in a minute , everything you have can come straight undone , in a minute , things you thought were tied can come straight undone, how bout some knocks on wood, some so far it's so good, anyday, what y
yeah, I had a good time last night. I went to the mongolian barbecue, and then to guitar center, and then to robby's house, played awhile, and then back to mine.

I got to really meet susie finally. She's a nice girl. Ummmmm, I found out that if you jump on the hood of a car, you should watch out for the hood ornament, so it doesn't rip your back apart.

I get to go to Pensylvania, and sit in the moutains. Coolest thing ever. My grandma lives on the rolling hillside by the appalachians, and I'm going up there and I'm gonna sit, think , and enjoy.

Then I get to go to maryland for another week, and just have fun with my uncle, which is cool.

yep , I'm out of emotions. If I had to find more, it would be in my resovoir, and I don't need to go in there, that's for special occasions.

I might get to go to the beach today. That would be nice. I want sun. not artificial lighting. ofcourse, I could just go outside. But, hey, it's not the beach.

I saw it coming, and I knew that I couldn't keep her, but I tried, and it didn't work out. and I feel like shit.
I saw it coming. i get mad too easy, she never sees me, she likes another guy. I'm jealous. Why can't I keep a good relationship. I always do something stupid. YOU CAN TELL ME WHATEVER YOU WANT, I KNOW IT'S ME. Oh well, I'm back to square one. I'm sure this guys cooler than me, and will treat her better, cuz I can't do it. I'm not sure what to feel. I'm happy for her though, she's following what she feels, and it's exactly what I would have done. But still. eh, I can't whine. It was the best 3 months of my life, and I just wish I could do something , but I can't. I think we could be good friends.

Oh well, no bitterness. But
*busts into song* It's alright, my heart isn't broken, It's alright, I'm feeling no pain, It's alright, I'm not going crazy , It's alright, It's no big thing.
Woo, needed to get that out of my system.

oh eyah, and

I can see it now, have to show you how
the funny thing is that we couldn't have it any other way
still it kills me when we say
though all we've been through,
all the songs that I've sung for you
we both know I'm gonna lose you
I hate to be alone
there comes a time to reap what you've sewn
though all we've been through,
all the songs that I've sung for you
we both know I'm gonna lose you

Let's think of all the good times
instead of wish we could times
so much better that way
this is what I ask for, this is what I deserve
be careful what you ask for

Let's think of all the good times
instead of wish we could times
so much better that way
this is what I ask for, this is what I deserve
be careful what you ask for

that's a cool song. Hey, anyways, overall I had a half decent day. and I wish people would just tell me, IF you ever happen to date me in the future, please tell me these things before. I just wish I could do something but, I can't, AND LIFE GOES ON. I can't go back to this, TARYN WHO??!!

heheheheh
I had a cool day, no arguing. Except that schaffers decides that yesterday she was going to make everyone do a persuasive essay, and I do it, but I didn't catch when we turn it in. So I go up at the end of the hour, and I give it to her, and she says, It's late, And I'm walking away, and I say, "You fucking bitch, you could be so cool but you fuck everyones grade up, and you enjoy it too."

grrrrrr, I was home free, but no, she has to give me one more 0. fuck her, that whorish bitch. I need a hug. later.

oh yeah
I'm in pure bliss. I'm drinking a moutain dew slushie, and eating peach rings. oh yeah. ghhhhhhhhhhhh,

yeah, this is cool. Life is cool. But for some reason people are starting to hate eachother for some reason. I had to see about 3 fights today, or something that could be afight. Like Eric Wood, and Brice VanderWood. But the most amazing to me is Dan Snyder and Micah. IT'S ABOUT DAMN TIME!!! Micah such a little bitch. I think he would collapse if everyone told him that they hated him like they do. Sucks to be him. Oh well, Life is great. Things are getting way better with taryn. yay for that one. I'm tired. GOOD NIGHT.

It\'s The End
It\'s the end of my freshmen year, and man, I will remember this year.
So, lay back and relax, cuz I\'m about to tell the tale of my freshmen year.

The Kuppett Chronicles(nifty huh, came up with it myself)
Part I : Freshmen Year.
Mor useless banter to take up space and keep you reading, wantin to hear the story

ok

I think your either think you wanna kill me just because you want to get to the story, or you think I\'m gay cuz I\'m trying to be funny. whatever.

Anyways, as if it hasn\'t been done enough, I\'m going to divide it into the different stages.

Stage I - The begining

Yes , it was hard, I had to find my grounp, which took a whole day, but to this day I don\'t think I really have a group. I have friends in many groups. In the beggining I had to start with a whole bunch of friends, and filter them out to the true ones.

Stage 2 - Ghetto Kevin

This was the stage where I hung out with the ghetto crowd. Being 2 people, Micah Carter , who\'s ego I will say is bigger is himself, and Dan Snyder. Now, if anyone remembers me from this time, I was getting an ego, but luckily that only lasted about a month, and ended when Roman and Micah decided that they didn\'t like him, and I took the side of Roman, which is good.

Stage 3 - Tanya
Woo, long story. cut short, I had a thing for her that whole summer, she had a thing for me, but she seemed to not want to admit it. She cheated on me, I cheated on her. She dumped me, I dumped and Cheated on her. yeah, it was one big mess. Then we hated eachother, really really bad. This marked the start of my next stage.

Stage 4 - Perverted Kevin

This has to be the worst stage . I am seriously sorry if you got involved, and got in my way, Cuz there was no stopping. I\'m very very very very very sorry to anyone I offended during this stage, I wasn\'t thinking and I\'m sorry. VERY sorry, but this led to good things.

Stage 5 - Kevin get\'s hated by everyone

Yes , then there was a stage where no matter what I did, I was humiliated, or just hated. I tried so hard to keep friendships, but it seemed I couldn\'t because of the perverted stage. that had to be the worst time of my life. I only had one or two true friends, and even they didn\'t seem to care.

Stage 6 - Taryn

This was a big booster. I needed her at that time so bad. how it happened , I don\'t know. Dani gave me a list of people to put on aim, and of 50 some people, Taryn was the only one on, and I talked to her. I started talking to her, more and more. It just seemed coincidental that whenever I was on, she was. then, one night, I just sat, and was thinking, fell asleep , and woke up, and I realized I wanted to talk to her. and then, I was talking to her, and somehow we got onto the subject of music. and She says, I really like this song Amber, by 311,. and Then I knew it was destiny. Not really, but it did have to do with that song. She liked it, and I was like, niiiiccee. This went along for about 2 weeks, and then she makes some unsent letter, and tells me to read it. Yeah, I couldn\'t hold it in anymore, and I just told her. That was so great, because I wasn\'t getting rejected, and it was someone I felt actual love for, not just me wanting to have a girlfriend becuase everyone else did. I still don\'t know to this day what really made her fall for me, but whatever, I\'m not going to complain. Yes, and it was great, cuz I could be myself, and not some phogy person, which you know I hate doing. yeah. that was cool.

Stage 7 - End of the year

By now I have filtered friends out like no ones business. I still don\'t have a group, but I have friends that like me for me, they may harass me, but I know it\'s all in good fun. I have a wonderful girlfriend who I think i will last a long long long long long time with, and a new band, woo, rock on. I have friends, and I don\'t have to worry anymore about stupid things. It\'s great. and this is the end of my story, I\'m gonna miss the seniors, Stephanie, Sean, Randy, and all you others. but life goes on, and I wish the best to you in life.

Now for the things of the year:

Song: 311 - Come Origional
Movie:Ice Age , damn right
band:who do you think?
moment:When El Farto came out and announced us for the talent show, and no one had an effing clue what he was saying, even though he was talking in english, not just spanish.
Teacher:Mod
Least Favorite Teacher:SCHAFFER!!!!

ah
there's some really funky kid sleeping on my couch. He keeps figiting and I think he's looking at me, eh.

Oh well, I'm going golfing here in aobut 5 minutes, which is cool. then I have a barbecue at my house, with all the barbecued ribs you can eat.

good day indeed
I had a really good day today. I went golfing. I don't think I spend enough time with my dad. He seems to really be getting into music, in attempt to have something in common with me. It's cool. It's funny too, cuz he keeps telling me that my band should play Rod Stewart songs. He says I have the voice for it, and I keep going, Eh. I'm on a natural high right now, I;m relaxed, I'm getting my tan back, and I am just feeling over all good, but I feel ugly again, and I don't want to look myself in the mirror. I don't know why, but maybe I make myself ugly. Oh well, I'm just gonna keep living,later.

A nice tender beating in the ass is in order I think
I really don't know. I try, but it doesn't seem to get through.

Imagine how you'd feel if you tried to kiss your loved one, and he/she turned his/her head. That's right, LIKE A COMPLETE ASS. not only that, but you feel like your gross, and your not worthy. All these things in one package deal.

I can get hurt too, and when someone does that to you it hurts so bad, you don't know whether or not you want to live. It burns, it really does.

I, I don't... hmmmm.... I want to be with her, more than anything, I love her to death. but when she acts like this and does shit like this to me, it just makes me not want to be with her. If you feel what I'm saying, leave me a comment. Or hell, if you love me, leave me a comment.

lyrics
Picked up on the wrong scent
not gonna make a dent
how many times
are you in my rhymes
burn me once shame on thee
but burn me again, shame on me
I'm chasing and facing the point misplacing
when I think of you my mind's racing
I'm spacing out when I get to the point
of no return, I get burned
I told myself I'm through with you
the last thing that I'll ever do
let down my guard shoudln't be too hard
I know it's over, got to elevate, disregard

I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but

This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldnt happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wasn't going to let you back in
but here I am dialing, trying

I told myself to get a hold myself
I won't freak out, let you tweak out
on ecstacy not next to me
somethin tells me baby girl that you're testin me
I told myself to get a hold myself
and I'm tryin' I'm not lyin'
don't make me mad, you know I love you bad
I want to sniff the glue that hold me to you
I told myself to get a hold myself
but don't rush me can't you trust me
the sound I hear whenever you are near
I know it's never wrong and it's my favorite song

I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but

This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldnt happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wasn't going to let you back in
but here I am dialing, trying

And now it's all turned bad
turned bad, turned bad
your ploy to make me jealous
is obvious and sad
it has the opposite effect
now you're left with what you had
you had

The rain comes down as love turns to dust
I was joking she took me serious
the rain comed down as love turns to dust
I was joking she took me serious
yes, serious

This was the last time that I was ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
but here I am dialing, trying

lyrics
Long time did I run down like that
I would have three years ago today
but not now, it's not like that

It's all right to feel good
it's all right for nothing to be wrong
the deepest dream that we have
could be tomorrow's song

Long time did I run down like that
I would have three years ago today
but not now, it's not like that

It's all right to feel good,
it's all right for nothing to be wrong
the deepest dream that we have
could be tomorrow's song

Just what did he say, unh stop
and it will just go 1 and 2 and 3
run up the hill do as you do I'm going to chill
you know you really ought to do the same
they wanna bug you, but we won't let them today
it's a sure shot to the bomb drop and every single day
you know you swing it and you fling it
and you make some s--- up but it's just 1, 2, 3
and you know it don't stop, proceed
what you need is guaranteed
the deepest dream that we have could be

ahhh
I have about 5,000,000 thoughts going through my head right now. but I don't know. I need to breathe for once, and just, I don't know, not be stressed. I don't have anything to fall to that won't stress me out. I need an exit , but I can't find it. Just something to do that won't make my mind tie in knots.

I need to repair things, or do something atleast. It's killing me. I can't bare the thought of not being together. But even when we are together, we aren't. She's always drifting off somewhere else, or watching someone else. She's never with me. Just me, paying attention to me. I don't mean to be selfish, but I just, need a release, and I was hoping for that in her, but I don't get it, all I get is more stress, and a bunch of shit. oh well.