Do you know something Schroder?
Here's the update on my music on my journal.

Oasis:wonderwall
Blink 182: I miss you
All American Rejects: Paper heart
Maroon 5: This love
Jet: Are you going to be my girl
Evanescence: My immortal

That's all for now...I might change some but I'll tell you all when I do

Starbucks Coffee
When the rain is blowing in your face
and the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When evening shadows and the stars appear
and there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But, I would never do you wrong
I've knowin it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawlin' down the avenue
There ain't nothin that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
and on the highway of regret
the winds of change are blowing wild and free
you ain't seen nothin' like me yet.

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the earth for you.
Make you happy make your dreams come true
to make you feel my love..

There ain't nothin that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love..

-Bob Dylan

Ryan this is exactly how I feel, I'll wait forever for you until your ready. When you know what's wrong or when you feel ok again, i'll be here waiting. Your not going to lose me. I'm sorry for everything that has been going on. Sorry for crying today, I was just scared, I understand completely what you need to do...it just scared me a little. Well I'll be here, just come when your ready.

-Chasmin-

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meep...that's all I wanted to say

-Chasmin-

Don't go breakin' my heart..doo doo
Last night my mum and I had the house to ourselves and we werent really sure what we were going to do. Well my mom suggested to going to the movies or Lemongrass (a resturant on atlantic). Well after some research I concluded that we should see a movie. I got to choose and I wanted to see either the Prince and me or Ella Enchanted. The only one that was coming on at 8pm was Ella Enchanted so we went to that one. That movie was so cute I loved it. It had wonderful acting, and Anne Hathaway was awsome. She sings beautifully, she can act and dance. She is deffinately a triple threat. But I do reccomend this movie...maybe not for you guys if you don't like fairy tales...but it is good and you should expand your horizons and see it. Well I need to finish getting ready almost time to leave for school.

-Chasmin-

I think I might have gone past my limit on drinking..
Well today was the wedding and it was so nice. Marlene made a beautiful bride, and Sean was really good looking as well he was a sweetheart. The minister dude was so crappy he got Seans name wrong and called him Steve which was pretty funny. The whole time I really only hung out with Nate until he left then I sorta stayed by myself. At around 9 I got sad cause I got off the phone with Ryan and he said that he will be gone one of the next to weekend for the whole weekend and I was like....meep. So that sadened me. I went off by myself after that and read old text messages from him. Well my mom found me and was like Chasmin come outside Marlene is about to throw the bouquet and I really didn't want to but soon my mum won the whole battle and got me outside. Well I stood with the other girls but I sorta was off to the side in the back thinking well I'm not really with everyone but it looks like I'm trying. Well Marlene throws the bouquet and it comes right at me and I catch it... that made me sortof happy though and I'm about to go inside when Marlene is like Chasmin where are you going and I'm like inside, and she's like nooo so and so has to put the garter on your leg. Well Id idn't know that was going to happen but it made me even happier and my spirits lightened it was fun. Afterwards Marlene was like god Chasmin first winning the penis ring toss now this. I just laughed then someone else said it and I'm like I'm gonna go hide now. Well soon after everyone started doing shots but I didn't participate then they found some Sangria for me and I drank a glass happily then there was this shot glass next to me and it was really tempting me so I kept eyeing it by then I had finished my glass of sangria and I asked my mom if I could try it and she said yah, well it tasted like lime and it was really good. I had another glass of Sangria, the I had another shot which tasted like cherry so I thought I was done after that casue I started getting woozy. Well I was sitting at the bar area when this guy BJ (who had been looking at me earlier) was like how old are you I was like 15 he was like damn 15 and your thick like that, he walked away. I told my mom about that and she had a talk with him that made me laugh. Then BJ and I were playing pool together and he was like you know I like you right and I think your cute adn I was like yah, he said how do you know I said cause I can tell. Then he said do you get that alot, and I shruged. I don't think I do cause I don't think I'm that cute but meh. Well anywhoozles this guy had a wife who was pregnant and he was saying this to me. That was really the whole party but since I caught the bouquet I'm going to be the next one getting married...but I don't think Ryan is going to ask me so who knows. Oh my mom said something interesting on the way home she was like "God doesn't judge cause if he did we'd all be in hell" *soemthing to think about Vonny* then she was saying how the bible is just an interpretation of what humans think is right or something like that, and that the disciples were all on drugs and thats why they were having visions and everything. Anyways everything that she was saying was making alot of sense and made me think. Well I'm tired and I have to work tomorrow so night all. HAPPY 10 MONTHS RYAN I LOVE YOU!!!@$#%!!!

-Chasmin-

I am waaaay dumb
God I am sooo friggin stupid. I have no idea what I was thinking, I could have been kidnapped...raped...something I don't know. God I'm an idiot. I bet right about now your wondering what the hell I'm talking about, so I will tell you. Alright I'm walking to Luna Rosa and this really nice black car goes by and I looked at who was driving and I thought it was the guy who worked at the resturant. Well the guy looked at me and like waved meaning like do you want a ride sorta thing. Well I'm like sure, if it's the guy from the resturant then he will just give me a ride since he's going there anyways. Well I get in the car and he locks the doors then I realize that it's not the guy from the resturant it's some weird guy, and I'm like...Do I know you? and he's like no but I'm a chauefuur (sp) and he's like I'll give you a ride if you want. I was like starting to wig out and he's like don't worry I won't hurt you or anything well he starts to drive and he's like where do you want to go? I was like you can just drop me off at this stop sign he was like ok are you sure what are you doing I was like just going to go eat. He was like do you want to come with my I'm doing the same. I was just like no thanks I have to go. I got out and I was like thanks. Well he left and I just kept on thinking omg omg omg. Well I ate had fun I start walking back home and these black kids on a bike kept on hassling me....god *Note to self: Be careful what you wear when walking on atlantic. Meh I'm just a lil' blah right now from that. That's all for today.

-Chasmin-

Ben & Jerry's half baked TWISTED!
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY RYAN!!!!! HOPE IT TURNS OUT LIKE YOU WANT IT TOO. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!


-Chasmin-

CHICK-FIL-A
Well well well, I have now learned that I cannot drive when someone is angry...at least for the moment. It get's me all nervous and then I can't really pay attention. They start snapping at me for doing things wrong and it turns into a big mess. I have a shit load of stuff to do tomorrow, one being Ryan's birfday (and yes I put birfday) and I have to go give him something after my music lessons after school. I have dance and music and a shit load and I have to stay after school in the first place. I have to learn my lines for Charlie Brown....cause I don't know them, and the show is in like 2 wks so I need to get crackin'. Meep I don't know if I want everyone reading this but I guess it's ok, I can make it where only my friends read it but meh. Ryan and I are or were I don't know if they are over well we were having some problems. It seemed that we couldn't talk anymore and we don't really know why. We have a good idea but meh I'm not going to tell you cause I know and he knows and thats good enough. Well last night we talked for awhile about it then everything went back to our normal odd convos about bannanas and kicking one anothers asses. Today in school we went back to our abusiveness selves and I'm wondering if it's only because of our talk last night and we are trying to make things better....or they are getting better. To me I think we were just trying to prove to ourselves that things were better to make us feel better. I love this kid with all my heart, I have shared alot of moments with him and I would do anything for him. If I ever lost him I don't even know what my life would be like, and I don't like to think about it. Meh anywhoozles you all probably really don't even care about what I'm writing anyways....shit now I'm starting to sound like Meg, ok forget that last comment on not caring. But yah I got some work to do I just wanted to put some shit in here. I really hope things get better between Ryan and I...

-Chasmin-

Glacier Mist
Alrighty people now the whole music thing on my journal there are a couple songs on it and to change the music you just press F5. Here's the list of songs (in no order)

1. Evanescence-my immortal
2. Oasis-wonderwall
3. Jet- Are you gonna be my girl
4. Train-Drops of jupiter
5. Maroon 5-this love
(I THINK that's it, I'm going to add more when I have the time, until then Enjoy!.)

*Also if you have any requests for songs just leave a comment and I'll see if I can find it for you.
-Chasmin-

Spoons!
MEEP!!! RYAN BE HAPPY!!!!! You will have family time, your birthday you will so yah. HAPPINESS!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

Pink
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!!

Yah woop-de-doo today is easter, I get easter baskets so it's cool. I had to wake up early this morning so I could be at work at 6....soooo friggin scary walking to work in the dark I was so like ...meep... The easter morning service thingie...I wanted to shoot myself throuought the whole thing the whole Jesus thing I'm not that big on so it's not quite my cup-o-tea. No offense to you people who belive more power to yah if you do I just don't. This lady came up to me and was asking if she could sit at one of the talbes if she was going to eat breakfast and I'm like no I'm sorry I'm not allowed to do that. She's like is Fran here? I'm like no he's not. and she's like oh where is he? I said he's at home asleep. She said in this tone that wasnt too nice Did a little birdy tell you that? I was like No he's my dad (that's the ONLY time I reffer to him as my dad, if I want to prove a point...which is sorta bad) Anywhoo after I said that she was like OOOOOOHHH How are you nice to meet you I work with him he's a great guy, yeah now she's all buddy buddy with me..stupid bitch. Well it was a really long day I worked 10 hrs with like a 20 min break to eat that was loads of fun. Well at least my pay check will be good. Oh these people Dennis and Joy Capano they are really rich and nice though they live over the resturant. Well Joy's sister was there with her husband and I went over to them they were sitting at the bar and Joy was like OMG you need to hear this girl sing she has an amazing voice. Well I wasl ike do you want me to sing for you? She was like are you sure and I'm like yah (I'm getting more comfortalbe singing infront of people) Well I sang for them and they were like wow your great and all that stuff. Well the last time I sang for Jow and Dennis, Dennis gave me $100 well guess what he did it again, so I'm going to have to give him a thank you card again. They really are sweet people. I don't know what to do about my Dr.Martins I want to buy them but then again I also want to buy the crow and will & Grace season 2 dvd...I don't want to spend all my money though...-le sigh- I don't know what to do. I'm really really tired I wanna sleep yet I also want to stay up and talk to Ryan...whenever he gets on which he might not so I might as well go to bed...meh. Oh in my easter basket this morning I got my own car keys you have no idea how excited about that I am it's like wow my very own personal car keys it made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Oh people who are reading this if you don't like the music press F5 and it will change it has Chingy, Puddle of Mudd, Maroon 5, and Jet. I know it's sorta pointless putting this all the way down at the bottom but meh who cares. I'm gonna go do something to distract me. Happy easter again.

-Chasmin-

Double ringer!!
Today was a good day, I hung out with Ryan and I actually saw a movie. We saw Scooby Doo 2 it was cute I liked it. Ryan got to see my drive today and he said he was impressed so that made me feel all weee inside. It was so god damn hot today it was like HUMIDITY ::can't breath::...Well today I had to go to a bridal shower for my friend Marlene who graduated last year from my school and it was really cool, I had alot of fun. We were outside opening presents and having fun. We finished that up and the lady who owned the house brought out a game for us, it was throw the ring on the penis (sorta like horseshoes). Well everyone had basically gone and no one got even one. My mom hands over the rings to me and was like give it a go so I'm like sure why not. Well I go to toss my first ring and WHAM! I got it on and everyone was like OMG!!##@%@ and laughing and haha, and I was sorta embarrased cause they are all thinking I'm the good kid yah know? Cause I'm so young and all. Well I go to toss the next ring and I miss, well I get another ringer and everyone was like DAAAAMMMNNNN she got it going on I was laughing and my mom was like hiding from me it was cool. Well all of a sudden the doorbell rang and were like huh? Even though I knew what was going on but I'm getting ahead of myself. So the owner of the house goes and answers the door and there's this cop there and he's like we have been having some complaints about noises and we need you to move your cars out front, and like the lady belived him and so did alot of other people. Well I took one look at him and I was like HAHAHAHHA but I kept my mouth shut, well he comes inside and asks to see the bride to be, and was asking all these questions. Well he said something and all of a sudden he turned on his music and started dancing then he was like "Officer hard cop needs to teach you a lesson." Well he brings Marlene to the chair and starts dancing and doing alll this carazy stuff. This black lady was there and she was psycho I mean she was jumping up and down..It looked like she hasn't gotten some in a loooooong time. Well he eventually danced with everyone in the room and there were two people left, me and this other lady. He goes to the other lady and starts messing with her, then he comes to me. And this lady Debbie (shes a friend I acutally know) She was like no you can't do anything to her she's 14 I look at her and I'm like I AM NOT 14, she just gave me this look like shut up. Well my mom said it was ok but he took it easy on my....and I was sorta dissapointed. Well he went down to a thong before he danced with everyone...He had a really nice ass. He was actually pretty good looking. Well that was the whole stripper situation. He was actually a nice guy afterwards we talked with him he was cool. I drank so much Sangria tonight I had to cool it cause I could feel a buzz coming on...I am such a drunk..not really but yah. I got a lil door prize thing for winning the ring toss, and it was these pretty smelling candles. They also had these penis straws....soooo cool I took one. So if you ever wanna see it tell me and I'll let you see it. I think Marlene might be too young to be getting married I dunno, but I'm happy for her. She deserves to be happy. Wow 15 and already I have seen a guy strip...::smiles thinking other happy thoughts:: I have seen alot in my years. Well that was my night and I really need to get to bed cause I have to wake up at 5 cause I have to be at work at 6....damn easter. But I get an easter basket...hopefully. Night all.

-Chasmin-

Skin Quenchers
Haha Fran was at Luna Rosa today and he was going to his office upstairs and he see's this person ahead of him going up and he said politely "Is there anything I can do for you miss?" No reply, the person just turned around and looked at him well he finally said "I'm just here to see my grandmother" It turned out it was Devin...Fran thought he was a girl which really really made me laugh cause he was embarrassed. Also he said he likes Ryan's attire more then Devin's so woot woot there. That's all I wanted to post.

Quality is our recipie
Boredness has consumed me and it's really really....boring. I'm watching Holes right now, probably one of the first movies that I actually saw with Ryan. Today is going to be a long day...I was supposed to hang out with Ryan but he couldn't get a ride over here, soooooo I'm going to spend the day at home. Sounds exciting no. I think Ryan and I are going to hang out tomorrow and do fun stuff. I get to work on Easter fun stuff... I have to be at work at 6 in the f..en morning because of the stupid people going to the morning service thing on the beach. I hate them all right about now. But I'll be ok. I'm gonna see if Ryan is doing anything on Easter and see if he wants to come over for our dinner thing that we have. Well that's all I think for now.

-Chasmin-