Useless Ramblings

Useless Ramblings

:: 2004 25 June :: 12.19 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Bono, Gavin Friday, & Mauurice Seezer: Children of the Revolution

What makes you laugh?: Everything
Who is your hero?: Don't have one
Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?: I'm currently leaning towards Brian
How many pairs of shoes do you own?: Including sandals: 6
Seriously... Where does the other sock end up?: Somewhere between the dryer and my dresser
Who do you blame for your mood today?: Customers at work
If the Internet were sex... I would: Use dial-up because it's free through WMU, and it's slower (to prolong the effect)
Have you ever seen a dead body?: Yes
What is something scientists need to invent?: Exercise equipment that doesn't involve exercise
What should we do with stupid people?: Force them to learn, or round them all up and send them to Ohio
Have you ever broken a bone?: Nope
Do you watch local news? Why?: Only when I'm back home, just out of habit
What happens after you die?: You decay and rot unless preventative measures are taken
How big is your bed? Big enough?: Full size, queen or king would be nicer, but I'm not very big
How long do you think you will live?: Pretty fucking long

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:: 2004 22 June :: 10.27 pm

Interesting disclaimer:

To all the anti-this and anti-that, Bible Thumpers, Libertarians, the ACLU,
and supporters of the bankrupt and increasingly irrelevant United Nations,
please do not send me e-mails espousing whatever cause you're touting. I
have no time for claptrap.

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:: 2004 21 June :: 10.54 pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Blink 182: Shut Up

Saw Tigerland today. I enjoyed it very much. Slept the rest of the day.

Which Rock Chick Are You?

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:: 2004 18 June :: 11.28 pm
:: Music: Ricky Martin: Bella

Another day down�

A customer pissed me off today. I was helping one customer who was moderately flamboyant, as that customer left, another made a very rude comment about �fudge packers� to his son. They had their little laugh. Just a bad start to the day.

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:: 2004 12 June :: 9.24 am
:: Mood: unsure
:: Music: Real McCoy: Sleeping With An Angel

Ate at Brann�s Steakhouse last night, and then saw Stepford Wives. Very good movie. I�m thinking maybe engineering management for my major. Have to make an appointment and talk with the dean. Also, need new brakes for the truck, too bad it can�t wait until I get home. Just in a funny mood this morning.

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:: 2004 10 June :: 12.48 am

Arg.

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:: 2004 1 June :: 6.56 pm
:: Music: Jackyl: She Loves My Cock

So I haven�t really done a full post recently. I�ve just felt different lately. In my previous place, I would sit in my room, usually at my computer, so doing entries came naturally. Now I sit in the living room and am almost never on the computer.

Just lost motivation to make this entry any longer.

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:: 2004 29 May :: 9.27 am

Thanks Jason.

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:: 2004 21 May :: 12.28 am

I'm just writing so that you realize I'm still alive. Haven't posted recently, don't feel like actually writing.

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:: 2004 8 May :: 1.53 am

John Stamos is getting divorced just as the Olsen twins turn 18.
Coincidence? I think not. I think someone is going to be entering
the backdoors of two little houses very soon. Harder, Uncle Jesse!
Harder!

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:: 2004 8 May :: 1.34 am

Show's to go ya.

Leather, crisco, walking the dog, Katie Couric.

James Van Der Beek. Justin.

Crisco (Jason this time)

Rocky chair motherfucker no good.

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:: 2004 1 May :: 9.54 pm
:: Mood: sick

I�m� almost moved out of the old place now. Just a few bookshelves, desk, and dresser left. Then I need to paint the walls back. And I have a cold. No fun. And I have a mess here I need to clean. Maybe later. Sleep.

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:: 2004 29 April :: 2.56 pm
:: Mood: discontent

I sort of feel bad for Jason. I mean, I know I was babbling beyond belief at points last night. It felt good to talk. Although being drunk wasn�t the best idea, but on the other hand, I probably wouldn�t have talked if I were sober. I am very good at compartmentalization, and sometimes I wish I weren�t. Good points were made, some of them will help.

I think I�ve just become tired of life. I feel as if I�m in the same position now as I was years ago. I know I�ve aged/matured whatever since high school, but it seems as if no change has been made beyond that. I�m the same as I was freshman year. School isn�t doing what I expected it to do for me. I am learning things, but there is not any showing as to how this applies to my career. I need some sort of proof that I�m doing this for a reason. If none of this shit applies to automotive design, why am I learning it? There is the point between rounding a person through experience and frivolous education. I think Western has fucked up that line; maybe the line is just not clear enough to me.

I basically have two problems in life right now. One is motivation. I know what I want to do, but I�m feeling blocked from these goals. Is it just me? Is there actually a barrier there? The second problem is a relationship. I know people who are not whole without a second half. I think I am sort of like that. I am this dominant person, but I�m only like this because there is nobody else. I would much rather cuddle up and share my problems with someone. That�s probably why I love animals so much. I can just cuddle up with them and feel relaxed, I forget my life.

Where�s the fairytale ending? Why can�t someone just fix my problems? If I put a lot of effort into this and fix them myself, will I be able to move beyond them, or will something else come up? I wish I could remember more of what was said last night.

Fuck. Lonely. Confused.

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:: 2004 29 April :: 1.39 am

Zeal: Chase after it like a mofo.

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:: 2004 29 April :: 12.04 am

Just watched Waiting For Guffman. Awful movie, but really funny. Plus I was drinking during it, so that probably helped. It also had Matt Keeslar in it and he�s cute, so that also helped. But then they decided to cut him out at the end. Oh well, time fore more boos.

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:: 2004 28 April :: 3.30 pm

Fuck.

What should I do with my life? The college thing doesn�t appear to be working. I can do excellent in classes if the right environment is present. If it isn�t I lose all motivation. Most classes I don�t need to study for, I just do the basic homework putting very little effort in. But I usually learn a lot from the lectures. The classes that I feel have the wrong environment, I lose that motivation, I learn nothing from lecture, even if I pay attention or take notes, I just blank it out. That happened this semester again. With calculus, I realized it was happening, I tried to study for a while, but I just stared at the pages, it did nothing. With physics, I was actually doing well, not sure what happened on the final, but it managed to bring me down a whole grade�

Suggestions? I mean Menards is nice and all, but I can�t see that being a career, not for me at least. School is not working so well, so what next? I thought maybe other majors, but I can�t find any of interest.

Lately I�ve just been reading. Lots of reading. Mostly fantasy stuff, makes me take my mind off of life, the simple solution, the fairytale ending. I know that isn�t going to happen, but with the way I�m leading my life, the only way I can succeed is if it does.

I need to finish moving, but I�m not in the mood. I still have stuff across the kitchen here, but my only motivation is that I don�t want to leave a mess for my roommates to work around. The mess no longer bothers me.

Really unorganized thoughts, but that�s what is on the surface of my head right now. Maybe more later.

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:: 2004 22 April :: 10.00 am

Done. Back to bed now.

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:: 2004 21 April :: 10.24 pm

While Best Buy did correct their mistake today, it took way too much fucking effort on my part. Now if Circuit City were any better I would actually shop there.

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:: 2004 17 April :: 11.16 pm

Best Buy needs to DIE. Fucking bastards.

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:: 2004 17 April :: 11.05 pm
:: Music: Chumbawamba: Outsider

Random thoughts I am not in the mood to assemble into an entry. Saw Kristen. Working, Ralph. Saw Kill Bill 2. Mr. Sunshine. Why walk through that door? Great fighter? $1,792.83. Missing lightbulb.

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:: 2004 16 April :: 4.25 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Queen: Now I'm Here

Finally getting things done. All of my classes are now finished, just four finals left. Called Siemens again, they are going to try to send out the reimbursement again, somehow they failed last time. Called Sterling University Centre to figure out prices, who in their right mind would pay $620 a month plus utilities? Called Roxanne at Savannah Trace again, I will not be able to sign paperwork until Tuesday, but I was given the go ahead to move in. Now I just need to get a key from Drew. Need to get a hold of Comcast too, and set up the cable in my name.

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:: 2004 15 April :: 11.54 pm

Up yours, with ours.

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:: 2004 12 April :: 5.35 pm

Due to the popularity of the Survivor shows, Wisconsin is planning to do
its own, entitled "Survivor - Wisconsin Style."

The contestants will start in Milwaukee, travel up to Sheboygan and on
to Manitowoc and Green Bay. Then they will head over to Wausau and up to
Rhinelander and Minoqua. From there they well proceed up to Ashland and
Superior, then back down through Rice Lake, Eau Claire and all the way
down to Madison and back over to Milwaukee.

Each will be driving a pink Volvo with Illinois license plates and a
large bumper sticker that reads:
"I'm gay.
I'm a vegetarian.
Bratwurst clogs your arteries.
The Green Bay Packers suck.
Go Bears!
Cheese is high in cholesterol.
Hillary in 2004.
Deer hunting is murder and I'm here to confiscate your guns!"

The first one that makes it back to Milwaukee alive wins.

Good luck to all contestants!

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:: 2004 12 April :: 5.46 am

Just got back from Wisconsin. Time for a quick nap, then class at 9.

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:: 2004 9 April :: 4.05 am
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: Third Eye Blind: Narcolepsy

Remind me to smack myself.

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:: 2004 7 April :: 12.40 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: The Verve Pipe: The Freshmen

I am actually going home this weekend. I am really not looking forward to it. I�ll be leaving after I get out of physics at 4, so I�ll get home around 11-12 pm. Sleep in, do my taxes, try and get a few things done. Then Sunday is the Easter thing. We were going to go over to grandma�s and do that, but she is in Green Bay with uncle Bob now. He went back into the hospital last night. So far, all I have heard is that the surgery lasted about four hours and it was on his back, no clue when he gets out, or what the problem was in the first place. From the sound of it, he does not have health insurance yet because he had just started a new job. Then Sunday night I get to drive back here and go to class at 9 am. At least dogs are always happy, and fuzzy. :-)

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:: 2004 6 April :: 10.01 am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Kelly Clarkson: Just Missed The Train

Finally got a hold of Savannah Trace today. Went in and applied, they still had the closed sign hanging on the door 30 minutes after they were supposed to open. At least the lady was friendly, even though she was an idiot. I mean, how hard is it to figure out that I am moving in with someone, not starting a new lease by myself?

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:: 2004 5 April :: 1.47 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Evanescence: Tourniquet

I guess I have not made an entry in a while.

I visited the dorms a few times last week. Nice to see a few people again. Hung out with them on Saturday night while they drank. I remember why I did not like the dorms now. Still had some fun.

Went to Bilbo�s with Jason on Friday, decent pizza, I will have to try a different kind though.

Today I went to the apartment place to apply again. They were closed again, and they are still not returning my calls. The sign said she would be back at 1, so I went to Big Boy to wait. I assumed there would be an entrance on Sprinkle Road, seeing as how there is a whole strip mall there. There is not, so I made a little detour down the embankment to get there. Good lunch considering it was Big Boy. At 1:30, she had still not returned. I read the signs on the door again, that idiot has no clue how to use a computer. Spell check is a very good thing, and will catch most of the errors that she made. Who spells emergency with an a?

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