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Hey whats up? (Yea i know jorie the sky)
Anyway so im bored, i just finished my classes. Too exhausted to start h/w cuz its tough shit. I think were goin to a hookah bar this weekedn which should be exciting. (Belmont stop off the red line, join). I know u guys wont adn if you really wanted to hookah u'd go to the Bellajo cafe in libertyville. But im comin home this weekend (to babysit) but the homecoming game is this weekend which imight show up to, if i get off of work on time. i dunno i don't wanna go but i told ppl im goin. W/e. nothin else.
<3 yasamin
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2005 28 September :: 1.52am
To Nick, in response:
I love you too, babycakes.
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2005 27 September :: 4.59pm
Chickened out on driving. Will most definitely drive tomorrow though.
Love you all. Thanks for the support.
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2005 27 September :: 1.42am
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? : My hair. Whether or not its all flyaway-like
2. How much cash do you have on you? : 12 cents!
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST": FEST!!! Kinda like a party. Test= party
4. Favorite planet?: Jupiter
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your MOBILE phone? : Ryan
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?: Happy Days :-)
7. What shirt are you wearing?: Orange hooded sweatshirt. Oh! Together, Jill and I make LHS
8. Do you "label" yourself?: Loser. Mostly.
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?: White socks. Sam's club variety. I wear my awesome not matching shoes everyday though. :-D Yay for those shoes.
10. Bright or Dark Room? Bright, unless I have a headache
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?: Jill? She smells. Just kidding. She's cool. We make fun of Shonsky man together. Wooo!
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?: Hahaaa...yeaaaaah
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?: "Studying". Meaning I was playing cell phone games
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?: Good Job! We should eat ice cream after school today!
15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?: I shoot the dude or kiss Johnny Depp sometimes.
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?: Hey, Poop
17. Who told you they loved you last: Umm...Ryan Hoffman
18. Last furry thing you touched?: Thor!
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? I took advil at work the other day. It felt like someone had punched me a billion times in the stomach.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? two? But they're b&w. And Jewel sucks at that.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 18
22. Your worst enemy?: Cultural Anthropology
23. What is your current desktop picture?: V for Vendetta. I should change that.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?:I was just talking to myself as i was typing to jackie. I think the last thing I said was "I'm a hooker now!"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?: Million bucks. I could fix any regret. ;-) Haha
26. Do you love / like someone?: A boy. Yeah. He's a good kid.
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2005 26 September :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: stressed
I drive myself to school tomorrow.
I've never driven by myself before.
I'm scared.
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2005 26 September :: 7.13pm
boring survey, only read if your bored
These are supposedly 26 questions that no one would ever think to ask. Answer them, then REPOST the bulletin:
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? : my hair...is it so messy that i am forced to fix it or can i just leave it and get away with it?
2. How much cash do you have on you? : $20
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST": Pest
4. Favorite planet?: Pluto
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your MOBILE phone? : Mom
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?: Your Body is a wonderland
7. What shirt are you wearing?: Black hooded sweater
8. Do you "label" yourself?: Band Dork, Theatre Freak, Loser...yes
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?: im wearing striped socks. but normally i wear payless shoes i dont know what brand cuz it wore off because there the greatest shoes ever and i wear them almost everyday!
10. Bright or Dark Room? which do i prefer or which do i have? i have purple elephants on my walls covered up by many show posters, props, and picture frames with cool people in them. oh and an awesome cymbal :) so its technicolor...
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?: Keister Rocks!
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?: im not totally sure on that one
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?: eating truffles
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?: today was a long day
15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?: no, theyre annoying
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?: thats cute
17. Who told you they loved you last: Matt
18. Last furry thing you touched?: K.C.
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? just Levoxyl and thats perscription
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? like 4 and i got a digital camera 3 years ago so i dont even know whats on them
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 18
22. Your worst enemy?: school
23. What is your current desktop picture?: Mexico...blue water blue sky, palm trees and white sand. its pretty, i just changed it today
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?: I got excited when my mom brought me my pills. i think i said yay! thank you! (exciting right?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?: million bucks...the things i regret i have learned to put past me and get over...so in okay right now
26. Do you love / like someone?: Yes! :)
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2005 25 September :: 9.11pm
I can't get back to studying. I tried.
I didn't mean to. God, fuck. I can't do this. I swear, I can't. I can't keep going like this. I'm not complaining for sympathy or understanding, that's not helping any.
Instead of sympathy, take a metal pole and whack me across the head. Please. I'm begging you.
I just can't do this anymore. Any of it. I'm trying, though. I promise. I can't keep on. I just can't. And I hate myself for it.
I'm being selfish. I know. I'm selfish and clingy and stupid and I don't want to deal with myself. I've spent the past weekend just crying. And I feel like a complete shit for it.
Please? I can't do it. I can't.
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2005 25 September :: 8.06pm
What words get bleeped out on the radio? I'm looking for songs to play tomorrow and I'm wondering if I can play songs with "damn" or "bastard" in them.
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2005 25 September :: 5.50pm
Uber-Christian people creep me out.
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2005 24 September :: 5.58pm
I have a car!
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2005 24 September :: 12.55am
I broke too. I'm very much broken. I very much need a band aid. A very big one.
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2005 23 September :: 1.34am
Chances are if you know me and actually care about me, I really don't deserve it.
I'm just not a good person. And that's the truth.
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2005 21 September :: 10.54pm
:: Mood: scared
I feel better now. I have apple, hot apple cider, and Barnelli's bread in my stomach.
Good times, guys.
I'm still scared. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't want to be, but I am. But I'll be okay. I always am. It's the way I roll.
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2005 21 September :: 1.31pm
Nintendo revolution
Don't know if any of you all have seen this (or care) but I think it's totally awesome.
It's shaped like a remote and the analog stick just plugs into it on its own cord extention. It looks very interesting. And, especially, fun to use and play.
I love you all.
P.S. Here is a close-up. Kinda sexy.
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2005 21 September :: 11.15am
Calculus sucks, its tough shit
Chem 2 much to memorize (need to memorize like 92 elements and other random crap). Btw i've had 3 chem labs broke shit in 2 of them
Speech: is a bitch
Anatomy:everything i did in AP bio last year i've just done and wait there is more biology
Psych: you all lied, filthy liers psych is just a bastard. (ok college psych and Mr. mann psych i guess have to be different)
So basically this week i have a test, quiz, or speech in all of these classes. Damn it why aren't i business major they don't do anything, im serious! (yea i have a test at 1230 so just freaking out a tad)
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2005 20 September :: 6.02pm
Haircut
I am so bipolar. This morning I hated my haircut but now, I love it.
PIC-A-TOURS!
Read more..
That is my haircut. For now, I like it. It's cute. My janitor friend, Jose, said it made me look older and taller. My French teacher said it was very flattering and everyone else said: "I love your haircut."
But, seriously, who would admit that they hated it? Or that it was ugly?
Anyway.
I love you all.
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2005 20 September :: 1.09pm
Well I broke.
I want to go home.
I don't even know why.
I'm too dumb for college.
I can't do things on my own...even going to the library to do a project scares me.
I failed my first exam.
Failed...like below average, and average was 62.
That means I'm failing a class already.
I'm that stupid.
I feel like sleeping all the time.
And thats scary because I guess a lot of people have mono in our dorm.
Great.
Just great.
Everyone has been home but me!
And why they hell did I choose zoology?!
Who was I kidding? I can't do this!
What a dumb career path!
What do I think I can do with this?
Everyone in zoology here is going into a medicine career.
I have a test at 2...its 1:14.
I'm going to fail again.
Why am I freaking out?
Everyones coming to me asking for help lately...and I want to help.
But now I'm flipping out.
URHGJDHG:LKAJSF
This whole alone thing...how do I feel so alone?
People are so awesome here....
But I don't know why i feel so alone and freaked out...like the whole doing things on my own maybe...
Whatever.
I dont get mitosis...and its on my test.
Bye.
~Jackie
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2005 19 September :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: IMEA music repeating in my head
Wireless Mouse
So yes, Senioritis has definitely hit me hard core. It's great. I only have two text books and they already seem like too much. Hahahaha.
I'm freaking out about colleges. I just had to make things way more stressful for myself by going into music. Because my admission is mostly based on my audition. If I fuck up on my audition, goodbye to that school.
So my top schools right now are DePaul and Indiana. Two really really really great schools, especially for music. Fuck. Lots of competition as well. I just want to be good, you know? Blah. But my heart's set on DePaul right now. The more I look into that school, the more I like it. It's in freakin Chicago and I've always wanted to experience the city life just once. My dream was to go to school in New York City but that didn't work out. Chicago will have to do. I mean, there's nothing wrong with Chicago either. I guess just because of the fact that I live less than an hour away from it just makes it weird but really...I don't know much about Chicago even though I've lived here my entire life. I was born there too. Well, not downtown Chicago but in the city nonetheless. Plus the Music school at DePaul is in the Lincoln Park Campus which is where I would prefer to be rather than the Loop. Being in Lincoln Park will give me the more tradition college feel than the Loop which is something that I want...and the city...all at the same time. It would be perfect for me.
Holy crap I really really want to go there. I know my grades and test scores will get me in but I'm just worried about the auditon and fucking that up hardcore.
Ok..I'm starting to clear my head. I'm gonna go there. I will. I'm going to work my butt off until I get in.
I'm not applying to Northwestern. It's an amazing school and I'm in love with the campus but as an undergraduate student...I'll pass. The boy will be disappointed but too bad...my college choices, not his.
Oh the boy. He makes me really really happy. :-)
Ok, that was a brief rant about collges. There will probably be plenty more to come.
Always, Sandy
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2005 19 September :: 9.31pm
I got a haircut today.
I don't know if I like it.
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2005 19 September :: 4.13pm
MY HOT SEXY PHONE
is back. SO call me (same number) so i can ahve ur number. If you guys are bored come visit me @ loyola, I really dont have anything to do....well there are classes but if i am not caffinated i fall asleep in those. Adios chicas. Oh btw i got my eyebrows threaded, a fucking bitch, but it doesnt hurt as much as waxing. OK. Adios.
yasamin
P.S. what is up wiht the ghost in the theatre???
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2005 19 September :: 12.20am
:: Mood: sick
I'm tired and sick. I have way too much to do and not enough time. And nothing that I really want to do. Other then curl up in a ball and close out the world.
You can be invited in if I give you special permission. To my world. Woo hoo.
Ryan's allowed in. Because he taped up my blisters and gave me drugs today. And he kissed me even though I was boogery. And he gave me a pillow when I fell alseep. So he gets permission.
And Melanie. Because she just said something nice.
SneakySeaMonkey: jolly rancher lollypops?
BassClarAngel: hey now! those were good and i've apologized many times for that
SneakySeaMonkey: I knooooooooooow
SneakySeaMonkey: do you still eat them?
SneakySeaMonkey: and laugh?
BassClarAngel: i only randomly eat them if it's some free thing a teacher hands out or something
BassClarAngel: but no, i don't laugh
BassClarAngel: i sigh reverently in rememberance of one of my bestest friends who is far away from me now
:-( So..Melanie...permission.
Jackie too. She died with me today. Just in different states.
And Melissa. Just for talking to me.
Those are just people I can think of right now. Um, Enter your plea below and I will consider you.
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
NO!
1 MORE PAGE!
DEATH!
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2005 19 September :: 12.47am
I wasn't saying, Kyle, that people who drink are anything less than people. My parents drink and, before they were married, my father drank quite a bit. I'm so sorry that I'm upset that the people I care a ton about are making stupid decisions.
And I'm especially sorry that you think I don't give a flying fuck about them. I'm sorry that you think I don't care. I thought that by now, you'd know me better than that. I'm sorry that you weren't there to see me when I found out that Ben spent the weekend at his brother's drinking and getting drunk. I'm sorry that you didn't see how much I worried about him and still do worry about him. I'm sorry you don't see me pray every night that he, Jackie, Kelly and everyone at college or elsewhere will be okay.
Amanda's cousin died of alcohol poisoning.
I'm sorry that you don't see how important this subject is to me.
And I'm sorry that you don't see how important everyone is to me.
I apologize that I'm having a difficult time adjusting to everyone growing up and experiencing adulthood but I am. There's been a lot of stuff lately that has made me have to grow up and it's too bad that you aren't here to see it and that I'm not comfortable enough to tell you.
Yes, people with make dumb decisions. I accept that. I can suck it up.
I can care about them. And I do.
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2005 19 September :: 12.29am
List
Didn't write my paper for I&E. Have to meet with prof tomorrow for 20 mins to talk about said paper and previous paper. Whoops. Might be a short meeting.
Start radio show tomorrow. Nervous as hell.
I love you all.
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2005 17 September :: 2.30pm
So we are getting the car. I just don't know when. I probably won't be able to drive it until I get a job and insurance but still: YAY!
Apparently, a Geo Prizm is just like a Toyota Corolla.
Then I'll get to do all those cool car things that I've been planning on doing (visiting Katie and Kelly, driving to school, visiting the houses I used to live in etc).
I love you all.
P.S. Leo is the cutest dog ever. He tries to usurp McHenry, it's funny.
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2005 16 September :: 11.22pm
I had a job interview yesterday and today my mom said she found me a car.
It's a '90 Geo Prizm (maybe?) and I hope I get to drive it before we actually get it. If we do.
And I hope I get the job because I need it.
I love you all.
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2005 15 September :: 11.27am
Speaker after speaker at the Nuclear Energy Institute's Nuclear Energy Assembly, held on 16-18 May in Washington DC, weighed in with variations on a single theme: over the next 20 to 50 years, nuclear power is one of the few options, if not the only option, capable of providing reliable baseload electricity to meet increasing global demand without exacerbating global warming.
Of course the NUCLEAR ENERGY INSTITUTE is going to say that nuclear energy is the only way to go! It's stupid to say otherwise. It'd be like a vegetarian restaurant offerring meat alternatives or a mosque having Christian services on Sundays.
To Bodman, the way forward was clear: "We need to develop new sources of energy to reduce our dependence on fossil fuels, and help protect the environment." These new energy sources and new technologies include hydrogen fuel cells to power vehicles, more effective ways to produce wind and solar power, techniques for removing pollutants and green-house emissions from coal, and improved fuel efficiency. However, "there is one technology already in place that can reliably generate large amounts of electricity with no dependence on fossil fuels, no pollution, and no greenhouse emissions. That technology is nuclear power."
Yes. Great idea. Until we have a nuclear meltdown and there is no environment to protect. That's not even going into the nuclear waste that's going to be left behind. What ever happened to hydroelectric plants? All nuclear plants do is make water into steam anyway, right? So why not skip the nuclear part?
I'm rambling. This is just to waste time before lunch.
P.S. "Nuclear power should instead be among our foremost options for ensuring that we have safe, secure, affordable, and environmentally responsible supplies of energy."
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2005 13 September :: 7.42pm
We got a puppy today! He's a pomeranian and has three feet and four legs. He is the cutest thing on the face of the earth. He's so small! For now, his name is Leo but that might change.
I'll post pictures later!
In other news, Switchfoot will be touring with Eisley! ZOMG! We have to go. I don't have any money but we have to.
10/27/2005 - Chicago, IL
Vic Theatre
10/28/2005 - Detroit, MI
Majestic Theatre
10/29/2005 - Cleveland, OH
House of Blues
I love you all.
P.S. Leo was on my lap and kept giving me puppy kisses and laying his head on my arm.
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2005 11 September :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: Sad
:: Music: Dying- Five for Fighting
Thor
I'm sad for some reason. I can't tell why, exactly. I don't like seeing Ryan get in trouble. And I think that I know that things are going to have to change soon. I won't be able to see him much anymore. I just know. I don't want that to happen. :-\ That and things that we talked about today. Reality, kinda. I'm hoping we avoid that, you know? I hope. I don't want to be like everyone else. And I like to think that we're not.
On the other hand, I am also very happy because Ryan Hoffman is only the greatest guy ever made.
Today was good. Awesome, in fact. I love today. I hate that I still feel so down.
School too. I'm worried. I just have no motivation. I have no desire to succeed at CLC. I see no point. Therefore, I see no point in trying. :-\ Which is bad.
::sigh::
Oh man. I wish I could stop time. Or not go to school. ::nods::
Ryan Hoffman, you're a good kid. :-)
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2005 11 September :: 10.16pm
Starting next Tuesday from 10am to noon, I will be a DJ on WAQU (1590 - The Squirrel), Aquinas' radio station.
You can stream it off the interweb (whenever they set it up) here.
I love you all.
P.S. My dad is downstairs watching Wizard of Oz and listening to Dark Side of the Moon.
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