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Rina

:: 2004 11 March :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: whatever?
:: Music: burn, burn - lost prophets

dance upon the rainbow clouds
oh-my-god-youre-gorgeous!

whoa. good fun in school these past.. two days. and everyday of this week has felt like a friday. its like i mentally go through one school week in a day. weird.

on wednesday i felt like i was 5. i seriously wanted to just slam my books on the ground and throw a tantrum. but i didnt. which is good.

me, car, carrie, and alison all have a lethal fascination with A1 steak sauce. wooo what fun :)

i know i should write a lot more. but as it happens, i am quite the tired one. i guess going to bed at 11:30 isnt good for waking up in the morning hahaha. oh man. ever since ana said it, every time i look at this bunny from the still life we have to draw, i think of it. the first day she said 'wow- that is a hot bunny. you should totally draw it.' i dont know why i think of it though lmao.

ooohhh man. oh man oh man oh man. tomorrow is the last day of school before spring break!! woot!! i can not wait!
.. even if i do have a biology project. darn you, ms freis.

i went to target today. and publix. publix is cool, and you know it. did you know you can buy flip-flops there in the summertime?
you wish you were awesome enough to work there.

hmm.. i wrote a poem that i am actually fond of :)
"Dreams"
Follow me through crashing stars
hold my hand; never let it go
stay with me, your soft soft voice

Lets find our way
through the thickening fog
hold me forever in stormy eyes

Feel the smoothing colors
in the deepening rain
give my lips a little secret

Take me with you
forever in the frozen glory
tell me in the way of rainbows

Taste the grace of dreams
of a place like Neverland
forget anything but you.

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dreamiecloud

:: 2004 11 March :: 7.59pm

AH I AM SO EXCITED!!!
UPDATING IN ALL CAPS CANT EVEN JUSTIFY HOW EXCITED I AM!!!!!!!!!!!

TOMORROW AT THIS TIME I WILL BE ON A PLANE!!!!

IT WILL PROBABLY BE IN TAXAS.

AND FROM THERE I WILL GO TO *SEATTLE*

ok im clam now...calmer anyway.

i have the best parents in the world. i love them

i am so happy. i cant wait to see my mom. and zack and floyd.

:D.

i think im going to cry. literally, this is me at my happiest. because i am busy, and the busy-ness has the best purpose.

i love you all, and if i dont update tomorrow or from WA i will see you in school.

byee.
c'est moi

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lisalion816

:: 2004 11 March :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: the radio in my head once again......

Yeah I'm bored. I want to talk to Ian but im too chicken to call him. Sam thinks im stupid. I think shes umm....special.

Found out something interesting about Josh......oh how he likes to play with ones' emotions.


Jerk.


I might call Ian tonight....hes way nicer than Josh.




Later......

....and suddenly im painfully bored

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings


lisalion816

:: 2004 9 March :: 1.51pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Only the music in my head...ha ha ha ha ha ha

Wow i have to rewrite this stupid entry b/c i somehow deleted the whole thing before i got to update it!!!! Oh my life always works out like this! ok...i'll start from the top...AGAIN

I went to the AFI concet on march 4th. It was so cool! Coheed and Cambria and Thursday opend for them. Coheed wasn't anything special i think but Thursday was kick ass. I was there with sam and josh and we were all having a blast! well....that is untill AFI came on. As soon as they got on stage and played the first cord of i can't remember what song the crowd rushed the stage and the three of us go caught in it. I was seperated from them and was like "oh shit" for a couple of minutes untill i felt someone grab me out of nowhere and pull me to the front. OMG josh is strong. It was crazy to say the least. As soon as i got up there, sam had an attack. Josh pushed our way out from the front with all his strength and then we go stuck in a mosh pit. It was like he was possesed or something...he went crazy! i mean this guy was on a mission. He carried sam through the pit and managed to get me out of there too. We got to the medics at the penalty box thingy and he, sam, and a medic, jumped the railing and bolted. I was like shit.....i was to short to get over it! One of the other medics brought me out to the lobby but i had no idea where they went. I was scared...yeah so i went back out to the floor after standing around looking for them for like 15 min to go find her sis who was there. By sheer luck i found her and her friend. We asked around and found a first aid room where we found sam and josh. She was on oxygen and shaking, the medics on the phone with the parents. it was crazy. After like 10 sam and josh said to go back to the concert b/c i shouldn't miss it but i felt bad about leaving them... they said it was fine and they would meet me after. I got back out to the floor but stayed in the back b/c i didn't want to die in the crowd...im short...i would have been pummled. but i enjoyed it even though i was kinda pissed about missing 45 min of the concert and then having to be in the back. oh well, i got some good pics...thank God for zoom lenses.


ok ok i need to go pick up the sis at school....oh she pisses me off....she thinks she'll die if she rides the bus. such a CHICKEN!! oh well. I'll write later when i get home...at the moment im at VIP where my mom works but there is no sign of Ian. can't ask for everything right? ok....

LATER....:)

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings


LaLa91

:: 2004 9 March :: 11.32am
:: Music: evanescence

hello
playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello
im your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello

if i smile and dont beleive
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
dont try to fix me im not broken
hello
im the lie living for you so you can hide
dont cry

suddenly i know im not sleeping
hello
im still here
all thats left of yesterday

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LaLa91

:: 2004 9 March :: 11.16am
:: Music: whisper--evanescence

---------------------------------------------------------
catch me as i fall
say your here and it's all over now
speaking to the atomosphere
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain
if i will it all away

dont turn away
sont give into the pain
dont try to hide
tho they're screaming your name
dont close your eyes
god knows what lies behind them
dont turn out the light
never sleep never die

i'm frightened by what i see
but some how i know theres much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away

dont turn away
dont give in to the pain
dont try to hide
tho they're screaming your name
dont close your eyes
god knows what lies behind them
dont turn out the light
never sleep never die

fallen angels at me feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
forsaking all i've fallen for
i rise to meet the end
---------------------------------------------------------

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lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 8 March :: 10.49pm
:: Mood: sick//tired
:: Music: special - garbage

from my little book
"world"

how many nights
must i wonder around this world
wondering how life would be
if you were here
i caught my breath tonight
and realized
i need someone
who holds my
happiness and love
to hold my hand as we
view this world
losing their breath
as i catch mine

"her past"

child, child
dont look back
dont let the pains
of yesterday fumble
your steps down the road of life

dont let the darkness
of your past
interfere with the
beautiful light that has
overcome it

dont let what happened
become you
your soul is wonderful
with a few bruises
that will always be

child, child
dont look back
keep your head high
and grasp tomorrow

you have escaped

"piece of heaven"

i wanna run from the city
leave the noise behind

find a house in the country
make it all mine

start a little farm
not hear the sound of cars

bonfires at night, breathe clean air
stare at the stars

wake up and watch the sunrise
embrace the silent love around

sit out on my front porch, watch the sun go down
smiling at the piece of heaven i found

peace out//hugs not drugs yall
:) *Andie

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LaLa91

:: 2004 8 March :: 11.07am
:: Mood: _HUrTinG_
:: Music: blink 182

IN PAAAAAIIIIIIINNNNNNN
ouch ouch ouch... i went to the doctors thursday night bc i was having really badd cramps.. i got a cat scan x rays ya know.. the whole sh-bang.. found i had appendicitis and had to get my appendix [[surgically]] removed, we're talkin pain!!lol i had to stay in the hobstical for 3 dayz.. but i had some visttors,,, thanks yall for comin'!! i was bored to tears!!! lol... kayla came and lacey and kristi, and bailey and her mom and sister brooke,, and i got a lot of gifts!! and flowers and candy so im all set.. i mean sure, i can BARELY walk! but.. lol.. the candy's great.. so i get this week off of school but, then i get the second week off to b/c we hav spring break!! awww man im gonna miss criag's birthday. i g2g!! love ya!!!

LaLa

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dreamiecloud

:: 2004 7 March :: 9.49pm

how can loving someone be so easy
i think this has been one of the most exciting weekends of my life.

which is unbelieveably sad.

ok so heres my weekend.

friday
*school.
*went out w. don to charlenes.

saturday.
*took aunt and unle to air port - they are going to visit thier new grandaughter.
*went to sanibel outlets. got 5 shirts from gap w. gapcard.
*got ears pierced. double hole.
*talked to billy.
*talked to charlene
*lied to don. (i am a BITCH)

sunday (today for the slow ones out there)
*church, enough said.
*breakfast.
*got my hair cut. everyone act surprised when you see me tomorrow
*went to ross, got:
-1 skirt
-1 shirt
-1 sweater
-2 pairs of pants
-cute undergarmets
*went to michaels, got:
- 1 tube ultramarine paint. (fineally)
- colored pencils.
*got some taco bell
*watched rebel w/o a cause.

so yea.

5 days - seattle!!!!!!!!!!!
AHTWEj nefg8i9w43rnjkdsfjkHjkkjKJHYUui8oif

i am so excited. ho-ly crap.

you know what is the gayest thing e v e r ??

i got highlites in 8th grade right. and i just cut 3 damn inches off my hair, and there is still some blone at the ends of my hair.

if ana every talks about dying her hair again, slap her for me.

or you can just slap her cause her reaction is funny. your choice.

man i hope this week goes by fast.

ok everyone poll:

my plane leaves at 530 pm this friday, this means i could go to school and ride the bus home and go to the airport with time to spare. oh and you have to be there one and a half hours early to go though the searches and crap.

ok here is the question:

should i or should i not attend school this friday?

no pressure. dont kill yourselves trying to answer.

but...if i dont recieve an answer for you...i will hunt you down. so watch it. you may wake up with one eyebrow instead of two.

just a warning. :)

im off
*Ana

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lisalion816

:: 2004 7 March :: 6.12pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Lost Prophets

ok ok......Josh is out of the picture now. He likes this girl named Jonelle and she is a big problem for everyone. Sam's Josh has a history with her kinda and Sam doesn't like her and when we all went over to Stang's house he didn't say anything to anyone really. Instead he and Jonelle couldn't keep their hands off eachother. Oh that didn't make any one uncomfortable. God hes such a jerk. And there is only one reason why he doesn't like me. God he is so shallow. He wasn't worth the tears i shed. I barely talk to him anymore...well its the other way around but whatever. Yeah there is still something there on my part i think but hes not worth my time....arg!


So today Sam, Josh, and this new guy that works with sam, Ian and I went bowling. It was fun but i suck at bowling....i had fun though. Ian is a nice guy. He is in a band which is oh so cool and has the whole "rocker" look which is so hot. I think hes hot but im not going to go down that road. My attitude is, if it happens it happens...well thats what im telling my self. oh well....so far i've made a new friend which is a plus.


Wow...im listening to the Lost Prophets CD for the first time. They are really good! I like em and you should buy the CD! lol Demanding aren't I? oh well not like anyone reads my journal anyway. la la la good stuff.


LATER...

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings


Rina

:: 2004 6 March :: 8.22pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: rest in peace

I seem to like the endless today
i was remembering some things from when i was little.

boys are silly.

tomorrow sydney is coming over! it makes me feel like
this ---> (:
we shall party.

i slept in today. until 12:10. ah, so refreshing. considering i had been up for 21 hours, it was no surprise, but hey..

im going to get a little book to put all my poems in :) i have some in a notebook thing, but it looks more like a journal, and its a little big.

i have worked up the courage to post one (:

"Shadows of Secrets"
in the corner
of a bright happy room
there is a secret
a secret no one can see
it moves swiftly
like the falling sky
it doesnt touch or feel
its iridescense lurks in your mind
probing the dark depths
even when the light gives you comfort
it is there
its the invisible menace
the fear you've always encountered
and a nightmare that never ended
its a shadow
that thrives in darkness,
yet basks in light
so tell me
tell me your beautiful secret

..thoughts?

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dreamiecloud

:: 2004 6 March :: 6.48pm

oh man you know how gay i am...
my cell phone rang at 5 30 this morning. and it scared me. i thought there was something wrong with it so i just turned the ringer off.

then it rang again and picked it up because i realized it was ringing. and it was....billy.

he was upset becase he saw me with don last night.

i feel like a shithead. forget it i am a shithead.

i lied to don and told him i had a project to do (which is true to an extent) and i was sleeping at some girls house tonight. so i didnt have to go out with him.

i cant believe i did that. charlene said i was gay because it wasnt a believeable lie. so now im just feeling crappy because i think he knows i lied.

well anyway, i lied because i am going with billy tonight. well billy and them anyway.
im nervous. because if we see don, im going to crawl under a rock and dieeee. because dons nice, and he doesnt deserve this.

a plus is...is that we are not dating. so it wont be all bad. i have no obligation to him. or to anyone for that matter.


anyway. i got my ears double pierced today. and i got some clothes for seattle. tomorrow i want to go to ross and see if i can get some jeans and a sweater. because i am gunna need it.

getting a haircut tomorrow or thusrday. im thinking of taking off 3 - 4 in. im scared.

i have to go. byee.

i cant wait!!! seattle in less than a week!

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Rina

:: 2004 5 March :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Crash and burn - Savage garden

im drenched in the sun's frozen glory

Smirk
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

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Rina

:: 2004 4 March :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: deaf
:: Music: the ringing in my ears

Im lost in your unspoken words
one word. concert.

ears hurt. throat's sore. kick ass concert.

highlights:
coheed and cambria played. sweet. cool moshers.
saw 'red-shirt mosher'. we agree that he is hot. (:
thursday. easily the best band. they kicked some serious ass. holy crap. i heart them and wish to buy their cd.
afi. ahhhhh. awesome. :D they also did some ass-kicking.

what else did i do? i saw syd, chels and amanda. the security guards are nice. a guy was eating ketchup next to me.
i. had. the. best. seats.
i could see everything. it was so awesome. yea, i know, you're speechless too.

my brain is on its basic level: fire bad, tree pretty.

that means i have no brain cells left to do their job. im left with strange off-topic ideas and serious symptoms of a.d.d.

sleep now.

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings


lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 4 March :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: when the sun goes down - kenny chesney ft. uncle kracker

welcome to cattlesburg: north beach and the dog in the road
way back in the middle of summer. long ago before school, that ravenous beast that gobbles up all your fun and sleeping time, started . the air smelled sweet and the wind blew freedom. ma had julia, the senior at chs who works at the shop, handle the shop by herself while ma took emily, coral (emily invited her), mookie, charley and i to north beach. its a twenty minute ride from cattlesburg to get there. a storm off in the pacific is causing 6 foot swells, and i, the troublemaker, had to see them.

so on the ride up, ma was silent. em and coral talked about the new guy on the soccer team. charley, mookie and i chatted about what are plans were for when we finally got to the beach. charley wanted to boogie board and mookie was dyin' to surf. when they both asked me what i wanted to do my eyebrows danced towards the chattering emily and coral. they both nodded, as if reading the secret plan that was playing inside my head.

we pulled up to the beach. i stared in awe for a moment or two at the colossal waves that were beating upon the shore. my staring was interrupted by my mom, shattering through the breathtaking silence by yelling, "go to the back and help the others!" i woke up and shuffled in my flip flops to the back ok the truck. we, laden down with towels, chairs, bags, surfboards, and other beach necessities, limped towards the warm beach. finding the "perfect spot" we threw all the stuff down and went in our different directions as my ma set up her beach chair. "be back at 3!" i heard her holler down the beach as she entered the world of her mystery novel.

charley, mookie, and i walked down the glistening shore search for a stretch of oasis that would be just ours, with not a soul on it. we stumbled upon the vacant stretch of beach. mookie with his board, charley with her board, and i with my mini easel and worn out shoulder bag full of paint.

mookie ran into the pacific so fast that you could of sworn the devil looked up and blew his scorching hot breath on the roof of hell, making the sand boil. he paddled out and floated a while as he searched for a wave to his liking. charley came up and sat next to me, we talked about the beauty of this beach as she waxed her boogie board. when she was down she ran down to the shore, flung her board, then careened along the shore before the greedy ocean took the sparkling water away. i soaked up this whole moment along with the sunshine and dipped my paintbrush into the azure paint.

about an hour later, i stood up and stepped back five steps and looked at my drying art. i grinned to myself, satisfied with my hard work. mookie came strolling up, board under arm, and aksed, "picasso how's it comin along?" i said, "great! come back and look at it." he walked back and stood by me, "whoa. good job! i definately like." halfway between telling him "thanks" he shook his still dripping wet hair at me. "hey!!" i yelled. he laughed, "you wanna try surfing today?"

glancing at the surfboard, my foe, i gave it an evil stare telekinetically telling it, "i will conquer you today." i think mookie interpretted my stare cause he said, "let's go!" without me replying first. we walked down to the shore, his board now under my arm, the leash attached to my ankle. as we walked past charley she hollered out, "you show that board who's boss!" i laughed as my toes entered the brisk water. i waded out on the board, eyed the horizon, searching for waves in the distant. then i looked at the shore, charley and mookie were watchin, probably waiting for me to fall off again. so then they could laugh, ah what friends are for.

"go! that wave has your name all over it!" i heard mooklie yell. the swelling beast came thundering towards me. i paddled with all my might, turned the board around, and i was up. i did it! i did it! yells and cheers were coming from the shore. those cheers quickly went to awws as the huge wave gobbled me up.

i came back to the shore, feeling a bit dazed and i know i had some pieces of seaweed in my hair from the fall. i gave mookie his surfboard and as i did he went, "you were doing great....for a while." "yeah," charley back him up as she pulled a stand of seaweed out of my wet, salty hair. i grinned, "yeah, least i got up on the board this time. next time, i'll make it but now i think we need to execute a certain plan before time runs out."

so charley, mookie, and i slinked over to the rusty wave bar and borrowed a bottle of ketchup and mustard. also, a couple of forks, packets of mayo, and napkins. we walked down the shore, our loot in my bag. mookie hummed the james bond theme song, as he shuffled along with his board. we spotted the bright puke pink beach umbrella that coral brought. we all looked at one another, noticing the mischevious gleam in the other's eyes.

the girls were out in the ocean floating around on their rafts that were equally obnoxiously colored like the umbrella. four guys walked by them and they started chatting. so now their attention is on them and i know that we wont be seen. we quietly unrolled their towels and got out the materials from my bag. we squirted mayo, mustard, and ketchup all over the towels. there was a fork here and there and a couple of wadded cold, wet balls of naplkins. we sprinkled a bit of sand on them and mookie pulled yet another stand of seawood from my long hair and tossed it on a towel. we grinned at each other, signaling that out towel masterpieces were done. carefully rolling up the messy towels so that the gunk wouldnt be visible and so that it would be on them when they went to dry off.

we ran back to the rusty wave to return the now empty mustard and ketchup bottles. then running back to the vicinity of where they were. good, they were still in the water and their towels were untouched. mookie, charley, and i hid behind a cove. quietly chuckling to ourselves, we anticipated the key moment of the plan.

the guys walked away and em and coral started heading towards the shore. the smiles on our faces grew a mile longer. they talked as they walked up towards their spot. impatiently we waited. still chatting to one another and not paying attention they picked up their towels and wrapped them around them. two piercing screams were heard down the beach.

the towels were quickly flung to the ground. each girl a light orange from the mixture of ketchup, mustard, and mayo. coral had a fork sticking to her arm and there was a napkin ball above emily's knee. behind the cove we were all dying of laughter. emily picked it off and threw it to the ground. the fires of hell raged in her eyes and my name was spelled in the flames. as they scurried to the bathrooms to get the gunk off, my accomplices and i quickly walked to our oasis. we wouldnt be at the scene of the crime but my ma would still know it was me.

we were there for about twenty minutes when mookie looked at the sun, "we should start heading back, it's almost three." coral and emily walked back at about the same time we did. "she did it," emily pointed at me with her slightly still orange finger. my ma's eyes drifted from emily and coral to the still messy towels and to me. she let out a sigh and opened the trunk.

silently we packed up all of the beach items in the trunk. emily and coral hopped in the third row of my mom's black excursion. charley and mookie were sliding on to the second row and as i had my sandy right foot on the foot-rail my ma tapped me on the shoulder and pointed to the passenger seat. i gave mookie and charley my "oh crap" look and shuffled to the passenger seat, my solitary confinement away from my chums.

the car ride was silent. not just silent but a deathly silence, where it seemed that if they spoke up they thought the grim reaper would come and swipe their life away. the silence was killing me so i started tinkering with the radio. went through the rap, country, heavy metal, jazz, and 80s staions still i finally stopped on an ol beach boys song. i stared out down the neverending road.

we were cruising along, the oldies staion still playing. seems the tension in the car had let up for em and coral were talking and i would occasionally turn back and join in mookie and charley's converstaion. i looked at the blue navigator infront of is and laughed at the FUN N SUN license plate. all of a sudden mr. fun n sun hit his brakes. my ma hit her brakes, trying to avoid slamming into the back of the navigator. tires screeched and CRASH!

my mom asked frantically, "are you alright?!!", we all nodded yes. she backed the car up and got out to look at the damage. a brunette woman got out of the navigator and exclaimed, "I AM SO SORRY! THERE WAS A DOG IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD AND I HAD TO HIT MY BRAKES!" my mom nodded and they exchanegd insurance information. i held my head in my hands, the jolt from the crash made me hit my head on the dashboard. the police came and were filling out an accident report as they talked to my mom and the lady.

i got out of the car to go see the damage and how everything was going with the cop. both the front of my mom's car and the back of the lady's car's fenders were smashed in a bit . when i walked out by ma i noticed a guy standing next to the woman. i assumed it was her son. when the woman saw me she went, "hi, im mrs. cartle, i am so sorry. are you okay?" i nooded yes and looked back at the cars. the guy walked up to me, "hey i'm dash. thats quite a bump on your forehead," he quietly laughed, "you know you have a bit of seaweed in your hair?"

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Rina

:: 2004 3 March :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: sad?
:: Music: cello

let me slip into your place of dreams
i love the cello. its so pretty.

i wish everything was just so.. quiet.

well. on to reality. fcat math. man, was it easy. let common sense reign supreme.

'no. im not crazy!' was my statement today. i think i was completly driven up the wall in biology. we had a 15 question quiz. looong one. i knew one answer. about plankton. not even sure if i got it right either. you try answering some strangishly freakin long words. with 'plankton' stuck in the middle.

anyways. me and sabrina are chewy.
please dont ask and stay away from me when i eat chicken nuggets. they somehow alter my humor. i tend to laugh hysterically if you say 'stop being so chewy.'

concert tomorrow! i cant wait. :D

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Rina

:: 2004 2 March :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: rah.
:: Music: david letterman - ghost of the robots

shatter my reverie upon your jagged thoughts
fcat today. fcat tomorrow. concert thursday. :)

i hate it when people think that they dont mean anything to anyone. it bothers me. because everyone has someone. even if it is your tear-smudged teddy bear. and if you are my friend, then you have me. and i will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. and i dont plan on changing either.

i dont understand. sometimes a person can be totally unreachable. they dont want to be reached. but they also want comfort.

cold comfort cant lead to anything good.

ive had very vivid dreams recently. except i forget them when i wake up. so the feeling of a vivid dream gets left in my head for a large part of the day and little things just make me jump and realize that it mustve been related to my dream in some way. sometimes it can be quite frustrating.



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dreamiecloud

:: 2004 2 March :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: :]

you never broke my heart, i broke it myself
i am so content.

its so nice. not to be agitated. as i usually am.

i was so happy earlier. wuthering heights was on. that movie is definately on my top 5 favorite movies list.

not the crap 70's or 90's version or that completely idiotic MTV verison. i swear i could kill the fuckers that put that movie out.

i think is from the 30's, the orginal.

the sad thing is, is it is only half of the book, so they change the movie to accomodate the half that is missing,

but it still has the same impact. amazing.

there is a character named isabella. she is linton's sister. linton is married to cathy. issabella is married to heathcliff.

but heathcliff and cathy love e/o.

and isabella was crying and she was saying how much she loved heathcliff.
she told him that if she just let him she could make him happy. then she said, and this is nearly exact.
"you are my life, cant you let me be just a breath of yours?"

it was so sad.
i could never imagine loving someone like that. never.

i love that movie, and that book.

it made my day. then benny and joon was on. it just made things better.

FCAT. that word is awful enough to explain itself.
i hate it. it should not exist.

but good luck on the rest of it anyway.

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dreamiecloud

:: 2004 2 March :: 9.18pm

istolethis. hahaha
i know only like 1 person will comment back on thisbut i thought it was funny, so i wanted it for my journal

Dear Ana,

You are really _____. You should _____. We need to go _____. After that we can _____. Remember that time we _____? That was real _____. Maybe tomorrow we can _____. You are my _____. I _____ you!

Signed your _____,
_____

p.s. _____.

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lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 2 March :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: my immortal - evansecence

i wrote these in my spanish class
"locked away"

she hides those
falling tears
behind that closed door

fearing the young
girl will see the tears and
a flood of questions will arise

never letting her know
till the curtain drops
was always the mother's plan

as these months dwindled
her strong face could take no more
every night she hides her tears behind the door

she always knew the plan wouldnt work
soon she will have to tell, but how
will she tell her young daughter that her father's life is almost over?

-and-

"accomplishment"

territory
that no one so young
would never have set foot on

since they are gone
the land calls
for them

they follow the pleas
and cross the boundary
with the stares af all the cowardly others

forgeting the stairs
they enjoy the mystery
and walk out with their heads higher


peace out//hugs not drugs yall
*:) Andie

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