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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 10 October :: 11.56pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: how far

gfnfnhkfg

i want to see sharktale

really badddd...

;[

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 10 October :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: freak-a-leak

weekend

friday::
whent to work untill 9ish whent to city place with krystina,jen..and jessi untill 12... slpet over dannys

saturday::
urmm...oh jk hung out around danns house with EVERYONE whent to the malla nd a few other things..... slpet over again

sunday::
whent home at 11 cleaned my romm whent to dannys at 2? and watched tv and slpet all day ;]

gotta work tomorrow... at five yay!..yeah but imma get goin got stuff to dooooo

<3 xoxo*
ash
danny i love you!

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xonixieox

:: 2004 10 October :: 8.16am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: kenny chesney x when the sun goes down

so ya... i talked to becca andwe're okay now.. im really excited for my party and ...and how much fun its hopefully gunna be..

well my little c team is going to competition onsaturday so im excited for them!...

ok so last night was their game and amanda was there.. so ya.. the mentally challaged kid got hurt who always sings with jay.. and so the ambulence came.. so of course our nosey-ness had to go investigate.. but wen amanda saw the ambulence she just broke down... it was horrible.. so we were both just sitting there crying randomly and no one knew why... and i love amanda sooo much and she needed to cry.. its not a bad thing.. like some people were like ohh why the fuck is she crying.. why are you guys crying ... but they dont understand what losing someone you loved that much was like... she just kept saying she misses gene.. and that she loves him so much.. i couldnt even handle watching her cry..

im kinda dreading the memorial service becasue if seeing one little ambulence can causer that.. im not gunna stop crying during the whole memorial service!

on a lighter note..

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 10 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya so i think i might have a CRUSH on someone.. but im not sure yet...

:)

-NikkiE

P.S. Gene i love you.. your forever in my heart!

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 9 October :: 9.50pm
:: Mood: extreamly shittie
:: Music: we dont giv ea fuck

i wont leave your name
today marked it. finally

[9:48 PM]: damn ash, i can not believe i actually saw you! its been what almost a year. and you have changed so much!
Il liddle ash ll [9:48 PM]: we only said hey?
[9:48 PM]: lol not liek that i juss can not believ how fat you have gotten! i can not believe it, what happended to the skinny pretty girl?
Il liddle ash ll [9:48 PM]: is there any real reason you IMed me?
[9:48 PM]: just to make sure you have realize how much weight you have gained and how ugly you have gotten, so back on a diet
[9:48 PM]: ash..gurl... you no i aint trying to be mean i got to much luv for ya, im tellin ya straight up. you have gain mad weight! :( sorry gurl

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 7 October :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: exhausted

i should be asleeeeeeeeeeeeeep
dude, im so tired ! =(
had a shittie day because of it

highlights of the day ::

lindsey and i have decided that there are to many skank-a-hoes in this world !

note you shouldnt get jummpy its no you !

G-dawg and A-dawg..from the streets . well b reppin' ! haha

anyways!

saw krystinas ring. its geourges

doctors appt. tuesday thank god.
doubtfull im goign to school that day .

haning out with dexter this weekend i cant wait...whoooooop! woop!!<3

hmmm, im in mid-conversation with someon so im going to finish it, and head to bed

good night
danny i love you

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xonixieox

:: 2004 7 October :: 5.20pm

ok ya so im mad at becca becasue lately everytime i try to talk to her she only wants to talke about andy or she has to go.. like she doesnt pay attention to her friends problems.. but only hers.. but whatever becasue we never tlked anymore anyways.. i wisht it went back to the way things were in 8th grade!

ya so i told becca this and she like blamed me :'( so i guess im done with that cuz i dont even nkow what to do.. its funny how i can cry over a person i havnt seen in at least the past month.. like.. i doubt she gunna come to my party.. even though she knows i still love her.. its just im going through some bad times lately and i need someone to talk to.. and i want it to be her.. but it wont be.. becasue she always goes away when i try to talk to her.. so i dont know what im gunna do.. im just realyl upset.. i dont want to lose her becasue i love her i have just been really upset and depressed lately.. like i've never felt that i actually wanted to doe.. or kill myself but i have been thinking that alot lately.. like more than yuo could imagine.. and i have tried so hard for the last 2 days especially to smile but i cant... i just cant fake it any more..

i really want to die rigfht now.. i hope this feeling will go away :'(

-Nik

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xonixieox

:: 2004 6 October :: 6.40am

i kist fucking love how people have to change everything.. like if something is going good then it has to be stoped or changed.. now whoevers reading this (if thats anyone) its about more than one thing so dont fucking take it all personally.. although it is also about what oyu think..

ok so i had my first appointment and i think it helped.. except when i got home my parents decided to be fucking assholes!

ya so bean is officially gone becasue PEOPLE decided to fucking change it and add more people without yalking to the actual BEAN! so fuck that shit im done with it.. so now you can change it to beasack.. cuz i dont wanna be a part of that shit.. im done.. ijust fucking done.. there was really no piont of bean in the first place.. the B in it was never even around.. we never talked any more.. so i guess there was actually no point in it...

gr that just fucking pisses me off.. that it ws like "soooo important" and then i got to be changed for shit.. like we all get along right?? FUCK THAT!! wow its funny how gay some people can be GRRRR!!!

ahhhh im so fucking pissed

bye

shooting star

xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 5 October :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

your irreplaceable
had an extreamly great night .

thank you

i love you always !<33

never let go of anything that you cant
go a day without thinking a b o u t...

p.s i WILL buy that fucker for you! ;]

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 3 October :: 10.16pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: how far-martina mcbride

so im gunna walk away and its up to you to say how far!

heyy people! ha whats crackin?! im such a geek.. urmmm sooo today was pretty ehhh but whatever no big deal

school tomorrow ohh joy

im soo glad your in my life
i love you so much danny <33333

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xonixieox

:: 2004 3 October :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Breakaway x Kelly Vlarkson

ok so yesterday we all got caught for drinking up on da hill.....

suprisingly my brother and my cousins blamed themselves.. and not me or any of my friends...

so i was like mom dj ius just covering up for all of his friends.. so hopefully they believe me..

ya so we had to clean up all the empties.. and let me tell you there was ALOT of empties!

ya so i felt bad cuz we all got yelled at and my dad asked me who's alcohol it was and i REFUSED to tell him...

so i bought my brother a shot glass that i got engraved from things remembered.. kinda ironic tho huh? lol!

ya so we found a new spot!!!

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

ok so anyways i had a little fun on friday night.. but that was the most fun i've had in a really really long time.. and that was under the influence of alcohol!! so ya i dont know what to do about my life...

-Nik

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 2 October :: 5.23pm
:: Mood: crazy

ha. you do amuse me

you are nothing but a whore .

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 1 October :: 11.34pm
:: Mood: worried

hi...he told me to do this!
i love you danny

im at dannys.. im spending the night again
im here to explain::
-absloutly nothing he stoped talking! :-X

i love him!

shooting star

xonixieox

:: 2004 30 September :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: none

lately i have been really depressed..
well i dont really know why i am writing in here becasue theres really no point.. the people who look at it dont read it and the people who do read it are the ones that i either dont know or dont like...
so i guess that this journal is just for me so i can let all my feelings out..

so anyways i have been really depressed lately and i dont know why.. i have been crying myslef to sleep for a week and a half straight now.. i cant sit by myself in a quiet room for more than like 5 mins. or else i think about everything and start crying.. like right now... and i have to go to this counceling thing on tuesday and get prescribed on some stupid medication.. so i cant even relieve my stress cuz i gotta go their.. even tho its a fucking early release day and i dont have practice.. i dont wanna go to that ayside place.. i just dont wanna go.. they are only gunna tell me what i already know... but w/e...

anyways so i tried to call cristina and she didnt answer.. os i imed her, but she texted me back saying she had to go.. she obv. doesnt wanna talk to me becasue she sed she would call and she never did.. am i a bad friend or something? whatever.. i guess im not even gunna make another attempt...

i dont even wanna have a party anymore... whats the point.. to sit there when all my friends have fun... im not gunna have fun.. i havnt had fun in weeks...

anyways today in cooking traci and kim didnt let me do anything.. again... i think im just not gunna go to that class anymore.. i dont really enjoy sitting on my ass and watching people cook...

people were pissing me off all day... and at least last period kelsry made me kinda happy... thank you kelsey.. you always make me smile when i need it.. and lately i need it alot! not like anyone is reading this anyways but if you are reading it kelsey i love you.. and theirs not many people i can say that for right now..... thank you...

anyways i really just want to die so i dont have to deal with all this shit... i guess im just gunna go sit in my room and think some more now....

-Nikkie

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 30 September :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: ill always remember

grr
woohu blows

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xxbabiigurlxx

:: 2004 29 September :: 2.40pm
:: Mood: dorky

not exactly what was expected aye?

got some bad news and some good news.

Bad first
they canceled the interview.

good newS
it dosen't matter their goin striaght tot he training...she got the job!

<333 congragulations krystina !

danny hope your first day of work was good ! love you!;]

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