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2005 21 September :: 10.53pm
October 14th @ 8pm IM ON SALE!!!
Morning Star bitches. its a man auction...like a bacholer thing but less dressy and so much hotter. so please ladies come bid on me or at least be there to make me feel like im hott...cause god knows ima need it. SO SERIOUSLY PELASE COME I WANT YOU TO BID ON THIS HOTT PIECE OF ASS HERE.
i really hope you guys show up. come on you know you want to.
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2005 21 September :: 6.08am
i worked at lazerskate last night for the first time in just about forever.
finally a day off. a whole WEEK off at that. now i can just relax, be sad about the pageant... and perhaps start writing my speech! how sad is that! i have like 2 days to write my farewell speech.. ah well. im sure it'll be wonderful, its just hard for me dealing with the realization that is over.
on a side note..... did ANYONE realize exactly how soon homecomming is?! urghhh!
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bigwilly
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2005 21 September :: 12.47am
Hmm.. I'm bored - gotta get ready for kctc in about 4 hours.. hmm
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2005 20 September :: 10.46pm
what is good about me?
Desires/ Pleasures
autonomy
trustworthiness of others
loyalty
fidelity
to know the hidden motives of others
the appearance of righteousness
secrecy
privacy
a double life
vigilance
wariness
suspicion
adversaries, enemies, grudges
authority
superiority
self-sufficiency
independence
control
perfection
withdrawal
self-criticism
being special
isolation
Fears/ Distresses (anxiety)
being controlled
subordination
deviousness
deception
treachery
closeness
being covertly manipulated
interference of others
being put down
being discriminated against
secret coalitions formed by others
being undermined or depreciated by others
humiliation
being abused or being taken advantage of
being demeaned
authority/authority figures
those he or she sees as weak, soft, sickly or defective
inferiority
making mistakes
being different from others
obviously absofuckinglutely nothing.
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2005 20 September :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: tired
Its been awhile since I wrote in here but everything is going really good. Working at the Tanning place 3 days a week and working at the farm 3 days a week too kinda sucks but what can ya do. I need money. I have worked at the tanning place for about a month and I love it, its so much fun. Working at the farm sucks but its good money and its only for about a month. It was nates 17th birthday a couple a days ago and then yesterday was our 10 month anniversary!! He got me a dozen pink roses, a box of chocolate and a glitter/lava lamp thing. Oh he is just so good to me!! I love him so much. Well I guess since I have talked about work and my love life I guess I should talk about school. I really hate school. I hate waking up and most of all I hate spanish 4. Its the worst. Alls I want right now is to be done with high school and move on. I wanna start my life. Its just so boring. The only thing I like about high school is the dances and I am really not even that excited about homecoming. Its weird. I know I will get more excited as it comes closer and plus I will be with the sexy boy ever. hehehe!! So I guess I have rambled on about nothing for long enough now.
P.S If anyone knows how to put pictures on here let me know because I wanna put my senior pics on here. Thanks
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2005 20 September :: 2.53pm
:: Music: Midtown~So Long As We Keep Our Bodies
I have nothing.
crash!
Gilly! I love you!!
quit making me smile when I try so hard not to, it makes it harder to get over.
honestly, where are you when I so desperately need you?
I wish I could answer my own questions.
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2005 20 September :: 12.41am
:: Music: Any Thing.
Some day i will die.
Sitting in the grass outside of town staring into a dark and cloudy sky with the wind blowing fierce as hell into my face and my hair going everywhere and slapping my cheeks and pricking my eyes and forcing them to water...i couldnt have been happier. i hate sunny days. i wish every fucking day was cold windy and dark...things just feel better on days like today. so while i was sitting there i kinda thought to myself...what the fuck? i mean like i want to feel so happy and free...and i fucking had the chance...the perfect chance in life to just go and be alive and free....i fucking threw it away....and why? i dont really know. i mean i thought about it later tonight when i was at ihop with sam. why didnt i take my chance and run away to detroit. would it have been coward like to run away from all my problems like that? was i afraid i was going to hurt someone or something? theres no one here who loves me, so im not going to fucking leave anyone behind who would fucking die without me . so i didnt go...obviously and im kinda regretting it...but i also think. i kinda want to really earn my freedom. and quitting my job was the best thing for me right now. the first real step to getting away. im sure you think im fucking stupid for doing it especially with all the expenses i have right now. BUT i dont fucking care. it was the best thing i could have done for myself. im away from that low paying assine time consuming smelly hell. so ive got a couple jobs that look promising god damn i hope one comes through for me soon and fast god please. so yeah hopefully ill get this new job and money will no longer be a problem and for gods good sake ill be able to start saving a little money fucking christ. you know. anyway. so yeah i was a fucking dick to alot of people and i realize that i talk out of my ass alot about issues i dont have place to stick my nose in. im admitting it and stopping it sorry. really i am fucking sorry. and i thank a certain person for accepting the fact that i fucked up and forgiving me today. you know who you are so thanks. and im sorry if anyone else was pissed the fuck off by me. im really sorry. im done with that sticking my nose anywhere i can bullshit. i realize i stay in my life and my bussiness....not yours. sorry. seriously. anyway other than that wow...i suck. and life is still feeling kinda good even though things sorta fucking suck....when it comes to money issues. but yeah ill get over it. sorry bitches. so im rambling now cause im all out of things to say. i love life and all of you. sorry. o and a really big sorry to a couple of folks. SORRY STACY. SORRY JAY. SORRY DERRIK. yeah thats it.
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2005 19 September :: 6.11am
its laguna beach night....
mwah ha ha.. *points at brad and keegan* that means for you guys as well.
i went to bridgeway with my friend becca yesterday... i liked it. next sunday me and keegan are gonna check out res life in rockford. we've been wanting to find a good church... any suggestions.
i dont feel like doing anything this morning.... *cries... i wanna sleep
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2005 18 September :: 6.44pm
I had a dream last night, and you were in it. I don't understand that after so long of denying everything, I can still feel like this, and it makes everything in the past seem to not matter, and it makes it all seem SO far in the past. I don't know, I hate getting myself all confused over something that so obviously isn't meant to be, but when I'm sleeping, I don't control what I think about! I've said SO MANY times that it could never in a million years happen, and I hate everything that everyone tells me about it too, but then when it comes down to it, I think, well, I don't really see why not, I mean, what's in the past is in the past, right? I wish I could take everything back that I have said about this topic sometimes, but I can't, and you only know what I've told you, so you couldn't know that I have second thoughts about it every day! oh well....the truth has a way of coming out in the end....it always does.
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2005 15 September :: 10.52pm
i spoke to soon.
what was i thinking?! it was only 10... i should have KNOWN that there was still time to end on a bad note and go to sleep pissed off. i should have KNOWN that i wouldnt be able to sleep tonight because somebody doesnt care when im upset. but wait... "what was he supposed to say" it wasnt the time nor the place was it? because you were off busy having fun werent you. well ya know what... i dont KNOW what time i'll get around to calling you in the morning. and when you read this late at night when you get home, i hope you're just as upset and pissed off as i am. because there are things you're gonna wanna talk to me about and "you cant" because i'll be sleeping. bummer huh. to bad how that works. how one of goes to school and the other doesnt. ya SORRY i cant answer my phone during class by the way.
goodnight darling.
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2005 15 September :: 10.11pm
me and danielle just went shopping.... i didnt know it was possible to laugh so much in one simple trip to the mall.. giggles.
less than 2 weeks.... and then our reign is over. im so sad... but at least im out of denial! laughs.... and i havent had a nightmare in a few nights.... woot woot.
keegans out dancing right now... well practicing anyways. *smiles...... all it takes is his name.. and ughrlekjraslk... i dont even know. every day it gets stronger, everyday he becomes more beautiful than the last... emotionaly, physically, spiritually.... and i love it because we're growing into one relationship instead of 2 different parts of one. and that doesnt even make sence, and i dont even make sence, but thats ok. because it doesnt have to.
i got the CUTEST little boxer shorts from american eagle tonight.. aww.
alright.. off to bed.
SEPTEMBER 25TH DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES COMES BACK!
could i BE any more excited?! *giggggles
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2005 15 September :: 10.05pm
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2005 15 September :: 5.40pm
ugggghghag;aslkgjasl;dkgjaskgj this place is dumb
i know where i want to be though
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2005 15 September :: 5.37pm
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack - Everything Is Alright.
Alright...Just Alright
Maybe this world aint such a bad place after all you know?
I mean there are troubling times, i just got out of 3, so im not saying its perfect.
But maybe its just alright from time to time.
We are all gonna make it through somehow.
Im done worrying so fucking much.
I've made my first big mistake...i was scared big time. but after i fixed it i realize how imporant making those big mistakes is to forming your personality. and now im ready to make some more....just with more insignt this time.
Life Is Good.
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