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holiday

:: 2006 29 January :: 10.20pm

You can only say yes or no.

You are not allowed to explain anything.


1. Taken a picture naked? yes

2. Painted your room? yes

3. Kissed a member of the same sex? yes

4. Drove a car? Yes

5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes

6. Have a crush? Yes

7. Been dumped? Yes

8. Stole money from a friend? no

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no

10. Been in a fist fight? no

11. Snuck out of the house? No

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes

13. Been arrested? No

14. Made out with a stranger? No

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes

16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes

17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no

18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes

19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes

20. Seen someone die? yes

21. Been on a plane? Yes

22. Kissed a picture? yes

23. Slept in until 3? yes

24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes

25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes

26. Made a snow angel? yes

27. Played dress up? Yes

28. Cheated while playing a game? yes

29. Been lonely? Yes

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes

31. Been to a club? no

32. Felt an earthquake? no

33. Touched a snake? Yes

34. Ran a red light? Yes

35. Been suspended from school? no

36. Had detention? yes

37. Been in a car accident? Yes

38. Hated the way you look? Yes

39. Witnessed a crime? yes

40. Pole danced? No

41. Been lost? Yes

42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes

43. Felt like dying? yes

44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes

46. Sang karaoke? no

47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes

49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes

50. Kissed in the rain? yes

51. Sang in the shower? Yes

52. Made love in a park? no

53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes

54. Glued your hand to something? no

55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No

56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No

57. Been a cheerleader? yes

58. Sat on a roof top? no

59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no

60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes

61. Played chicken? No

62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes

63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes

64. Broken a bone? No

65. Been easily amused? Yes

66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes

67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes

68. Cheated on a test? yes

69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes

70. Been to a bar? Yes

71. Anyone offer you a drink? no

73. Blacked out from drinking? no

74. Played a prank on someone? Yes

75. Been to a late night movie? yes

76. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes

77. Failed a class? yes

78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no

79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no

81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES ;-)

82. Thrown strange objects? no

83. Felt like killing someone? no

84. Felt like running away? Yes

85. Ran away? no

86. Did drugs? yes

87. Had detention and not attend it? yes

89. Made a parent cry? no

90. Cried over someone? Yes

91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no

92. Dated someone more than once? yes

93. Had/Have a dog? Yes

95. Own(ed) an instrument? yes

96. Been in a band? No

97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No

98. Broken a CD? yes

99. Shot a gun? yes

100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? no

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holiday

:: 2006 28 January :: 12.01pm
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco- Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks

Prescribed pills to offset the shakes...to offset the pills you know you should take...um...take it a day at a time...
AhhHHHH
Yesterday I was stranded at Best Buy so I walked to Char's. AHHH!
I bought The Office! YAYYYYY
and I bought The Notebook.
Tonight's going to be fun!!!!
Birthday surprise for Charlie-yo. <3<3
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Fix a vice with a vice

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holiday

:: 2006 26 January :: 11.37pm

haha
you make me sick!

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holiday

:: 2006 26 January :: 2.01pm

So I finally got around to seeing the Notebook. Wow. I haven't cried so much during a movie before. It's just so sad. :-(
I have class today but I'm sick. I must be dying or something. I've been in a really really good mood and I enjoy being at home. I'm not annoyed with my puppies, they're actually pretty fun :-) And I am making dinner tonight. I just enjoy taking it slow right now and taking everything in. Like I said...I must be dying.

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holiday

:: 2006 25 January :: 4.52pm

I'm really happy with life right now. Everything is great. For once it just feels like things are balanced.
I'm proud of what I've accomplished too. I can't believe (it seems) like my first year is almost done. It just feels like it's going fast. It's a good feeling though, I'd like to get out as soon as I can. But I really like it. I've paid off my own car. $5000. That felt good. I've got a great job and am gaining more and more experience. I made the Dean's list. I like being home and relaxing and actually have time for that. I'm with the man I love and we've got a great future ahead of us. I have great friends. I love my classes. I'm just overall very satisfied.

I went to Spectrum today and learned a lot. I guess there's a job opening, but it's third shift. I may take it...who knows. It'd definitely be an experience. But until my classes are over I'd only get 4 hours of sleep w/both my jobs and classes. That wouldn't be so great.

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holiday

:: 2006 21 January :: 1.05pm

Yikes.
Hmm....
Work in 2 hours. :-/ my elbow hurts for some reason.
Oh, driving was so crappy this morning. I got home around 1:30 or so. It took me FOREVER and I took all back-roads cause I didn't want to crash on the expressway again. So scary.
So I watch the news and it was so funny. They were showing a livecam of the s-curve and how bad the roads were. Then they said that it hasn't stopped people in grand rapids from enjoying their night. And they showed this clip of a clerk getting robbed! Whoops. hahaha they go "Oops, we'd like to apologize that was the wrong clip!"
2 papers to write tomorrow then Monday we have a tour of Spectrum Health.
And tonight I get out at midnight or later. whoo!

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holiday

:: 2006 19 January :: 6.24pm

Oh my goodness! AHHHHHH It's killing me!
I just got a letter from GFS (Gordon Food Service) asking for chefs to work in their test kitchen. That was the job I was striving for! And get this:
$20/hr.
For only 4 weeks of the year, we choose which weeks. For 10 hours a day.
Add that all up, that's $1000 a week! $4000 a month.
And so I'm writing them back. I would love to work there. But I don't have all my years in yet for the requirement. But I'm writing them anyway so they keep me in mind for the future. I would've been able to work both jobs, too.
Dang.

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holiday

:: 2006 19 January :: 2.46pm

i don't know. ugh. i don't feel good enough. tonight's going to be fun though.

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holiday

:: 2006 18 January :: 8.42pm
:: Music: Death Cab For Cutie- Passenger Seat

Wow. Crazy stuff happened today. I feel kinda bad... Oh well.
Char and I had fun today. It was just overall a really good time. I think we needed to laugh more. So that was good. :-)
We're in love. It's nice. I got some pics developed today, here's a creepy one I took...

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holiday

:: 2006 17 January :: 9.34pm

Tomorrow class is at 7:30. AHHH. Then Charlie and I are going out to breakfast together. Yippers. :-)

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holiday

:: 2006 17 January :: 3.00pm

I am bored. Oh so bored. blah blah blah blah blah blah

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holiday

:: 2006 16 January :: 10.53pm
:: Music: Hawthorne Heights- Dissolve and Decay

Man I love you Charlie. <3

Today was kind of relaxing. I feel bad for not really working or anything...
Got up at 6 though (i haven't gotten up at 6 in almost a year!) Went to class, (i can tell Intro to Hosp. is going to be GREAT!), then got out of class around 8:10. Went home and slept then went to Charlie's and had a lot of fun :-) Now I'm watching the Bachelor. hahaha.

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holiday

:: 2006 15 January :: 8.09pm

THIS IS OUR NEW CAR
I'm really excited! It's coming in 3 months! They'll start working on it in 3 wks down in Bowling Green.
The new Z06 is the fastest GM car. And it weighs 300 lbs less than the Ferrari 430, which is pretty awesome. Sorry, Char and I went to the Auto Show at Devos today and I got really really excited. I love cars.

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holiday

:: 2006 12 January :: 1.36pm

waiting to leave for class. boring! I'm all ready to go! hahaha. I just want to get it over with. it's survey of Am. Govn't and it'll be boring. I'm hungry I guess I could eat. Wow. What an update!

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holiday

:: 2006 11 January :: 11.52pm
:: Music: Elliott Smith- Say Yes

Have you watched the news lately?
Seriously, this world is awful.
It's just.... awful.

I'm just really upset.
"My job is one of the most emotionally fulfilling jobs..." -the "Abortionist"

And the whole thing going on with the body in the landfill. I was talking to my hair lady about it and she just said "Well, I mean, it's going to get disgusting with the birds and the tractors running over it..."
And that is NOT what I'm thinking about. I'm thinking, How can those 3 kids leave their FATHER there, in that landfill. Does he honestly deserve to be there? That is awful. He wanted to be cremated, but of course they don't care. Doesn't he deserve something better?

People just amaze me. It seems they're completely guilt-free.
Damn.

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holiday

:: 2006 11 January :: 10.08pm
:: Music: Death Cab For Cutie- Soul Meets Body

What did I ever do to deserve this...?
I'm sick of feeling this way.
I don't want my feelings anymore.

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holiday

:: 2006 10 January :: 11.47pm

I absolutely am in love with this song.
I cannot guess what we'll discover
We turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hand can wash one another’s
And not one speck will remain

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

Where soul meets body

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holiday

:: 2006 10 January :: 10.54pm

As for work, work is GREAT. I missed it so much. I think that was part of my mooood.
It feels good to be back.
We did a party tonight, in-house, for 120 and i now have delicious chocolate cake in hand...haha. Maybe it'll help cure the saddies. :-P
Nah.
I got to drive the Trailblazer to work and it was soooo relaxing and nice.
Work/School are actually going somewhere and I feel good about it. I feel GREAT about it.
I'm going to a special dinner at CC for our ACF members. My boss is getting voted Chef of the Year and I am taking my aunt. Tickets are $65 though. Ehhh... It'll be fun and it's something I feel I need to do.
I'm going to probably go to bed soon. The earliest I've gone to bed in probably 2 1/2 weeks.

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holiday

:: 2006 10 January :: 10.49pm

Ugh. Why is it so awful. Just put on your clomping boots and jump all over my heart. And to think I had a good feeling going. Thanks for ruining it. Thank you.

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holiday

:: 2006 9 January :: 10.09pm

I felt so much love from you tonight...

and so much hurt.

I love you.

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holiday

:: 2006 9 January :: 12.30pm

Eh. Whatever.
I just made a huge step, and even though it hurts, it feels great to know that I'm growing.
As for you, you're cryptic.
I actually care about this. I'm actually making an effort and learning how to fix it. You can jump on anytime now... Talk to me maybe?
Believe me, I'm sick of it too. But don't exaggerate. We have our really good times too. I can't imagine life without you. But we don't need to be like this. We can be fine.
This is all going to be great. :-)

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holiday

:: 2006 8 January :: 8.24pm

ohhhhhhhh this week will be fun/interesting!!!
I'm really excited. I'll post more later...

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holiday

:: 2006 4 January :: 11.14pm

Class schedule starting next week:

CA 102 Intro to Hospitality cred 2
7:30-8:30am M,W 1/16-5/04

PS 110 Survey of Am. Government cred 3
3:15-4:45pm T,Th 1/12-5/04

CA 115 Table Service cred 5
8:50-1:50 M,T,W,Th,F 3/02-5/04

CA 160 Ice Carving cred 2
4:30-8:30 M 3/13-4/24


Classes I've got done already:
First Aid credits----1
Menu Planning/ Nutrition 3
Bakery/Deli Operations 5
Business English 3

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holiday

:: 2006 4 January :: 10.57pm
:: Music: Far- In Two Again

OHHHHHHH

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

I had a bad feeling at first, but we talked and hugged and kissed and everything was always fine.
Char and I went skateboarding at the park today. It was SUPER fun. I fell a couple times. hahaha. I landed on my whole left side. lol.
Then we just had a lot of fun today. I love him.
So much.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to Seoul Garden w/my Aunt Linda then pick up my check at work then Charlie's. But the weather...ugh.
It HAD to snow again.

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holiday

:: 2006 1 January :: 11.14pm

blah blah blah
got some news
blah blah blah

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holiday

:: 2006 1 January :: 5.22pm

Hmm...Where was I last New Year's Eve?
Working at Latitudes, ducking from crazy drunks in the bar.
Hanging out w/Charlie, at the hotel. Eating ice cream.
hahaha.
Getting a new job! That was 3 jobs ago!!!! Holy crap.
It's gonna be a good year. I can feel lots of changes. Ah it's great!
I miss Applause right now, I kind of want to work. Is that sad?

"You make my heart feel really good!" <3 <3 haha

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holiday

:: 2006 1 January :: 2.34pm

oh... happy new years.
oh baby
last night was awesome.

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holiday

:: 2005 30 December :: 2.09pm

We were talking wedding ideas. YAY. It's just a grand feeling. My mom is excited. We were talking about her wedding and stuff and what we're going to do in Char's and mine. We have to reserve the place of the reception in a few months, and we don't even know where it's going to be! haha.
In other news, dad and mum went to look at the new corvette z-06 today! Ours is coming in a couple months. Canary yellow! Woohhhh!
It's got a display that shows up on the windshield that shows your speed and how many g's you pulled. And a navigation screen, bose system, and dvd player. We don't need a dvd player though...that's stupid. I'm excited!

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holiday

:: 2005 28 December :: 8.21pm

Chillin' w/my boyyyyyyy. haha
I love Charlie
<3 hehe
I love CHARLIEEEEEE
<3 hehe
maybe i just wrote a song...
HEHE

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holiday

:: 2005 28 December :: 8.21pm

Sararrrrr this is for you!
Your French Name is:

Agnès Vaillant

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