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2003 25 August :: 7.25 pm
first day
first day of high school, baby!! well, considering i'm pretty wiped, and it wasn't THAT eventful, i probably won't write a ton.
0) marching band. awesome, as always. definately has the potential to be my favorite class of all time. it's got the phsical, mental, and MUSICAL aspects. (the three main values in life. haha) got to watch the vets perform 'i'm a little teapot' and everyone who was late do 10 jumping jacks. wondeful way to start the day. i LOVE marching band.
1) english. mr. smith. there are only 2 words to say about him: do me. he is the sexiest man i have ever seen. haha. no he's not. but he's pretty damn sexy. smart, too. got his teaching degree from UCLA. really made something out of his life. amazing singer/writer/musician. (one of the major reasons he is so fine in my book) he's just a really awesome person. if you have his class, you know what i mean.
2) P.E. wandered around with like 7 other lost freshman for a bit and then found everyone in the multi. haha. no biggie. met some new ppl though. saw jocelyn. (the one from SETT, nicole, remember her?) totally freaked out matt widman and eric rome. OMG I HAVE LIKE ALL OF MY CLASSES WITH ERIC ROME!! it's weird. there's nothing wrong with him though, so i'm not complaining. basically just took roll and talked about stuff. then talked with the rest of the class. which is like 100 ppl!! i know like everyone too!! dan jones, alan, and like EVERYONE is in that class! its crazy. really.
Brunch. walked around with kiran (but only for a bit, i'm keeping my virginity!!) and talked with rachel and some ppl. also found louise, ali, molly, and deanna. soon realizing that we had like NO TIME to chat by our lockers, ali, louise, and i walked to geometry honors.
3) geometry honors. mrs. olson. i'm not sure what to think about mrs. olson yet. she's definately not a ms. cullimore or mrs. massarro. not up to that par. she doesn't seem too extremely hard of a teacher though, so i'm not worried about that. plus i know 80% of the class again, so i have plenty of peers to help me if i need it. got jon kaplan's phone number. haha. but to call if i need a hw assignment or something. talked about rules and all that first day shizzle. (don't you like how i'm expanding my vocabulary to include 'shizzle' and all that? yeah. i thought so.) not much happened. mrs. olson doesn't seem like a terribly eventful sort of person.
4)GIRLS ENSEMBLE WITH MR. SHAULL!! AHHHH!!! incredibly fun. everyone was completely hyper and wacked out. (be it because they were hella nervous about singing in general or completely EXCITED AND AT PEACE WITH THE WORLD as i was) it was great. we don't sound that bad either!! that was my main concern. that i'd be stuck with a bunch of broadway wanna-be's who sing like shit and don't know shit about music. that's one of my worst fears. those kidns of people....AHHHH!! well anyway we did some sightsinging and introductions and all that. very fun. MELISSA RHYMES WITH CARISSA!! hell yeah baby. haha. muchos funnos. et j'aime la musique. it rocked. o and there was a random fire alarm because of 'an accident in the foods room'. haha. but because of it, we converted from singing intervals on a D major scale to an Ab major scale. (much easier to sing for my soon-to-be-better mezzo range) all in all, it was heaven. my second favorite class. once marching band is done, my new obsession.
Lunch. sat and ate by the library with molly, louise, and claudia. it was pretty fun. i dont know what to think when i feel that my company is probably going to change soon enough. :-/ nothing much happened. we ate. we chatted. i wondered where the hell all of my upperclass sexy buddies were. probably out in their cars drivin around gettin some REAL food. ah well. i'll see yahya soon enough anyway...haha.
5) biology. mrs. williams. the first annoying teacher i encounter at lahs. her voice could kill. either kill, or put you to sleep. either/or. seems very into biology, but is extremely dislexic. being the 'i can't stand stupid people' bitch i am, it doesn't matter what the hell she's done with her disability; she'll never be as respected as, say, mr. smith or better yet, mr, shaull, will be. i'm just that way. and besides, she's annoying as hell anyway. well, thats how my first impressions were. my other first impression is that there are only 6 freshman in the class. 6. six. everyone else is a dumb-as-dirt sophmore or *gasp* a possible junior. should be interesting as all my other classes are so dominately freshman, and SMART freshman at that. seems like it'll be hella easy though. as long as i apply myself and stay consistent with the extra credit, it should be a breeze. i do understand how ppl can be intimidated by her and her class, though. i might not be so cocky about the workload in a few months...
6) French II. Madame Youatt. o lucky me!! actually, i didn't much mind her. (but i agree, adrian, it IS a wig.) i understood her entire question/answer session with the class UNTIL SHE GOT TO ME. of course. i was being so damn smart ass and whispering corrections under my breath (i mean, for god's sake, how can you confuse 'comment s'appelles t'elle?' okay i know i totally fucked up that grammar, but you get the point.) so of course, she asked me, en francais, 'how many siblings do you have at your house?' me:??? reading my confusion 'how many freres are at your house?' me: freres...damn....father or brother? *haha louise good times* and then shit...my father DOESNT LIVE at my house. her: *repeats the question, a little surprised at my lack of understanding* me: oh! okay, gotcha. u mean brother. but umm....time is running out and i dont know how to say this. so uhhh 'but...see...i'm an only child.' *stern look. translation: EN FRANCAIS S'IL VOUS PLAIT!!* her: 'je n'ai pas...' me: *slap* duh! je n'ai pas...*o shit* les freres dans ma maison?' actually, i didn't quite blurt out the entire sentence as easily as i should have, but yeah. u get the picture. whatever. first day. and i got the rest of the conversation too. i was also fascinated with madame youatt's sense of knowledge. for about 5 minutes i was filled with the wonder of discovering and understanding a foreign language more fully. well, after those 5 minutes i began pondering the wig thing again... but anyway, i'm feeling pretty good about the class, and think i'll learn a lot and have a pretty easy time in it. again, give me a couple months on this one and itll ALL change...
7) world studies. mr. freeman. THANK GOD ITS THE LAST PERIOD OF THE DAY!! ummm....he tries REALLY hard to be interesting and freshman-friendly. didn't quite work for me. not a mr. hayman. but in a way, that might be a good thing. there's one less class i have to bust my ass for an A in... i don't really know about him. he's nice. i am starting to see the 'radical' side of him though, and if i'm tired and pissy after a long day of school, i'll get HELLA annoyed with him if he goes into his 'i am always right and i believe in my ideas and am not open to change' mode. good thing is, nicky gelman and shrina are in the class, so i might have 2 really smart ppl to blow my steam on if i get too worked up. also seems to be a pretty easy class, although a bit of work and study will be needed. esp cuz history ain't my thang... but then again, i don't know. a lot will change as i settle in.
alright well, i wasnt really in the writing mood anyway, and other stuff happened after school, but i'm too lazy to get into it all. i have a new calculator now though. yeah, with a 500 pg. NOVEL that comes with it. lmao. plus school supplies galore. yeah. i'm tired y'all! goodnight!!
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2003 24 August :: 3.11 pm
:: Music: All American Rejects-Swing Swing
high school
I am SO ready to start this new chapter in my life. I'm ready for the love, the passion, the hate, and the pain. I'm ready to live life to its fullest and experience challenges both academically and socially. I'm ready for the boys, (or constant lack thereof). I'm ready to try my physical and mental stability. I'm ready to relax and let God lead me. I'm ready for the trials, the experiences, the rewards. Here's to a year of joy, depression, doubt, hope, and love. Here's to four years of growth, development, change, and discovery.
HERE'S TO HIGH SCHOOL!! LOS ALTOS EAGLES FOREVER!!
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2003 24 August :: 9.30 am
okay. well. seeing as i have church in like...55 minutes (haha...nevermind then) i guess i'll be a little short with you. but not too short. (after all, i am a very tall person, and i DO have a bit of time.)
before i begin i would just like to say that i love my journal. it reflects me so well!! i just read about 45 entries back and i'm just really glad that i can look back on it all and realize that i'm still the same person i was. entering high school or not, i'm still melissa. yeah okay, that was cheezy and corny and utter crap. but the point is, MY JOURNAL ROCKS!! read back a little more! you'll have fun!! i did...
so...phantom of the opera. saw it friday night in the city. (technically, san jose is a larger city, so it should be 'the city', but we all know i meant san francisco, don't we?)
it was unlike any performance of phantom i have ever seen. (and i've seen it 5 times now.) what really struck me was the casting. as soon as both roul and phantom had sung their first few solos, i got the feeling that they were cast because they were singers. true, classically trained, talented beyond the reach of most clasically trained, singers. (if anyone has a suggestion as to make that sentence correct, i'm intrigued.)
first off, phantom, or brad little, was a low baritone. how could i tell? i can tell these things. he had a similar voice quality to david cryer, m. firmin. if you are unfimiliar with the roll, it is a baritone/low baritone/bass supporting roll. but none of this means anything to you. (actually, it probably means a lot to a good deal of the people reading this, but now i'm contradicting myself and making this confusing.) the phantom must be played by an extremely talented man who has an incredible range. he must be able to support the low baritone/bass range notes, as well as have a confident, often floaty and easily sung tenor and falsetto range. usually, the phantom would be classified as a high baritone. the tenor notes are easily sung, and the falsetto is beautifully crafted, especially shown off in the last note of my personal favorite, 'music of the night'. brad little, being a low baritone, (and i have to give him this, an extremely talented and clasically trained low baritone) was NOT floaty in his tenor range, and had a VERY weak falsetto. well, as weak as it can possibly be when you support it to the best of your ability. (which, in brad's case, was very well.) but, needless to say, you could tell that those notes would be WAAAAAY out of his range if he had not been trained the way he obviously was. to be blunt, his tenor range and falsetto would be crap, utter crap, had he not a good voice teacher. it would be entirely out of his range, and he would be a happy-go-lucky low baritone. (oh, and to classify all of this low/high baritone shizzle, there is no such thing. it's just baritone. but, baritone, being the middle range for the male, changed voice, isn't saying much. it means a lot more to me, at least, when i specify the strength of the baritone. those strength being towards their higher range or their lower range. got me?) so i think that's enough about brad little. i've been confusing, gramatically wrong all over the place, and unclear. that's what i get for being busy and getting no sleep.
nevermind. more about brad little. he also spoke a lot of his lines. like A LOT more than most phantoms. it created a different, more eerie sensation. you all know the famous line 'be my guest, sir' when roul is entering phantom's dungeon to rescue christine at the end, right? well it is sung. always. michael crawford, THE phantom sung it. and you dont mess with michael crawford. or do you... well mr. little did. (rotfol) he sung 'be my guest' and spoke 'sir'. in a very creepy, phantom-ish way. it was a very interesting effect. i've never heard the line delivered that way EVER. so ummm yeah. to some up mr. little: (lmfao HAHAHAHA!!!) he was cast on his singing ability. his low baritone range made it nearly impossible for him to sing the tenor/falsetto notes in 'music of the night'. he spoke a lot of his lines.
the same, although different, is tim martin gleason, roul. he, too, was cast on his singing (although in a higher-medium baritone range). but i'm not going to nitpick on him as much. after all, he was cute, and how can roul be unloveable??
as for christine, she's a natural. she's a pro. she played christine in the 4.5 years phantom was running continuously in san francisco. she's gotten AWARDS for her protrayal of christine. i have nothing more to say. no objections. this lady IS christine. o, and 'this lady' is lisa vroman. remarkable woman.
the same really goes for the rest of the cast. (i'm getting tired of reviewing...i spent WAY too much energy on mr. little (rotfmfao). kim stengel, carlotta, has done over 2.500 performances in the roll of carlotta. (although in canada.) madame giry, patti davidson-gorbea, was wonderful as always. i just love that roll. it would be mine if i ever get a chance to do phantom. meg giry, kate wray, graduated from the london school of ballet. must i say more? yeah. that's damn impressive.
i am sooo reviewed out. it would be a tiring career. i like it though. double major in performing arts and writing...maybe some publicity/business bachelor degree. but all my cool friends would turn on me if i went into the business...
*ok, the time is now 1:31 and i realize that i have a few more things to add. 1) mr. little (lmao HAHAHA!!) was VERY VERY VERY TALL!! like 6'4''-6'5''. like REALLY tall. 2) i never understood that 'past the point of no return' was about sex. no idea. and i had such sophisticated thoughts on the meaning of it too. haha. what a loser. it's really sexy now that i know what it's about.... 3) i am completely losing it. ROLE! ROLE!! NOT ROLL!!
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2003 22 August :: 1.10 pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: whateverthehell mtv is playing right now
i feel so loved!!
wow. if i wasn't already feeling so energetic and optimistic, what just happened would have totally made living worthwhile.
after replying in scott hayman's lj that he was ubersexy (even though i've never seen him) and that a tall, blonde, freshman clarinet wanted to marry him, i got a reply from heather saying i rocked and such. pretty cool considering i've only wanted to follow in her footsteps for like, 3 years?
but anyway, (i know, it's not like me to skip over such an event as quickly as i just did, but that just shows that i'm in a REALLY good mood) i went to LAHS with Ali today to figure out where all of my classes were and stuff. i'm so glad i didn't go alone. not only did i get to walk around and talk to one of my best friends, i got to gossip the entire time. i've been gone pretty much all summer at camp and trips and stuff, so needless to say, i needed to catch up. it's too bad we didn't have longer, cuz we could have talked for the rest of the afternoon. i also saw my history teacher, mr. freeman. very friendly man, should be a lot of fun. i have him 7th period (which he says is the best period) and he was very impressed with my schedule and probably commented on my intelligence 3 times in the 5 minutes we chatted. should be a fun class! also saw mr. ferrucci and mr. shaull, but then again, i see them every week. haha. how many freshman can say that they know 2 of their teachers on a first name basis?
well, after being unsucessful talking ali into walking home with me, we parted ways and i walked home by myself. (now, this really shouldn't be a big deal, but to my mother, it happens to be a major deal)
should have a blast these last few days of summer. i could (or could not) have a horseback riding lesson this afternoon. either way, it'll be cool. tonight I GO SEE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA IN THE CITY!! AHHH!!! if you're not jealous, you should be. i pity the people who are not enthralled by musical theatre. they're missing a lot.
tomorrow is the red barn festival all day at my barn. i didn't sign up to work this year, but then again, i didn't last year, and i got recruited for parking duty and gate duty. who knows? i might even ride. in any case, it'll be a lot of fun. i've only spent a week chillin at the barn this summer, and it's always fun to see my horsey hommies. :0D
sunday is sunday. i have a clarinet lesson at 4, but other than that, i actually don't have much going on. watch me make life interesting though. one thing you can count on melissa for is an interesting life. it probably comes from my mixture of theatre and music exposure... i'll probably obsess over every little detail of school and all that. it's not every day you start high school.
and MAN am i ready!! i have a feeling i'll be one of the people who sort of ditches the rest of their class and hangs with the upperclassmen. i've always been that kind of person, ya know? i just connect better with them. and i honestly don't mean to brag or anything when i say that i'm just sort of at their level.
ahh well, i could go on and on, but i'll give it a rest. i still haven't finished organizing my room for the new school year...
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2003 22 August :: 10.22 am
haha. i just got my away message analyzed by jeff and (sort of) terrance. it was very amusing. but i know you, jeff. you just wanted me to say 'hard core', didn't you? (gramatical note: doesn't it suck that i have to punctuate that as a question? in our society today, it is very uncommon to use our voice to make that sort of sentence a question. my personal feeling is that the english language should have some wiggle-room and change according to the times and the usage of the gramatical concept. )
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2003 21 August :: 2.46 pm
haha
i just took a personality quiz e-mail given to me by christiana. my answers led me to be: romantic, loving, romantic (again), and wild. that's actually pretty acurate. pretty funny...
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2003 21 August :: 1.11 pm
i am so good
besides clean my room, and shave, i've been so productive. i practiced clarinet AND oboe for like half an hour. (okay, so i barely played at all, but I CAN STILL PLAY OBOE!! i am so proud)
o and i worked a lil on a stupid music theory packet.
i am SO upholding my screen name: musicalbabe. i feel so musical.
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2003 21 August :: 10.57 am
i think i'll use my last 4 days of summer to be productive, but rightfully lazy.
i'll finish cleaning my room and organizing all of my clothes (quite a task considering i have to weed out and throw away about 25 shirts).
i'll work out (even though I GOT TO MY GOAL WEIGHT THIS MORNING!! YESSS!!) and keep in shape considering i won't be doing a sport this year...(wow...my first year in AGES that i wasn't doing CYSA or school soccer/volleyball)
i'll be memorizing my schedule and possibly walking over to the high school to walk it a few times (cuz i haven't done that yet...)
and i'll be reading and tanning and all that good summer stuff that i never get to do during the year. (yes, reading is a privilege that i ENJOY, and miss it greatly during the school year)
now for some updates on today.
i'll be going to the Grambling marching band concert today. here's the info in the words of my mother: "The Grambling marching band, which is very famous for it's fancy double-time marching, is performing in San Jose this evening. I thought it would be fun to go see them now that you have a good idea of how much work goes into it all. Their football team is playing San Jose State this weekend and the band came along to promote the school. The performance is free, downtown by the Children's Discovery Museum, at 5pm." -my mom
just got an e-mail from her about that this morning.
at 3:10 i have an ortho appt with sexy dr. rouleau. haha.
i got the PYT 2003-2004 season flier today. (not that i haven't known the season since the week it was posted cuz i was at the theatre for like a month this summer) but i have a question: WHEN ARE THE TRYOUTS FOR STORIES ON STAGE??? that might be my only chance for PYT this year unless i feel less-stressed enough to do Once Apon A Mattress...which is unlikely considering my mom doesn't want to pay for it anyway.
well ummm...that's about it. i am so excited that i got to my goal weight!! YAY!! 11.5 pounds in one summer. and that's a lot considering i wasn't very overweight to begin with...
have a good last 4 days of summer!!
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2003 20 August :: 4.58 pm
:: Music: the end of Amber
band camp cont.
alright. so. band camp.
it was really really hectic getting on the bus and rushing everything after freshman orientation. cool hectic, but not a cup of tea. once we finally got moving (after waiting for gabe to get on the bus for like 5 minutes...)
quick break for my schedule:
0) marching band-mr. ferrucci
1) survey comp/lit-smith
2) PE-Lodge
3) Geometry H-Olson
4) Girls' Ensemble-Shaull
5) Biology-Williams
6) French II-Youatt
7) World Studies-Freeman
*Advisory 9
so back to band camp. highlights of the bus ride were jeff reading christiana's romance novel and changing all of the feminine body parts/sexual things to money. i.e. "he took the money out of the wallet and caressed it with his masterful hands" although it got old after about 5 minutes, it was pretty damn funny. especially with it being jeff hayman and all. ummm...we also filled out these hilarious surveys made by jeff. questions were: would you rather be a(n) undertaker or porn star? what is the meaninf of life? is the meaning of life? is the answer to this question no? it was great. then the results were passed around amongst the clarinets. apparently they'll be used when we do secret pals or something.
once we got there, we unpacked and had a few minutes before we worked on drill. had a safety lecture, all that good stuff. then drill for like 3 hours. actually, it wasn't THAT long, but i had a long day and it was cold and windy and we learned how to do half-steps (16 by 5 yards) forwards and backwards. it took a lot of concentration to get it right.
then a clarinet sectional and an hour with the band. it was actually a fairly quick music rehersal. didn't get a whole lot done in our sectional. ummm...i think we got new chords for Amber then, too.
dinner. mmmm...dinner.
then we had time to do stuff before game night. then game night. learned some pretty freaky stuff about leadership staff and staff. was introduced to the game 'big booty'....which turned out to be an obsession of the band for the rest of the trip. played pictionary with jeff and kendall. dizzy fun tag with brian. haha. dizzy fun tag. haha. also watched mr ferrucci play dizzy fun tag. o and telephone. we had some pretty interesting messages circulating... leave it to laura and jon to make telephone interesting. lmao.
then we uhh...'went to bed'. while our room was actually sleeping, the drumline's room was making tons of noise and getting in mucho trouble from mr. ferrucci. while getting in this 'trouble', they gossipped about gabe's brother and some other interesting things...the story was set straight the following evening.
breakfast...mmm...breakfast. well, after a shower and all that.
then drill. for like EVER. it must have been at least 3 hours. drill with and without instruments. forwards and backwards. side to side...playing scales...warmups...in the cold, weirdly salty mist crap. it was great.
lunch...mmmm...lunch
uhhh wow. it's getting really hard to relive all of the details. it's also hard because jeff and terrance are IMing me. but anyway, after lunch we had time to do stuff.
went up to the bunkers with clarinets and modified trumpets. actually, it ended up with a few more trumpets than we had originally planned. well, we crawled around...groped in the dark. guessed who each other was by their hands while slapping each other's asses....yeah...good times. haha. explored some more...hung out. pretty cool.
ummm...probably some more marching. oh yeah. haha. there was. we learned the first part of Amber. like 3 measures. ha. and guess what i do? stand. and trill. and not move. at all.
ummm...more stuff.
dinner...mmmm...dinner
ummm stuff until SKIT NIGHT!! HELL YEAH!! skit night rocked. the clarinets did a skit that made ppl strip...(props to matt who took his shirt off first) and i licked icing and oreo's and shit off of glass with derek doing the same on the other side...(consequently, it looked like we were licking each other) and yeah. we won. it was a competition. lots of funny skits. freshman guys saying corny pickup lines to seniors and falling on their asses, the gatorade skit with color guard style and stuff, matt doing a back flip (impressive!!) me on my first date pretending to be in a rodeo....haha....the color guard being silent for a whole minute (eek!) smooth and creamy by jeff and terrance (probably a crowd favorite), dirty dancing by the low brASS, a harry potter-look alike featuring richard for the leadership staff skit, and a few others. all in all, it was a wonderful evening. o, and mr. ferrucci's dog, taffy.
oh, and just as a side note, i haven't called him Ted yet!! it's easer than i thought...
ummm okay well in the morning there was
breakfast...mmmm...breakfast
and umm yeah. i'll skip to the sentimental part if i'm feeling up to it.
it's amazing how quickly you meet new people and how willing they are to accept you here. it's pretty neat to just come into a new thing with no expectations and a limited talent (well, at least for me, with clarinet not being my best instrument) and to come out of it after 8 days with TONS of new friends, an incredible amount of knowledge about the activity you are engaging in. although the amount of information i learned about marching band probably overrides the social growth of my experience so far, it is the friendships made that mean the most to me.
it was such a shock to go into freshman orientation and realize that: yes, the people who were popular last year are still popular, bitchy, and unfriendly. i had just not been around that kind of exclusion since marching band.
there aren't many places where everyone accepts each other so quickly and openly. theatre has its groups, soccer has its groups, even horseback riding has its groups. now, i'm not saying that the marching band is completely happy-go-lucky and there is no hierarchy whatsoever, but at least to me it feels like i am accepted by everyone i see.
it's too bad i got onto that whole group thing. i was doing my whole sophisticated writing style shit before...
hmm...well anyway, i think that that's just about it. a few more things.
it is really rare to admire someone for a distance (for their appearance, nothing else) and realize that they are actually a really amiable, interesting person. it's also rare that you hang out with them a ton after you realize that they're friendly.
o, and the quote of band camp 2003: "i have things to see, people to do." -terrance
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2003 20 August :: 4.48 pm
:: Music: the NEW chord pro's in Amber
band camp
this might get personal if i decide to be serious and write. if not, it'll suck and i'll wish i had written more about band camp.
o screw it. i'll write more later. i'm not focused enough.
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2003 18 August :: 10.15 pm
capture the flag was great. highlights were thomas wanting to take his shirt off, me playing patty cake and marking kyle, and retaliating when the adults wanted to stop. o and andrew and thomas playing piano. musical....sexy...
but not as sexy as another certain person right now. i really really really want a certain person. but ummm yeah.
i'm in the mood for some spooning. i'd leave the window open, but ya know...
so freshman orientation and then band camp tomorrow. i'm missing the annual youth group trip to the boardwalk. oh well. i'll still have a great time.
actually, a great time would involve the guy i want and some action...
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2003 17 August :: 4.17 pm
back to school shopping
well i just had a VERY successful shopping trip at valley faire. i went to pac sun, american eagle, aeropostale, nordstroms and abercrombie. (i only went in abercrombie to laugh at the prices, though. i didn't buy anything)
here is a list of what i bought.
*black cami
*tan cami
*hunter green v-neck halter top
*red puff ball sweater
*fall skirt...it has leaves and stuff on it. very cute
*paul frank tank (sort of like a wife beater)
*hunter green tee shirt with gold lettering...one of those pictures with like 'be lazy' or something on it...ya know what i mean
*white w/ pink flowers and leaves capris (very cute)
*free puka shell necklace from aeoropostale
*blue shell necklace
*pink shell necklace
*white velour pants (on sale 14.99 from an original 39.99 at aeorpostale)
*dark blue sweater (like the ones at abercrombie)
*dark blue polo
*baby blue over-top thing (ya know those really thin ones?) with white sparkley lettering and a hood
* 2 CD holders from organized living
all this for only *drum roll, please* $135. my mom paid for half. pretty good, huh? well, i certainly think so.
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2003 17 August :: 12.21 pm
this is a really nice quiz
well thought out, interesting. i'm not that depressing though...
haha. i am SUCH a bad church-goer. well actually, i'm pretty serious and get a lot out of it usually, but today was an exception. i was sooo tired and spent the entire time with my head on my mom's shoulder. i sat up for a time to sing the hymns and the harmonies (right, i might add, and damn well) and to listen to maggie's modern day rendition of the story of moses. other than that, i was out.
it's not so embarassing that i wasn't paying attention, it was that i was thinking about a certain conversation i had last night... well, that and taking the time to do gymnastics again and learn how to do a flip flop. for some reason, that kept me interested for about half an hour...haha.
well anyway, capture the flag tonight at thomas' house. *nicole, you just might want to come to this...last chance for thomas, i think* should be fun. o and i'm going back to school shopping (clothes) today. i'm sooo sleepy though, it could be quick.
looking forward to away band camp and freshman orientation tomorrow!
oh, and yahya, the entry you're supposed to read is the one below this... ;-)
what decade does your personality live in?
quiz brought to you by lady interference, ltd
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2003 16 August :: 7.36 pm
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sometimes i'm a shallow bitch
last night i was thinking about how ugly this one person was. i was getting all worked up about it too. i know it's the person INSIDE that counts, but i just couldn't control myself.
i was thinking of making this realization a long, thought out entry, and going into detail and giving hints as to who this person actually is. after listening to james taylor in my room for about an hour, i decided against it. but anyway, i'm still regretful, and a little confused as to how i'll approach this person in the future.
to think back on all of things i've shared with this person makes me understand that this whole 'ugly phobia' deal is completely irrational. for some reason, it still hits me though. i just cannot accept the fact that the person i've shared so much with is not as beautiful on the outside as the person is on the inside.
maybe as i grow closer to this person i'll get a better understanding and connect that the person i see is the person i know and love. right now, that seems impossible, if not very hard for me.
in general, it's never really mattered to me how people looked. i mean, take the guys i've had crushes on... i've been consistent in the desire to see the inner personality. there is a distinct reason why this particular person is different, but i think if i revealed that, it would be obvious who i'm talking about. well anyway, i seem to be digging a hole for myself. the bottom line is: i want to accept people for who they are, not what they look like. it's frustrating that i can't seem to connect the two in this case. i don't want to be a shallow bitch, but for some reason i just can't NOT be one...
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2003 16 August :: 7.37 pm
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marching band demonstration today. basically sucked except that i was one of the three freshman left in the drill down near the end. pretty cool. saw mr. hayman. warned him not to see bye bye bridie. he asked me why i wasn't working backstage for it. (wait...the bus barn HAS a backstage?!? ppl who've performed there know what i'm talking about.) had a nice lil chat.
long, tiring week. definately felt the heat when we stood outside, mostly at attention, for two and a half hours in the quad playing our music between 1-3:30.
food was good. i'm really excited for freshman orientation and band camp on monday!! woohoo!! see you all there!!
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