hapi!
Dear Journal thingie,

I am very relieved about Canren. He worried me for a little fever -.-;;;. So my lil worried letter to him was kinda silly ^^;;;. But all in all I think he was happy I wrote it. Oh gawd, I feel like I am in the middle of a love triangle ^^;;;;.

Oh yesterday I purchased I.N.V.U #1, Harry Potter #5, and How to create anime cels for meeself. I also purchased Sarah's b-day present. Since she doesn't go to this site I can tell you what I got her. I got her the first Clamp detective Manga... I really wanted to get her Inu-Yasha, or Cowboy Bebop mangas, but her parents won't let her read anything with cursing blood or boobies... Which makes my list of mangas pretty small ^^;

Well my parents will be gone for the whole day at Cabella's the outdoors store. I was going to go, but i got real sick this morning and stayed home. I kinda like stayign home by meeself. It isn't so bad, Well write some other time



Well write later

Canren....
I am really scared... I have a cute penpal who lives in China. His name is Xie Canren (Just Canren for short instead of his family name Xie)Well we have been writing back and forth to each other for a few months now... But here is what his last letter said:

"I do not know what are said ! I have fallen ill, very serious! Can you take good care of me? Dear angel~
You kiss mickey, do not kiss me ?

Canren"

I do not know what is wrong and I wrote him an e-mail and still have no answer.... Everyone is worrying he has SARS... but God no.... Please God..... I felt like crying last night. The weird thing is.... he has been asking me if I love him lately..... I don't know it... but I may be falling for him too..... It's just he lives so far away... I wish I could help him now.... I am so worried.... Please let him be okay.....

Love minna

Jessie

Aviva and my rp
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: awesome
minkthedragon: hi!
DDRDanceFreaker: ~*klaha and aviva returns*~
DDRDanceFreaker: hmmm some idiot i-med me
minkthedragon: *Jessie Waves*
minkthedragon: uh oh wtf did they want
DDRDanceFreaker: "to talk"
minkthedragon: bout what?
DDRDanceFreaker: funk if i know
minkthedragon: i hate peeps liek that
minkthedragon: did u hear me?
DDRDanceFreaker: yeah
minkthedragon: he
minkthedragon: heee
DDRDanceFreaker: what do i talk into?
DDRDanceFreaker: you sound like mah friend janelle
minkthedragon: u can't -_- unless you have a miccy
minkthedragon: really?
DDRDanceFreaker: yeah
minkthedragon: sweet
minkthedragon: is that a good thing?
DDRDanceFreaker: kawaii
DDRDanceFreaker: yesh i love her
DDRDanceFreaker: times 10
DDRDanceFreaker: is that the chincilla
DDRDanceFreaker: ??
minkthedragon: *blushes * that was my giggle
minkthedragon: *hides embarrassed*
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao
DDRDanceFreaker: thats so fucking cute
DDRDanceFreaker: !!!
minkthedragon: lol
minkthedragon: i giggle funny
minkthedragon: ^^;
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: you giggle cute
minkthedragon: thanks
minkthedragon: I am quite squeaky
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: awwwwwww
DDRDanceFreaker: klaha has 3 sickoes and a weenie
minkthedragon: thanks oo
minkthedragon: great and my mom just was over my shoulder
minkthedragon: PERV
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao
DDRDanceFreaker: roflmao
minkthedragon: you should be ashamed
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
minkthedragon: *points her finger squeaking*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: no way
DDRDanceFreaker: thats funny
minkthedragon: lol
minkthedragon: harry potter is gay with ron pass it on
minkthedragon: hey that rhymed!
DDRDanceFreaker: whos ron
minkthedragon: the guy he's friends with
minkthedragon: red hair
minkthedragon: annoying
DDRDanceFreaker: oh yeah!!!!
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao
minkthedragon: lol
minkthedragon: now ice age is coming on!!!!!!!
DDRDanceFreaker: hey do you have the rest of the convo we had b4 i had put on my away?
DDRDanceFreaker: you have direct tv dont you
minkthedragon: i didn';t save it!
minkthedragon: NOOOOO
minkthedragon: *sobs*
DDRDanceFreaker: aww man
minkthedragon: Iwas gonna ask you for it
DDRDanceFreaker: i wanted to put in my journal
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
minkthedragon: lets just starts the wang convo!
DDRDanceFreaker: ok
DDRDanceFreaker: and the rpg thing again
minkthedragon: lol
minkthedragon: YAY!
minkthedragon: Sings the wang song
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
minkthedragon: *grabs gackts*
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: wtf are they talking about?
minkthedragon: *gackt is still stuck on the chair bound by ducktape and chains*
minkthedragon: *pouting*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: im scared
DDRDanceFreaker: me: dont be ~*makes out wif him*~
minkthedragon: Jessie grins happilly and unbinds gackt*
minkthedragon: Gackt sighs*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: gackt: finally
minkthedragon: Oh yeah Aviva... remeber the dancing with crabs?
DDRDanceFreaker: !!
DDRDanceFreaker: yeah
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
minkthedragon: *glares at Gackt* Don't make me use the duct tape again
minkthedragon: *gets her whip*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: oh yay!
DDRDanceFreaker: you spelled it right this time
minkthedragon: yes1
minkthedragon: *lost 1/1000 of her blonde hairs*
minkthedragon: Gackt: misses Jessie's bunny outfit
minkthedragon: *Jessie enjoys brocolli*
DDRDanceFreaker: brb
DDRDanceFreaker: gotta play ddr
minkthedragon: but but but
minkthedragon: yeah i need to...
minkthedragon: *sniffles poking her tummy*
minkthedragon: oh a lil boy told me my breasts were large
minkthedragon: I thought "I know..."
minkthedragon: "But a size D ain't THAT large... ^^;"
minkthedragon: evil lil boy
minkthedragon: Gackt: "Now that they're gone...
minkthedragon: Jessie: "read ya loud and clear!"
minkthedragon: They get on the pool table and make out
DDRDanceFreaker: ok back
minkthedragon: Gackt: d@mn
minkthedragon: Jessie: *buttons up her shirt* Hi!
minkthedragon: ^^
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao!!1
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: im confused, where'd you go? why'd you leave me with these weirdos?
minkthedragon: Gackt:Pouts and buttons up jessie's skirt*
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: uhhhh, i wanted to play ddr
minkthedragon: Jessie: "Wow... I didn't know that was un buttoned... hmm..."
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: what'd i miss?
minkthedragon: Gackt: "I work in mysterious ways..."
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: random makin out, that we usaully do
minkthedragon: Jessie: OOh! A bunny!
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: oh not again
minkthedragon: *follows the small white rabbit and eats mushrooms * O.O woah....
DDRDanceFreaker: gackt: bunnny? where?
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: oh jeez shes high
minkthedragon: Jessie: Here I am!
minkthedragon: *un high*
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: you should see when shes not
minkthedragon: lmaO!
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: I ALREADY HAVE!!
DDRDanceFreaker: >_<
minkthedragon: Gackt: Hey what was that supposed to mean...?
minkthedragon: *dun dun dun cowboy music as they have a stare down*
minkthedragon: Jessie: Plays in the sandbox*
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: you guys are weird
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: im going back to japan
minkthedragon: Jessie... *tears*
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~*grabs wang*~
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: oh man i knew you wanted it
DDRDanceFreaker: ~*aviva and klaha boink*~
minkthedragon: Gackt:We never do that in front of people...
DDRDanceFreaker: ~*finishes*~ klaha: that was good
minkthedragon: Jessie: There's the pool table!
minkthedragon: Gackt: *shrugs* cool
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: hmm yeah...i mean, no! that was wrong of us to do
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao!
DDRDanceFreaker: that was the best!
DDRDanceFreaker: "cool"
DDRDanceFreaker: awesome
DDRDanceFreaker: pure genius
DDRDanceFreaker: ^^
minkthedragon: *They have fun on the pool table*
minkthedragon: (danke!)
DDRDanceFreaker: danke?
DDRDanceFreaker: what that be meaning?
minkthedragon: Jessie: (I'm in the middle of something)(
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: sorry
minkthedragon: GAckt: I like pool...
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: hey veevs, wanna go at it again?
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: *to gackt* i bet you do
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: *to klaha* ok lets go do it again.
minkthedragon: Jessie and gackt get up
DDRDanceFreaker: no!!!!
minkthedragon: Jessie is getting dressed and gackt stays nude
DDRDanceFreaker: dont get up yet
minkthedragon: "Oh all right!"
minkthedragon: Jessie gets undressed again and shrugs
minkthedragon: Gackt grins
minkthedragon: *back on the pool table*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: lets do it on the pool table! ~*runs up and pushes off jessie and gackt while they are still boning*~
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: awesome
minkthedragon: Gackt: *pushes Klaha off*
minkthedragon: Jessie sits on being sensored by a chinchilla*
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: ~*pushes gackt off*~
minkthedragon: Gackt:*Gets in a fist fight*
minkthedragon: Jessie *still being sensored by a mass of chinchillas*
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ~*sits next to jessie*~
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: this is interesting
minkthedragon: Jessie: "here have some chinchillas"
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ok
minkthedragon: Chinchillas now sensor both grils
minkthedragon: Jessie: La la la *gets dressed*
minkthedragon: Gackt: Dammit! She got dressed
minkthedragon: thanks Klaha
minkthedragon: *Jessie turns on DDR*
minkthedragon: Jessie: La la la
DDRDanceFreaker: omg! lmao!!
minkthedragon: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: youre welcome! ~*plays ddr on the other mat*~
minkthedragon: Jessie: I am winning@
minkthedragon: Gackt: *feels terribly left out... then short attention span leads him to the kitchen for some spaghetti*
minkthedragon: Jessie's mom: OMG! Hi Mr. Gackt! I heard you and my daughter in there ... >>
DDRDanceFreaker: Mom: whys there so much liquid on the pool table
DDRDanceFreaker: Gackt: ill show you why
DDRDanceFreaker: mom: ewwwww gross
minkthedragon: hey no!
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: im winning!
DDRDanceFreaker: lma
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao**
minkthedragon: Jessie: NAW AW
minkthedragon: Jessie: Starts boogeying
minkthedragon: Klaha: *watches her boobs bounce and grabs em
minkthedragon: Jessie: *sweatmarK*
minkthedragon: Gackt: Hey those are my Size D boobs!
DDRDanceFreaker: lmao
minkthedragon: Jessie: Technically... Aren't they mine?
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: hey aviva, why arent yours that big? not that im complaining or anything
minkthedragon: Burly the chinchilla: Jumps in her shirt
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ~*scoffs*~ w/e
minkthedragon: Jessie: WHY IS EVERYONE LOOKING AT MY BOOBS!
minkthedragon: Gackt: The yare just so d@mn sexy
minkthedragon: Jessie: Oh.... *ponders what sexy means*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: i was just kidding
minkthedragon: Jessie: Then why are you still clinging to my boobs...?
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: no! if you want big boobs so much go have jessie
minkthedragon: Klaha... Be quiet
minkthedragon: Jessie: I like lions
minkthedragon: (Klaha said that to me not you viva)
minkthedragon: Jessie: Tries to DDR but can't bounce while being felt out*
minkthedragon: Gackt: Eats spaghetti
minkthedragon: Jessie: "I miss Aviva..." *tears
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ~*puts on headphones*~ im not listening to you klaha..or talking to you
minkthedragon: Jessie: NAUGHTY KLAHA!!! GO MAKE UP!!!!!
minkthedragon: Jessie: Waits for him to let go*
minkthedragon: Jessie: GIT OFFA ME!!!!!
minkthedragon: *Smacks him with a hammer*
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: ow stupid girl
minkthedragon: Jessie: Well.... At least I know the limits of where my hands go...
minkthedragon: Notices hands are back...
minkthedragon: Jessie: -_-;;;
DDRDanceFreaker: gackt: ~*finishes spagetti*~ *to Aviva* hey dont worry aboot mean ol' klaha
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: i hate jrockers, go away
minkthedragon: Jessie: Goes and sits by aviva
minkthedragon: Jessie; I am sorry....
minkthedragon: Jessie: WAAAA SHE LOATHES ME!!! DARN YOU BOOBS!!!
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ~*laughs*~ you are funny
minkthedragon: Jessie: Huggles aviva* "Those boys are bad news!"
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ~*pokes jessies boob*~ are they real?
DDRDanceFreaker: Gackt and KLaha": omg! lesbian action
minkthedragon: Jessie: Yeah....
minkthedragon: *pokes herself*
minkthedragon: They get in the way
minkthedragon: They catch my crumbs when i eat...
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
DDRDanceFreaker: Gackt: ooh ooh ooh pick me!!! ill lick off the crumbs!!
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: no ooh!! jessie!! pick me
minkthedragon: Jessie: Uh oh.... I have to pick....
minkthedragon: Umm... Gackt!
minkthedragon: YAY!
minkthedragon: wait now klaha is sad
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: youre mean ~*runs away*~
minkthedragon: *ponders E=Mc2
minkthedragon: Huh?
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
minkthedragon: Jessie: A little boy told me my boobs were large today... and the other little boy kissed me ^^;
DDRDanceFreaker: gackt: what?? someone else kissed you?
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: yay drama
DDRDanceFreaker: !!
minkthedragon: Jessie: Yes ^.^ he was nine!
minkthedragon: Jessie: But Gackt you kiss better
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: R KELLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
minkthedragon: The little boy began to hit himselfagainst the wall
minkthedragon: And no! He kissed me! I had nothign to do with it except be all "WHAT!!!"
DDRDanceFreaker: m not asking
DDRDanceFreaker: im*
minkthedragon: Gackt: *wipes Jessie's tears*
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: ~*watches ice age*~
minkthedragon: Jessie: I liek Mr.Mammoth!
DDRDanceFreaker: lol
minkthedragon: Aviva want some popcorn?
DDRDanceFreaker: ok lemme put this in my journal
DDRDanceFreaker: yeah popcorn
minkthedragon: YAY!
minkthedragon: I will too!
DDRDanceFreaker: klaha: porn? where?
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: not porn you idiot, popcorn!
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: hey veevs, im sorry for being a doof! forgive me?
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: get on your knees and beg
DDRDanceFreaker: Gackt: yeah! tell that boy hows its done!
minkthedragon: Jessie: Bounces Boobs and her
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: shut up or else youre goin down too
minkthedragon: Jessie: I enjoy being bouncy!
DDRDanceFreaker: Klaha: ~*on his knees*~ ok im really sorry!
DDRDanceFreaker: everyone: ~*looks weird at jessie*~
minkthedragon: Gackt grabs jessie's boobs now
minkthedragon: Gackt: You should be apologizing for letting him grab those
DDRDanceFreaker: Aviva: didnt i tell you to get on your knees?
minkthedragon: Jessie: What do you want me to do?
minkthedragon: Gackt:.... hmm....
minkthedragon: *puts her boobs in a lock box*
DDRDanceFreaker: lol

The Glass Heart
(This is my short story manga please R&R)

Ula: *Gazing into the distance crying*

King: "Daughter it is time..."

Ula: *turns around* "Yes father..."

** A casket is brought through the streets**

King: *In front of the casket*

Ula: *In the back she lingers, gingerly dropping rose petals*

Little Boy: *seems to stand out in the crowd, tears filling his eyes*

Ula: *notices the little boy and wipes his tears* "Boy... why do you cry?
You know not my mother..."

Little boy: "Yes... But when my brother cries, I cry as well..."

Ula: *looks up to see the man of whom this boy is related*

The Handsome man (Arlen): *gazes down at her and wipes the slight tears forming on her cheeks*

Ula: *blushes immensely*

Arlen: *puts his lips next to her ear and whispers* " Tonight at midnight, meet me in the garden... I will explain everything..."

Ula: *she stands as though not hearing him and turns away*

**The line of royalty and guards finally reach the gravesite of the queen and bury the coffin**

Ula: *Kneels by the cross and sobs*

**Rain pours**

**Later a party is being thrown in the ballroom for royalty from all over and nobles In the queen's will reading**
King: *Standing in front of all* "This is the will and final wishes of my dearest wife, Leonora, Queen of Luneve... My dearest daughter Ula... ‘Twas my wife, your mother's final request you be betrothed before the dawn of tomorrows dawn.. He shall be chosen tonight... By myself... From the nobles and royalties tat hath been invited to the reading of her wishes..."

Ula: *startled look goes across her face*

**Men gather around to meet her and dance with her...

Ula: *as she is dancing she looks to the clock high above the ballroom remembering the man's whisper...*

Arlen: *you see his face slightly shadowed saying* "At midnight... meet me in the garden... and I will explain everything..."

Ula: *she looks at the man she is dancing with and struggles to be freed of his grasp... The clock strikes midnight... * "Excuse me! I must be gone..!"

Man: *gives her a puzzled look as she leaves the ballroom running outside*

Ula:*runs from the ballroom and into the garden*
**The moon shows and a fountain with many trees and plants all around is the scene**

Arlen: *comes out of the shadows* "Ula... Is that truly you..?"

Ula: "Yes... my name is Ula... But how do you know of me by my first name?" *she looks away shyly thinking...* 'I remember him from somewhere... but where?'

Arlen: Ula! Do you not remember me? Arlen.. The flute peddler?"

Ula: "Arlen...?" *she touches his face*

Arlen: *he grasps her hand* "So you do remember.."

Ula: "How could I forget..."

*She smiles holding his hand to her cheek*
**Flashback**

Arlen: *playing a flute in a market place setting... Looks around the age of seven..*

Ula: *same age, runs over* "Arlen!!!"

Arlen: *he stops playing his flute and smiles* "Ula again? How'd you get out this time?"

Ula: "I asked my nanny while she was sleeping!" *she giggles with her dimples showing*

Ula: "Now lets go play!"

Arlen: "But I have work to--"

Ula: *doesn't seem to be listening but just grabs his hand and pulls him along*

**Fades out**

**Fades in and they are suddenly older**

Arlen: *gazes as the flower petals fall* " Isn't it pretty Ula?"

Ula: *laying her head on his chest*

Arlen: *smiles* "Ula?"

Ula: "What is it?" *she smiles dreamily*

Arlen: "My mother just gave birth to my brother.... and mother died... So I won't be able to see you for a while... I need to move farther away to become a shepherd’s hand..."

Ula: *just looks up at him with tears in her eyes*

Arlen: "But I need to make a promise..."

Ula:"... What is it, Arlen..?"

Arlen: 'When I make enough money... I'll buy you a real one..." *he slides a small ring made of hemp with one pale yellow feather in the center on her finger* "Just promise me... You'll be here waiting for when I return..."

Ula: "I promise... Forever..."

Arlen and Ula: sitting under the tree holding each other... The memory fades*

Ula: *tears in her eyes* "I thought you would never come back.."

Arlen: "I made a promise didn't I?" *he wipes the tears from her eyes...*
"You haven't changed... Quick to cry..."

Ula: *buries her head in his chest*

Arlen: *holds her gingerly*

Ula: "I still have the ring..."
*She shows him the ring on a long silver chain*

Arlen: "I kept my full promise..." *slides a jeweled ring on her finger* "Be min... Forever?"

Ula: *looks up with tears in her eyes* "Forever and on..."

Arlen and Ula: *gently kiss*

King: "Arlen you swine!"

*Holds his sword up*

Ula: "Father no!"

King: "Hush daughter! I vowed to protect your mother's wish and that I shall!"

Ula: "Father!!!!"
Arlen: *gets in front of Ula* "No matter what you do... My love for Ula shall remain..."

King: "BASTARD!!!" *stabs Arlen in the chest*

Arlen: *doubles over and falls to the ground*

Ula: "Arlen..." *She falls to her knees holding his head on her lap* "You... can't die..."

Arlen: * he touches her face...* "Our love... Is for eternity.... Let no one tell you different...."
*He closes his eyes*

Ula: *tears form mistily in her eyes... she sees the sword of her father laying next to Arlen's body... Her eyes gain a rage* "FATHER!" *she grabs the sword* "All my life has been ruled by you!!! Nothing has ever been up to me!! And you deserve to die!!! You killed the only man I will and did ever love... But no! You shall not die.... But God forgive me.... this is my fate!" *she stabs her chest and falls next to Arlen*

King: *Falls to his knees* "Damn it... What have I done...?" *holds his hands over his face* "It was all for you... Ula.... But In the end I killed you through my strict love..."

Little Brother: "They still live on..."

King: Looks up to the little boy*

Brother: "But now... for eternity... It was fate..."

King: Hugs the little boy*

Last shot of Arlen and Ula closing their eyes closely by each other

END


Well?

Dear Journal thingie,
Today started out R.O.T.T.E.N!!! I had a crappy day at skool getting sick of Carri kinda mocking me more than the usual teasing... I dunno if it is just my purple monkey syndrome or what but she really got on my nerves today. Also, she kept trying to get Kris in the middle... and I felt almost betrayed by Kris. Then my dumb @ss science teacher, Mr.Batdorff, gave us a test on glaciers and he didn't even let me finish the dumb packet on it! So i got an F.... But you know... That exactly how I feel about him./.. He's FU(KED!!!!! I loathe him now... First he gave the dumb preps a better grade than me and the shy girls.... Just cause he likes them better! Even though our movie was more comical. I swear he's terrible to me. So i wrote him a letter here it is:

"Dear Mr.Batdorff,

I know you will probably hate me even more with this, but now I just want you to know how I have been feeling... All year it's felt as though I was invisible in your eyes. That since I am not the most popular cheerleader, I am not good enough to talk to on an usual basis. Also, I am not the only one who feels this way in the 7th hour... Charu and Lauren have as well. Lauren won't even talk to you for fear of being mocked. On the contrary, I would rather be mocked and teased by you than ignored. In all my other classes it's good to be quiet and efficient, while in your class I feel as though I am doing something wrong. I never truly understood why... Also, I begged my mother not to call you when you called us (Charu and me) stupid, it hurt my feelings so I told my mother casually and she got really mad and called you... I really did not mean to get you in trouble. Another thing that really made me angry was when you did not even tell me why my grade was low on that video. I worked hard on it, basically by myself.. I wrote the entire script and redid it when I needed to put the terms in. Then, I was the one who had to do the ridiculous parts, and believe me I had fun and I loved hearing the other students laugh. The only thing that bothered me was that I had all the information and I believe the quality of humor was high, but when a few other groups who did not make the other students laugh and did not have all the information got A's. That made me feel quite inferior. You have made me quite intimidated over the year, and sometimes to tears. I know I am a very sensitive person, but tat does not give you the right to ignore me. So I pray that in the future you will use this to open your eyes to other shy students who struggle to be important

Trying to get your attention
Jessie"

Well how does that sound? I am going to give it to him tommorow when skool is over. But even when I felt bummed, I called Katie and we talked... We were both sad and cheered each other up. She is one of the best friends I have ever had. I thank God that I went to Kendall and met her, or life would be a lot more lonely. She is worried about her friend Sarah coming, and not liking her as much because she has changed. But who could dislike her? She is one of the sweetest friends I have ever had ;-;! Well anyway I have to go

Jessie

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Dear Journal-thingie,
Hey how art thou? I am great! I had a great weekend! I haven't had such a good weekend in a long time! First on Friday my friends and I finished up our Science video. We had a great time filming it and just laughing tons. I was the crazy people in the movie. I was the demonic chinchilla woman and the bubbly Japanese chick. It was quite funny. I had to do my evil chinchilla laugh!. w00t!

After we were finished with the movie, I had to go babysit my two favorite kids in the world, Jessica and Alaina Vezino. I had their mommy as my 2nd grade teacher. She was always my fave teahcer! Well so i got to babysit them, we all played DDR, watched some cool shows, ate macs and cheese (artificial of course) and then drew some anime. I have been teaching Jessica how to draw anime for about a year now. I only do on occassions, but she is getting better! I just can't believe in 2 years she will be able to take anime/manga classes! She wants me to go with her. I think she is sooo adorable. After her sister went to bed, we snuck downstair and drew a little more until her parents got home.

On Saturday I had an equally good day... Dreams of Joe filled the night before so I woke up dreamy and quite smitten. So T took my shower and got dressed. I went on the internet as soon as I could after my brother left for work. I was happy to see that Joe was on and quite cheerful ^_^. We chatted and I found out that it wasn't me, he jnust likes all girls right now as friends ^^;. I think he is still in the girls are icky stage. But we had a fun convo, and I was just reassured how deeply I care for him and no other I have cared for this deeply in this way.

After I got off, it was time to babysit again! But this time I had to babysit a little 3 1/2 year old named Matthew. We had a lot of fun running up and down the hill in his backyard. He made me giggle a lot. When we went far enough back in his yard, I saw a farm-like landscape. It took my breath away it was so gorgeous. I thought that I could spend my whole life just staring at such a beautiful scene, so peaceful and calm... And yet it was barred out to me by barbed wire... It almost seemed to mean that paradise was so near, but I couldn't touch it without bleeding...

Then, after we finished running up and down the hill, we went inside to watch a few movies. First we watched the old Winnie the Pooh movie, and then he picked out this Grimm's Fairy tales movie. When I watched it I realized that it was the show I used to watch when I was four! I loved remminiscing about my happy toddler years. It was soo much fun watching it, and I realized that it was an anime! Isn't that wild!?! Well, when I came home I realized I had saved enough money to get a few Gackt things so I ordered a tee shirt, a calendar, and a promo poster! I am quite happy with all that has happened this weekend...

I did have a scary dream last night though.. I dreamt that these demons were killing people by sucking their souls out and putting all the souls in Hell... I was sooo frightened! My family wasn't there, nor any of my closest friends, Kris, Joe, Reanna, and lastly Katie! I was just sadly walking around and even the muppets were dmeonicly taken. When I found someplace to hide, I hid in SOuth Elementary. I found a lot of demons there and the only way for themnot to steal my soul was for me to sing Christian songs. So I sang as loud and powerfully as I could. None of the evil guys got me. I saved a few people such as Lyndi Weener, Carri Meyer, her mom, Stephanie, and some african american boy from my school... Then I locked them all in the Christian room. As some tried to get out, I knew that they were trying to go to the other side and get us caught, But i kept them in the room, knowing they had no powers over what they were doing and were just going to be killed if they left. So I forced hem to stay, and when demons found us, I had to protect everyone by singing all the Christian songs I could. I even made some up, but as long as I was singing about the love for my God and Jesus, they could not enter. My voice was getting tired and it was getting harder and harder to sing without messing up and stopping for a rest.... But i knew if I rested that they would steal my soul and all would be lost. So I kept singing until I woke up... It was really scary. But for some reason I woke up singing... But I wonder why i only saved some girls and boys i knew...? Why not everyone? Maybe those peopel need my prayers? I'll try to see if God will help me ith this.

miwako-chan

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide,
No escape from reality
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see,
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go, Little high, little low,
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me
Mama just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh, Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooh, I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all
I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche, Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very fright'ning me
(Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo figaro
Magnifico I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family,
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come, easy go, will you let me go
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go
(Let me go) Will not let you go
(Let me go) Will not let you go (Let me go) Ah
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
(Oh mama mia, mama mia) Mama mia, let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me
So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby,
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here
Nothing really matters, Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters,
Nothing really matters to me
Any way the wind blows
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Beautiful ne? I love Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen! I had to sing s duet with Sarah Saigeon. I really dun mind her, but it's hard to sing with her.. ^^; Ah well... I hope i dun hafta sing it tho ^^;. Any way the wind blows... I guess oO;;;
miwako-chan