:: 2004 11 August :: 12.17 am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: lip gloss and black - atreyu

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:: 2004 10 August :: 12.24 am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: a sunday x jimmy eat world

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:: 2004 9 August :: 6.03 pm
:: Music: im not okay x my chemichal romance

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:: 2004 9 August :: 4.39 pm

here are some of the backgrounds that i made.. hope you all like them

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:: 2004 8 August :: 1.52 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Your Star x All American Rejects

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:: 2004 7 August :: 11.17 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: heaven is a place on earth - the bangles

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:: 2004 6 August :: 11.19 am

http://midge.bloggage.com/readme/

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:: 2004 5 August :: 10.41 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: a sunday - jimmy eat world

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:: 2004 5 August :: 4.16 pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: my friends over you - new found glory

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:: 2004 4 August :: 12.38 am

RIP Gene White

Even though i didnt know you all too well, all of the times you drove us around and let us stay at your house and play video games and just hang out you were nothing but nice to me.. you were nothing but nice to everyone.. and nobody deserves to pass away at the age of 17... nobody deserves to miss out on the years you will never get a chance to live.. and the experiences of life and things that you will never get a chance to see.. i just want you to know that my deepest sympathy is with your family and you.. i love you


Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.
Now it's too late to hold you. '
Cause you've flown away, so far away.

Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile.
Feelin' and knowing you hear me.
It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Darling, I never showed you.
Assumed you'd always be there.
I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven.
Like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day.

Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say



i was so proud of amanda today.. for being able to stay there.. for being so strong.. reading genes letter from freshman year made me think about all of things that he will never get to do with his life... and all of the plans he had for himself that he will never be able to fulfill.. and it just kills me.. my heart aches for you...

- manda

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:: 2004 2 August :: 12.14 am

ok call me a geek.. but like...do you ever watch buffy the vampire slayer??

well.. i dont ususally but like everytime i randomly do it just always happens to hbe the same exact episode...and the episode just happens to be the one that made me so scared when i was younger...

its like about these fairy tale monsters.. and they like come to the town and steal their voices.. so that they cant scream and these creepy guys like float they dont walk and they have these liek mental patients who kill ppl and like they have to get 7 hearts or something.. and no1 can talk or scream or anything

lol am i the only geek who sees this episode all teh time??

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I wander your halls
question where youve been?
you been hanging your head
trying to hide..

but you cant run away from,
all this pain in your life
fairy tales
only go so far..
its you whose gotta get up tomorrow...

its you who has to make your choices
dont go trying
to blame anyone else
dont question what life has to offer
of the qualities of which youve been dealt

emptiness grows liek moss
much quicker now
enveloping a dark empty past
a new day will open
a new way of life
and a chance for me to walk away..

-------


In this room I hear the echoes of a recent battle. Lost and wounded as the faded cries begin to settle for the night. The echoless room begins to fill with feared emotions, petrified sensations, they envelope me. Although I am alone in here, I am not deserted. I can feel eyes, piercing my skin. This deafening silence forces me to my knees. As my delicate toes diligently creek the floorboards, thoughts swirl through this brain of mine. No rhythm to the twirling thoughts just meaningless expression of how I feel. These walls seem to be closing in on me. Alone physically and mentally. My mind becomes more paranoid by the minute. Pacing faster now, around this desolate house. Blank, vacant, and lonely, each piece of furniture sits waiting to be used. Abandoned, this house waits, engulfed with beauty hidden beneath sheets of dust. Coughing lightly to dispel the years of loneliness from my lungs. I breath, taking in every emotion felt, every smile shown, each tear drop fallen to the ground, without a soul to catch it. I am swamped by emotions, this whirlpool of fear drains away. Leaving me once again alone, in this exiled home. Everything that might have been, could have been, and should have been, wallows deep within the belly of this house. And I am struck with a blow from the back of a fist, I am completely and utterly alone.

-me

cruel intentions
sealed with a kiss
untold stories
of a love just liek this
one lover bleeds
and another lies dead
the sweat is till salty
in the sheets of his bed
memories of you and i
flashing quickly by
the feeling of you
when you were inside
connected
this love once so sweet
now so bitter
and full of deciet
liek the petals of a rose
this bud has wilted and begun to die
burning this image
in my brain of you and i
your flawfully perfect
upon my knee
kiss my lips
and tell me you need me
disaster
striking with the back of its fist
cremating the image
of our first kiss
like the lick of the flame
this heart is put out
smother me
i wont dare shout
take this ecstacy
i tell you im feeling
and strip it dry
angony beyond healing
project this faux happiness
i pretend is bliss
examine this vision
of our final kiss
drive your car
down to the end of the road
what unfathomable secrets
these somber waters hold
cruel intentions
sealed with a kiss
untold stories
of a love just liek this
one lover bleeds
and another lies dead
the sweat is till salty
in the sheets of his bed

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:: 2004 1 August :: 3.36 pm

i believe i am getting sick to my stomach with this life im living right now. this routine life that never changes. and when it does it is always for the worse. im trying to think of something good thats happened lately. trying to convince myself that others do have it worse. but i just can't. not with things the way they are right now. i think im ultimately upset with just the fact that life has thrown me a major curve and i DONT know how to handle it. and i just want to be deeply and truly loved by someone. i want that someone to love every ounce of me and not care what i dress like or if i wear my hair weird one day. i want them to not care at all what im wearing or how i wear it- becasue they would love me, and that would mean they would love my style and how i talk, how i move, how i smile, my presence, the way i smell- nothing about me would ever get old to them. and i want the same for me. i want to love someone with that much passion. that nothing ever grows old. even though time passes so quickly and i grow old msyelf. i want change. i need change. but the changes that have been occuring lately are not very good. i dont know if i can handle it any longer...i cried so hard last night. i stopped. but it wasnt becasue i was done crying- it's because i made myself stop crying. i had a breakdown. probably the worst breakdown i've ever had. and i can gradually feel myself breaking. is that possible? can a heart really ache? is it true that when you figure out every thing there is to know about life you die? i guess sometimes i've felt invisible. and then at other times i feel im in the spotlight...and dont know what to do about either one. so either way- it's uncomfortable. im not a miserable person. im usually happy. i dont want others to be sympathetic for me. i just want to know they care. and i believe there are people who care for me. im not some hopeless depressed person. but sometimes- you forget. you forget how much you're loved and how many friends you really have and you convince yourself somehow that you've just become invisible. and sometimes you just need a reminder to come along, tap you on your shoulder, and bring you back to life again. that is what i need. that is what a lot of people need.

- lindseyethatsme-

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:: 2004 1 August :: 1.20 am

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	65% Explored the pleasures of the flesh	65.1%
Shamelessness	64.3% It takes a couple of drinks	79.4%
Sex Drive	78.9% The Pope is envious	77.7%
Straightness	35.7% Done the nasty, but not creatively	44.9%
Gayness	92.9% Repressed, are we?	83.7%
Fucking Sick	87.6% Refreshingly normal	90%
You are 71.36% pure Average Score: 72.7%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that
Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know
But nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me
You never shut-up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if I'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his
with her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These Years

So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thougts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best praya that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you
My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven
Where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there

Cause what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With our name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These...

Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds
Raining in head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know we're too easy Easy Easy

Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling
Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
It's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you here
Take hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them

But what if I'm a mermaid
in these jeans of his
with her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice [x3]

And it's been here
Silent All These Years
I've been here
Silent All These Years



and again...
fucking im all alone
all alone..
again im all alone
broken bleeding
hiding at home
but still im all alone
bleed this blood
crimson and clover
break my heart over and over
smash my mirror
break my face
but still im all alone
cold and lonely
break my bones
still you leave me all alone
wanting out
of this pointless life
writing lyrics
to a song ill never sing
and still im all alone
i can hear you
hear them
they never shut up
tlaking about me
and still im all alone
cracked
and bruised
swollen cuts
rivers of tears overflow
and still im all alone
i think some thoughts
which sink me below
this deep dark lake
and still im all alone
and again...
fucking im all alone
all alone..
again im all alone
do you hear me
angels have given me a voice
wings
to show you who i am
and still im all alone
years go by
and i choke myself again
theres nothing left
because im all alone
and again...
fucking im all alone
all alone..
again im all alone



--

revised


(chorus)
again im all alone
sitting by the fone
again im all alone
waiting for your call

again im all alone
just wished youd come back home
again im alone
waiting for you here

you break my heart
into a million peices
tore me up
and appart
left me defeated

i cared just for you
you told me youd be true
i fell for you too
but now im just...

(chorus)

you ripped out my heart
and put it the blender
you gave it all away
after i surrendered

waited for me to
give it all to you
i gave you everything
and now im just..

(chorus)

im crying here
dying here with open arms
gave up everything
ive seen all you are
waited for the time
when what was yours was mine
just when i felt safe
you threw it away...

(chorus)

im bleeding here for you
wont you kiss me sweetly
is it just a game
you just wanted to beat me?

waited for me to
give it all to you
i gave you everything
and now im just..

(chorus)

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:: 2004 31 July :: 1.21 pm

get out a sheet of paper and write down..

Hello my name is (blank) and i am a really cool kid. Whats your name? Would you like to go get some icecream on the beach?

and sign your name in cursive
then write your name in cursive

1. Are your Us and Ws rounded on their bottoms? You're sensitive and maybe poetic.
2. Do you cross your Ts in the middle or at the top? The lower you cross your T, the less ambition you have.
3. Do you loop your Cs at the top? Then, to quote Carly Simon, you're so vain.
4. Are your As and Os tightly closed? Perhaps you're hiding something.
5. Do your letters slant every which way? If so, then yikes. Only 10 percent of the general population has a wobbly slant--compared with 70 to 80 percent of convicted felons.
6. Do you have the "felon's claw"? It's another hallmark of the criminal, and it occurs when you bring a letter straight down, then attach a claw-shaped curve to its end--say when you're writing the lowercase y.
7. Is your signature different from your regular handwriting? Then perhaps you're putting on an act.
8. Do the connecting swoops between your letters droop? Maybe you have a martyr complex, and are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.
9. Is your handwriting spiky and angular? Relax. There's no need to be so tense.
10. Are your letters a bit squatty? If they're biggest in the middle zone, and don't extend much up or below the baseline, then you're perhaps a bit childish. The Disney logo, based on Walt Disney's

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:: 2004 30 July :: 11.38 pm

so..

gay gay gay gay gay

\no offense to homosexuals...

s'just shits been gay lately.. my heads fucked up and i feel like eveyrhting is just crashing down on me..and everythings fucked up...

idk i went to robbies tonight and watched training day.. it was weird.. i was with katie lizzy robbie and cozzy KELSEYS BACK yay :-)

well.. my tummy hurts i must go..

bye

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:: 2004 28 July :: 4.00 pm

hahaha yes that is me petting a racoon..
and yes it is tame lol its sarahs

hollz726 is away at 3:24:52 PM.
BlckTangldHrt35x: undisclosed: she was like "o r u friends with lizzy and manda and them??" and i wa slike yeah i friends with lizzy but not like really good friends with manda but shes nice to me lol" and she was like " o she despises me"
undisclosed: and she goes "o well idk, we just stopped being friends"

BlckTangldHrt35x: pshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
BlckTangldHrt35x: your kidding yourslef if thats what you think happened
BlckTangldHrt35x: its more like...
BlckTangldHrt35x: you turned into everything you said you hated
BlckTangldHrt35x: fuckl your ugly boyfriend all the time
BlckTangldHrt35x: and left ppl who actually cared about you
BlckTangldHrt35x: but hum... maybe for a onesided bitch you were close
hollz726 returned at 3:29:23 PM.
BlckTangldHrt35x: who the fuck visited you in the hospital and called you like eveyr night just so youw erent lonley.. its just so funny what ppl give up for all sorts of fake aquaintences
BlckTangldHrt35x: and ppl who couldnt give a shit less about them
BlckTangldHrt35x: but if thats what makes you happy GREAT have a fucking party.. but dont you dare act like any of it was my fault
BlckTangldHrt35x: when you damn well know it wasnt
BlckTangldHrt35x: ARE U GONNA FUCKIN SAY SOMETHING
hollz726: i never said any of it was your fault
hollz726: i just said you didnt like me anymore
BlckTangldHrt35x: "o well idk, we just stopped being friends"
hollz726: we did
BlckTangldHrt35x: YOU stopped being my friend holly
BlckTangldHrt35x: YOU
hollz726: alright then i stopped being your friends
hollz726: *friend
BlckTangldHrt35x: it was you..it was you who changed.. im still the same old me
BlckTangldHrt35x: but i guess that wasnt good enough for you
BlckTangldHrt35x: its all good tho
hollz726: ok people change
hollz726: im ahppy with myself so everything is all godd
hollz726: *good
BlckTangldHrt35x: cuz now i know who really cares about me.. and i would rather surround myself with ppl who actually give a shit then ppl who care more about how theur hair llooks
hollz726: me 2
BlckTangldHrt35x: heh its funny tho..
BlckTangldHrt35x: your doing the exact opposite
BlckTangldHrt35x: through your eyes you think were all the same.. through your eyes where all the same...
hollz726: back then i judged the people that i hated to quickly
hollz726: i didnt know anyone that i hated back then, and now i do know them and there not bad ppl
BlckTangldHrt35x: i never said they were bad..
BlckTangldHrt35x: they never left their friends
hollz726: i never said you said they were bad
BlckTangldHrt35x: im through talking to you
BlckTangldHrt35x: you can shut up now
hollz726: i said they were bad awhile back
hollz726: and you say im a bitch
BlckTangldHrt35x: MUTE
hollz726: right manda
BlckTangldHrt35x: :-D
BlckTangldHrt35x: yepppp tahts how it is
hollz726: :-)
BlckTangldHrt35x: i dont listen to hipocrites
BlckTangldHrt35x: so bye bye
hollz726: everyones a hipocrite about something
BlckTangldHrt35x: and you are the biggest one of all
hollz726: if thats what you think fine
hollz726: i dont really care
BlckTangldHrt35x: how could u leave.. your BEST friend lizzy like that do you have any idea how bad that hurt her
BlckTangldHrt35x: opr do you not care
BlckTangldHrt35x: cuz your happy now
BlckTangldHrt35x: and tahst all that matters
hollz726: sorry im happy, and why are you still bring this up...move on
hollz726: im sorry i hurt her
BlckTangldHrt35x: i highly doubt that
hollz726: but you know i moved on it happens
BlckTangldHrt35x: your so sad..
BlckTangldHrt35x: good luck in life
hollz726: thanks you too
BlckTangldHrt35x: you dont realize a good thing when you see it
BlckTangldHrt35x: u know.. i used to stick up for you when jimmy and robbie made fun of you
BlckTangldHrt35x: but im glad i dont anymore
hollz726: ok\
BlckTangldHrt35x: becuz to me..your lower than scum

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:: 2004 28 July :: 12.49 am

i cry
and the sting of my tears
hits my swelling wrist
i cringe and run the blade
over my already mutilated arm
i cry out in pain
but nobody can hear me
they dont wanna listen..
dont wanna hear what i have to say
these crazy thoughts im thinking in my head
Are just pounding now
and my head its about to explode
im dizzy sitting here
holding the deadend phone
i look into the mirror
touch my hair
touch my face
pick something to smash it
just wanna start over
wish that i could erase..
my eyes they peirce my skin
they reflect right back at me
looking straight through me
i am hollow
and useless
wishing to be lifeless
i hate beauty
and i hate you
my mind its working over time
projecting images of your face
shooting thoughts into my mouth
i too quickly speak them
without thinking..
and i hurt myself again
i thrust this cold blade
into my lifeless pale arm
and sudenly my anger drifts away
soon to return...


---


i cant help but feel like
something is wrong here
is it me?
is it you?
do you look right through my deep brown eyes?
do you see nothing?
so many questions unanswered
i walk down this empty road
rain pouring on my head
thinking to myself every word that you said
every tear that ive cried over you
washed away now
i want them to be gone
but they pour down this face
like the rain beating heavier
and i feel your kisses on me
and i see your eyes in my mind
and all i can think of is me liking you..
what can i do to make this change
how can i change?
can i make me better?
can i get over you?
so this is it..
its over before it began?
you never gave me a chance to show you who i am..

---

Won't make the bed up straight
I always stay out late
I never take you out
Ask what you're all about
I always smell like smoke
Everythings just a joke
I never look at you
When you come hear me sing
These are not all of the
Many simple things
You can find wrong with me
Once would you tell me please

What do I do, What do I do
What do I do, What do I do...Right
What do I do, What do I do
What do I do, What do I do...Right

I never talk to you
be who you want me to
My music's way to loud
My friends are all so proud
Say I'm just wasted hope
I could not thread the rope
More than my pocket's broke
And you don't see a ring
These are not all of the
Infinitesimal things
You can find wrong with me
Once would you tell me please

What do I do, What do I do
What do I do, What do I do...Right
What do I do, What do I do
What do I do, What do I do...Right

Never wanted to play in this game
Yes, You're right
but losing the game doesn't mean
that we're losing the fight

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:: 2004 26 July :: 3.37 pm

Wise men say only fools rush in
but I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
take my hand, take my whole life too
for I can't help falling in love with you
for I can't help falling in love with you

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:: 2004 25 July :: 2.28 pm
:: Music: i really miss you x s club seven.. yeah thats right

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:: 2004 22 July :: 11.59 pm

In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round
I stand there for a minute starin' straight into the ground
Lookin' to the left slightly, then lookin' back down
World feels like it's caved in - proper sorry frown
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship, if you must
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she's lookin' straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she's lookin' down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

So then I move my hand up from down by my side
It's shakin', my life is crashin' before my eyes
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh
'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me
There's things I can't imagine doin', things I can't imagine seein'
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I beg you please
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she's blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushin' my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

And I'm just standin' there, I can't say a word
'Cause everythin's just gone
I've got nothin'
Absolutely nothin'

Tryin' to pull her close out of bare desperation
Put my arms around her tryin' to change what she's sayin'
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in
Look into her eyes to make her listen again
I'm not gonna fuckin', just fuckin' leave it all now
'Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow
And you're gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You're well out of order now, this is well out of town
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight
Turns around so she's now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

I know in the past I've found it hard to say
Tellin' you things, but not tellin' straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now.


----

i stand here
in a world of lies
wandering in and out of the lives of many
touching hearts, and hands.
i bleed red blood
and speak white lies
still never knowing the truth
i question greatly
the intentions of others
and constantly doubt my own will,
but each day the sun rises,
and the birds go on chirping
assurring this is my place
the dust will never settle
upon my chin, my chest or my cheek
im wild untamed and misleaded..
i stare out this foggy window,
circles of condensation collect on its pane
looking out into the world
the world full of troubles
and joys,
deaths, and births
irony and such beauty..
i live this life like a magnet
attractling only what i am willing to attract
fending off my dislikes
i stand here
in a world of lies
wandering in and out of the lives of many
touching hearts, and hands.
my heart skips a beat
as i watch this scene drift away into nothingness
and i am nothing but a lost moment in time
a place, no longer to be visited...
a conquerable setting
lived, and thrown aside...
i stare into this scene,
and i watch it drift away..

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i dont understand everything you make me feel or say
i think of all the problems, but i woudlnt have it any other way
we drift into contact and swiflty drift out
reliving the sways of unconquerable doubt
i sit here awake and its 11 after 4
thinkign about you.. my cher amour
i type this poem, a rythem i drop a line
hoping it will touch you somewhere deep inside
is this not what suits you, do you not like my poetry?
are you not a sucker for kisses and the sweetness of obscurity
call me crazy for this emotion i feel
i met your soul long ago.. its something so real
i question if im sane.. or if what i think is true
i guess i will never know until i act on this to.
the syncrinization of your lips, and my heart
assures me your here, is it soon you shall part?
the feeling i get when you look into my eyes
its like your seeing into me, u see past my lies..
unquestionable doubt overwhelms my whole body
i was starring at you, im not sure if you saw me
would it be too much if i asked you to hold me
if i asked you to kiss, and encompass around me
with the warmth of your arms, youve revived my health
matured within reason, and gained within wealth
my lifeless flesh now pumps blood through these veins
im no longer crazy, im not longer insane
so kiss me again and i swear well stay this way
with the setting of the sun, and a dawn of a new day...

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