pm
:: Mood: smiley
:: Music: breakdown-mariah carey

hellz yeah!!..i got a raise today!!
so far my summer has been completely about work..itz tiring but it definately pays off..i got a raise today!!..yay!!..itz about time..lol..i been work there for a while already..so im happy..i got all my envelopes and now i gotta stuff em..i cudd use alotta help..any takers??..love ya!!

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spinoangel

:: 2004 14 June :: 4.31pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: the starting line - "playing favorites"

nothing to do
another day passed by with nothing done except food eaten. thoughts thought. wishes wished. and music listened. eyes closed.

i should do some strumming.


my new favorite song. it makes me wanna go to california. or somewhere. to fall in love.

the best way i can extend the lonely words, i miss you.
i'll say it, but i'm sure you knew.
you're what i look most forward to, coming back to where i've been.
i'll just leave it at this.

i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you,
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted.
if you feel unwanted, wait for me to move out west.
it's ok if you don't. i hope you know you're my favorite thing about the west coast.
i wish i stayed, i hope you wait. so here i am...
counting down the days till california comes.

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 14 June :: 2.40am

new background, thanks to tina <3

yeah, not falling in love with anyone quite yet, but if tina says it's true, then it must be.

i had a nice day today. this whole entire weekend was nice. mmm... you know why and if you don't, that's too bad.

talked to ashley today. coming down in july to accompany me to concerts... i really hope she does, tallahassee sounds like country-ville.
me: what'd you do today?
ashley: worked in the yard
me: all day?
ashley: yeah... i'm so sunburnt

... later

ashley: we have storms every night like right when it is around that time you go out
me: that sucks
ashley: our phones haven't worked since last night.

.... next conversation

me: what are you doing now?
ashley: watching tv in the guest bedroom, i don't even have cable in my room yet

all i have to say is thank god for cell phones.

i wish to get tanner tomorrow if the weather allows. i should go to bed, but i'm sure my thinking will keep me awake. why do i think so much about you? you leave me lying in my bed at night with countless thoughts. grrr....

<3

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playmate101

:: 2004 13 June :: 6.09pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: with you // jessica simpson

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playmate101

:: 2004 13 June :: 5.37pm

yay. i finally just got off work. long, slow day.

when erica makes the schedule i think she purposely puts me with either the old guys or all the girls this way there is no interaction between us. well... today... because i switched days with edward... i got to work with people that i actually talk to.

i took abuse from walter again today... frickin' hit my arm. tipped over the cart s0o i fell off... and then laughed at me for the stupid stuff i did & didn't realize... cause i was half asleep. he made me tie stupid balloons cause he wasn't talented enough to do so. nor was kyle. kyle indirectly called me a clown today. grrr.

Bri: "all u have to do... is TIE it, duh!"
Kyle: "we don't work at the circus so we dunno how."
Bri: ...... +dirrty look+
Kyle: "not that u do either.... i mean...."
bri: "zip it." :o)

then i met this kid pete... idk i guess he works at night cause i've never seen him before & everyone knows him so he can't be that new.

gina was in today.... trouble maker.

this 17 year old girl, stephanie was late to work... just met her too. she only knew who i was cause of my mother... but she got kicked outta her house for something or other.. whatever. says she just slept over a friends house... but i bet she was having sex & doing drugs... she looks like a fat hoe. =/

when i went to lunch i ran into michael. he is so skinny, but when he gives me a hug, he squeezes the shit outta me. everytime i turned around today he was there.... like when he was on lunch... he sat and talked to me. Cherri Hood hadda yell at him cause he couldn't talk to me while i was working. then it was funny cause before i left i ran into him & instead of paying attention to what he was doing... he was trying to act all suave.... but it didn't work cause he dropped a big box of gatorade & 2 of the bottles broke open & spilled. hehe.

i began to ease drop on donell complaining to Cherri Hood about how she isn't getting back office nor customer service. and i just want to turn around & say, "if u decided not to steal that money, then Lost Prevention wouldn't have had to come. AND u would be back there right now... but NO... u can't now, cause they know u just wanna go back there and steal more money... i can't wait 'til they come & surprise u with handcuffs in a giftbox so u get ur fake innocent self outta here."

other than that.... i enjoyed work. i<3people =) o and i lost 3 pounds since the beginning of summer. i'm happy about that. ttyl i've gotta make a weird entry.... u'll see. but its for someone in particular.

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spinoangel

:: 2004 13 June :: 10.43am
:: Music: watching 90210

1. you feel so alone because you have no one to call your own. and you can't even recognize the face you dream about. there doesn't seem to be a reason to wake up in the morning because there's an emptiness in your heart and you can't understand why everyone else in the world can at least find someone to crush on whereas you don't know where the heck your heart is.
2. you don't know why the world is the way it is. deep down you know you love someone, but you watch them continue to live life without thinking of you. and it hurts more than anything to know that they don't care. and still you maintain to beat yourself up about not being good enough for him. not being good enough for yourself.
3. finally in love, and they love you back in exactly the same way. and you feel like there's something burning inside of you because days aren't the same without this person. you miss him when he's not there. and when he is there, you miss him because you know he'll eventually leave.

so i've definitely been in all three scenarios, and i really don't know which one hurts the most. because all three end up in crying yourself to sleep for lack of companionship. i cried because of two movies yesterday. yeah, i'm a freak. first, i watched now and then. that movie generally makes me cry like every other time i see it. when teeny is trying to save sam... yeah that makes me tear up. then i watched some of father of the bride. (no, that didnt make me cry)

eventually went to movie theatre where there was a horrible chain of events. i mean, first it was crowded like whoa. feeling claustrophobic, anyone? then the lines were SO long. the notebook was sold out. there was no more sprite in the machines for my mom. (yeah it amazes me too) and then stepword wives was muy crowded and i spilt the coke on myself (damn purse). that was just like so not cool. but it was an entertaining movie. if we had seen the notebook, i guarantee that i would have cried. i'm just watching the trailer over and over again. (which i do for a lot of movies.)

came home. watched bridget jone's diary. i haven't seen that movie since it came out on dvd. its very... interesting. it makes you feel ok for being lonely but then at the end, you feel lonelier cuz even bridget got her man. and thats when i cried. at the end. when they kissed in the snow. i dont know how i got so emotional. but seeing them kiss and him putting his coat around her. it made me miss altan. a lot. like a lot. a lot. yeah i'm crazy for loving him so crazily. but. its something i can't control. and i cried before i went to sleep. because i was just thinking about memories. like being able to share the warmth inside your body with someone else in an embrace. and being able to feel his hand in yours. and laughing and smiling and being happy. i'm not saying that i'm not happy now, but ya know. something missing.

shrug.

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playmate101

:: 2004 11 June :: 11.23pm
:: Music: BLiNK 182 CD

good night.
lalala.
got to cityplace... met up with alexie, tonya, alyssa, jonah & a buncha lil' boys for alyssa. went on the trolly to kill time. the indian guy... lol <3

then we went to muvico to see "GARFiELD". cute movie, yet rather pointless. but the fire alarm went off, 5 minutes into the movie... jonah was getting food. in which case, alexie & i went to find him... cause tonya & everyone else went to see another movie. stood outside... ran into cathy McClur.. the lady that trained me at work... then we saw some guy with a blue beard... and we met pepe & his girlfriend. :o) finally we got back into the movie... after waiting for food & seeing ugly people. niiiice. i'm sure the thug next to me saw some booty cause i was all scrunched up... in a skirt... laying down about to fall asleep. i guess thats what not eating all day does to u... makes u lose energy, but i just wasn't hungry *shrug* when we got outta the movie, alexie, jonah & i waited for the others... then jonah HAD to go... so alexie & i just talked for a bit. finally my mom came... so alexie went to her car so she wouldn't get raped & i walked down the stairs quickly.

this is what happened. as i walked away from alexie i noticed 2 guys had eyeballed me... but i ignored it... until i realized they followed behind me down the stairs. s0o i just casually crossed the street & turned around... so did they. i stood there.. then my phone rang... it was mommy. thank gosh. then the boys turned around & said:
boy: "hey girl"
me: "o ur talking to me =) hey"
boy: "what's ur name?"
me: "bri"
boy: "what school do u go to?"
me: *lie* "atlantic, u guys go to...?"
boys: "central, how old are u?"
me: "16..."
boy: "what grade are u going to?"
me: "11th"
boy: "ur cute."
me: "thank ya =)"
boy: "u gotta man?"
me: "yup yup"
other boy: "where is he?"
me: "o he just left..."
other boy: "well... thats not a good boyfriend... he just left u here?"
me: "yeah but he had his reasons."
other boy: "i wouldn't be leaving u if u were my pretty girl... i wouldn't trust people cause they'd steal ya."
me: +like what ur trying to do.+ "eh... i'm safe, for now?"
boy: "well, how long u 2 been going out?"
me: "8 months"
boy: "damn! ...... pause...... "so u goin' or u wanna chill with us?"
me: "sorry guys... i can't my ride is right there. see ya later."

interesting... s0o nerve wrecking... not used to being hit on. *shrug* but i left... and now i am here. talking to "ashaley the biatch pasion", jonah, jackie, & danielle. i gotta busy day 2morrow too... <3 holler sometime. don't be a stranger. xoxo.

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playmate101

:: 2004 11 June :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: WRITINGS ON THE WALL // DESTINY'S CHILD

*this week has been crazii. i felt it coming.
*seems as though nobody updates in woohu anymore, so i have been updating in livejournal. o well.

highlights this week:
-playing monopoly with ryan, jb & danielle.
-walking around the neighborhood.
-swimming, tanning, working out & losing major weight.
-arguing with jonah, almost breaking up =/
-watching MY BABY'S DADDY with ryan, jb, and dylan & beating up dylan after the movie was over. <3
-getting my horrible report card. (4 B's, 3 C's)
-finding out that shannon is going to park vista too. her mommy works there... another best friend i miss. can't wait. xoxo
-everything else that happened this week.

hopefully... i will see jonah 2night... and then... saturday i get my haircut & i think i might go stop into hollister for their sale... considering i had ANOTHER hollister dream last night. geesh. peace. hope everyone is enjoying summer.

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bocaheath05

:: 2004 9 June :: 9.14pm

ok, normally woohu is shitty, i find it amazing that earlier. oh like, 20 minutes ago, livejournal was being shitty.

i didn't do much today. my mom made me go to yoga with her. fun stuff, let me tell ya!

then we came home, ate lunch and kinda hung out, then we picked up amy, went to wal-mart, target and looked at model homes up in saturnia isles for the hell of it.

dropped amy off, went to my grandparents house in pompano for a little.

now i'm here. bored out of my mind, but i'm styaing in tonight. <3

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 8 June :: 10.50pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: ben folds - the luckiest

YOU ARE MAE WEST!
Va-Va-Voom! You're inner Bombshell is Mae West.
You've definitly got a lot of wit, a lot of
smarts, and you know how to use people to your
advantage. Ever heard the phrase "doesn't
take any crap from anybody"? Well that's
you! Just like Mae you never want to settle
down, and can't imagine being with just one man
for the rest of your life. You don't care about
conventions and have no filter from your brain
to you mouth. Check out the movie "She
Done Him Wrong" to see your inner
bombshell in all her voluptuous glory!


Who is your inner bombshell?
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spinoangel

:: 2004 8 June :: 9.43pm

bored
YOU ARE AUDREY HEPBURN
WORSHIP! You're inner Bombshell is the beautiful
Audrey Hepburn. Like her you've been blessed
with a "certain something" that no
one could describe accurately. You are more
reserved than other bombshells, and that shows
in your gentle, graceful nature. You like doing
things for other people and love volunteering
for your favorite charity. Yours is a rare gift
in this day and age. You don't need to show a
lot of skin to be sexy, all you need is your
eyes. To see Audrey at the top of her game
watch the movie "Breakfast at
Tiffanys".


Who is your inner bombshell?
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boricuababy

:: 2004 8 June :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: pissed off

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!..ITZ A WHOLE BUNCHA BULL SHIT!!!
omgf..i can't believe this..today when i got home from work i got a letter in the mail from coach erin..my cheer coach..and it was a letter saying how shez quitting..just like that..she said that "it's taking up too much of her time and energy"..can u believe that??..so now there's no more practices, no fundraisers, no car washes and worst of all NO SUMMER CAMP!! shez completely leaving us all hanging..all that time, effort and money spent was for absolutely nothinggggg..ayyy..this is bull shit i cant believe it..she already sent in the orders and all for new uniforms, warm ups, tee shirts, all that good stuff..what good is it if we dont have a coach or any place to practice..ugh..i really really hope we find a replacement before the end of the summer

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playmate101

:: 2004 8 June :: 3.58pm

now since i'm bored... quiz results & what not.
1.) Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2.) (Eliminate the asterisks)
3.) See what color you are
playmate101

YOU ARE MARILYN MONROE
Lucky you! You are a BOMBSHELL AMONG BOMBSHELLS,
Marilyn Monroe. You are the ultimate woman.
You've got style, class, sex appeal and most of
all "the look". You are every man's
dream girl, no matter what era. You're the
essence of everything feminine and sexy, but
are a little ditzy at times. All you need is
some red lipstick and some Chanel #5 and you've
got it made. Watch Marilyn float across the
screen in "The Seven Year Itch" to
see how a little bit of body language goes a
long way!


Who is your inner bombshell?
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You Are a Feminine Beauty!


You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him

You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion

This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers

You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible




What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)








Guys Like That You're Fun


You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing

That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back

You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys

But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you



What Do Guys Like About You? Take This Quiz :-)











Your Lip Gloss Flavor Is: Cotton Candy


You're a total girly girl who's every guy is sweet on.


You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals.


Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have.


No wonder Cotton Candy is your signature flavor. It's delicious, sugary, and fun - like you!



What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You? Take This Quiz :-)







You Are a Hype White Leather Shoulder Bag


You've got that whole retro-chic, girly thing going on

It's like you're right out of Breakfast at Tiffany's

You long for the days when all girls wore dresses and had pretty purses

But for now, you'll settle for being the foxiest girl in town




What Kind of Handbag Are You? Take This Quiz :-)







You Are a Brazilian Bikini!


You are confident, flirty, and rockin' in a skimpy bikini.

You've got the bod to wear almost any swimsuit...

So you choose minimal coverage - and maximum tan




What Kind of Bikini Are You? Take This Quiz :-)









You are Slinky Heels!


You're an uptown, well put together woman

But you're not too uptight to enjoy a hot club

You're always the best dressed chick in the room

And you'll only settle for the best in men




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You've Got Guys Lined Up Around the Block


While your little black book isn't as thick as Paris Hilton's...

You get the most dates of any girl you know

It's your whole five star package that attracts men -

Your looks, your charm, and your ability tie a cherry with your tongue.





Are You Attractive? Take This Quiz :-)


You Will Be a Modern Bride!


While you aren't ready to throw away all wedding tradions, you want a wedding with a twist

You're more inspired by celebrity weddings on E! than from bridal magazines

Whether this means getting married on the beach barefoot or a mariachi band for the reception...

Your wedding will be a blend of old and new - white dress cocktail, personalied vows, whatever suites you!




What Kind of Bride Will You Be? Take This Quiz :-)


You Should Honeymoon in Mexico!


After planning your wedding, all you want to do is relax

No busy honeymooon for you. You'll take a warm beach and a cool cocktail.

Plus, you can stay in a super swank hotel for cheap

And discover that there's little better than a pool with a built in bar!



Suggested destinations: Cancun, Acapulco, Cabo San Lucas, Cozumel




Where Should You Go On Your Honeymoon? Take This Quiz :-)


h2>Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Heart Diamond!
You wear your heart on your sleeve, so of course you should also wear it on your ring.

A heart diamond is the perfect choice for highlighting your passionate disposition.

Only a true romantic can get away with wearing this ring. Luckily, that's you.

And only a true romantic can give you this ring, so make sure you find him...!




What's Your Dream Engagement Ring? Take This Quiz :-)






What Guys Think of Your Medium Straight Hair...


Smart, optimistic, easy going.


You're the thinking man's ideal woman - bright, funny, and no drama.




What Do Guys Think of Your Hair? Take This Quiz :-)






You Are Low Maintenance


Otherwise known as "too good to be true"

You're one laid back chica - and men love that!

Just remember that no good guy likes a dormat.

So if you find your self going along to get along...

Stop yourself and put up a little bit of a fight.




Are You High Maintenance? Take This Quiz :-)

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