i just dont know how to
tell you everything i feel
i want to, i need to
but if i did you wouldnt even hear

to ride you's like a one way train
and when im with you my thoughts go insane
i just look at you and i know the truth
that i better get away.. today..

(chorus)
i gotta get out and make it on my own
i need to leave you before im left alone
its a game of who played who
i'm just wishing the winner wasnt you

i heard about some other girl in bed with you
i laughed it off and denied the proof
but i smelt her on you when you held me
and i tasted lies when you were kissing me

bury my heart in a 10 foot hole
theres only so much that your mind can control
but the indents in my heart will always remain
the vouture to this reoccuring pain

(chorus)

the scent of deceit is whisping through my hair
its veil is falling over everybody whos never there
im tired of trying if i only fall
im sick of loving when you dont love at all

i know i have to run before im consumed
but each time you kiss me i know that im doomed..
to be trapped forever in the grip of your stare
and that each night your with her.. ill be waiting there..

(chorus)

as the moonlight cascades down the strands of my hair
hold my hand and tell me you care
then run back to her like your somebodys pet
maybe someday youll realize what you havent yet

that somebody loves you for all that you are
and someone would reach to you no matter how far
that each breath they made every day
would be just for you what more can i say?

i just dont know how to
tell you everything i feel
i tried to, i knew to
but you didnt even hear...







kiss me in moonlight
take me where the sun wont even shine...<3


well thats about all my creativity heres a poem of thoughts..

fate or free will?

today i caught myself difting into thought
as the smoke slowly cascaded over the crowded room
i felt as if this world could skip right over me
lost in thought and repeatition of time
as my heart beat matched the ticking of the clock
i stared into his eyes and the depth consumed me
driving through me like the blade of a knife
my nerves were rendered powerless
under the command of the thoughts in my head
i suddenly snapped into reality
does my heart not truly love? and only the brain?
are people alone for a reason? am i just insane
i dreamt to myself what love would feel like
whats the reason i am alive like i am
and who am i here to save? who is to die?
i argued myself like a skitzofranic freak
as i dodged my own questions in the mine feild of a room
am i making these choices which so greatly change my days
or do the stars hold my fate as i walk beneath them
can my future be told to me, read like book
or is the truth hidden inside where no man can look
is this soul of emotion going to waste
as i drag on my cigarette and practice for fame
do i contradict all the morals i preach?
if i were a teacher what would i teach?
is there a message that my life conveys?
or am i a loser with nothing to say
i ponder lifes questions words are drifting away
into the sky, the stars, the galaxy for no one to hear
i write this poetry in hopes of appathy and commiseration
when satan looks for sinners and god looks for innocence
my name will appear on both dotted lines
which will my mind and soul choose to sign?
my thoughts begin to swirl in a fit of rage
slamming my braincells like a punching bag
after self mutilation and drug deprivation
ive tempted myself well enough
the crystal endeavor held close to my lips
allows for an array of topics
a list of words upon a blank clean slate
and i slowly sink back into the realms of thought
the mirky waters consume what is left of my life
and as i drown myself in confusion
i am reminded of one thing...


wow.. thats fucking all me and all no thought...i just let my hands and mind flow.. niceeee

.to me.