*-|If there ever comes a day, When we can't be together, Keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever.|-*
*-|If you live to be 100, I want to live to be 100 minus one day, so I never have to live without you.|-*
*-|We will be friends until forever, just you wait and see.|-*
- Winnie the Pooh
Goals are very important to have in one's life. Goals centralize the mind on reaching a destination that is wanted. All hopes and dreams are driven by the desire to accomplish them, so one could argue that life is an ambition -- a dream -- a hope -- some sort of strange goal -- and that life only goes on because of the wanting to go somewhere -- and anywhere. This could also mean that birth symbolizes the creation of a dream and that death symbolizes the completion and accomplishment of life. If life is a dream, then all we aspire in will come true if we believe enough.



 

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xThisTimeImperfectx

:: 2004 14 May :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: "A Winter's Tale" // AFI

What an Amusing Day!
Today would've been a better day if we didn't have school. I didn't enjoy school at all. ^_^ But that's normal for mostly anyone. After school was pretty awesome. Steph and Mary came over and we hung out.
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We got out of school and went into my mom's car, drove to my house for..no reason really, and then we walked to the store for Mary to buy cruches. And we got on line for them and ladies started talking to us. O_o; So after we went to Steph's house. Then we went to Burger King and we started saying Mary got hit by a train, and that Steph did too. After we finished that, Steph and I pretended that we were breaking up and then we got back together. Was quite amusing. ^^;

Then we went to Steph's house again and then we went to buy Mary fish. When Mary got fish, I started to talk to it. We had a great conversation actually! I highly reccommend talking to fish, you'll get a decent conversation out of them. But the thing is, I couldn't understand why that guy was scared of me when I was talking to that fish. I mean, it's perfectly normal, isn't it? Hm. People these days! O_o;;;

Then we got home and I asked to call Alexis. o.o So I did. And we talked randomly, and so did Mary and Steph. It was fun! o_O In my opinion anyway, because they all amuse me. n_n;;

Then Steph, Mary and I went to Harrison Ave and we met this Mexican guy that I didn't want to meet because I'm scared of them. But when we did, he gave Steph a pack of >>;; yeah. Ciggerettes. After, Mary was walking and threw Steph's shirt on a wire and we had to go all the way to Steph's house to pick up the cruches. o_o It was my idea. So then we got to her house, grabbed them and her sister and then we ran back and got it down. Then after I had to go home but I did for five minutes and then went to BK to meet them. Mary's dad picked us up from there and Steph, her sister and I were dropped off at her house. I stayed there till 10:20, then Steph's mom drove me home.

And now I'm incredibly bored and my spelling is getting worse. o_o Okay. I'm done and off to write about Davey!

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 14 May :: 7.59am
:: Music: D12: My Band (lol)

The update of ALL updates.
Well, alot going on...maybe I should tell you what's happenin huh?

Well... as of two nights ago, me and Kara Colley are going out. I pray that we get along unlike my many other past girlfriends. No, I'm not a man whore.

But anywho, Saturday is our band performance at a local church. And our Busch Gardens band Trip is next saturday. And as for our 8th grade festivities;

May 17- Crazy hair Day/Twin Day
May 18- Clash Day
May 19- Highschool Spirit Day/Sunsplash
Trip/Band Award Ceremony
May 20- Barbeque/Award ceremony
May 21- Busch gardens Band Trip

Any other things i missed, please post. I would like to make my last couple of weeks enjoyable at Trafalgar....

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 13 May :: 7.43am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Story of the Year - Anthem of our Dying Day









Does the sky look cloudy to you?









no? maybe it's just me

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 12 May :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: tired

i hope this isnt too long for u to read
For some reason I feel really weird writing in here. Oh well...I'll do it anyway.

I was going to write in here on Monday because that was the 1 year anniversary of my aunt dieing but I got in trouble for losing my P.E shorts so I couldn't. Lots of stuff has happened since I last wrote. On Saturday morning I slept until 10:00 because my sister woke me up just to say she was leaving to go pick up her car. (She left her car at her friends house because she was too drunk to drive home the night before) I watched T.V until about noon and then I went on the internet out of boredom. I called back Jennifer and when I was on the phone with her I nearly killed my finger. I was shutting a door that seperates the computer room/dining room from the kitchen and I pulled it out of the wall. I guess I wasn't paying attention and pulled to far because some how it cut my finger really bad. So I screamed and waved my finger around which made blood hit the door. (Aren't you so happy I added that little detail?) I hung up and then went running into the kitchen and my sister put water on it and was squeezing it with a paper towel but it wouldn't stop bleeding so she said that I might have to get stitches. I am deathly afraid of hospitals. I've never been in one to get something done to me but I've seen what they do to other people and since I haven't had another Tetnis shot I was even more scared. Luckily I didnt have to go to the hospital and I didn't have to go to softball either. What a lovely paragraph describing that.

I'm going to skip to Monday. I lost my P.E shorts and then I got in trouble for it. My parents were being such asses. I think my dad really doesnt like me. I know he loves me but I dont think he likes me. (I'm going to go back to Sunday for a second) I was at the kitchen table and my grandma had just left so I said "I don't think grandma likes me." then my mom said "Neither do I." She kind of sighed like she was ashamed of my grandma. (Monday again) So I got sent to bed early for lipping off when I was defending myself. They kept telling me that my P.E shorts were in my room and that I wasn't looking hard enough. Its sort of hard to find something when it isn't there. I kept insisting they weren't. I was right. Yesterday I found my shorts in my softball bag and my mom said she looked there. Guess she didn't look hard enough.

Tuesday was a really bad day. During L.A somehow a conversation about Stephanie got started. Bobby, who sits in front me, turned around and started asking about her. Jessica and I were telling him some stuff that we probably shouldn't have. Lynn was sitting behind me and she said a few things too. Bobby asked us we why hang out with her and I said that I didn't and Lynn said she didn't know. I wonder if she only hangs out with her because Sarah does..maybe Lynn wants to be better but she is afraid to be a leader. I think Bobby was fascinated by her...but not impressed. He called her a slut a few times and said she was dumb. I thought that he wasn't that type of person but I'm glad I was wrong. So somewhere during the conversation I said "She doesn't like me" then he said "Its cause you're not a slut" (or something very close to that) So that made me feel happy that he said that and was nice to me because after the whole thing with Dani and Tyler I wasn't sure any of them would be nice.

When I got home I had about an hour and then I had to go to softball but the game wasn't so bad..I actually got a hit. I also had to slide and I was really scared but I did alright. Then I got home again and went on the computer while trying to do the "To Kill a Mockingbird" questions. (they should have an underlining button on here) I got called to dinner and my mom,who is supposed be on some special diet and shit that she paid $800 for, was eating so much bad food. I really want this to work for her so I got pretty upset when she was eating all the unhealthy food. I sort of whined/yelled at her for it and nobody said anything. Then I swallowed a really hot piece of potatoe and it hurt so I was squirming and trying to make it go down. She shoved a glass of milk in my face and told me to drink it. I yelled again "I don't want that!" or something. My sister, Mary, got really pissed at me for doing that. She yelled at my mom for not yelling at me for yelling at her. My dad has had a tendency to be extra mean and...dangerous lately because he is trying to quit smoking. I think hes compensating for not smoking by drinking more. (Doesnt all this smoking and drinking shit sound like its out of one of those lifetime movies with the delinquent dads who beat their kids?) The drinking causes him to have a shorter fuse and that is on a man whose fuse is normally like an inch. He has always been violent and I think he is more powerful than he realizes. Part of that might be because he was a cop and was trained to be very aggressive. So like a maniac he got from from the table went around and pulled me up from my seat by my ponytail. Then he pulled me backwards right next to the wall and pushed me onto the ground and yelled "Sit there!...facing the wall! For the rest of dinner. You can eat yours when the rest of us are done!" I know that sounds really bad and that the people *Jessica* might not believe the he would do that but he really did. I am not exagherrating. (sp) My mom was very upset and my sister defended me slightly, only saying that he shouldnt be so rough. (I used that comma wrong. GOD DAMN THE COMMAS! I HATE THEM!) My mom told me to come back to the table and finish eating. I went back to the table but I did not finish eating. That sort of stuff makes you lose your appetite. I sat there drinking my milk and glaring at the other 4. Then my mom said to clear my plate and go do my homework. My dad got really mad at that and yelled at her. Trying to impress my she went to drastic measures. She yelled "Alright! Clear your plate, Marilyn, take your shower, and get into bed." I argued saying that I didn't finish my homework yet and she said "Thats too bad. Go to bed." then I said "I will get a detention if I dont do it." so she said "I don't care. You can't get by with being so rude to me" So I said alright and cleared my plate. Then I went to sign off the internet and talked to some people for a while when it occured to me that I should have been doing my homework instead. My mom came in as if afraid and said "I'll get in lots of trouble with your father if he finds out so finish your homework really fast." I finished it.

Today I realized once again how much I hate Sarah. Just staring at her makes me sick. She eats so much and has acne because she is fat. Its so revolting. Maybe some of its genetics because her mom is really fat but my mom and dad are really fat and I'm not fat. She is a very rude person too and shallow. Oh yes, and a hugeass follower. Her and Stephanie are like twins. Why don't they just live together and do everything the same exact way. Today in enrichment class Stephanie was looking at a magazine and making fun of every ugly person or the people making weird faces. Then she would laugh and say "Toot." or "Sarah, look" Then Sarah would begin a "Hehehehhe" type of annoying laugh. I bet if I was in a magazine they looked at they would spend hours laughing at my picture. Dumb bitches. One of the most annoying things about Sarah is how dumb she sounds whenever she talks. I suppose the 2 of them think its cool to sound like complete dumbasses. Sarah started it all. They will say stuff like "continue" instead of "Keep going" or whatever. They also rarely finish a sentence. If you ask them about someone they saw you'll get. short little phrases like "Mexican. Tall. Jersey. Hat." AH! SPEAK IN COMPLETE SENTENCES YOU FUCKIN IDIOTS! I also feel like Sarah is using me again for a ride home and someone for someone at softball. SOFTBALL IS OVER ON MY BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! After that I don't have to be friends with her. I will still have to give her a ride home from school but in no way will I ever feel like I have to be nice to her or apologize when I was rude or anything. She called me a bitch when she was pissed at me. I DONT CARE! I could care less what she thinks of me after that. I know that someday if she continues the way shes going I will have a better life and be a whole lot smarter. I know that sounds really bad and very mean. I'm sorry but I just don't care. I have put up with so much shit from her over the past year and half that she doesn't deserve me being nice to her. Real friends will never make fun of you behind your back. I only do that to her because she is not a real friend and could never be unless she really wanted to be...unless she cared. She even makes fun of Stephanie behind her back. Asshole. They are supposed to be best friends yet she does that anyway. Disgusting. When I get home from graduation that night I will go and take a shower. The shower will not just be a regular shower but it symbolize me being done with everything. When you graduate from anywhere you have to choose to keep your friendships alive. If you don't choose to do that they die like anything would if it was neglected. I CHOOSE NOT to keep that friendship alive. In fact I want it to wither up and die. I'd start neglecting it now if I could but sadly, I still have to keep it alive for 9 more days. I think that maybe all that matters to her is the amount of friends she has. Even if keeping new friends requires stepping on the old ones and treating them like shit. Another thing that bothers me is when she makes plans with people right in front of you. I know that she can't include everyone but still. It is so rude. I don't start making plans and stuff with people right in front of her. She doesn't have manners. Several times Mikaela wanted to go to the movies at softball with her so they began planning it right in front of me. Them Mikaela would say "Marilyn, you can go if you want." She has manners. Even if the invitation is fake at least she makes the effort to say it. I am a bit sensitive but I know what is rude and it bothers me.

I hope that after all that meaness you will understand that I really am nice...when I want to be. Actually I try to be nice to everyone until they have given me a reason to be mean. Even then I try to suck it up. I don't know how well that works but I do try. Sarah just imed me... bye

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xThisTimeImperfectx

:: 2004 12 May :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: "I Must Be Dreaming"- Evanescence

Boredem never ends
Hm. I'll post the lyrics to that, because I think it's pretty good.

I Must Be Dreaming
By Evanescence

How can I pretend that I don't see
What you hide so carelessly?
I saw her bleed
You heard me breathe
And I froze inside myself
And turned away
I must be dreaming

We all live
We all die
That does not begin to justify you.

It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No, I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind
Not in real life
No, I must be dreaming

Help you know I've got to tell someone
Tell them what I know you've done
I fear you but spoken fears can come true.

We all live
We all die
That does not begin to justify you.

It's not what it seems
Not what you think
No I must be dreaming
It's only in my mind
Not in real life
No I must be dreaming

Not what it seems
Not what you think
I must be dreaming

Just in my mind
Not in real life
I must be dreaming.
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...Now that I've got that out I can start on my actual entry.
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Today was a sucky day like any other. I didn't do anything really but go over Steph's and do homework, then went home. It was fun though because we listened to soundclips of her and her friend Eve. They were pretty funny. Hm. Now I'm doing nothing and she has (one of) my wonderful AFI CD. But that's okay because she's trying to play Silver and Cold on the piano for me. <333

DAMN. NO ONE IS ONLINE. I COMMAND SOMEONE TO SIGN ON RIGHT NOW.

NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWN-- ...NOT SIGN OFF. GODDAMNIT

...:D Anyway! I'm so lonely. But I think I'll take this time to increase my vocabulary. Because I really think I need that. ^_^

Okay next entry: Possibly about Davey Havok.

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xThisTimeImperfectx

:: 2004 10 May :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: bored

o.o i am so bored. um. that's all

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cradleofilth

:: 2004 9 May :: 10.54pm
:: Mood: so so..

well well well...
i havent updated in such a long long time...but i finally did...lots of things happened recently *nodnod* got in fight with a so called friend, went to busch gardens, tried out for smmb and made it *cheers*, and somehow became closer to my sister.....so its been a rather eventful time since i was last here *nodnod*


i finally fixed the backround to my journal....i dunno why my website wont host my images i stick on it >.<...but i found an alternate way, and it actually worked...so its all good^^
*sigh* schools out soon..but than again, its not really gonna end for me...because i have guard practice for mariner all summer..and the last few weeks of summer is band camp...so school shall never end for me...but at least i'll be doing something fun while im there ^___^ im such a guard nerd, lol...

i have to finish this dumb book for french by tuesday...not reallytoo fun to do, im missinf half the stuff to do it, argh...but i guess i'll have to improvise...

well, they finally put the pictures up from f.f.c.c championships so yeah, i might as well show em to ya....they got such bad piccies of meh...but i can live with it i guess *nodnod* no harm done.

Fear my blue and neon green guard uniform of doom!!!!! lol...

whole guard (informal)






whole guard (formal)



meh in action *hides*




so yeah...arent they bad?.....well anywhos at busch gardens i had soo much fun!!!! i was hanging out with amanda, kristen, morgan, shelly, mitchel, corey, alexa, and jamie...it was great ^____^ we rode all this stuff and we saw this really cool performance thingy called "katonga" i bought this cool lil red swirling thingy ^^

we rode this one air car thingy that like went all through the park...and all these people were making out in it, it was kinda nasty, but funny ^^ because there was like 4 in a row!!!! we were saying wierd things to the people in in the lil car thingys as they passed us ^^

the spring concert is on tuesday! yay! the final day i have to wear my ugly green and blue glowstick-ish uniform!!!!! woohoo! i just hope i dont mess up when i perform >.<
W00t! i can catch triples and quads on my rifle now! yays!...well..i can catch them sometimes..lol...rarely...but hey, at least i can catch them now >.> hehe... well i think im gonna end this post for now...because i think i took up waaaaayyyy too much room already...hehe....so im out for now,

Joe



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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 9 May :: 2.02pm
:: Music: TA Kingdoms Theme Song

April showers bring damp
Subject ring a bell Elanna? Haha.

Well....mother's day today... of course, mine isn't home. As ehr "present" I am supposed to do yard work. Pshh... yeah right.

Anywho. . .not much else to do today other than sit on the computer and talk. Busch Gardens trip for the 8th grade was yesterday, and I, of course, have had too many referals to go on it. But I'm going on the Busch Gardens trip for Band so all is well.

summer s p r i n g fall winter
-Robert

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Jessika

:: 2004 8 May :: 12.47am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: tv

Updating here for a change!!
So...I went to Flight of Angels. Two of the three were excellent wth plots and acting and such...one kinda sucked. I found that one to be rather boring and hard to follow...oh well. I went with Tiphani and Lori...Maggie and Molly were there. I was kinda mean to Maggie, but then wasn't...oh well again :-p. Tommorrow: Van Helsing NOONISH!!! I wanted to talk to Nicko, but could not find him(or did not look very hard) and I must call him tommorrow!!! EARLY! Ok. I shall sleep now. :)

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 7 May :: 9.34am
:: Mood: moody

i'm shedding every color...trying to find a pigment of truth within myself. it's different that your away and that my soul and hand can't grasp yours......
Woke up at 7:05 to go to 8:00 A.M Band Tutoring. . only to find that it was canceled

I began to walk home again. Circling the bus ramp once so that I am not to stay at home that long when I got there.... you wouldn't want to stay in my household. Passed a cardinal on my way home. Landed on a dead branch on a shrub and then looked at me for a brief second, then flew away.


When I dream, I dream of what c o u l d be. . .
-Robert

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 7 May :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: doopster poopy!
:: Music: He lives in You - Lion King II: Return to Pride Rock soundtrack

a looooong entry
Howdy! I suppose I shall start with this weekend. (I like this song - 'tis purdy indeed. You should watch the movie *nodnod*)
This Saturday was my mom's birthday. My sister and I woke up early (7:45. That is THE CRACK OF DAWN FOR ME! I usually wake up at 11 on the weekends) and went downstairs to try and cook mom breakfast. Denise was going to do the eggs while I made the waffles. I toasted the waffles and Denise tried to start the stove. Unfortunately Mom came out and saw, since she was sleeping downstairs in the other room thing. We told her to go back to bed anyway and she did. She was just paranoid when she heard someone trying to turn on the stove (it's a gas stove so when you turn it on it makes a clickety noise). Since mom could live off of fruit and nuts, I cut up a pear and took out some carmelized pecans (those are so good). When the waffles were done I put the pears on the waffles and the nuts as well and put whipped cream on the top. Denise finished with her part (eggs and some cereal with some more stuff Mom likes in it) and (I have a lot of parenthesis in this entry, so I thought i'd add another in just for fun) we went outside to the side garden place with the hammock and carefully picked a few small flowers to garnish the plates. We presented it to Mom and she was so happy. She made us help her eat it because it was too much for her to finish.
She got a lot of birthday calls that day (well duh, it was her birthday after all. [Hey look! It's a parenthesis within a parenthesis!]). Oooh and know what? Invader Zim was on that day! Yush it was was! Dib is so awesome.
Later that day I got ready to go to my friend's house so we could see her in the play Oliver at her school. She lives close to the school, so her family, Cassie ([yet another parenthesis thing] Another one of my friends from my old school) and I walked. Her mom is really cool, and her little brother Ian, is so cute!
We saw David Marusiac, I danced with him at the last St. Cat's dance, and I have to say that since I went to school with him, he has changed a lot. He used to tuck his shirt in, which happened to be a button up plaid long-sleeved one most of the time, during free dress, and now he spikes his hair and is a lot more laid back with his clothing: baggy hoodie sweatshirts and more-comfortable-looking pants. Since I didn't give a very good description of the people from that school before, I will try to now. David M is probably about 5'4" or so. He's a blonde-haired, blue/green-eyed guy with a slender frame that can sometimes be slightly hunched over (I think his posture has gotten better though). Personality-wise he's really friendly and I nice person to talk to when you get the chance.
The play was done very well (they actually have a good drama program, unlike my current school. When I was there I was in the production Peter Pan and it was so much fun.) As usual, Vinton got one of the better parts. I mentioned him in another entry but I don’t think I described him much either. Vinton is maybe an inch or two taller than me with hair he spikes that is dark enough to be considered black unless you look very closely (in the play he was wearing a grey wig and a goutee). His skin is about as pale as mine (and I’m pretty pale), and he has these very noticeable green eyes. He also has a very slender frame and from what Julie tells me, he has a six pack now O_o (this is a good thing, people. Yush indeed). He takes pride in his Persian background, even though we try and convince him the Persians are extinct. His parents even gave him a few real swords and an axe for his birthday, which he keeps hanging over his bed. That’d suck if there was an earthquake, wouldn’t it? He’s one of the best actors in the school nevertheless in our grade, as I believe I mentioned before, and he’s a very interesting person to be around.
Anyway, he played the character Faygen, head of the pick-pockets.
Just to warn you, there be more big fat descriptions ahead, mateys.
When the play ended, we waited for Marianne, who played the mother who dies in the beginning, a chimneysweep, a waitress during “Oom pa pa”, and a pick-pocket. We also waited for Julie, who played a pick-pocket, a waitress in “Oom pa pa”, and a strawberry seller that sings. Oh I know you were just longing for another description, so here it is.
Marianne is either the same height or half an inch taller than me, with thin tawny hair that she keeps pulled back most of the time. She takes a lot of pride in her English background, and if you see her room, she has an English flag rug and a huge English flag hanging on her wall. She’s the type of person that takes and interest in dancing and singing and that shtuff.
Julie is one of my best friends. She’s of Italian background with dark-ish brown hair that goes a little past her shoulders. She has large brown eyes and is probably around 5’3 1/2” or 5’4”. She’s very insecure about herself, even though she is one of the most-fit and smartest person I know (should it be “people I know”?). She has very well set down morals and sticks to them. She does not believe in ghosts or anything else supernatural except for the idea of God, because she was brought up that way. Every time I call her or talk to her or want to get together to do something she is always doing homework, and beats herself up if she ever finds herself procrastinating (which in her case is studying for a test that is on Wednesday on Sunday. Overall though, she is one of the coolest people I know, and it’s pretty obvious that she’s going to go far in life. She takes piano and loves it, as well as singing, though she beats herself up over that as well by saying she’s not good even though she is.
We visited for a little while until Julie had to leave, and then I took Marianne’s chimney sweep and her hat along with a fake cigar that shot smoke out of it if you blew in to it and danced around on the empty stage. A little while later they chased after me because I was embarrassing them and Cassie wanted to take one of the props I was using away from me. So I went off stage for a bit and talked with David Hasbany, a really nice guy in my class that worked as backstage crew during the play. Yes, another description. I shall try to keep it brief. David is already 6’1” or maybe a few inches taller. Maybe it was 6’3”. Anyway, as you can guess, he’s pretty good at basketball. He has naturally tan skin and dark brown hair. He smiles a lot and is very nice and polite. Fun to talk to. He always says hi. Yush he is cool indeed.
So I talked with him for a bit and then went on my quest for hats. I found David’s brother, Zach, who played the bad guy in the play. He’s in the 6th grade and already must be 5’10”. In the play he wore a crumpled top hat and I asked him if I could wear it and he let me. He looks just like his brother, with only a few differences. At the time his teeth were all red because he had gotten shot at the end of the play and had a blood capsule in his mouth that he bit. However I didn’t get to wear the hat long. I think he had to go somewhere so he took it back. I then found Vinton and asked if I could wear his hat, which had once been a top hat. He had cut the top off very short and covered it again so the hat reminded me of some sombraro-like thing. I wore it for maybe a minute or so, Vinton’s little sister staring strangely at me the whole time, and then he said “Okay, your moment of glory is over” and took the hat back despite my protests. So I went back to dancing around on stage with the chimney sweep and cigar (Cassie had stolen Marianne’s hat and wouldn’t give it back).

We went back to Marianne’s house, and I had a moment of feeling bad because I wondered if I was obnoxious. It didn’t seem like I bothered many people, but you never know. I have my insecure moments. Because my mom and Cassie’s dad was already on their way to pick us up and we couldn’t go out for ice cream like Marianne’s mom had planned, we made snow cones over at her house. ‘Twas cool indeed. And I like the spoons! Of course, Ian, Marianne’s youngest brother, made sure I had given the spoon back before I left because he was very attached to his special snow cone spoons.

Sunday was Mom’s family birthday party. Not really anything exciting happened there except I saw family. David, my little cousin, is having his first birthday in a few weeks. He’s so cute. He’s gotten a lot more hair and he has these bright blue eyes. His sister, Anna is blonde-haired, blue eyed, and you can tell she’s half Swedish most definitely. She’s so sweet and cute! “Jessie! You want to go bounce on the trampoline with me?” Yush yush cute indeed.

Let’s see now.. Monday. Let me see if I can remember what happened on Monday. Mrs. Gurries moved the science test to Wednesday instead of Friday or Thursday, and Marilyn played hookie that day. Oh yeah, we got a math-free math period and instead helped clean up our principal’s retirement dinner by taking down the big fat decorations. Our vice principal will take over as principal, which really sucks because I don’t like her. And what’s even worse is that a substitute teacher that hates me, Mrs. Duffy, will be vice principal. Blaag! She thinks I’m too random. Well you know what? That’s too bad!
Religion was funny. Kyle randomly asked if the bishop was Jewish. Miss Doherty looked at him weird and he said “Well he was wearing a yammakah!” Miss Doherty explained to him that a yammakah was different than a bishop hat. He didn’t say it to be stupid, just to be entertaining.
A little later in the day Jen said that Anna was going to tell her something about what some of the preps had said. Apparently they were talking bad about her. Once Jen found out, she said that if she felt like it, she would tell me. At lunch, And told me that Dani(ka), Tyler Lefeber, Matt DePaola, Nick Dazzi, and apparently Johnny Cvitanich were talking about the ugliest people in class. Dani and Tyler are major Abercrombie preps while I think the rest were just going with the conversation. They said that Ashley M was the ugliest girl in our grade, and that Jen Chau was the second. Jen is not ugly though. Then they went on naming people and said Louise is ugly (which she is not ) And then they named Marilyn and one of them said “Yeah their whole group is pretty ugly”. And nobody in our group is really ugly. Then they started talking about their own friends. Jessica Lenker is usually really nice. They said “Yeah, if Jess Lenker would just put a bag over her head she whould be the prettiest girl in the world.” Come on! You can’t say that about yoru own friends! “And Shannon look like a dragon.” Shannon is always being made fun of, and it pisses me off how she can just take it like that. She is annoying, but not really mean to any one or anything. It pisses me off. And who are they to say who is ugly? Dani is not pretty. She has dirty blonde hair that is naturally ringlet-curly, but she straightens it. And her straightening sucks. Might as well just call her Miss Frizz head. Her lower lip juts out more than her upper one so much that it seems like there is a crease there. She’s skinny and athletic and most people like her, but my point is that she is not perfect so I don’t know what she is talking about.

Tuesday, I can’t really remember anything significant that happened except I got in an argument with Mrs. Gurries because she thought I was reading a book when in fact I was writing in it. We were supposed to be correcting something and I had my book out ready to correct and was waiting for her to start when she called me up and made me give her the book. I thought the whole thing was funny, especially because it was Erin’s lotr book and didn’t even belong to me. Mrs. Gurries accused me of getting the workbook out to correct after she had called me up. That, of course, was impossible because I stood up immediately and would not have had time to find the page. ~sigh~ some people are so weird. I got it back later.

Wednesday we did our skits in history. Ours was good enough, though boring. Matt’s group, as usual, was the best because it was really funny. They did the Mexican war, so the scene started out with steven and ben sitting with sombreros on their heads playing the guitar. Then Matt shot some Americans with his fake shotgun and sword. Then came the whole war, were Matt would keep shooting people and they would die and then live and die again. Soon Nick Dazzi jumped in in a Zorro hat and a sword and yelled, “I am Zorro!” It was really funny. At lunch we sang song at the top of our lungs and created a whole musical.

Today nothing special happened except I was really hyper this morning and people kept asking if I was high off something. I had to do morning prayer, and during religion class, Marilyn and I had fun being sadistic masochists by hitting each other and laughing about it. Somehow I think I had more fun than she did because later she was complaining to Rose about a “bruise” I had given her when I kicked her. Lol :P Later though we continued our hitting battle after school. ‘Twas fun. Earlier that day though Maria was pissing me off. I was really grumpy, so I was being really mean to her, but she was pissing me off. In Language Arts I’m in a reading group with her and she kept saying how she was going to kill hamsters because she knows how pissed I get when she talks about that kind of stuff. So I hit her and stole her pen and it was fun because most of the reading group was on my side. Yup this is a long entry. I shall shut up now. Sorry to put you through any torture ^_^. Please comment.

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:: 2004 6 May :: 11.00pm

A lot of shitty stuff has gone on this week. I'm so tired out from all the softball and everything else that happened last week. The day off on Monday barely helped. At school there are a bunch of fucked up assholes that I hate cause they are so mean to everyone and deserve to be beaten severely. Dani is the biggest one. She said that I am one of the ugliest ones in the class. Anna over heard a bunch of the assholes talking about it in spanish and then she told Jessica who told me. WHAT MAKES HER THINK SHES SO GOOD LOOKING?! Just because Tyler says it doesnt mean its true. Her lips are huge. She straightens her hair which only makes it look so ugly and puffy and hideous. DUDE! IF YOU INSIST ON STRAIGHTENING YOUR CURLY HAIR MAKE SURE ITS STRAIGHT! NOT JUST ALL PUFFY! ITS LIKE SHE HAS A HEADFUL OF FUZZYS. UGLY,NASTY BLONDE FUZZYS! Then she has to show off her preppiness and say "Shannon,...ew. Don't do that" or "Ew you beast!" Tyler, who also was talking about me being ugly, had to sit at our table for a few minutes this morning but luckily he moved to a different one. Dani sits at my table..that means I would have been stuck with both of the them. I'm done talking about this. All I can say is that I hope they die. Or get hit in the head with a very large rock.
I mentioned Anna up there. That was when she was tollerable. I hate her now. Today during art she was insulting Jen who is one of her only friends at school. She was just trying to fit in with the popular people and stuff by saying that Jen was dumb for trying to get into the same classes as her for highschool. She continued with it when they were agreeing and laughing with her. Why do people do that? Envy will make people do the meanest and stupidest things ever. I feel sort of motherly but I almost want to protect Jen and tell her how bad Anna is.
Lately I have been so sad. The past 2 nights I've cried a long time before I fell asleep. On Monday when I stayed home from school I was flipping through the channels and there was a memorial for Pat Tillman. He grew up in the city I live in and he went to school at Leland. I go there on the weekends for softball. So they were talking about all this stuff and it was so depressing. I started to think about how young he was and all he could have done if he had lived..how great he could have been. Then they started describing him and he seemed really great. Almost like everyone would want to know him. There was a picture of him with his head on his wife's lap and they were both dressed in their wedding clothes. Everything that I saw I tried to find how it could be tied into his death and sort of foreshadow. All my thoughts were set to depressing "mode". So when I saw that picture and how his head was on her lap I thought about how if he was dead he would be laying there like that. She would be holding his head in her lap showing her dedication to him even though he was still dead. If I was a painter I would paint it like that. Sometimes I really wish I had the ability to draw. It sucks. I could paint so many things I have in my head.
I'm tired. Bye

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 6 May :: 8.10am
:: Music: Brittney Spears - Everytime







love will be there for you








i pray that it's not late

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 5 May :: 11.09am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Unfortunatley....Outkast.

Annoyed by the fact that I am told what to do on a daily basis....the penality of being a teenager.
Yeah....in computers once again.... forced to listen to a stupid Outkast song because of the kid next to me. (he's spanish.)

God.... have you ever had a dad that was an asshole? It seems that EVERYTHING I do annoys him and is wrong. It's not my fault I'm not perfect for him. (god, i hate that song by Simple Plan.) And he gives me so many things to do at once and expects me to remember them. And when I dont, he's gets SO pissed. Whatever, fuck him in the head.

Not much to do today..... my things for Baker High comes tomorrow in the cafeteria. Any suggestions for classes I should take? Baker is supposed to be the best school to prepare you for real life... acadamies ranging from 'Bio-Technology' all the wa to Construction and Police duties.


i'll s p l a s h you with my thoughts
-Robert

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:: 2004 4 May :: 11.09am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: listening to the computer's exhaust system...boring

The subjection to Tierany had forced me to update my journal.... sometimes, I wish it would all go away
But then again....I wish it wouldnt... because pain and pain again makes me feel better. Am I wrong?

Well....finished with my work in computer class. Thought I would update a bit. My music doesn't seemt ow rk anymmore...www.trixies-fantasy.com was suspended, so the music no longer works. Ughh...music was what made my journal's theme fit. But alas, no more.

In other news, MICHAEL IS GOING OUT BRITTANI KERSEY.


michael brittani
8====D . ;(); .


Haha....I'm so witty.
-Robert

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