Life In Yasmania

:: 2004 19 May :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: exanimate

BOOM
I used to use that mood alot, it makes me sound smarter then I am. Exanimate...Yep.

Today...hmm...took my math test, I don't think I did too bad. Maybe a passing grade? Anything above a 54 will raise my grade drastically, so as long as I pass.

Still sick, not as drugged though, I learned my lesson though. No more then 1 every 4 hours. ::nods::

Half day today...yay. I needed that. It wasn't bad. Just a day. Then we had Orchestra though. It was poopy. Thanks to Wender and Chris for trying to make me deaf and feel like an idiot all at the same time.

You know what? I don't know. I had a train of thought, but completly lost it.

The crazy things need to stop. I think the world is going insane. You know when you fill a balloon too full, it gets too thin and eventually it just explodes? That's what my head feels like now.

I'm not gonna start explaining myself though, because once I start I don't shut up. I know you don't like to hear me whine...so whine no more will Patrice...haha..nice sentence there.

I think I'm gonna go read some nice Harry Potter and go to bed. So good-bye all.

sweetyas

:: 2004 19 May :: 12.33am

So i started to read invisible man, and omg the writer is like amazing. So im getting bored with the book but the writing style of the author is just amazing. the story is good too, i like it but there is a part about him going to church, which probably has a lot of symbolizim(i cant spell) adn i cant read into it so, tis my fault.

I finished Death of a Salesman, omg its really sad. I'd hate to be Happy, he tries so hard to please his parents, but they just ignore him. Stupid fucking parents pay attention to all your kids and if you cant then dont have more than one.

Schools ok, im gonna end up doing really bad in French, M. Guiard cant just boost my grade up, and so i hope i get an A but that means i have to study a ton fro the final and its on Friday. ARG.

Oh, ACT if any of you guys are taking it in June can you please tell me what high shcool your taking it in, cuz im going all the way to north chicago (soemthing like that half an hour away) and id like to go with someone, not by myself it would be sad. So tell me :)

Aight peace out amigas. And dont life stress you out too much, in the end everything will find a place, whether its what you want or what you dont want, things will get solved.

~~**~~YASAMIN~~**~~

:: 2004 18 May :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: blah

Nothing really interesting has happened this week.I'm sick again. Which is always a party. I took two bynadril(sp) things in gym today instead of one...woo hoo...talk about drowsiness. It just hit me at lunch and I died. Then pple threw brownies at my head O.o;;;....

So school. It's stressful. Too much blahdy blah. I hate. And being sick on top of that with a fun mix of everyone's drama.

My sister's a bitch. I wish we had another play going on. That's the only way I get out of the house. I happen to be there when people make plans. other then that, it's not worth it to go out of pple's way to Libertyville. So here I am stuck for the rest of the summer.

I just love how people get mad at me for not calling them and inviting them places when they don't even call me. ::shrugs:: Kinda funny, eh?

I hate hate hate hate hate HATE my siblings. I can't live here anymore.

:'(

Yes...Patrice is sad. This week sucks. Sickness and family and homework and band and orchestra.

I'm quitting orchestra, I don't even need to be there.

You know what? I quit. I just quit. People suck and I'm just..me.

Good bye
-Patrice

:: 2004 16 May :: 12.18am
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Love Is A Battlefield(Lol)

::giggle:: ::giggle::
So tonight was awesome. Ha to all of you prom goers. :-P hehe. No but really, it wasn't as bad as I thought. It was fun.

I went on a date with the Sandy. I know, you're all jealous. Yeah...we saw 13 Going On 30. It actually wasn't bad. I liked it alot. It ended the stereotypical romantic hollywood ending, but it wasn't as unrealistic as some of the movies we have. ::cough:: prince and me ::cough::

Gollum was in it! Well, Andy Serkis. His eyes are really really blue. Hehe. It was funny, because he would be acting all bossish or dancing to Thriller, then I would get a LoTR flashback and its Gollum doing the moonwalk. Tehehe.

So then we went to Diary Queen and ate some chocolate...because sandy wasn't hyper enough. Hehe.

So I hope you all had fun at prom and all that after party stuff.

Doom di doom. I might be a bit tired. So I think I might go to bed. Because I can. Haha...okay then.

Goodnight!
-Patrice

:: 2004 14 May :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Iris

You know when you make yourself belive that something is going to be so insanely sucky, that when it comes it is? I mean, there's no way around it? It's stupid. Don't do it to yourself.

This weekend is gonna suck though. No way around it. I just want to run away. This is all just way too much stress type stuff. I need to get out of here, but that's not going to happen.

I need to talk to someone, but I don't know. The people that I normally talk to, I can't. I just can't. And no one else really cares. So what do I do? Just keep on getting more angry. it works. I don't care.

sweetyas

:: 2004 13 May :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Summer Books
So you know how there are books called American Classics, and we dont cover a lot of them in school right, so i thought i should make a reading list and so i went online and researched and did all that fun stuff, i mean it took me a couple of days to make a list of 15 books to read over the sum.....HAHAHA, you guys actually believed that, come on its me YASAMIN so i went to barnes and bought death of a salesman, so i was looking at the bag and i was like wow, i read one..two..three of those books, i was amazed. So i decided to make a list of all the books on that bag adn read them by the end of the summer.

And the list is (some have authors and some dont):

-Invisible Man by Ellison
-The Maltese Falcon by Dashell Hammett
-This side of Paradise by Fitzgerald
-Mrs Bridge
-The Grapes of Wrath by Steinbeck ( you guys should also read Of Mice and Men and then read the part of the poem he got the name from, i really like that book)
-The Old Man and the Sea by Hemmingway
-The Sound fo the Fury by Faulkner
-A Tree Grows in Brooklyn
-Gone with the Wind
-To Kill a Mocking bird by harper Lee
-Catch 22 by Joseph Heller
-The Bell Jar by Plath
-Go Tell it on a Mountain

You guys should read these books with me, i have an invisible man, im excited. Ill do a whole this book is good or horrible thing. Im gonna have fun with this :)

~Yasamin~

:: 2004 13 May :: 7.09pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Into The West

Today..not yesterday..pooo
Today was no yesterday. Which sucks.

I'm a selfish bitch, just so you all know. And I'm sorry for it.

The assembly today was sad. Everyone I talked to said they wanted to cry, but no one else was. Stupid drunk drivers. Drinking is so stupid. Beyond stupid.

I had this weird dream the other night.

Jill and I were working on something for a play in this old victorian house. We were in teh attic with a few other people from crew and I was typing something on the computer that had to get done. Then someone(no names mentioned...someone I hate though..) Came up behind me and hugged me...I stood up but didn't pull away.

I knew that I hated him...but I couldn't remember why. And I just kept trying to remember why, because I didn't want to be mean and pull away from this guy when I don't know why I feel so mean towards him. All I wanted to do was get back to work.

Then I look out the window and see a deer on the roof on the house next to us. But the guy wouldn't let me go, and I wanted to run to the window and look at it. How often do you see a deer on a roof? So I tried to pull away and he told me it was stupid and that the deer was nothing. Then the deer ran away and he let me go and I cried while I tried to get back to work.

So knowing that I'm me, I have overanalyzed it for all that it's worth. It makes sense. If you want to know, ask me. I might write about it later while I'm trying to avoid my theatre tech paper.

Tomorrow's friday. Fun. :-P Someone kill me, Please? :-(

-patrice

goose

:: 2004 12 May :: 11.50pm

i didnt go to school today i slept really late, til 3 or 4 ish yeah thats late...im sick again! its so annoying, ive been sick 3 weeks in a row and all 3 different things! it really sucks, i should just die. i think it might have to do with that whole if your sad your more likely to get sick thing. cuz im usually really happy all the time and lately i havent been and yeah ive been getting sick and its crappy and sicky and i wanna die. blah blah blah. but its weird cuz today i went to school first an all and i was ther prolly 3 minutes and i called my mom and went home. i just couldnt take it, i couldnt stop coughing and it was getting gross and i really didnt want to be in class coughing up...things...all day it was really gross, i really didnt wanna just sit there and throw up in my hands but i almost did a couple times, so i went home and slept and im still tired and i wanna go to bed and i dont even feel much better! ahhh its crappy! poop.

yeah so yeah...im almost ready for this dance thing on saturday...i just need to figure a few more things out including my hair style...if anyone finds any pictures or anything good show me! ok? cuz i need help. its so hard for me to tell whats going to look good on me and what isnt. pleh. yeah...

hmm...i need to pay my parents so much money.. first 20 from my phone bill and other stuff now after tonight i owe my mom another 28 dollars! gah its so crappy. and then shes buggin my about getting and job and such and gah! its so frustrating! i know no one is going to hire me...no one hired my this summer whats different now? noting except my age. hmm...gah die die die

Toki

:: 2004 12 May :: 9.24pm

BTW....As most of you know...I'm really not this weepy/dramatic. That's what this journal is for...to rid myself of all the weepiness...so as true as everything I write here is...I'm not gonna just be like this all the time...if that makes sense...okies..well bye..
-patrice

Toki

:: 2004 12 May :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: Reflection

Wow...You know when you read something so amazingly great and it's just...wow. I don't know. Just wow.

Call me a loser, because I am. But it was a fanfiction...Harry Potter to be exact...but wow. I wish I had the ability to write like that.

To top it off, the end of it...the last chapter...was written right after the author's best friend died in a car crash. The day after the funeral. Just wow.

If anything happened to any of you, I don't know what i'd do with myself.

All of you...not just the ones that you think I'm thinking about.

I may seem dependant, but I guess we all are in a way.

You guys mean the world to me.

I love you all so much, more then I could ever say.

You've made my happy days happy and made my life so much better. I don't know where I'd be without all you.

Don't ever leave me, ok? I'll miss you too much.

-patrice

Toki

:: 2004 11 May :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: Tired

My teeth hurt. Really insanely bad. It feels like they're about to be ripped out of my head. I HATE BRACES!!! >.<

Hmm.. In other news...I haven't written in here for a long time. I don't like that.

So this year I've had the longest birthday ever. Well, with my family. It finally ended yesterday with a card my mom forgot to give me. I don't know, it's kinda cool. Birthdays should be 4 days long all the time. It should be a law.

I need a tutor for algebra...any volunteers?? :-( The idiot needs a tutor...yep. Ms. Stone called me down today to tell me that I'm an idiot and need extra help and maybe shouldn't take trig next year.

I really don't like the sisters. They're jerks. They're saying how I looked really "crappy" at turnabout and how I looked like I just woke up and stuck my head in a microwave. Thanks guys. I love you too.

La ti da.

Did you know Gabbie wears thongs? O.O A little too much info for us all, but she kinda just shouted it out to the world. thought I should corrupt others.

Anyone have a gun??? oh...wait...never the mind. The sisters and the friend left...phew I am safe.

What is wrong with the world these days? Have morals just gone out the window?

I feel like an old lady, lol.

-Patrice

sweetyas

:: 2004 10 May :: 6.30pm
:: Music: B96

pARENTS
so yea my dad took away my car, and im really pissed off. I really do hate my dad, im not kidding, hes such a jackass. Two weeks ago he left the house, hed come home eat and then leave, i like for 3 out of 7 days i didnt see him at all. Then he decides to come back, ok whatever, but when he comes back he doesnt have the fucking right to just spend it yelling at us and making us clean the house. And then the next week he takes away my car. Thanks dad. When my dad left i guess i was the one everything went to in a way. My mom would talk to my grandma (my mom and dad got in a fight and he left the house) and then my grandma woudl talk to me. My brothers didnt talk about it, i think Taha and Yasser said soemthing to me about it ONCE and that was all. i really do hate my dad, hes such a jackass, id hate to have to marry a guy like that, i would just explode. Hes so fucking sexist, im not kidding. The world has to fucking revolve aroudn him too, hes gonna take some test to be an official pharmacist (one test) and he complains about it and my grandma has this theory that hes extremely bitchy because of that well no. Are you kidding me? i took the ACT (that test determines ur fucking future) PSAE, had an AP test, and tests in school to keep my grades up, omg. Ok thats all i have to say about my dad.

~*~Yasamin~*~

:: 2004 9 May :: 5.35pm

So...I'm bored. And I decide to go to the libertyville band site. And grrrr...they have the pictures from theirs tupid bahama cruise that we were supposed to go on. :'(

It made me sad. And they played pirates and chicago there..those poo heads. I just want to say that we were ten times better.

It's not fair. It's really not. I want to leave this stupid place with people who aren't my family. Theatre fest was so mcuh fun for that reason. And blah.

I hate trumpets. -.-