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2004 3 April :: 9.54pm
plain jane.
woke up, made myself some honey nut cheerios with a sliced banana. drove myself ta work. put in more carts than i did bagging. damn. mike came in @ 4, s0-o did jay, -n- walter came in @ 5. talked ta mike -n- jay, buh not walter. i thought it was scurry cuz around 5pm, i started thinking, "i need walter right now, him -n- i wud be crackin' on that lady s0-o bad, speakin' of him, i haven't seen him in a long time." literally 5 seconds later i glance ta my left -n- he is bagging 4 the cashier next ta me. how FURRRR-eeeeek-y. finally, at 5:30pm, i got out of that hell hole.
came home, took a shower, did some yoga, relaxed and just enjoyed my own company, did my nails, made myself dinner, watched t.v. -n- now i'm writing about it... here.
my bro did sumfin ta his ankle from sk8-boardin'. he's in the emergency room now. they still haven't come home.
daddy is home with me. alone. i don't like it. its bad enough the things he says and does when everyone is around. how i dare not push his buttons when i'm in a house alone with him.
haven't talked to jonah all day. +shrugs+
<3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3 --- <3
maybe i'll go take a walk outside now.
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2004 2 April :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Bully :: Eminem
V-A-R-S-I-T-Y
"It's like a never-ending cycle
That just seems to come full circle
Everybody's gotta be so fucking hard
I'm not excluding myself
Cuz I been stupid as well" =Eminem
i'm s0-o ready to become one of those stuck up girls that feel like i'm too good for everybody else. because then i won't care as much of what people think about me, because truthfully... the comments need to stop. not once have i called any female friend fat, or have i said shit about any of them. and anand knows i'm rather good at holding in my anger. but once stuff happens i will never look at u people the same. sorry. i'm sick of the fake people that some of these people are. sweet to ur face, but then rude behind ur back. as far as i know, i've never given anyone at atlantic attitude. and i refuse to. and if i didn't care so much of what people thought, i would be ok. and i wasn't going to feel rude & like a bitch, i would go up to them and ask why they would have the nerve to say anything. think about it... nobody is perfect, and to point out my features that u don't think look exceptionally perfect... COME ON! at least i'm not eating tons a day, or not working out, or at least i'm attempting to be at least pretty.
if u have a comment about how i look, or the things i do, bring it to my attention, even if it requires to leave an anonymous comment here, or if it requires u to tell me in school. this way u can all do me a favor & if u think i am too full of myself, u can break my self-esteem a little bit. that's all u have to do to get to me. for god sake's i'm the one who won't wear a shirt that JB commented about... after his comment was just about the color.
on a brighter note, i made varsity this year. who knew? i did, and so did a lot of other people. thanks for believing in me. da-da-da-damn, i'm s0-o lucky. and the coach calls me by my name, and i didn't know she knew it because i never told it to her, so i am assuming Erin & Natalie have been doing a lot of talking about me. HAHAHAHA, i love cheerleading. i love my coaches, i love the team, i love this. gosh.
jonah, sameen, hema, kailannie, carlos, danielle, pj, jackie g, ashley t, jb, christina, ally, britt, kayli, vanessa, ashley p, logan... u guys are the best.
i have more to say but i wanna sleep because i am sick of sitting here when i am s0-o tired from tests and everything. s0-o i'm giving my heart to u. <3 peace babes
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2004 1 April :: 8.49pm
:: Music: bout to burn Usher CD.
todos los dias.... ugh.
deseo escribir esta entrada de diario en español porque shakira está en MTV y me está inspirando. Hoy era bueno. La química era simple. en español tomamos un concurso que pienso que hice maravilloso en. almuerzo era la discusión grande. inglés era enojado para un poco, pero todo consiguió mejor en el extremo mientras que caminé mismo a la clase en vez para de Anand que esperaba. La biología estaba muy bien, pero me sentía mal para Kayli debido a Alex. no podría hacer mucho sin embargo. espero que el ojo de los jackie consigan mejor! de todas formas, debo ir.
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2004 1 April :: 11.33am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: ..ToXiC -->> BriTnEy SpEaRz..
. SkiPpiN sKooL t0dAyy .
YuPp YuPp .. i'm h0me t0dayy cuz my m0mmy lemme stay h0me cuz i benn w0rkin s0o fuckin much nd i benn lyke runnin 0n 5 h0urz 0f sleep. Newh0, last wkend was funn stuff. ThUrSdAyy, after w0rk, me nd eRin saw a c0uple m0viezz ((Dawn 0f the Dead, Starsky..)) nd then we chylledD back at my h0use nd g0t drunk! l0l, then fRidAyy, we went sh0ppin cuz i g0t my paycheck .. $190 babyy! l0l nd that wasnt even f0r 2 full weekz. So0o i b0ught lyke cl0thezz nd shyt .. fun dayy. Nd we put speakerzz in my car by 0urselvezz .. l0l we r s0o pimp! Then SaTuRdAyy, we went 0ver WeiNeR'z h0use nd sm0kedD nd rentedD my NEW fave m0vie that n0 0ne else can lyke az much az me sidezz C. b0nEr, l0l, AMERiCAN HiSTORY X!! 0mg, greatest m0vie everr!! Then we juss chylledD at thiz place by hiz h0use nd i t00k him h0me nd eRin crashedD at my h0use. SuNdAyy, me nd eRin went tannin .. first at hoLLyw00d tAnzz nd then 3 h0urzz at the beach .. we g0t s0o burnedD but iz turnin int0 a tan n0w. Nd SuNdAyy nite, me nd eRin chylledD wit JeNNy nd we went 0ver thiz kidd ToMMy'Z h0use that usedD t0 g0 t0 my middle sk00l. He'z straight .. we hadD crazyy funn there. Yea, nd that was my wkendD. It was my eRin wkendD m0st DEF. Nd last nite, w0w, prettyy g00d fuckin nite. Went t0 BB t0 chyll wit MaTT nd he askedD me if i was g0in 0ut wit JuNiOr nd i was lyke all pissedD 0ff nd then there'z thiz new kidD that w0rkzz there .. bLaCk .. 0mg, awesum kidD .. he gave me his number nd saidD that me nd him r guna chyll!! l0l, me nd eRin kn0 everyy0ne at BB pers0nallyy .. iz GREAT! Nd then we were chyllen at the park wit bLaCk nd these kidDz came upp t0 me nd i th0ught i knew them nd the kidD g0es .. member me?? i'm AnGeL. l0l, i was lyke 0mg, heyy nd i jumpedD upp nd gave him a huge hugg! He was lyke yea my lil br0 saw u drivin by nd he was lyke, isnt that the gurl we met at the gas stati0n? l0l, yea, i was drivin 0n my permit wen parentzz were 0ut nd that'zz h0w i met them. Nd hiz best friendD RiCo was there nd i member him t00 cuz hiz babyy mama was in lab0r that nite. Yea, s0o i chylledD wit them f0r awhile nd then me nd eRin left but RiCo put hiz number in my f0ne f0r sum reas0n .. l0l. Nd then i was tryin t0 g0 t0 sleep last nite, nd AnGeL callzz me. l0l, he'z s0o much h0tter n0w. Newh0, i'll have t0 see wut happenzz. 0h yeaa, nd eDdy nd ashLeyy br0ke upp .. yAyErZ. Iighty, i g0t sum shyt t0 d0 bef0re i g0 nd pick upp JeNNy fr0m sk00l. LaTeR HoMeZz -->> (( oNe ))
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2004 31 March :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Burn :: Usher
finally, i get a time to update.
cheerleading & tests have run me up the wall.
varsity, i'm praying.
i hope i got decent grades on my chem quiz, & stats test, i don't really care about epstein all that much, but i am really trying to pull that extra mile in my classes for my A's.
life has been harsh this week. waking up late, not finishing crap, i believe it's just because of spring break & cheerleading, but i missed not having that around. i love it. but it's worn me out... not being in shape, kinda pissed because running every other day isn't working.
school was normal today... kinda stressing, but i didn't let it get to me. i love my friends. no matter what shit talking happens, because its funny when u look at them, and then u say "ur my best friend" and they give u that guilty look... like they did something... cause u know they did. o well.
wonderful jumps, wonderful facials, just on speed a lil' bit lol alicia. <3 anyways, i'm out P-YcE. the oC is Onnnn.
stecker looks like a friendly frog, carlos is snufulufugus.. lol<3
12 moRe DayS -- 1o.12.o3 i love u.
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2004 28 March :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: GrAB a ParTnEr, TakE iT DOwN
jonah, d0 me b4 i give iT 2 BriTneY lol <3
i love britney spears.
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worked. came home. talked to jonah, talked to carol, watch them leave for the concert, did some hw. watched britney spears. saw brittany.
my nights are lonely without u.
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1o.12.o3 -- 6 MoNtHs, CominG SooN.
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2004 27 March :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: annoyed
u think u know... but u have no idea what i really feel like.
one hour, 30 minutes of sleep. about 6 hours on the phone with jonah. 1am-7am.
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woke up around 8:30am to about 15 paintball players in my house, packing for their tournament. then, my mom & i painted my room.
ChEcK OuT The ALmOsT FiniSHeD RooM now we are just gonna add the paper lanterns, and go buy new comforters sometime this week.
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when i was making my bed, i hit my head on the wood. and then when i was on the slip -N- slide with my sis, i kinda did a backward roll thing, which WAS NOT pretty. +shrug+
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i want to be britney s0o badly. gosh, its just like... killing me. seeing her all over and knowing how many people want her and how many people look up to her and think she is hot. i wanna know how that feels. i wanna become britney. like... just walk in her footsteps, i mean, do u think she wakes up every morning knowing that she's about to make millions of dollars for the Onyx Hotel Tour? do u think she asks herself how many people would die for the clothes that she wears in her videos, or to the award ceremonies? damn... i needa print out her picture, stick it on my wall & remember that i wake up every morning because my goal is to be as close as to perfection as she is. perhaps my own worst flaw is nearing perfectionism, but i want to be perfect, because... i'm a perfectionist, and these days, i'm settling for whatever comes. that's not my wish, i want better. ok, i'm content with my loved ones, but not with the life i lead, or where i'm headed. i feel like there is something more... something i can get. life is great. everyone deserves to live it up for it's fullest potiential... but sitting here.. writing in this everyday, talking online and on the phone consistently is not what i want. i want a car. with wheels. take me every place in america. i want to act, sing, dance, choregraph, model, work, and just.... rghaergiherghflgndfbedrfughrew. be what everyone else doesn't expect of me, even if it ends me up in playboy.
i don't want someone's famous face. i want to make mine one. <3
let me live the life i want to lead. and if i can't live it... well, at least let me dream.
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2004 26 March :: 11.40pm
LiLsHorTcaKe2315:
FOR ADOPTiON:
4'11'' Female.
Blonde Hair, Hazel Eyes, Big Bottom.
Disowned by her boyfriend.
Call 963-4492 To Adopt.
Dmx504boyz: or 2548483
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LTR4N: =-O.. i would adopt you in a heartbeat
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LiLsHorTcaKe2315: hey if i got disowned.... would u adopt me?
Baseballa4eva17: no doubt
Baseballa4eva17: he wouldnt like it if i adopted u
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: u'd abuse me with scoops
Baseballa4eva17: not if u were my dughter
Baseballa4eva17: then thats child abuse lol
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LiLsHorTcaKe2315: if i was disowned, would u adopt me?
Stones2087: fuck no
Stones2087: id like marry u
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today was just chill-axin'. talked to jonah all day, when i wasn't, i was reading, or doin hw. <3 ttyl xOx
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2004 26 March :: 1.38am
forgot to mention that i updated lj... check it <3
www.livejournal.com/~simply_short
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read previous entry... PyCe
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2004 26 March :: 12.03am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: these walls:: trapt
let the days drag by because i don't want school to come.
today was a fine loving day.
woke up early, went to the orthodontist. <3 -ed that visit. came home... went to the beach. very windy. came home, cleaned off, went back to the orthodontist. drove some more, and then came home. from then... i talked to jonah, ate dinner and cleaned OUT (not UP, but OUT) my room. now i'm having my long conversation with neil. damn i miss him. thank god i'm still friends with him tho. never really did want to lose him. i don't really understand why he is suddenly IMing me everyday and talking to me... but i like it, because i feel like... we're friends like we used to be. and u could never have too much neil, jonah, sherman or luan. <3
anyways... i wanted to write a lil' story thingy sorta, but i'm not in the mood because i'm more interested in talking to jonah & neil.. so peace <3
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