cowboy67
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2005 10 January :: 10.05am
what does it mean, doctor?
to manifest or communicate, as by a gesture; show.
to make known the feelings or opinions of (oneself), as by statement or art.
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the end is here
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rina
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2005 9 January :: 10.32am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: jude law and a semester abroad - brand new
wtf mate?
oh my god, most fucked up dream ever. i have to write this down, because im already forgetting it.
it was like a movie.
i was at emma watson's house, and we were eating dinner or something. then tom felton (as draco malfoy) had wrote a book about quidditch or some nonsense.
and after dinner (?) we all had to go in emma's room, but somehow my head identified it as ginny's room. anyways, i couldnt find it at first, and i only found it because there was light coming from the crack of the door.
there are other people besides me in there, but i dont remember who they are. but, there is someone in her bed, and everyone (which has narrowed down to two people, wtf) and this kid jared is under the covers once someone pulls them off.
and he's lying in the bed, but it's way too small for him. the footboard for the bed is against the wall, but his feet somehow manage to slip between the space between the wall and footboard to get under the bed. almost like his feet were made of paper.
and we go "what are you doing in here, we're supposed to be doing something." (i dont remember what we were supposed to be doing.)
and he mumbles, because he's half asleep, and says "hermione said i could."
then i somehow end up in this gigantic parking structure. just one floor of it. and i dont know what to do, but something tells me i have to crash into something.then a little red car goes by and i "lock on" to it. because now it feels like there is a ps2 controller in my hand. there really isnt. but still, i lock on using the R1 key which is totally wrong.
as i locked on, a little yellow "1" appeared on the side of the car, and i thought it was too small of a number. so i really quickly locked on to another car which was going fast and i tried driving into it, because i somehow am a car, but also myself. its confusing just thinking about it.
i could never crash a car and i was getting frustrated. and then there are no more cars driving around, but james marsters kind of walks in between the parked cars, with his signature black duster, his platinum hair, and a cigarette in one hand. he stopped by me and told me something, then took a drag of his cigarette. i dont remember what he told me.
i end up in the back of this van with two other children. and there is a small bird-cage like cage that is black and is seperated into four different parts from a seperator inside. and i know that there is a red, a blue, a green, and a yellow fairy inside.
let me say: what. the. fuck.
moving on. one of the children is a little girl and she is really scared, so to make herself feel better, she says out loud that she doesnt believe in magic.
and i look at her sadly and say "you know, everytime you saw that, a fairy dies." i hold up the cage, and the green fairy is lying on her side. i think in my head 'poor earth fairy.'
then i am observing the front of the van (it is white, by the way). but it's in motion, so its kind of like watching a movie. cut to the inside of the van, and sarah michelle gellar is in the passenger seat. smoke is coming from the back of the fan and somehow filtering into the front.
she says "what's that smoke from?"
and michelle trachtenberg, who is behind her says "i dont think you should worry about it."
that's all i remember.
2 day[s] remain |
the end is here
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rina
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2005 9 January :: 2.29am
:: Mood: still awake.
:: Music: run - snow patrol
your mother was a hamster and your father smelt of elderberries!
haha forgot to mention the new layout. i = such a dork.
2 day[s] remain |
the end is here
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rina
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2005 9 January :: 1.23am
:: Mood: very awake.
:: Music: guernica - brand new
is she an airhead? HAHAHA oh god yes.
hahaha i went out with sabrina and tiffany tonight.
tiffany has her own vehicle. not the greatest, haha. they picked me up around 9 and we went and had dinner at macaroni grill. i had chicken parmigiano. mmm.
but when our waiter, doug, was putting the pepper and the oil on the plate for you to dip your bread in, tiffany was looking at him like he was insane.
and as soon as he left she goes "what is that for?!!?"
we laughed. and said it was for bread.
and then sabrina said the cheese on my chicken was mold, and tiffany believed her. holy christ.
but here is something priceless:
when sabrina was at her house, they finished watching a movie, and she says "just put the dvd back in the case."
and tiffany says "how do i rewind it?"
good times. anyways, we hit up barnes and noble afterwards, and get coffee and some sort of dessert. none of us finished them.
it was such great fun. and sabrina is getting a mustang convertible!!! ahh! we are totally cruising in that mother.
and since i had coffee i am very very very awake. fuck.
the end is here
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alastar
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2004 31 December :: 1.58am
:: Music: straylight run
My words are dust upon an old book with empty pages
Worn away by eyes searching for meaningless phrases
I was lost long ago and placed here on this old shelf
I spoke to myself pretending that I was someone else
4 day[s] remain |
the end is here
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rina
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2004 28 December :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: screamy-ish.
:: Music: somewhere only we know - keane
teenage angst? oh no!
i am not having such a good day. blah.
i think my mother is going to kill me soon though. i ordered some my chemical romance patches online. with my debit card. without asking permission.
oh dear.
ugh. all day ive had this constant need to just scream. or pass out or something.
and the moment of zen for the day is:
.. wtf?
the end is here
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alastar
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2004 28 December :: 3.29am
:: Music: Cursive - The Ugly Organ
Never Knew
You always acted so amused, and you never told the truth. I never saw the pattern; I just waited and watched as you shattered. This is my regret, for all the words I never said, and all the ones I never meant.
I want you to know that when I see you I just burn, I can tell you still suffer, and I know that it must hurt.
You always acted so amused, and you never told the truth. I could never even tell, I just stared into nothing while you fell. This is my regret, for all the things I’ve done to your head, and all the things I haven’t yet.
I want you to know that when I see you I just burn, I can tell you still suffer, and I know that it must hurt.
You always acted so amused, and you never told the truth. I never even figured, I just stayed still like inside your pictures. This is my regret, for the secrets about where I slept, and all of yours I never kept.
Well that is just horribly written.
It needs a lot of work.
1 day[s] remain |
the end is here
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alastar
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2004 27 December :: 12.38pm
:: Music: muse
Just found this in an old notebook of mine
A Second after Death
As I lay there dead
One glance away from being alive
Silently I beg you
To fill my eyes with life
And as I lay there thinking
About what we used to have
Silently I beg you
To tell me what I am
The light slowly fades
And is wholly left behind
By the blackest of my memories
In the darkness of my mind
As I lay there so close to life
I feel I’m closer to the ledge
The all-consuming feelings
Push me closer to the edge
And as I lay there inside my mind
In a corner surrounded by emptiness
A heart full of pain is crushed
By a soul full of stress
As the life fades away
Also does the light
And all that you are left with
Is the darkest of the night
As I lay there motionless
You can’t help but stay
The life in our creation
Slowly drifts away
And as I lay there begging
For you just to leave
So I don’t have to think of
The love we used to breathe
1 day[s] remain |
the end is here
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alastar
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2004 26 December :: 11.21pm
:: Music: Chevelle
Forming A New
I have created this. Clay was placed in my hands and this is the mold I formed. This is how I made it, and now this unstable creature is dying. I must regain control and reshape it. I wrought this being and I must give it new power. Recreate strengths and abilities then let it grow. I must form a new life.
the end is here
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rina
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2004 25 December :: 10.51am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: geek stink breath - green day
yay something corporate
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