yesterday!
hahah yesterday i chilled with julie and virginia and then we met up with jimmy (pickeles) ya so anyways im so proud of virginia shes fucking hilarious.. hahahahahahahahahaha i cant even write it in here its to fucking funny! hahahahahha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya anyways thats all.. nothing else special happened..

ohhh but our fucking burner wont work and i pissed.. i fucking hate this computer!

-Nik

last night!
ok so last night was maddd fun! well lets see it was like 7 00 last night ans i was in my pj's watching a movie when when amanda called! ya so then i went to her house to sleep over..

we were bored...


so sinse we were bored we decided to call my brother ... who was out with bill.. so they came to pick us up at like 8 00 or 8 30...

then we drove all the way to malborough to bills restaraunt and noone was there so we "broke in" me and amanda made ice cream and bill made dj and my brother omlets and then we ate and talked!

after that we went to amanda's daddys house for a visit at like 9 45... and i saw the 2 week old kittens.. i waant the black one soooooooooooooooo bad! ok so anyways...

then we started to go home and bill decided to show us the best "makout spot"... so we drive 10 mins up the windyst dirt roaduntil we like reached a tower.. then we went to go climb the tower.. we ran like 30 feet up this path/road until we got to the tower.. then i looked around and was like why are there lights there.. amanda sed cuz theres a car.. so bill like freaks outr and was like WE HAVE TO GO!! so my brother goes i think its a cop...

so we sprint down to the car and bill like miksses the knob.. so he unlocks the doors but amanda wont open.. and by this time the car was like DIRECTLY behind us and amanda was freaking out and dj was trying to help her.. then we get into the car anhd the other car starts to back down the hill.. so we go to leave and then we see it like parked hidden away.. so bill being a psycho that he is.. he puts sierens on the radio and stops right next to the random freak ni the van... so dj rools down the window and me and amanda are like what if its an undercover cop or sometihng who got your plates.. so needless to say bill started FLYING down the dirt road.. we bottomed out like 4 times in his car too.. we al thought we were gunna shit our fucking pants! it was actually a pretty amazing and funny ass night!

ok then we went back to amandas.. tried to do out hw and then went to bed..

then we went to the mall this morning and tried on dresses and had lunch at johnny rockets!

thats all


-Nik

so ya... i talked to becca andwe're okay now.. im really excited for my party and ...and how much fun its hopefully gunna be..

well my little c team is going to competition onsaturday so im excited for them!...

ok so last night was their game and amanda was there.. so ya.. the mentally challaged kid got hurt who always sings with jay.. and so the ambulence came.. so of course our nosey-ness had to go investigate.. but wen amanda saw the ambulence she just broke down... it was horrible.. so we were both just sitting there crying randomly and no one knew why... and i love amanda sooo much and she needed to cry.. its not a bad thing.. like some people were like ohh why the fuck is she crying.. why are you guys crying ... but they dont understand what losing someone you loved that much was like... she just kept saying she misses gene.. and that she loves him so much.. i couldnt even handle watching her cry..

im kinda dreading the memorial service becasue if seeing one little ambulence can causer that.. im not gunna stop crying during the whole memorial service!




on a lighter note..

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 10 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!



ya so i think i might have a CRUSH on someone.. but im not sure yet...

:)

-NikkiE

P.S. Gene i love you.. your forever in my heart!

ok so yesterday we all got caught for drinking up on da hill.....

suprisingly my brother and my cousins blamed themselves.. and not me or any of my friends...

so i was like mom dj ius just covering up for all of his friends.. so hopefully they believe me..

ya so we had to clean up all the empties.. and let me tell you there was ALOT of empties!

ya so i felt bad cuz we all got yelled at and my dad asked me who's alcohol it was and i REFUSED to tell him...

so i bought my brother a shot glass that i got engraved from things remembered.. kinda ironic tho huh? lol!

ya so we found a new spot!!!

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ok so anyways i had a little fun on friday night.. but that was the most fun i've had in a really really long time.. and that was under the influence of alcohol!! so ya i dont know what to do about my life...




-Nik

lately i have been really depressed..
well i dont really know why i am writing in here becasue theres really no point.. the people who look at it dont read it and the people who do read it are the ones that i either dont know or dont like...
so i guess that this journal is just for me so i can let all my feelings out..


so anyways i have been really depressed lately and i dont know why.. i have been crying myslef to sleep for a week and a half straight now.. i cant sit by myself in a quiet room for more than like 5 mins. or else i think about everything and start crying.. like right now... and i have to go to this counceling thing on tuesday and get prescribed on some stupid medication.. so i cant even relieve my stress cuz i gotta go their.. even tho its a fucking early release day and i dont have practice.. i dont wanna go to that ayside place.. i just dont wanna go.. they are only gunna tell me what i already know... but w/e...

anyways so i tried to call cristina and she didnt answer.. os i imed her, but she texted me back saying she had to go.. she obv. doesnt wanna talk to me becasue she sed she would call and she never did.. am i a bad friend or something? whatever.. i guess im not even gunna make another attempt...

i dont even wanna have a party anymore... whats the point.. to sit there when all my friends have fun... im not gunna have fun.. i havnt had fun in weeks...

anyways today in cooking traci and kim didnt let me do anything.. again... i think im just not gunna go to that class anymore.. i dont really enjoy sitting on my ass and watching people cook...

people were pissing me off all day... and at least last period kelsry made me kinda happy... thank you kelsey.. you always make me smile when i need it.. and lately i need it alot! not like anyone is reading this anyways but if you are reading it kelsey i love you.. and theirs not many people i can say that for right now..... thank you...



anyways i really just want to die so i dont have to deal with all this shit... i guess im just gunna go sit in my room and think some more now....








-Nikkie

so.. so much to write about..

yesterday was my first day of work.. it wasnt all that horrible..i bagged for meg and fenelly so it was all good...

sleep over at kims last night before the game! me and traci stayed up soooooooooo late becasue she kept laughing and i couldnt stop hickuping!! hahhahahahahaahha it was so funny! we went out onto the roof with anna and hung out and just talked for a little while! it was wicked fun! kimmi has a new kitten named "regan" but its true name is hallion staleiooonn.. lmao rigghhht kimmi? lol it is the cutest fucking cat ever!!


Hallion


ya so i "talked" to emme but it wasnt really talking cuz we just commented to eachother in her journal but i really hope everything is all set and better cuz i love that child!


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ok so fucking today at lunch joe ripped my 5 and the lunch lady was like "ahhh these girls shouldnt let the boys take their money and rip it they should hold it" and she fuckin thought i wouldnt hear her.. i was like escuse me i had it in my hand and he ripped it out! what a dtupid cunt it was so funny! shes a fucking lunch money.. that 5 was proboly what she makes a fucking day!! lmao!!!

ok thats all for now


leave comments if you love me!

-Nik