bathtub gin

:: 2006 3 April :: 9.25am

It's someone's birthday today.

Hap[p]y day of birth.

:: 2006 1 April :: 10.02pm

And her secret is revealed!
I really would not mind raising my kids in Rockford.

Yes, it's boring. It's also a safe and quaint little town. I like it, it's cute and small.

However, California or Georgia would still be awesome. Or Ashland, Oregon.

4 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 29 March :: 10.14pm

Kelly!

Au Revoir Les Enfants is on DVD now.

Excitement!

P.S. The Lovely Bones is being made into a movie a la Peter Jackson. No, I'm not looking forward to it. I don't feel like crying and I don't think he can do sentimental/story about a girl who gets raped and stabbed to death then tells the whole story from heaven. Plus he's doing Halo that same year. Eh, not sure on how that'll turn out.

:: 2006 28 March :: 10.31pm

Why did you turn down FIVE MILLION DOLLARS, Morrissey?

Why?

I would pay that much to see The Smiths in concert.

10 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 28 March :: 7.15pm

I don't know if any of you have heard about these people from Kansas protesting at the funerals of soldiers who died in Iraq.

Usually, I'm all for protests. My first reaction was "yeah, war protest."

The dumbest thing is that they aren't even protesting the war in Iraq. They claim that the death of the soldiers is a direct result of God's anger at a country that supports homosexuality.

Okay. First of all, since when has the United States of America supported homosexuality? Second, isn't there a more appropriate place to state your opinion than at a funeral? Third, none of the soldiers whose funerals they protest are gay.

Sorry, Kansas kids. You might want to rethink how you're getting your message out there.

:: 2006 27 March :: 11.10pm

I just finished reading Marathon Man.

Wow.

I need to watch the movie now.

:: 2006 27 March :: 9.05am

So Cloud Cult is coming to Ypsilanti. Sadly, it's to some place that's 21+.

Sigh.

I guess that makes sense since it's a bar.

I wonder if they know what they're getting into.

toki	:: 2006 26 March :: 11.09pm :: Mood: nauseated Break's over. Back to reality. I hate school. martini?

:: 2006 20 March :: 11.26pm

I am a (correct me if I'm wrong) third generation American and one quarter Lebanese. Arab American.

But you would never know it.

4 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 18 March :: 2.10am

To those of you in the Grand Rapids area, anti-war march/rally tomorrow at 11 (in the morning) in Veteran's Park.

I know this is a little late but I just found out a while ago myself and I'm lazy.

6 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 16 March :: 8.46pm

I've kissed...
01. [x] someone in a shower while doing a handstand and simultaneously jerking off a pale midget.
02. [x] Andy's mom.

:: 2006 15 March :: 11.17pm

Dear Hollywood, (I revert to my former geekiness for a second here)
I'm sorry, Stay Alive. I know you're a new movie and this stage of your life must be a very awkward one for you. However, I cannot help the fact that your premise, your sole purpose in life, has already been done by at least two anime series: .//hack and Serial Experiments Lain. There is a slight possibility that the concept was in existence before and after these series, but these were the only things that came to mind upon seeing your trailer.

Also, if you count all the incarnations of the .//hack series, you're copying a story four times over. Oh wait, there were four video games, an anime series, another anime/OVA, a manga coupled with a series, a novel, a collection of short stories, two novel series, one episode OVA, an MMORPG and two manga series. That would mean you copied the .//hack series about fifteen times, give or take two. And you copied Serial Experiments Lain about two times, counting the "video game".

I'm sorry. Someone had to tell you. It was best if you heard it from someone who cared.

P.S. .//hack and Lain sources.

P.P.S. What the hell does Elizabeth Bathory have to do with a video game? You probably just read the vampire parts and skipped over the facts. I hate when you slaughter history. I'll never forgive you for what you did to Pocahontas.

:: 2006 12 March :: 9.24am

Katie! The game has been found! It is called No Brainer.

And it is fun.

:: 2006 9 March :: 8.15pm

I am home. I came home yesterday and worked with my mom until 1:30 or 2 in the morning.

Tomorrow, I think Nick and I will go to Muskegon and Grand Haven. Hopefully, the friends we are going to be calling will want to hang out.

I love you all.

:: 2006 6 March :: 3.31pm

So I'm in Kalamazoo. I decided to visit Katie for a few days. I'll be back on Wednesday when I have to help my mom with work. Hopefully, later this week I'll go see Jessa. If it's okay with her. I still have to call and stuff.

Right now, Katie's running or jogging or doing some sort of physical activity. I'm sitting in this really ugly lobby place of the rec center enjoying wireless interweb.

Western is too big. I'm perfectly happy with my small campus.

I love you all.

P.S. If you want to hang out later this week, call me. I hate sitting around.

:: 2006 5 March :: 9.21am

I bought a new CD yesterday. The Arcade Fire's Funeral.

It is totally awesome. The best CD since Cloud Cult. It's really happy, sad, upbeat and thought provoking while not being completely depressing.

It's also very good for driving. I love CDs that you can sing to and be completely overjoyed about when you're driving.

The best thing about The Arcade Fire? They're Quebecois and they speak a handful of French in most of their songs.

I love you all.

P.S. Their site is way too indie for me.

:: 2006 1 March :: 9.39pm

They caught that guy who escaped from jail while I was driving home. They found him off a road right next to the one I take home.

In other news, I eat too much. I am all bloaty.

toki	:: 2006 1 March :: 12.04am 88% on my history paper! Woooo!!!!!! That means I am now getting a 77% in history, fools. 7 freaking 7! Hopefully that'll be a B soon. Oh man oh man. I'd be okay with a C. Much better than that 56% I had earlier. Eeeps. martini?

:: 2006 28 February :: 7.51pm

To whomever came to see me today:

Who are you? My brother only remembers your car.

2 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 28 February :: 4.28pm

So some guy escaped from custody in transport from the jail to the courthouse. They've blocked off a bunch of roads around school and they're searching local businesses around his house. Which is around here.

Last I heard SWAT was raiding the bank at Plymouth and Michigan which is on my way home.

toki	:: 2006 26 February :: 10.56pm crumble. cruuuumbbllle... c.r...u...m.....b...l....e.... CRASH boom martini?

toki

:: 2006 26 February :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: indescribable

So...you probably don't want to read this. You can probably guess what I'm going to talk about here. I don't care though.

Fuck you! Haha!

That's what I learned this weekend. It doesn't matter. You can't change people. You can mourn over broken promises of friendship, but in the end you can't make the other person see it.

That probably doesn't make any sense at all.

Of course I miss it. Of course I blame myself. I still feel like a piece of worthless shit about it. But what can I do? Accept...move on....accept...move on....

It's what we do! It's what we're designed to do. I got through a quarter of school with just a boyfriend and one friend. I can get through ten more like that.

And I still have the Tree. As corny as that sounds, no matter how lonely it gets, I can go to the Tree and feel like I'm a part of something.

In actuality, I'm just struggling to be optimistic about this situation. Pretend not to care...and I eventually won't. Right? Right!

Optimism.

I miss how things used to be.

I hate that things had to change.

I miss it.

But I can't bring it back.

So that's that!

Life goes on. Tomorrow I will take the train. I will walk down Adams to Wells. I will wait for the El. And I will go to class. And life will go on.

I'm happy that it does, though. I mean....life sucks...nothing new. But it goes on. Now, that sounds good to me at this point in time.

I'll move on and I'll never really be happy, but I might be content for atleast an hour a day. And I'll smile. And I'll laugh at bad jokes and tell bad jokes. I'll be left out and I'll leave people out. People will break my heart and I'll break people's hearts. And we'll all look back on it one day and smile.

I think I might be having a nervous breakdown.

Ok...bye... wooooooo

:: 2006 25 February :: 2.20am

Best quote ever:
"I look at my life and it just seems so depressing that I'm not sure if I was born or if Morrissey sang me into existence."

8 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 20 February :: 9.25pm

My baby's eatin'! With a spoon!
Jealousy is watching videos of Clementine, Jessa's baby, and totally being tempted to snatch that thing out of her arms.

I love you, Jessa and I need to hang out with you for real this time ~~so I can steal your child~~ so we can be the best of friends!

P.S. Give me babies. Now.

Kthnxby

sweetyas

:: 2006 19 February :: 2.11pm

I dont like the rooming situation of next year...i hope it doesnt turn out as bad as i think it will. i dont wanna live with these ppl!!!! OMG!!!!AHHH!! i hate this girl so mcuh..so fuck her!!

5 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 18 February :: 5.36pm

When does everyone have spring break? Mine's the week of the 6th of March.

(I should really be writing my paper.

But it's not due until Wednesday.)

toki

:: 2006 18 February :: 12.45am
:: Mood: exanimate

Blech
Stupid fights are just so....stupid.

Hopefully they'll stop.

I'm just exhausted. Too much of me is going in too many directions. It's really not working.

my parents haven't paid my tuition yet. Meaning I still can't sign up for classes. I hate this.

I had this crazy dream when I fell asleep at the library the other day. I think it basically sums up how I feel about everything going on right now. I wrote it in my Lil' Fat Notebook, so I'll type it up here later.

I was thinking of writing a story or making a picture out of it. Picture would be easier, but I don't know exactly how it would work....hmmm... We shall see.

This week should be easier.

Monday:

Wake up: Whenever
Leave: 1:10
Class: 3:30
Train: 5:50
Home: 6:47
See boy
Do papers

Tuesday:

Wake up: 5:30
Leave: 6:44
Library-study: 8:30
Class: 10:10
Class: 11:50- Paper due
Class: 1:20- Paper due
Train: 3:55
Home: 4:56
Work: 5:30
Home: 9:00
Study/Papers

Wednesday:

Wake up: Whenever
Train: 1:10
Class: 3:30- Paper due. 10 sources due.
Meet Jorie: 5:30
Dinner with Yassi: 7ish
Train: 9:35
Home: 11:00

Thursday:

Wake up: 5:30
Train: 6:44
Library-study: 8:30
Class: 10:10 Paper due
Class: 11:50
Class: 1:30
Train: 3:55
Home: 4:56
Work: 5:30
Home: 9:00
SLEEP.

Friday: SLEEP.

Oh! I need to request a day off to see the play! I'm working Thursday...

Maybe I can open 'til 6 on Friday. But I need to get tickets! I'll call Sandy tomorrow and see about that. I don't want it to end up like Story Theatre where we waited outside for an hour waiting for bloody tickets.

Work sucked today. You'd think that if people heard fire alarms going off, they'd evacuate the building, right?

Um, no. Apparantly finished the movie they paid a whole SIX DOLLARS on is more more important than their lives. And Oh no! Is it cold out?! Okay, when the fire consumes you, let's see who's cold. That's right.

I got to wear my cool sweater though. Everyone has to see it. It's all STRIPEY!

Stress is no fun. And now I'm sick, but I have no time to be sick! So that doesn't work. I shall will myself not to be sick. Hmmmm...

I hate how only one of my teachers puts grades up on blackboard.
I'm getting a 27%. Wooo.

Actually, it's because he has all the assignments in there and we havent turned all them in yet. So yeah. I got all A's and B's so far. With the exception of one test. 57%. Oops. I hope I did well on my paper. I felt like I was just saying the same thing over and over again, but in different words. I didn't even start it till 1am. I don't know. I need to get atleast a B in there. With extra credit, right now I'm getting a 70%. Let's see...If I get an....

A my grade will be 81%
B- 77%
C- 73%
D- 69.9%

Hoping for a B. Hoping. praying. I NEED that B. A would make me weep with joy.

Knowing me, I'll get that D. >.<

What about DePaul makes me such a failure?????!!?!?!?!
In History atleast.

Ok, well my throat is significantly swollen and my sinuses are trying to kill me, so I go to die now.

I need to stop sucking at life.

That is all.

Sniff.

Blackcandynecklace

:: 2006 17 February :: 11.13am
:: Mood: sad

I feel like shit. I haven't eaten in about a day and a half, i haven't gone to class in tow days. I've basically been in this room doing nothing. I jsut wanted to update sine i noticed my last post was so positive

5 three drinks behind | martini?

:: 2006 16 February :: 8.42pm

Perpignan, France
Who's going to France?

Emily and Rachel are going to France!

I took a picture of the list of people who are going and I'll post that later. I don't know if any of you knew Kasey, she went to Rockford. She's going to France too.

France FTW!

Read more..

Our electricity keeps flickering on and off. There are tons of branches and trees down. Some of the branches on our trees in the backyard are touching the ground. Every once in a while, there's a cracking noise and you know that some more branches are breaking. It's kind of creepy. I don't know if you all know of the road Kies but I went down it today and a tree by the barn had fallen into the middle of the road.

My mom was working in Kalamazoo earlier today and she said it's about 60 degrees down there. They (Katie) have a tornado warning while we have a winter storm and ice storm warning.

This state is so weird.

I love you all.

:: 2006 16 February :: 9.03am

Today's the day.

I'm all nervous and stuff.

I really want to go to France.

We'll see, I guess.

I love you all.