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2004 5 April :: 9.23pm
hahahahahahaaaa!!
this is the song stuck in my head -> im a hustler baby, i just want you to know, it aint who i am, but where im bout to go.
lmaoi, were did THAT come from?
since i wasnt in school today i became: Ana The Couch Potato Wonder.
there was a special on Nirvana and Kurt Cobain on ALL day.
i watched it only because the host was broadcasting from seattle. and im a little interested in that stuff, most of it is old news.
it was the most depessing 4 hours ever. i think it was longer too.
blahblahblah. it makes me sad that we still dig up kurt cobains memory every year.
i know it was a hard blow when he died, but how does anyone expwct it to heal when we just scratch open the wound every year.
yes i know he spoke to everyone. he spoke to me too. but alas he is dead. it is sad, yes, but it was very much his own choice. nothing can be done.
and we can only be told so many times what happened. it just basically the same story every year.
ah well what can you do.
they only showed parts of seattle i didnt see very well :(. the only thing i was really close to, that i knew of, was the space needle.
but i did watch Life or Something Like it, which takes place in seattle, that was exciting.
i watched mona lisa smile today. it was good.
and i watched the nighmare before christmas. which was good.
i should be doing world history homework,
shame on me.
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2004 5 April :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: sigh..
watch me fall into stories and pages with a flourish
hm.
i am a geek.
[GEEKER JOY! haha andrea]
moving on. biology is haunting me now. i need to start cracking on that studying.
here is something to do. when you go to a movie premeire, dress up as a frankfurter and look around terribly confused.
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2004 5 April :: 7.06pm
:: Mood: wondering
:: Music: yellow - coldplay
my moviequote for the day...
Humpty Dumpty was alone...That's sad isn't it? He had to sit on that wall all by himself. He deserved to have somebody...That's really what we all need, right? Someone to sit up on the wall with us...to watch the world go by...to put us back together again when we fall
- from Never Been Kissed
andie*
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2004 4 April :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: wondering//remembering
:: Music: dont cry for us - justincase
kudos to robert frost
have you ever read "the road taken" by robert frost?
lordy that poem is so right
have you ever wondered what of happened if:
you went to that other school
you gathered your guts and talked to that guy
when that spontaneous burst of life was knocking on your door, if you would have answered the door
hmmm
but i shall not fret on this forever
for the past is sometimes more comforting that your past
no more looking in the rear view mirror for me anymore
for i have been dwelling on it too much lately
andie*
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2004 4 April :: 3.22pm
:: Mood: depressed
Prom was last night. It was fun i guess. Didn't dance with any guys which sucked but oh well, so goes my life. After prom, sam, josh, mark, julie and i went to denny's since thats the only place open late. Josh and tony met us there. Im still killing myself over josh. He made little comments, like, u look really good in that dress, and so on and so forth. I just dont get why he is flirtatious and makes these comments if he doesn't like me. we had a long talk online after denny's...sam was talking to him too and relaying the info to me. If im such a great person, and attractive and stuff...why won't he date me? It sounds like hes making up excuses to not have a girlfriend. I asked him about jonelle and he said they are not a couple and they just hang out. I asked him y we couldn't do that and his response was because jonelle would get pissed. fuck her i say. if a person wont let u hang out with certain ppl then they are not ur friend. is she jealous? hmmm.....sam told me that he liked/likes her but she totaly blew him off and if she did like him then she would be trying harder to get him. i just think she likes the attention he gives her.whatever. im just lost about this whole thing. he also said that he might want to back off a little since every time we all go out he hurts me and feels like a jerk. im glad he feels like a jerk because at least he knows hes being one...maybe not at the moment hes acting like a jerk....but afterwards. I see past ppls flaws......and i really like him still and it just makes me crazy that i can't have him. there is just something about him that rips my heart out and makes me miserable that hes not mine and im not his. i can't help it god knows ive tried. Im never like this. god im so stupid. i will be miserable for the rest of my life because no one wants me. my plan is to keep hanging out with him and try to change things around. i can do it..it just takes time...by the time i leave for sweden i hope to steal a kiss and i will.
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2004 3 April :: 10.31pm
:: Mood: sad//disappointed
:: Music: break down here - julie roberts
home is where the heart is
i am homeless
home is where you feel most comfortable
the walls embrace you like the arms of a great aunt that you havent seen in years
that is where after anything like a break up, rough day at school, or any curve ball that comes your way, you can go and feel safe in your soul
home sweet home, they say
i am homeless
i live in a house
not a home
ready to move
andie*
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2004 3 April :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: slutty
:: Music: a perfect circle.
i woke up this mornign with sand all over me.
and when i brushed my hair, grass came out.
dont ask.
my face is so itchy. owww.
i need some one to talk to.
and yes i know i can talk to you, dont get upset and leave angry comments.
i just cant.
i will be smart and stay silent.
i love how people act like thier your friend to your face. but wont ever talk to you, outside, unless they have to.
i hate the way it feels when you know a part of you just died.
i talked to my mom today. it was good fun. i love her.
zack is 14. can you believe it. i completely forgot he was a teenager.
we are still like 10 and 8 in my mind.
lol. id like to scream what i am thinking at the top of my lungs. then run away so i can hide.
it sucks when you know you cant go to the who should be able to comfort you.
good night
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2004 3 April :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: sic transit gloria - brand new
softly spoken words ring in my ears
yesterday was dumb.
i had a math test. i completly forgot about it. i christmas-tree'd it all the way. i am so failing that one.
people are already studying for the ap bio exam. i guess i should get cracking too. i'll need serious study time.
i have to read romeo and juliet this weekend. and study for a test in english about different poetry stylings, and the first act. joy.
tonight is prom. my sister is going with her friends. julie is sleeping over.
i hate the fucking kids on my street. they were beating up my brother. they were kicking and punching him while he was on the ground. i will kick every one of their asses and bash their heads together. they need to be severely punished. by me, if no one else will. now, my brother is on his way to the fucking doctor because my parents think his shoulder might have been dislocated. if those kids see me, they better run their fucking legs off.
excuse the amount of profane language.
now, off to do more homework, because teachers seem to think that we enjoy it on the weekends. oh wow. watch me rip my fucking hair out and strangle them.
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2004 3 April :: 1.09am
:: Mood: _ConFuSed_
.,"*MaRk On THe pHONe*",.
hey, sorry i havnt updated in awhile.. ive been pretty busy. i got adios. black kenny andresons. P i m P lol.. im talkin to mark on the phone right now about mia, and her gayness and poserish life. lol.. tryin to be cool. wear mah shitt.. not happenin. grrr....
im at baileys right now!! wow.. im gettin really pissed.. AHHH.. ne whos.. im gonna go cause im gettin really tired..
muah!!!
always
LaLa
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2004 31 March :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: my head will implode soon..
:: Music: Miserable
i get lost in the voices of yesterday as they clamor in shrieks and whispers inside my head
we got a white volvo S60 yesterday. its a stick shift. i will have so much fun learning on that sucker.
hmm. i think my head is going to explode. well, i dont know for certain, but it sure does feel that way. its ok though. i'll get over it.
today at school. in a word: headache. all day man. my voice sounds funny. anyways, much homework, so thanks to all my teachers. oh! report cards came in the mail. take a gander:
ceramics/pottery - smith : A-
draw I/draw II - roeder : B+
english hon I - greene : A-
algebra II hon - bode : B
band - daniels & bennett : A+
ap biology - freis : A- BOO-YA!
business systems & tech - lefort : A+
oh yes.
um. here is something to laugh at. i was hurting myself all day. i have a bruise on my arm from a white board. i tripped over a chair. i am a pirate. stubs is a swashbuckler. and a deck-swabber. HA. that is way cool.
i like the song im listening to.
"stuck to a chair, watchin this story about me
everything goes by so fast, makin my head spin
used up all of my friends, who needs them
when you mean everything?"
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2004 31 March :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: happy//honky tonky
:: Music: country boys and girls - tim mcgraw
why brandi's room smelled like garlic...
once when i was younger, i was at my friend brandi's casa.
we had just been talking about if the barbie dolls would move when you werent looking,
if they became....alive.
we must have been like 6/7 when this happened.
so we were in her room and we heard this weird noise from outside her window
(it was really the deaf girl who lived in the apartmento nearby...but we didnt know that)
we got really scared and jetted out of that room...thinking it was the barbies coming for us....they were alive remember?
so brandi and i go into their kitchen and grab...the garlic powder'
we go back to her room, garlic powder in hand, and sprinkle it ALL OVER her room
i have no idea what we were thinking with that garlic powder
maybe since garlic wards off vampires that it will save you from evil barbies
we got in trouble for dousing her room with the garlic powder
but hey, at least we didnt get ambushed by evil barbies
after that incident, everytime i went into her room...it smelled like garlic
since then they moved
and i bet the people who live there now wonder why that one room reeks of garlic
but thanks to brandi and i
they will never be attacked by evil barbies
andie*
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2004 31 March :: 3.23pm
:: Mood: happy//singing along
:: Music: break down here - julie roberts
happy hump day :P
so here is my day in a nutshell:
-math starts with a m...whoa so does migraine
-mo-mo, jake, rina and i....incubus concerto..wanna go? talk to me
- tgs line reciting at lunch
- freakin DOUBLE wet willy from will in spanish
- i turned around and hit him in the arm askin wtf? and angel who sits next to me was like "whoa i never heard you cuss before"
-"ewwww you wet willied my ankle!" -angel
- if brandon calls me backseat betty one more time..the squirrels will be called
-singing "look at me, i'm sandra dee" while walkin to mi casa from the stop with casey
-report card...chevelle-worthy grades :)
andie*
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2004 30 March :: 10.43am
:: Mood: icky
:: Music: anthem part two - blink 182
lost in a woven idea's thinning rivulets
well, as you can see, i have changed my journal layout yet again.
here is my story for today:
went to school for 2 periods, and then got called down to the attendance office so my mom can take me to my doctor's appointment.
i have an upper respiratorial viral infection. and kinda congested too. i get to take some tylenol and then it will make me all better.
we went to the bagel factory afterwards and i got a chocolate chip bagel.
now i am home for the rest of the day.
ha.
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2004 29 March :: 6.16pm
:: Mood: happy//wondering
:: Music: talk show on mute - incubus
to be or not to be...that is the question.
today during health class somehow we got on the subject of what we might want to do when we get older.
i piped up and said, "i think i would want to be an art teacher."
honestly i probably go through three careers i might want to do a month.
my mind on the subject changes like the wind
anywho, back to the art teacher business.
i would love to teach art.
i love art.
im no picasso at it but i still love it
i think it would be so much fun teachin kids the wonderous artwork of andy warhol, roy lichtenstein, van gogh, picasso, romero britto, da vinci, monet, salvador dali and many others.
oh such fun.
this is a small list of other things i have considered to be "when i grow up":
-a car mechanic
- english teacher
- marine biologist
- paramedic
- vetrinarian
- surfer...which is quite funny since i dont know how to surf and i live on the west coast where there is no surf...shh i was 10
- astronaut
------many many others
i think that my view is that i shall use that list above as a checklist
i wanna do it all
andie*
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2004 29 March :: 2.23pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Thursday
sinking slowly into the midnight sky
i felt yucky and sick today.
no school for me.
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2004 28 March :: 9.01pm
you know what makes me feel absolutely georgous.
being surrounded by bubbles.
how crazy is that.
it makes me feel mysterious. because of how infantile it is. it seems like it makes people wonder. shes is abouve blowing bubbles like a child, what about blowing bubbles makes her want to do that.
i want to know more about her.
many peple have told me i have eyes that sparkle.
but they didnt say that exactly. someone once said my eyes light up. and some said my eyes shined.
and someone said my eyes made them want to tell me they loved me.
how odd, that people can get an emotion as stong as love just by looking into anothers eyes. a concept which has totally been ruined for me, and i will not pass it on to you, if you are one of those who gets weak at the knees from a good eye lock.
i am sore, karens party was fun. we swang on swings. like children often do.
we walked downtown and got pizza which was crazy daisy. and then we went to this senior chrissy's house and went swimming. and came back and ate spagetti.
oh man this girl had a hamster and one of those balls that they can roll around the house in! I SWEAR TO GOD IT WAS THE MOST HILARIOUS THING I HAVE SEEN IN D A Y S.
if you roll him in it he kinda spins around stuck to the side. and when he wants to stop he stops and rolls up the side and sorta falls. and HE RAN INTO WALLS!!
that little guy rolled all around the house. it was great.
i cut my foot climbing on the cement things under the bridge near the park. it sucks. i superglued it shut and i got that off so now i have a band aid on it.
;D i love you more than ever
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2004 28 March :: 11.36am
:: Mood: rah
:: Music: dangerous - ghost of the robot
fall away in velvet whipers
here we go:
the assembly wasnt about sex. to be honest, i dont know what the hell it was about. the only thing i learned is to not sell strawberries for a living.
i had to babysit connor on friday. woo got thirty bucks.
saturday rolled around. this is the day i get to help out at the center, because there are students trying out for visual arts. oooh man. it was so much fun. hey, did you know that school coffee sucks? i mean, its drinkable, but.. i wouldnt suggest it.
I AM A PIRATE!!!
hahahahahaha lmao good times. dude. me and carolyn saw mark barron. what a little monkey. he is skipping 9th grade. come and help me strangle him.
and holy crap. the senior show is freaking awesome! you should run, jump, and skip yourselves over there.
i went to barnes and noble with chelsea and sydney. i had my frappuchino (yum), sydney had hers, and chelsea got the iced caramel macchiatto. ooo i wouldve gotten that.
bought some books, and then went over to syd's house. ahhhh, sydney's computer is slow, but we waited. all for the sake of james.
if you are not already reading it, then go and buy the da vinci code. it is the best book i have read.
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2004 27 March :: 12.32am
colleens party was so fun...
alexa, emily, lacey, brittany, robert, andrew, zach, colleen, me, calli, heather, and some other ppl were there.. we had so much fun singing say my name on karaoke and calli lacey and me sung the thong song...
i love calli moore so much she is so nice and so fun to hang out with.. and shes great at pool.. lol. well hey i made a cd and im gonna go listen to it.. muahz!!!
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2004 25 March :: 2.56pm
:: Mood: blaaaaah.
:: Music: life for rent - dido
your words linger in this darkened room like a faded star
wow, do i hate biology or what. i get to describe how the five-kingdom system is connected to all 55 chapters of my biology book. either save me, or put me out of my misery.
oh man. we had an assembly yesterday. it was cool. but depressing. a man with hooks for hands and prosthetic legs was talking to us. i felt bad for him.
tomorrow we have an assembly about sex education. what fun.
sigh.
i think i might change my journal layout again. im trying to find a good background for an icon i made. i'll make a background myself if push comes to shove though. hm.
oh! and i am filled with happiness at ghost of the robot making a new cd. it will be called gods of the radio :) woo.
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2004 24 March :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: *sigh*
Just wanted to let the ppl who read my journal that what i write is just me trying to reason things out, reflect on things, vent...vent some more, and write what i feel at the moment i write it. Im not trying to offend any one and i dont mention names if i complain.....u know u have complained about ppl before....
these are just my thoughts and me trying to deal with stuff and try to be sane while being exposed to so much insantiy. remember, what i write in my journal is just me talking to my self trying to reason stuff out...i just go on and on and on about stupid stuff sometimes...thats just me trying to figure out what my feelings are...i cant work things out in my head i just have to reason with myself by writing it....i promise im not crazy ^_^
we all have our moments
sry to anyone who took anything i said the wrong way
much love YO
LaTeRz....
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