sugarmouse0587
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2004 22 March :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: way fine
gosh....my name is so pretty. and I'm pretty great too, for a spastic girl.
and things are going to be great. i'm going to stop being so mean and grumpy all the time. really. as long as i get out of english and algebra tomorrow as promised. if that doesn't happen i can't be responsible for my actions.
i haven't even gotten in trouble for the mailbox thing. i'm such a little scamp. hoo hoo.
and hey, seriously, what kind of dog attacks tires?
a really freaking awesome one, that's what.
and how does one go about training a dog to do that? or is it that thing that animals have...inborn senses or whatever.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 21 March :: 4.23pm
"She grasped her throat holding in the air realizing that this would be the last day she breathed.."
I find it more than strange how big of an influence people can have on another single person. They can do anything from making your life hell to making you feel like you have the greatest uphold of self confidence that you ever thought could have existed. People need people to survive. It's as simple as that. Even though solitary confienment doesn't sound too bad at the moment to some people including myself. Although I will never understand the never ending "food chain" type effect on people. You go to school essentially to learn, but then as you get older its more than that learning becomes a bore and ofcourse people will make things for their own fun and pleasure like groups and then all your steriotypes. It's obviously bound to happen. Then you graduate and think your done with the shit you have to go through such as pretending to be who you arent, going anorexic just to fit in, not liking people because your friends don't, etc. But then you go to college and it only more of ass kissing and working your ass off. You graduate from college then if you get a normal job you do more asskissing for the rest of your life just so you can support your family. I don't want to live like that. Millions of people don't want to live like that, but they do. But this is where it stops for me. I am going to make it my lifes goal to be employed by myself. Whether it's anything from writing, painting,drawing,interior designing, fashion design or just anything that I can do that will make money for myself and only for myself. I don't want to repeat the mistakes most parents make. Having a family before they even know if they can support them or not and that I think is selfish. Don't have kids unless you know you can provide them with a good life. Suicide is one of the leading causes for death. And I'm guessing some of the reason is family life and how much it sucks these days. Don't be an asshole parent who tries to be more civilized about how to punish and only punish than trying to actually understand. People drive me crazy.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 20 March :: 11.07pm
I'm here with two difficult decisions. One will lead to my official unhappiness and freedom and the other....something else.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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rachelle
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2004 20 March :: 6.47pm
this week was long and painful....and it got me into about 6 more long and painful weeks.
wooo! jv soccer, here i come!
my sister and i had a bsb reunion today.
we listned to every song the backstreet boys ever recorded. wow. bsb for always!
random Q & A:
Question: What would you wear if you were standing in front of a fire squad ready to assume your execution?
Answer: A bullet proof vest.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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graffiti
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2004 20 March :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: mopey
:: Music: Hoobastank : The Reason
There. Hopefully this'll stick for a while.
I definitely need to downgrade all the complicatedness to something much simpler.
My life is the first priority.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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Tbaby92588
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2004 20 March :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: Pavement Cracks [Annie Lennox]
I'm in love. Love...
..It seemed like it was going to rain for a while.
I'm being litteral, too. Did you see the skies?
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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Rob
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2004 19 March :: 9.01pm
:: Music: FaT BOY
FaT BoY
As usual I solved a problem with Carbohydrates, time for action. Am I strong enough?
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 19 March :: 1.28pm
ha ha ha ha ha
i'm so not at school right now. it's awesome to the max.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 18 March :: 10.19pm
Spell your first name back wards: nehoC htuR haraS
Nicknames?: Beans, Sarar, Sera
The story behind your msn/yahoo name: It's lame and I'd change it, but that would mean I'd have to transfer my buddy list
Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: nuh.lame.messy.
4 words that sum you up: aloof, quiet, pensive, fickle
Wallet: it's blue and bulky and canvas and it has a magnetic snap and it's hard to get things in and out of my stepmom got it for me for christmas a long time ago and it has a matching wallet-like purse, and it's from american eagel
Hairbrush: i ended up getting three for christmas, so i have like eight brushes, but the one i like was 99 cents and it's made out of wood
Jewellery you wear daily: i was wearing some earrings then i was wearing a necklace, but i get tired of jewlery
Pillow cover: one is pink and one has flowers, we found it in the dead man's shack
Coffee cup: i like the deformed one
Shoes: i like the blue ones that diana gave me even though they hurt my feet and don't keep them dry either
CD in stereo right now: ben folds, lifehouse, and the second vonda shepard soundtrack
What you are wearing now: scrubs, hilltop sweatshirt
In my mouth: bad smells
In my head: vrrrrrrooooooommmmmm
Eating: i had two boxes of wendy's chicken nugets...yesssssss
Some of your favorite movies: i don't know...there are a lot that i really liked, like...the elf, school of rock, big fish, starsky and hutch, fried green tomatos, molin rouge, happy campers, the emporers new groove,
Something you're looking forward to: not going to school tomorrow and spring and working and aspen and school being over, and fifth hour and graduating and europe and my new house and my dad's new house and getting a good grade on my assesments and being done with the scarlet letter, and the fifth book in the georgia diaries and the sixth harry potter, and not feeling so crappy
The last thing you ate?: lemon ice
Something that you are deathly afraid of?: getting in a car accident...or probably any accident, but mostly the car type
Do you like candles: not really.
Do you believe in a thing called love: not
Do you believe in love at first sight: no
Do you believe in forgiveness: most of the time, but usually i forgive and have resentment
If you could have any animal for a pet: an invisible one that doesn't need my attention or food or to go outside or make noise or smells
What are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to?: colorado, not cedar springs, paris
What's something you wish you could understand better?: the bible and the history of the world
Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?: no, seeing band campers once a year is probably enough for me, even though i like them and i saw sam last sunday so it hasn't been that long
In the last 24 hours, have you:
Cried: nope. i'm on a roll
Gotten sick: sort of
Sang: why, yes, i'm singing right now
Eaten: and how!
Felt stupid: i know i did something really really dumb, i just can't remember what it was
Hugged someone: yes, it made me feel sick inside
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: actually i wanted to tell a few people to get the hell away from me
Met someone new: yes, her name is tearny and she's from iowa and she's in eight grade and she's really cute
Talked to an ex: yes
Fought with your parents: no
Are you center of attention or the wallflower: super wallflower
What type of automobile do you drive: a dirty one
Would you rather be with friends or on a date: my friends
Do you attend church: yes, it's comforting if you don't really listen to what's being said, just let people be nice to you
Do you like being around people: not this week
Who have you known the longest: my mom, probably
Who do you argue the most with: dani and a-ron, and sometimes troy
Who do you always get along with: everyone else, i'm a lover not a fighter
Who has the coolest siblings: jessica benzer
Who is the smartest: spud, jess b or jess w
Who is your Hero: calvin coolidge and henry clay
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 18 March :: 6.42pm
There are many things in life that scare me, I'm afraid to be afraid. What if I'm not as smart as I thought I was? How to things such as objects, people, or places have such a strong effect on my mind and emotions? I know I will die never understanding life in it self or even in a nuttshell and I think no one ever will. But why do I put myself in that position to be the one to figure out life? It will always be an on going mission to me. I think I know what I want out of life and what I want to do. I want to become a writer. I want people to get excited everytime they hear a new book by "Amy" is coming out soon. I want people to read my words...every single word that was once a thought in my head and to make my words and my thoughts become apart of them, become a part of the reader. I want to feel like I can live my life loving what I do.
I'm tired of writing entries complaining about things. I think I've made it pretty clear my living situations are hell and that all these things in my head are hell. I want this woohu to be different, different from all the rest. I dont want it to be about my day. I dont want it to be about how i feel. I want it to be about the things I think about that have no relation to anything else in my life. And that I shall do. Starting really soon, like possibly tomorrow.
Until then.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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Rob
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2004 18 March :: 6.16pm
:: Mood: Meh
:: Music: The Who
Prozac?
Maybe I'm just going through something weird. I'm working on faults the big one is my negative attitude that I fear is bringing down my friend's moral. Lately my social attitude is at a serious low, all I ever feel like doing is sleeping and lying in bed, not in so much of depressed way, more like an alone time thing.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 17 March :: 7.11pm
It doesn't even give me a good feeling anymore.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 16 March :: 8.56pm
:: Music: ben folds
so you want the freedom, but you know leaving the security is going to hurt really bad
but you also know that emotional rampages aren't normal and there's and oppressive akwardness that you can't get away from
and it's the little things...and that your whole relationship has been in the precarious situation for a long time because there isn't a firm foundation.
and you don't want to try because you're too tired of the problems.
but it's so scary.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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graffiti
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2004 16 March :: 6.36pm
:: Mood: confused
Screw that, life's never easy, so get the fuck over it.
Right?
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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graffiti
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2004 16 March :: 6.09pm
:: Mood: shocked, overwhelmed, disappointed
:: Music: Def Leppard || Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad
Damned if I don't, damned if I do..
Why do I have to be how I am?
I'm drifting back...
I guess I'm not as strong as I thought.
"It's a game I just can't win.."
..I'm sorry.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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