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2004 19 February :: 5.29am
:: Mood: wistful
:: Music: dashboard-ghost of a good thing
the OC rocked my socks last night. made me sad too though...as does everything else ha..ha. anyway, i dont have a whole lot to say so i will just go away now.
'we only accept the love we think we deserve'
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2004 18 February :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: shy
:: Music: get up kids- overdue
crushes, thoughts, my world as it was today
*sigh* i know. alright i truly hate beign invisible. at least invisible to the people that i want to see me. maybe my expectations are to high? i dont know, maybe someone could tell me if thats so. i walk around in a blur, a sort of dream.
i hate feelings that overwhelm you and wont go away until they make you do something irrational. or you just die inside because the feelings there so long.
im just thinking out loud.
i have a big crush on someone, only the completely oblivous doesnt know who, and it makes me smile.
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2004 18 February :: 11.33am
:: Mood: liked
:: Music: typing
alright so i got in a huge fight ,kinda, with bob so i now am not using his computer for some reason....anyway
today was interesting so far. still not that weird around andrew which is good.tarek got ketchup on his knee which made me giggle profusely.
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2004 18 February :: 10.19am
:: Mood: mellow.
:: Music: ...
"um...youre kind of in the wrong lane."
haha. i said that ^ to lenny yesterday in the car. she was like..."oh i didnt know there were seperate lanes." or something like that. it was really funny but you probably had to be there. we were so its funny to us.
yesterday after school was the highlight of my day. went to the mall w/ lenny and ernie. it was some good cle time. i bought a ren and stimpy pin and one that says "yer straight trippin boo." makes me more complete.
we went by and saw my adam working. it was cute. he was so suprised. it made me feel all bubbly inside.
interims today...two b's. one in chemistry -a damn 89- and in yearbook. haha thats sad...in yearbook of all classes. oh, well. wish i cared. :). the rest were a's so i dont have to do much to bring my grades up. hopefully they dont go down...
mo mou's party this weekend. woot woot. party time.
i want to go to the lacrosse game on saturday too. maybe ill go see the end of it or something.
i learn skank. neat-o.
my love to all the boys.
that is all.
xoxo.
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2004 17 February :: 11.28am
:: Mood: fun
:: Music: the crunch of the cheezit
no more boyfriend
i broke up with andrew today.YAY i havent been single in a long time. its not that i didnt love him, i still do but i havent been unattatched for a long time. now if only i could get some boys....to have fun with. lala
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2004 17 February :: 10.16am
this day needs to be over.
that is all.
xoxo.
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2004 16 February :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: hopeless
:: Music: reel big fish-where have you been
say you love me love me again but if you love me where have you been?
say you need me more then anyone else,well go to hell
where have you been?
i feel hopeless, my world spins out into something i can't even grasp. i read all these books and i wish so much to be in one. i look up from reading and i feel like this cant be my life. ergh. i love you guys for today though, pizza hut rocked my socks
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2004 16 February :: 10.06am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: something mexican on bob 's radio
okay i must make this fast as to not distrub the large bob man...so lenny im scared, but i love u so be better.
beach today i clap
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2004 15 February :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: scared.
:: Music: something corporate-leaving through the window.
the words i know. the feelings that dont show.
looks like ive fallen from my cloud.
thats just the way it goes.
she walks right by. her eyes facing down.
her lips frozen to a permanent frown.
eyes holding nothing more than a blank gaze.
a dream she has of feeling her mother's praise.
shes lost. she has no path to travel.
shes watching her entire life unravel.
a stanger on the street would know nothing of her past.
knowing all her hardships would be impossible to grasp.
a way to be happy. a way to fix life's despair.
so there would be no others experiencing this blank stare.
she covers all the wounds w/ a laugh and a smile.
shes knows everythings going to be okay. it just might take a while.
this girl, she always tries to run away.
but she wishes for nothing more than to find a place to stay.
shes trying to make no more mistakes,
shes trying not to be someone fake.
shes trying to find a way to change.
no longer wanting to be someone strange.
so, this girl. the one w/ the lost stare.
know that shes trying. she knows that lifes never fair.
shes only trying to keep this away.
hoping tomorrow will bring a brighter day.
xoxo.
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2004 15 February :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: reel big fish
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tonight was amazing, i love the smell of greek food wafting through the air, cleaning up others people's flaming cheese. actually wasn't that bad, i smell like greek ppl though, so refreshing
i <3 andrew, sorry i havent shown it lately
beach tommorow? and people STOP COMMENTING IN MY JOURANL AS ANYNOMOUS im sick of deleting mean comments. sorry im done now
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2004 15 February :: 9.20am
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: Less then jake- shes gonna break soon
oh hot diggity. my life is a bubble you poke it i smack you. this morning has been the best journal...comment....it was a good morning becaouse of peoples comments. you make me sad i punch the living hell out of you.
HAPPY SUNDAY
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2004 14 February :: 11.09pm
im in an emo mood right now, i doubt anyone truly wants to read this but hey..
i want to feel my heart pounding when i see you
i want to not sit and wonder 'what if'
i dont want to regret every choice i make, or dont make
i want a world where every gets what they deserve
i want to be noticed
i want to be the girl you read about who walks into a room and everyone looks at her, not just because shes beautiful, but because she has a vibe about her that makes everyone feel
i want to live in a world where people don't judge
i dont want to judge
i want my friends to be happy
everything seems so out of control sometimes that i dont see how the world can continue on its course. i dont see how people can go about their daily lifes when i know inside their crying and screaming to say how they really feel? i mean imagine a world where everyone just wore their heart on their sleaves. i just wish so much, and i want so much....and i dont deserve it, i know but that doesnt change the fact that i want it
emily
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2004 14 February :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: soggy, sad, pissed off
findings of tonight:
1. im more together then i thought
2. im more confused about everything
3. PB is a pot smoking asshole
4. lenny is great
yes so the rain reflects my mood as it always does, this valentines day sucked which shouldnt have been a surprise because its me and my whole world consists of nothing but shitty days compiled together to make a great suckfest. lenny was there tonight so it made everything more bearable.
linsey you are the best person i know and you deserve so much. i love you more then anything and i want you to get nothing but good things for the rest of your life. you deserve the best boys, best friends, and the most attention. i love you lenile.
'people say to not regret anything because it all makes you who you are today, but what if you don't like who you are?'
-forever confused-
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2004 14 February :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: the beatles-help!
happy valentines day to all.
yesterday was amazing.
i went home w/ lenny after making a few stops. then we went to her house and chilled for awhile. adam brought me a dozen roses! then went back out, back to her house, and then finally to the greek festival. she drove and everything. im very proud of her.
i played w/ lenny, flector, mo mou, dani, anna, zack, lil jo, and tarek and the greek festival. rode some rides, hit my head. it was great fun. :)
then, from there me, lenny, and flector went to the movies just to see who was hanging around. it was on the way home and all...
we saw pb, nick, jayme, and joe there. so we left there to go to jayme's house. i ran up to pb's car at a stoplight. i thought it was kind of funny. stopped at a gas station and then speed-ed all the way to jayme's house. it was fun. his house was way cool.
i woke up this morning at lenny's and celebrated valentines day. her mommy gave me pretties. i love lenny's family...and her too. ;)
we went to the mall and saw brando and ernie. it was fun times.
didnt get to spend much time w/ adam yesterday and dont get to see him today. that makes me kind of sad. its all good though. i heart him and he hearts me.
and i just ate valentines day dinner w/ my mom. neatt.
i feel like im on cloud nine for once. just a couple days is good for me. if you knock me from my cloud, i might have to beat you. :)
xoxo.
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2004 13 February :: 10.12am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: happenings of the library.
its friday the 13th. beware.
today is hopefully a good day. i would like it to be one of those.
wow. just remembered i didnt check in w/ drivers ed. im such a fucking retard.
three periods in the library today. neatt w/ two t's.
yesterday was fun. went to the mall and bought a teddy bear. its cool.
i baked adam cookies! i havent had to cook anything in the longest time. it was mucho fun.
cant wait until school is over. only...4 hours and 48 minutes... not that im counting or anything...
happy friday the 13th. this day makes me so happy. i love how tomorrow is valentines day. kind of ironic but its cool.
yay.
xoxo.
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