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2004 13 July :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Sleep To Dream // Maria Mena
and u stumbled around for a good ten minutes. & i said i never seen some1 look so dumb b4 n u laughed n said i still know how 2 turn u on though.
"you could put JLo to shame." -- Alicia (the lady that works with jackie) referring to my butt lol.
this morning i woke up & went with jackie to get her rook... ? on her ear pierced. drove to cityplace & went to Ink Link & hadda go get the form notarized at her work & go to the car dealership to get a copy of her mom's license. then we headed to Ink Link over on Okechobee...? (that was after waiting for a 1/2 hour on the exit for southern blvd. cause the traffic was backed up from 6th ave all the way to southern.) jackie didn't even flitch when she got her piercing & that shit looked like it hurt! then we went to iHOP for brunch... lol the huge waffle & the fucked up pancakes lol. but afterwards, i came home... just sat around for the rest of the day.
pj called ---> "expect a call from dan, cause he thinks he has a chance." haha wtf? i told pj to tell the kid that he doesn't have any chance. sry lol.
neil called ---> i shoulda went to play paintball today, but i wasn't gonna go when only like 4 other people were playing. n besides, i went out with jackie. although mommy isn't too fond of it cause i shouldn't have been out while she was at work. =/
HCOblonde31: i'd love ta g0o tho
MoFo1788: ya ya ya, ur fraid jonah might get mad cuz ur hangin out with guys with extra barrels
MoFo1788: and lots of balls
HCOblonde31: lmao
MoFo1788: :-D
o yeah we kept getting whistled at by the damn construction workers. ahhhh. s0o uncomfortable. and then the guy in the eckerd's parking lot came up to our window & handed us his card & said he did computer work, but he wanted us to just call him... i'm like... WE'RE SIXTEEEEEEEN! damn, and he's like haitian & 30 yrs. old. *cries*
um... i've just been informed that... next week, after i come home from cheerleading camp... we're leaving for chicago... yeah... thats not happening. i still don't wanna go cause i've got shit planned... but we'll see how it works out.
yeah i just got back from being in my garage talking to rick, tim, my dad, & mom. lmao
rick: "u know what's in style now, those high beds that u have to jump on to get in. you know it'd be cool to get some silk sheets & just slide on that motherfucker."
tim: "i gotta wash my hands from grabbin' tom's ass."
o0o... about the plans for chicago... my dad was like, "well if you guys are going to fly up there, then i'm going to drive in my new vehicle." "u guys aren't coming back with me are you?" "i mean what if my new vehicle is a corvette?"
thats when... viper clicked. *shrug* there's no way. cause they're talking about getting some truck or a hummer. we'll see if my dad's shit talking with be worth anything... lol <3
anyways, i'm gonna dip. go finish my collage cause i have nothing else better to do, and nobody online is talking or responding. yikes.
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2004 13 July :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: tired
And she returns....Part I
ok so this will most likely turn into a loong boring account of my trip to gainsville so I suggest you stop reading here.
Michelle and I made it there in about 4 and 1/2 hours and got to Hillary's around 1ish? idk but they have the cutest little town house ever its 3 bedrooms 3 bathrooms and it's just her and her sister Margaux living there so it's perfect. So we hung out for a bit got settled in got a look at domestic hillary cleaning and doing dishes which was quite amusing. Then we drove around a bit.
Went to publix to pick up some breakfast food and mixers for the lovely alcohol that Margaux had agreed to pick up for us later. We drove through the campus down frat row (lol it's actually a street) did some people watching....many hot college boys with nice bodies and longish hair in tight shirts were wandering everywhere : P. I really like it up there north florida is so much different, I mean it was still pretty fuckin hot but it was pretty there's a lot of big trees and spanish moss and it was just nice.
Then we dropped our purchases off back at their house and met Margaux's friend Joanie and her brother who were nice after they left we went out to dinner at Maui Chicken Teryaki which was really good there's lots of places to eat up there. After dinner we went to this guy alans apartment to pick up some more alcohol hillary had left there. lol we walked in cuz the door was unlocked and it was just....great shot glasses everywhere a wall full of empty alcohol bottles stuff everywhere the lamp was broken god knows how...I can't wait for that life lol. Anyway we eventually called them and found them in his GF's apartment down the hall, went into say hi and pick up even more alcohol (lol the "beverlys"). We also met Christina, Alans GF, Christine (lol yes 2 diff people just like home : ) ) and Keith, they asked us to bring all the stuff home and they would be by later to hang out.
When we got home Margaux had picked up our Rum and ice for the pina coladas and daqueries and some bacardis and smirnoffs and a bottle of vanilla vodka. We added all of the stuff we had picked up from alans to it and got started lol. Margaux left around 11 with some friends who had driven all the way from Sarasota to see her. It was these two marines Bobby and Ryan and Bobby's GF Christina (yes yet another christina) they were all comming back later too but we wanted to get started early.
So michelle hillary and I started making Daqueries and Pina Coladas and then Hillary and I invented this drink called a Cum Shot (she made it up I named it) all it was was a shot of Vanilla vodka with this french vanilla coffee creamer and from the name you can guess what it looked like. It wasn't that bad it was just nauseatingly sweet so everytime someone said this girls name that Hill didn't like we made them take a cum shot. Hillary and I weren't that drunk but we were being stupid and acting like it. Michelle was pretty bad cuz she started getting all depressed : \
We did take a whole bunch of pics on michelles fone including some of us in our sexy cowboy hats and Hillarys giant colada. She had this martini glass that was literally a foot tall with a cup as big as her head and she drank like 2 or 3 pitchers of pina coladas out of it. lol they were good minus the dust that she couldnt wash out of the cup ewwww. I was being so mean to michelle I pushed her down the stairs just because all it took was like tapping her on the shoulder lol and I put a chair leg on top of her hair when she was laying on the floor so she couldnt get up without ripping her hair out. then I stole her fone and her car keys and her hat and her drink....funny stuff <3.....lmao we also called richelle and Margaux asking for porn I'm afraid to say.
At like 1:30 Margaux still wasn't home and we were getting bored and and michelle looked like she was ready to pass out so we went to go to sleep when this guy Christian showed up so Hillary and I stayed up and talked to him until Margaux came home not long after with Bobby Ryan and Christina, then Alan Keith and the other Christina came over and we started having a little party type thing. I wasn't planning on drinking anymore but it wasnt long before I took another shot and decided to join in.
I finished off a 6pack of bacardis and one of michelles smirnoffs playing this drinking game that I think Alan was teaching us (plus the daqueries and shots i had had before) it was a lot of fun. I still wasn't very drunk well not stupidly drunk just happy i suppose. Keith started talking to me a lot and then it turned to hitting on me lol he kept telling me he was suppressing inappropriate thoughts that were running throu his head cuz Margaux told him I was still in HS (he didn't find out i was 16 until the next morning.) He was a frat boy I'm pretty sure and Margaux said by the end of the night it was the drunkest she had ever seen him which is saying something. I ended up taking care of him everytime I went to get myself water I made him drink it even tho I was getting dehydrated he could barely stand lol.
After a while the game got to be too much since the guys had been drinking straight whisky and we were doing waterfalls (ugh) and we had all gotten to the point of naming this Giraffe statue Jerry (not jeffery because that is taken by the toys r us statue) and we had made a rule in the game that before you drank you had to say Jerry may I.....yeahhh so at that point it was around 6am and christian alan and christina left leaving keith behind to sleep in the middle of the floor because he couldnt move. Bobby and Christina slept on the couch and Ryan upstairs.
I woke up around 1 in the afternoon and we all just kinda sat in the middle of the living room in the dark trying to wake up bobby and keith which just was not happening. Eventually we started cleaning up the bottles and cups all around the house. Hillary has this interesting habit of drinking out of a measuring cup and using serving spoons and forks to eat with when everything else is in the dishwasher lol. And we had used just about every cup in the cabinet. Yeah so I was a little hung over for once : \ so I took sum advil and we went out to lunch at fridays and I felt much better. We came home to find every1 just about where we left them only keith had been picked up and the rest were asleep on the couch watching big fish. We hung out in hillarys room a while just being lazy before we went to the mall. The one they have up there is pretty nice (the Oaks mall) they have this store buckle which i <3 love <3 i wish we had it down here. I was running short on money since my mom didnt budget in alcohol (whoda thought lol) when she gave me an advance on my allowance so going into the stores and having to refrain from buying anything was kind of like being a reformed rug addict in a crack house but eh....looking is nice : \
After that we went to cicis for dinner and much delerium ensued....its beyond words how stupid we are sometimes. Then we went to publix (with me wearing michelles nifty cowboy hat because it was dead sexy lol) again to pick up some more ice for pina coladas and such and some ice cream for margaux and some other stuff......
ok well this is getting quite ridiculous so I will break it up into 2 entries....more later call me if you wanna hang out this week or nxt week before dance starts much love and to be continued....
~Jess~
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2004 12 July :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: True // Ryan Cabrera
i'm weak, it's true, i'm just scared to know the ending.
idk y i'm updating... i've been thinking... n plus i'm really bored.
had practice & hung with Chels & Nikki. "i had one n i swear my macaroni started talking to me". "omg matrix whoaaa" lmao. "yo baby, yo baby yo MOMMA!" lmao "all those kids in private school are baddd, u think they're good, but their parents didn't want them thats y they got stuck there." lol.
anyways... got home from practice & ashley & i were gonna go shopping... but she doesn't have money to spend. =/ for some reason, i have this feeling that she doesn't like me.... idk i didn't d0o nutn. maybe i'm just annoying to her. lol i know i get annoyed with people. *shrug*
s0o at noon today, my phone rang. i thought someone called... but it was my alarm that i set awhile back... the 12th of every month, it would go off @ noon, for our anniversary. thats when i hit rock bottom. just got weaker... felt down, but what can ya do?
neil n i hadda convo last night. i liked it alot.. someone to talk to. but he just kept insisting that i find new guys.
HCOblonde31: u know how u were talking about how bein with someone... n havin those simple hugs feel different... jonahs have always been different... n so have our talks... compared to the many other guys i've met & hung with in the past few weeks... thats why they dont compare....
HCOblonde31: mushy lil girl lol sry
MoFo1788: yea but tahts cuz u liked him
MoFo1788: start liken sum1 else
and to my surprise... i haven't talked to jonah all day today, and i wanna call him... but i think after last night... him thinking that i want someone that i don't know (dennis)... idk i feel uncomfortable... with him thinking that i pity him... because when i say somethin i mean it. i guess for me to be comfortable he would hafta call me... lets me know that it didnt get him pissed. =/
ok i'm sick of talking... imma go be bored in my bed & watch some more tv. call my cell if u wanna do something, or justttt to say hello. <3
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2004 11 July :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: famous now // reel big fish
she works hard for the money
worked. 9am-4pm. ---> ugh.
let me explain. i am s0o sore from not resting at all & having practice. i end up being the only person that gets carts until 11am. jack is too stubborn to do his job, & he's like 90 years old. fucker should be fired. but anyways... dennis came in. this kid is hottttt. i was too nervous to talk to him though. during lunch ---> i called danielle & brittany... they should be coming over to keep me company 2night.
GUESS WHO i SAW TODAY?! JOEY!
hahahaha. he was with his friend... and he's like, "briana!" & i was all like, "hi joey! *big hug* whatcha up 2? how ya been? blah blah blah." he's super cute. s0o anyways... walter came in around 3:30pm. he was like, "hey munchkin" hehe. um.. right before i left he was going to get carts w/ dennis, & it woulda been fun to do, except i was about to clock out.
Terry: "You guys go get carts."
Dennis: "only us 2?"
Walter: "Well, there's briana..."
Bri: "bye bye." hehe.
s0o i clocked out & bought a bag of candy & laid on a bench watching everyone work while i just got fat with candy lol. then walter came up to me...
Walter: "You goin' 2 the meeting on monday?"
Bri: "No, i've got practice from 8-11am. y?"
Walter: "Cause i'm gonna be there, and u should be there cause i'm there."
believe me... i wanted to be there when he was cause he's hilarious and we just laugh at each other... *shrug*
um... my mom finally took me home. our convo in the car...
Bri: "yeah, and Dennis was the only other one there."
Mommy: "Yeah, he kept asking me all about u, like when he was gonna meet you, and when the next time u worked was and so on."
Bri: "i didn't know who he was, why was he asking about me... i've never seen him before."
Mommy: "He was interested, but don't worry i told him that you weren't his type."
Bri: "MOMMY! HE'S HOT!"
Mommy: "i was standing next to him at the time clock & he was telling me how your boyfriends came in & i asked how many & he said 2, (referring to Joey & Joey's friend) & i said to him 'she has a lot of those.' and he goes, 'i can see why.' "
haha. anyways, i'mma go.. gotta call brittany & danielle. brett, & travis. and whoever else. <3
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2004 11 July :: 12.02am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Ban the Tube Top // RBF
sheee has a girlfriend now lol.
went food shopping with mommy this morning. jonah called me while i was with her. he told me he'd call me back. i called him around 10pm & he wasn't homeeeee. =P
got home from shopping & went to the beach for a little. brett called - got home from helping his dad move... wanted to hang out when i got home. alex called - wanted to go to the movies, but my parents thought it would be a better idea if i stayed home & "rested" because i've been out late for the past few nights. w/e. so when i got home, i showered & met up with brett at the park. so many people were there. i actually met adrian... n then his bro, chris, robert, jason & wilbert. chance, my bro, & brett were there too. i swung on the swing while they played bball. chance gave me a nice big sweaty hug. yuck. n he bleached his hair, slim shady wanna be grrr. lol. adrian was trying to flirt - he has no game, but he was generous & gave me a ride home cause i didn't wanna walk. yay haha. brett & i made plans to meet back up at the pool. s0o i ate dinner & showed up to the pool along with brett, garett, danny, travis & nicole. then later, jennifer, robert & some other kid showed up. um... jennifer was cool, we didn't have a hard time makin' convo like nicole & i had. robert was funny - answering brett's phone when his x g/f called. brett & travis kept beatin' garett & danny to show off. lol... funny though. matrix haha. pool closed @ 10pm s0o we left. brett tried convincing me to go play man hunt with them... but i wasn't up for it. sore & i gotta work in the morning. s0o i came home, watched the rest of "Las Vegas" with mommy & ate ice cream. neil & i just made "plans" n um... jonah is on, but he said, "brb"... *shrug*. umm talkin' ta ashley c & felipe & camilo too.
found out that we are going on vaca from the 7/29-8/10 then going to school the next day?! not happening at all. i am planning on going to kaila's party & have soooo many cheerleading performances that week. s0o my mom & i are gonna make him reschedule ... for thanksgiving break? or new years? idk but just not that week that my dad was planning. grr.
hmm enjoyed the day for being very sore. but i gotta go put my work clothes in the dryer. xoxo ttyl <3
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2004 10 July :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: confused
psh. cancel all that crap i said in the last entry.
all my thoughts are all mixed up. i loveee hanging out with big sexy and her momma pimp though, they bring me happy thoughts.
"these aren't hooker shoes, these are nine west!"
"if you're my momma pimp, then daddy, is my sugar daddy"
garage sale this morning with them. in total we made $100 or so. then went shopping. saw jessica's daddy at american eagle... wanted to go up to him and say, "hi! are you mr.brandi, jessica's dad? i'm her friend "michelle." yeah gotta use a differenet name. you know why. nice day.
dinner time with them. yay!
<3 love.
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2004 10 July :: 12.36am
:: Mood: jubilant
:: Music: set up = reel big fish
if everyone is d0ing it, i'm not gonna be every f*cker. just the blonde girl.
last night was the RBF concert. which was absolutely amazing. friends, loud music, dancing like white girls should, and just fun. it was me, ashley c, danielle & zach. short story: zach forgot the tickets at home in his wallet... we went back to get them... just made the concert. it felt g0od getting out to just see different people... and those from middle school as well. anyways.. then we went to denny's. i wish that ellen woulda went to the concert. i think we woulda had some fun moments. not that her & i are close... but yeah, it woulda given friendship a meaning? idk what i'm saying lol. but u know what i mean... i hope.
s0o this morning i woke up from cheer practice. yikes. um... worked our asses offffff s0o badly. but chelsea, & nikki & i had fun lol. our conversation in the jump line was funny. like... twice a day... duh lol. umm got to know people like Brittany, Holly, Julie & Stephy. i have a feeling i'mma be in pain 2morrow when i wake up. o well. its worth it.
s0o i get home... talked to brittany & took a nap. then brett calls. & then i talked to jonah... and then he hadda go. i hope he won his game tonight... i know he wasn't glad about last night's game =/ anyways... s0o brett calls back... & him & travis decide to come over because they have nothing else better to do with their lives. ummm s0o we talked & hung out. got made fun of... that kinda thing. then i went in... took a nap. got jackie's call so i hadda get ready for the UCT show. which wasn't bad. hot singer = J.M. & he's very crazy. jackie's crush isn't bad = wayne. and doug the drummer has an awesome sense of humor / personality... the one guy... don't know his name.. reminded me of tom from blink182. i mean it was all a newer experience for me... which was ok. but i'mma shy girl when it comes to meeting new people. but jackie & i got tired pretty early, so we left around 10:20pm. got home & hadda bowl of cereal, & a soda pop. n i wasnt tired no more. s0o i called up brett & told him i was home. s0o he decides... "ok r u allowed out, cause i'm coming over" yeah s0o i went outside, & walked to the end of the block & there he was. had kinda open talks like friends do & then i got really hyper & we started walking & then i almost got ran over and i tried lifting brett up with my feet but it wasnt working. stupid. then travis called & rode his bike in like .03 seconds up to where brett & i were.
then we all talked as stupid me... bounced around cause i have no life & jonah isn't online so i didnt wanna stay inside expecting him to come online... cause he still hasn't. i'm really in the mood to talk to him. but there is nothing that can cure or help that because he is not here. i miss him a ton. i have the biggest urge to just see him & jump on him and lalalalalala yeah. ok i'm bored & camilo is talking to me now s0o imma dippppp like u would dip ur tostitos in ur salsa. haha, awesome.
*but i want u, and u want me too
and you need this, wanna give it to u
and i thought this time i'd say something new.* <--- those mean s0o much f0r s0me0ne, haha, <3
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2004 9 July :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: confused
Talking to Danielle inspired me to write a story I have kinda had in my head for a few days. It is making me very happy, writing is my therapy right up there with shopping. It's just ahrd to get motivated to write anymore : \.....yeah so that is what I have been up to lately, sad but....I could care less.
I owe myself crunches and treadmill time until I pass out....I'm confused again I don't know how to handle this anymore. I hate myself for being weak I hate myself for a lot of reasons. Maybe I'll just give in fuck willpower. maybe not idk....don't ask
Michelle is comming to get me at 8am tomorrow morning and we're leaving for Gainsville. Hillary informed me last night that a lot of her friends we woulda met had gone home for the summer and Richelle is home visiting her family this weekend which really sucks because I was exicted to see her but oh well we will still have fun I'm sure, not like I'm doing anything exciting here.
Well I have more writing to do gotta work out and pack and go to the book store to get something for the drive up. I'll be back around wednesday so don't miss me too much heh.
oh yeah I'm taking my driving test on friday...I'm afraid I will be the only loser to fail it but cross your fingers for me. Not that I'm a bad driver or anything I just might do something stupid under pressure. idk my mom was saying she wasnt going to let me drive right away but I made her let me drive her to boca so she could see that I'm not incompetant so...hopefully she'll be reasonable.
I'm so pissed because I have to do eagle ette shit the weekend my mom and I were supposed to go to NY. So we're cancelling the trip. My mom wont let me miss it because it looks bad and she knows I need to start proving myself and shit. All that I sacrafice for this fucking team gives me little to no payback and it never has but it makes me hate myself a little less to know that I am capable of being truly dedicated to something and taking responsibility where it is expected. It's a pride thing i'll never quit.
so that's that danielle we are definately going bowling when I get home maybe we'll even steal shoes this time : P If you have any crises while I'm away don't hesitate to call because well....you know those boys. Have fun with #1 and #2 <3
Actually anyone call me I love calls : )
someone is also going with me to see king aurthor when I get back...
this is enough back to the story at hand....
~love~
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2004 8 July :: 12.14am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: watching tv. Disney haha
everyday isn't like today, but today was awesome... for no reason.
last night i took everything off my desk. now... my dad needs to take out this desk from my room... right now my computer & i are sitting on the floor.. going for the japanese style of living. hehe.
anyways this morning i woke up kinda early & went to the bank for money to get to danielle for the RBF concert tickets... which means we get to go and crowd surf @ 6:15pm 2morrow. how awesome!
but when i got home, i took a shower & then talked to jonah on the phone. thats the second time u purposely hung up on me in all the time i've known u. that's very dirrrrty, master. lol. after we got off the phone, i headed to cheerleading practice...
it was good actually. hung out with juliana & then chelsea. lol chelsea & i did alotta laughing. omg lol. it says 2 steps & we are taking... one? lmao. who feels like a dolphin?! splash... whip lash? lmao. good times.
brittany picked me up from practice & we went to my house. jonahhhh called & we talked. ummm then i got ready & brittany n i went to meet up with her parents at OUTBACK for dinner since jb, mike & robert didnt wanna go with us. we came back after dinner & got some ice cream & went outside. met jb over at the pool then called travis & brett cause brittany & i saw them earlier & missed them. well they didnt answer the phone. fuckers. lol. so we went to the gas station & got a drink & the stupid guy gave us these nasty candy things, so when we got home, i took them and started bangin' on frank's car with them... hope i didnt make any dents lol. then mike & jb & frank & me & brittany talked... but we got bit up by mosquiters so we all left & went home.
i got in & talked to danielle, neil, jonah, brittany, & camilo online. gotta call from travis while i was just sitting here. then brett wanted to talk to me, so i talked to him & then back & forth the phone went. i guess travis is calling me when he gets home from work? and brett called me back... they wanted to come knock on my window... & moon me but uh... i told them they were wasting their time lol. i miss them... 6th with them haha. but uh... since they didn't stop by tonight to say, "hey" after not seeing each other in awhile, brett wants to come say hey 2morrow... during the day. i guess thats what he's gonna do. which is cool, cause i have nothing to do in the daytime but wait for the night to come & crowd surf with the awesomest people.
but for now, i'mma head out... i typed enough on this journal. i loved today. its the best feeling for some reason
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2004 7 July :: 8.12pm
wow...I have been neglecting you poor woohu I think I am outgrowing this childish phase....perhaps not I'm sure I have a lot to say let us begin...
My new mental/physical health regime....see livejournal for details on that but I think it is a genuinely good idea and I would like to reiterate that I am a fucking genius. I realized today how much I really do think about him and how hard it is to control your thoughts. And the knowledge that I would have to do many crunches and push ups as a result of such thoughts made me really fight hard to drown them out of my head....I think I started singing Beat It in my head on the bus ride home just to be ridiculous and block everything else out. But the mental struggle actually kind of wore me out Anand said I ended up passed out for half of the ride home.
let's see what else have I been up to....saw the notebook this weekend with michelle and lauren after becomming devirginized to cold stones....it was long overdue that place is fucking awesome. Earlier that day lauren and I decided to see what the whole spray tan thing was about....kind of a waste of $25 but it was an experience. I was actually really dark for like a day but if you don't have a base tan to start off with it fades pretty quickly. Afterwards we went back to laurens house to play with the puppies. I want to steal them so bad they're adorable.
SAturday went with my parents to cityplace to see spiderman 2 I thought ti was good but my mom was being such a pain in the ass in the movie because she was bored...such a child
4th of july sat on my ass watching movies no fire works for me....seen em once you've seen em all. Plus I had no1 to go watch them with it's kind of depressing with ur parents and no friends or guy...idk.
Monday I drove us all to boca to meet me family for lunch as PF changs my aunt brought the baby so my mom was happy. I don't understand ppl who like babies....OMG he shut his eyes its so amazing its a fuckign miracle....who cares? When he's old enough to cure cancer I'll be impressed.
Today was the LAST day of summer school WOOOHOOOO. I'm going to miss it a bit I always end up making really good friendships in summer school every year it never fails. It's just a different atmosphere it's nice. They really should let us have breaks during the school year again it's so great. But yeah people like Ashley Treu and Rich (tho he is leaving now isnt he) who I never really talked to before and especially Amy and Christine I was never really close with but I really enjoyed their company and hopefully we will continue the friendship next year. And then there was people I was already pretty good friends with like Liz and Janyll and Adam. I'm going to miss the endless card games and the silliness. lol sharks in the forest....lord farquar....90's pop notebook etc etc...telling embarassing middle school stories and the uncontrollable laughing. lol how did we ever fit biology into these few weeks all I seem to remember is the free time. I feel so safe with all of my fellow IB losers we can all be in our own little world together.
We did have our exam today it was really easy we played biology jeopardy before lunch cuz we are gay like that and the rest of the day was just chillin in the room. I gave adam some real honest advice because it's just what I do and he got a little upset but hopefully not too much. I hope he sees that I'm right somewhere down the road. lol we did have a lot of fun today tho he tried to carry me down the hallway (at his own risk i mind u i warned him) and almost got a hernia. Janyll Amy and Adam locked me in the physics room and I was mad scared then we we were all running through the rooms like little kids. German was chasing someone down the hall it was just altogether immature craziness. So yup back to conditioning and dance tomorrow then it's GAINSVILLE! yup I'm still super excited to go away away away....bah I def have mroe to say but this is getting ridiculous. I guess I havnt grown out of it yet...
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2004 6 July :: 4.29pm
a long ass survey because i was bored....
| Basics | | Name:: | Luan | | Birthdate:: | May 25th and dont you forget it | | Age:: | 16 | | Birthplace:: | montreal | | Eldest, Middle, Youngest, Only Kid?: | i'm the eldest child | | Family:: | i dont get the question... yes i have a family? | | Pets:: | i dont have any | | Life | | Do you go to school:: | everyday | | What is your highest level achieved?: | finished sophomore year | | Religion:: | i believe in God. "life with Jesus is an adventure" -Jose | | Do you have friends?: | i'd be lonely without them | | Do you like to be lonely?: | no | | Appearences | | What color are your eyes?: | brown | | Do you like it?: | yeah | | What color eyes do you want?: | a lighter brown maybe, but i'm happy | | What color is your hair?: | black | | Do you like it?: | yes | | What color do you want?: | this is color is fine any other color would look unnatural and weird | | Do you dye your hair?: | no | | If yes, how regularly?: | i dont | | Do you wear glasses?: | yep | | Do you have a trademark?: | i dont think so | | How tall are you?: | 5'5'' i think | | What's your heritage/nationality?: | vietnamese | | Do you have the same hairstyle everyday?: | not really. its summer and i never fix my hair anymore (you dont need to impress your family) | | Do you think you look exciting?: | what does looking exciting look like exactly? | | Are you self concious?: | to a certain point | | Do you obsess over your looks?: | i dont cross any lines | | Do you even care about your appearences?: | yes i do | | How long do you spend in the bathroom?: | depends on the bathroom activity, my showers are super long though | | About life... again | | Punk/Goth/Ghetto/Prep/Jock/Nerd/Other (list)? stereotype?: | i dont think i can fall under any of those | | Do you pick your nose? In secret?: | oh all the time (sarcasm) | | Do you like yourself? Life?: | yep, and i enjoy life | | Are you liked by people?: | i hope so | | Do you want to become famous?: | but not as an actor or artist | | Do you want to make a difference in this big world?: | i'd like to, yeah | | Why?: | idk.... to give something back to a world thats been pretty much good to me | | Fun Stuff | | Which celebrities do you worship in secret?: | worship? none. i'm a fan of a lot of people | | Blues/Rock/Jazz/Classical/Pop/Urban/Country?: | i can listen to all of them. except maybe hardcore country | | Are you one of those people who diss fans of a music genre you don't like?: | no. its their opinion | | Which pop princess shits you?: | none | | Can you sing?: | you know it | | Can you act?: | i taught Charlize Theron how to act | | Who is your fave actor?: | there are many | | Fave movie?: | definitely remember the titans | | Backstreet Boys or Nsync?: | the BSB! | | Good Charlotte or Blink 182?: | Blink | | Christina Aguilera or Britney Spears?: | hmm i like both | | Slayer or Black Sabbath?: | i have no clue | | The Beatles or The Monkees?: | the Beatles | | ABBA or the A Teens?: | ABBA | | Guilty pleasure?: | ice cream? | | The Simpsons or Family Guy?: | i cant decide | | MTV... yeah or neah?: | yeah | | Friends | | Do you have a group of friends?: | sure | | How many?: | who keeps track? | | To an onlooker, what would your group be viewed as?: | those are nice people right there! | | Who are you closest to?: | my best friends | | Who is your best friend?: | the people i am closest with | | Are any of them bad influences?: | probably | | Who are you in your group? The leader? The leader's bitch? The follower?: | thats not a group... its a gang | | Are you dirty minded?: | hey man, its the hormones | | Do you have any sexual feelings towards friends?: | sexual is such a vague term.... i'm kidding | | Generally, how are you viewed in your group?: | as a hot piece of ass | | Do your friends know you?: | some of them | | Relationships: | | Are you single or taken?: | i'm single | | If single: | | Do you want to stay single?: | i'm not sure about that one | | Why are you single?: | no one likes me? | | Do you date around?: | not really | | When was the last time you have a bf/gf?: | geez umm 10 months ago | | If taken: | | Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: | i'm not taken | | How long have you been together?: | again i'm not taken | | How serious are you?: | serious about what? | | How many exes have you had?: | --- | | How exes has your partner had?: | what partner? | | Are you physically attracted to your bf/gf?: | if i had one then yes i would be | | Why?: | because thats how it works | | When was the first kiss?: | btwn who n who? | | First date?: | i dont get it | | Do you love him/her?: | with all my heart | | Does their family adore or hate you?: | they love me (whos family??) | | How far have you gone with your bf/gf?: | if i had one it would be personal | | Does your family hate or adore him/her?: | they havent met her because she doesnt exist! | | What do you think of his/her mother?: | ---- | | How did you meet?... have I asked this already?: | if you dont know then how would i? | | Straight/Bisexual/Homosexual?: | i'm straight | | Life... yet again. | | Are you bored?: | why am i doing this survey? | | Can you play any instruments? Which ones?: | i used to play the flute and i was so good at it... whyd i quit? | | Math or English?: | english | | The Arts or Sciences?: | idk | | Technical or Creative?: | a miz of both | | Are you poetic?: | i wish i was | | How many babies do you want?: | thats to be decided | | Do you spend most of your time on the net?: | i dont thinkso | | What do you think of your country's leader?: | hes kinda fat | | Do you love me?: | i dont even know you | | Why?: | becuase i dont know you | | What kind of meat do you like to eat?: | chicken | | What's your favourite food?: | i'm indecisive, idk | | Drink?: | l'eau | | I'm bored now. Wanna stop?: | maybe | | Because I am. |
A long survey to do when you are bored brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 6 July :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: ashlee simpson - pieces of me
i can hardly catch my breath, i hope it lasts
it's good.
crushes die hard, but i've learned to get over them.
you guys are going to hate me i have a feeling, but you should be happy for me.
i might keep this one.
north carolina was wonderful. i love my dad's family more than anything in the world.
i hate trying to find a job. no one wants to hire a teenage white girl. only if my parents would understand that and just let me get my license, so i can drive and see all you people, because i miss you, you and you.
<3 that's all for now.
rbf thursday night.
danielle crowd surfing.
be there, ashley cline will be.
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2004 5 July :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: You Got iT Bad // Usher
you're drunk & now you wish you're sober.
g0od day.
woke up early. was gonna lay out, but it rained. crazy motherf$%*er. um... s0o i helped mommy clean the house & watched my soaps (PASSiONS). then i g0t up & g0t ready for mommy to take me to Sports Authority to pick shit up for cheerleading. only, she handed me the keys. haha. baller. maybe she is sticking to her promise about getting my license super soon. s0o we ran to Old Navy ---> gotta few tank tops & some flip flops. Went to Sports Authority ---> got some bloomers, & soffees. went to publix ---> g0t everything i needed. when i got home... i took a shower, now jonah just IMed me & i'm talking to Groton. <3
i gotta figure out the deal with what's goin' on for thursday... cause if we go... i gotta see if ellen can sleep over.. but i got cheerleading @ 8a.m. the next morning s0o... lalala.
for now though... i'm waiting for jackie to pick me up cause i'm staying over there for the night & 2morrow... then we are gonna spend tuesday on the waverunner & in the sun. then when Brittany gets home 2morrow.. we're gonna head to the tanning salon... if she is up 2 it? idk we'll see what g0es on.
my sister was looking at my dad's keychain today, and on it there was a keychain that was for my car. and my sister goes, "daddy, who's car keys are these?" and he goes, "not for briana's car, they're a customer's keys." but why would he have the keys for a customer when he didn't bring their car home? haha.... my car is at his work. hehehehe. the excitement. i want the f%*$ing car lol <333
anyways, i'm out... gotta get my stuff together before jackie gets here. xoxo
o btw, i was listening to my Usher CD - 8701. the old one... & there was this song on there, "Twork it out" & it reminded me of jonah. *shrug* hehe
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2004 5 July :: 1.14am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: its over // mest
but if you play them, they will stay with you.
its around 1a.m.
s0o i woke up for work early today. joy. got in at 9 & listened to Winona lol. she's insane & like 42. damn. all the medicine she takes, i swear. & Carol kept making fun of her. but anyways.. Cory was there... the dude kettly kept telling me about... he is kinda annoying, but he means well. s0o thats that. i don't mind him, its someone to converse with. but Michael came in. yay! unfortunately he came in @ 3pm though, and i clocked out @ 4pm. but the first time i saw him we argued lol, which was because he didn't directly say hi to me or give me a hug yesterday, just gave me a dirrty look & walked off. but... he was c0ol the rest of the day. after i clocked out he sat and talked to me while i waited for my mommy.
mommy & i left.. around 4:30... got wendys, & did some errands. then she dropped me off & i called jackie. we ended up hanging out 'til 1am. went to super walmart. cinderella shoes. rain shoes. kenny chesney. etc. we were being stupid lol. 14'' fake spinning mexican rims lol. but yeah... came back to my house... played with silly beads & looked up words in the dictionary... for a reason, not cause we were bored... well we were... but there was a purpose to it. but... she left. i'm supposed to sleep over her house 2morrow night. hopefully, then we are gonna g0o on the waverunner on tuesday & hang out. lalala. we'll see what g0es down.
neil called. i wanted to g0o hang with them tonight... but it was late & jackie has to work & it just wasn't a smart idea. besides... the drive was long... speaking of driving...
mom's plan ---> use dad's car all this week. on friday she makes an appointment for my license... who knows if i will get it. who knows if it will even happen & i didn't even wanna say anything about it because most of the shit that my mom says.... is meaningless. however... we'll see. i'd like it a lot. <33 i want to believe it.
this week is gonna g0o by fast... i have so much to do.
monday ---> errands with mommy. sports authority & contacts, tanning... hopefully. sleeping over jackie's house.
tuesday ---> waverunner with jackie... maybe i'll be able to see jonah? idk its been awhile.
wednesday ---> sleep in... cheer practice from 4-6:30pm. might be able to see groton & brittany. =)
thursday ---> reel big fish concert... that doesn't seem like it will be happening though? who knows. ashley c would come down...! score!
friday ---> cheer practice 8-11am. UCT concert @ Spankys with Jackie & Groton... that's gonna g0o down for sure. <33
saturday & sunday ---> i am probably working my lil' ass off again... but i can use the money.
ahhh organized my weekend. awesomeness. <33 goodnight. i hope everyone enjoyed their 4th of July. xoxo
leaving you with some lyrics from IT's OVER BY MEST.... <3333
But this keeps happening
Time and time again
You're thinkin' to yourself
She was your only friend
But you're so fucking wrong
That you're so fucking lame
You realize you're all the same
She looked at you and she said to your face
It's over, it's over
She's got a new man and it's time for you
To move over, move over
You're drunk and mad you wish that you
Were sober, were sober
Cause now you can't get it out of your head
That it's over, that it's over, that it's over
Cause it's over, it's over, it's over
And it's over, it's over, it's over
Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will stay with you
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2004 3 July :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: LoNeLY // Britney Spears
n now u're lonely, yet u still want me // Britney Spears
today ---> take a breath.
CrOss PoSTin' @ LJ CHEcK iT HuRR
... woke up @ 6:30a.m & dragged my happy self to work. its nice being up early f0r a change, juSs' goTz no1 ta talk ta.
w0rked 'til 3. mR. mIke didn't work 2day s0o he stopped in 2 say "hEy fucKerz". TheN i totally wenT t0 get carts. i took in a d0nut Load of carts. there was 8 of them... & showin' off my skillz ta the hot m0f0's that passed by... i pushed them all in. but the 0ld people that i passed were like, "little girl, that's too many." n i juSs smiled & continued pushing... fuckerz. lol. come on. stop underestimating my abilities as a midget. 4'11 & 3/4" grr. lol
i came home & napped big time. not used to being up early. but i woke up & called mr. j0nah cause he is a demanding guy & insisted that i find the phone a little faster. lol, uM... we taLked & then enDed up watcHin' "DRiVE ME CRAZY" w/ Melissa Joan Hart. c0ol beans. then.. the phone died, lmao AGAiN... like right before the movie ended. then i gotta call from jackie, talked to her for a bit, & then Alex called. was g0nna g0 out with her, but jb's lazy bum didn't wanna drive. grr. anyways...
i g0t ashley p's LetTer in THe mAiL 2day! hehe 2 stamps & a pointless letter lol. <333 i love u mucho. plus i'm forced t0 put this in here by her lol j/k ur the best. s0rta.. i top u. then uR 2nd haha. <333
here's 2 self expression. <------
i wanna like... idk, just change. i need change s0o badly... whether its a new desk cause i desperately need it... whether its new green contacts that i am supposed to get monday, whether its new clothes, a darker tan, another ear piercing, another collage, a new cd, a fudgin' car... ((which daddy PURCHASED, friday july 2nd *i'm scared its nothing special, but fuck, its a car)), a new diet idea, new comforter, new cheerleading clothes ((goin' 2 sports authority on Monday, but i waNNa look online)), etc... i just need change.
i'm in dying need of new color eyes & perfect skin. i'm working out more. 15o crunches, 5o leg lifts & 5o glute thingy ma bobbers, um.. 25 push ups (KiLLA! lol), & 2 routines 0f cheer legs (Kaila knows, but no1 else). plus i drink nothing but water... & sadly have two meals a day, followed by my one choice of a junky snack. but that's my routine. sickening if u ask me... but i am happy with my body, just not the peeling from tanning & the fuckin' face i have. lol sry. that's the reason f0r all the water. who knows what's gonna happen hoez!
anyways... i've gotta d0o laundry & head ta bed cuz i've gotta work @ 9a.m. <33
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