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2005 19 April :: 4.15pm
on my phone i had two really shiny stickers but then they got all scratchy and ugly so now they are just shiny instead of feet and palm trees...
i drew noodle boy on the back and i think ama go find squee or gir to put on the front...
yay for me
am still asking, but just asking.
i still dont understand why i cant let go, but i cant.
and throw your dog a peanut...can she crack the shell and eat only the nut like my dog can?!?! huh can she?!?
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2005 19 April :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: hot
Holy hell. Literally
I finally found my cute black sweater, and was so excited that I threw it on today over a sleeveless shirt. Bad idea, its like 100 degrees out and I'm dying.
Hm. I am disliking chemistry more and more with every passing day...
Good news. One Piece is going to be on Cartoon Network! Whoo!
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2005 19 April :: 12.26am
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: Moulin Rouge
Pencil Lead
I'm here. It's been awhile. But I'm here. I don't even think anyone reads this anymore. But I'm here nonetheless.
I think I'm emotionless. Why is it that I don't feel sad or angry or happy or content? I don't feel anything. I don't like it. I want to be either happy or sad. I'm not even content. I'm just...here....I hate being in lingo but yet I'm here.
I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I'm just kinda exisiting. And the thing is...I've been feeling this way for over a month now. It's not like I suddenly woke up one morning and decided that I'm gonna be emotionless. I don't know what I want. I don't even know what I'm looking for...I'm just kinda....here.
Is there something wrong with me? ::Sigh:: I don't want to sound pessimisstic because the only thing I ever say in this journal is about how pissed I am at life and shit. I just....I don't know! I'm frustrated because I'm discontent with life. I've lost all motivation to care....I feel no emotion...or am I the exact opposite? Am I too emotional that I can't even decipher what emotion it is that I'm feeling? They should have a drink that relieves stress...like something I can grab at Caribou. You know, rather than a cup of coffee to get my source of caffeine...I could grab a cup of coffee with some kind of stress reliever so I can feel refreshed.
I feel kinda dirty....but it's only been about an hour and half since I took my shower.
I don't know....I'm just rambling now.
I'd better get back to work.
Always, Sandy
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2005 17 April :: 12.48am
matt smiths birthday was fun...fire and beading and fighting and lacrosse and brownies and all sorts of fun stuff....
okie so it wasnt that fun, in fact, it could have been a lot better...look im even trying to be optimisitc and it fails too...
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2005 17 April :: 12.34am
its funny how, when there's one little crappy thing in your life, your random button reminds you of all the crappiest things that you have to deal with everyday anyway.
i'm afraid of being alone. i really am. just alone. not boyfriend alone necessarily, although it sort of plays a part. not having a best friend, not having even a really good friend. i think everyone's afraid of being alone. add that to the fear of falling and the fear of the unknown.
i think its normal. do bugs feel safer when the shoe is above them if they have a colony with them? do they convince themselves that it's not going to be them that dies, but the one beside them? or do they just wonder how it will feel?
if one believes in god, does god regret the moment he makes someone die? does he shake his head at the stupidity that leads him to taking that person's life? does he cry when he watches someone in pain? how would it be to have god as your best friend? would it be wrong to only idol and not put god as a god in your mind? i dont even know if i believe in god but how would it feel to know your best friend could take care of all your problems, but would rather you solve them on your own? to acknowledge taht you are stuck and have to accept what you ahve and use that to climb out of your hole, and just have him pat you on the back, and notice a tear fall on your pants and realise you arent the one crying.
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2005 15 April :: 10.57pm
so im here cuz everyones at the band thing yay...
have you ever missed someone as soon as they got out of the car? its weird......only ever happened with neil before....but it happened again tonight.....for the first time in forever...
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2005 15 April :: 10.45am
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: odd ringing
stupid library
So I decided. It’s for sure. Am asking him! Yay for me!
Long idea plan but I’ll probably show you once I get it…:-D
Am excited and he looks so damn good in red. I love when lacrosse boys dress up! :-D
And I found out something yesterday that am not allowed to tell but it was one of those things that I figured and just got it confirmed.
Um…the library sucks. Apparently, you aren’t allowed to be on email. So all my dawdling on email and journals has now ended and am going to post this so quickly so that they will not yell at me.
It was funny the lady couldn’t think of a reason when I asked her why so I asked if it was one of those rules that no one really knows why and she told me about the tech people and viruses…::sigh::
Okie so today is short…
My drawing in art is coming along well am actually liking it a lot now but I cant think of an idea for my story for creative writing and its angering to listen to him talk about how we should have characters already. I don’t have conflicts cuz am so afraid of it being cliché. I was thinking about doing the God thing…being god and regretting making humans and there really being no resolve, but I feel like the conflict is taken and the situation is going to be cliché and I wont be able to pull it off.
::shrugs:: I still need a prom dress, although, I guess I still need a date too…working on that…
:)
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2005 14 April :: 9.11am
Woke up feeling dizzy and having trouble breathing, so I stayed home.
No idea what caused it, though I'm betting on stress. Schools been driving me to insanity lately, its all chemistry and latins fault. Next year I have no science and no language, its going to be so nice.
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2005 13 April :: 10.12pm
A quiz!
You Are Cinderella!
 Dignified and hard working. With a gentle and soft-spoken manner you have something many people don't. Patience. Even through the moments of heartbreak you're still able to hold onto all of your hopes and dreams. Bide your time; you're dream will come true. Which Disney Princess Are You?
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2005 13 April :: 1.24pm
Not talking is alot harder than previously presumed.
Especially when faced with the fact that Stunkel is participating in the Day of Silence too. After first period, when we spend the passing period together, I wrote him a note saying "Well, DoS kind of defeated the purpose of us standing here..." and he wrote one back saying "Thats alright. I just like spending time with you, whether we can talk or not"
Such a sweetie n.n
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2005 13 April :: 8.54am
Being Silent is hard
Last night was so nice, not having anyhere to be or anything to do. Yeah it was nice, i scrapbooked, fixed my mp3 player, took a bath, and ate crappy food that was good woo! I dont know what to say right now so ill leave it at nothing...im bored. I cant come up with conflicts for creative writing so it sucks!
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2005 12 April :: 10.31pm
:: Music: Travis-
Nothing new here...
Frou Frou-"Let Go" from Garden State
Drink up baby doll
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like
So, let go,let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can't await
your own arrival
you've twenty seconds to comply.
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2005 12 April :: 1.13pm
:: Mood: sleepy
I am boring
So I'm at school, and it seems that outside of livejournal, this is the only blog left for me to update.
I'm glad Jorie sent me an invitation code.
What am I to talk about? How outstandingly wonderful my day has been so far? Because it hasn't. Overall its been a very mediocre day. I could use a nap.
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2005 11 April :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: busy
Testing out style
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2005 11 April :: 10.59pm
note to visitors: if you can, visit the friends only area :)
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