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2004 23 February :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Limb Bizkit-
La de da
hello!
Well today was the first day back the the shit hole... but it seemd to go buy very fast which wasnet bad..... BLAh but school is school ans sux ne way.....
hehe well on a good note i went to Hollys today after school!! i can't remm ebr the last tiem i was there(:() heheh but we had fun!! it was me her and Kate!! lol what did we do u ask...... hahahah what do i always do? sat ans stuffed are faces!! LOL but it was fun!!!!
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do...
Sad makes me think of times before i was a "slut, or a hick" like when my friends of ppl I thought were my friends were nice people and had respect for others... and if they were really my friends then I guess they would have never said nething to begin with... well then i guess i wasted some of the best times of my life so far with ppl who could give a shit less.... and that sux :'(
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2004 23 February :: 2.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
well, its 2:31 on monday february 23rd and i would've been out of school - if i had went to school. i didn't go to school today because i felt like shit. my mom went to the doctor. ummm i hate a boca 'meatless' burger with barbeque sauce and it was good. lol very interesting right? i have like $100 i think im going to take my mom out to dinner..today maybe? idk. friday i went to the horse tracks with my mom,amy,and her boyfriend lonnie who is so nice. i bet on a horse (6) and i would've gotten 68 dollars if he won and he came in 2nd place. holy shit was i mad. i would've been up 78 dollars but he didn't win so i was only up 10 lol but i got to keep the 20 that lonnie used for the starting bets. saturday i hung out with sherri,amy,and brian and we drank and shit and then later at night lonnie took me and sherri to get bagels at 24 hour and ice cream at TCBY. it was fun times. well, thats all because sunday was a nothing day and today im sick so im not doing anything today and tomorrow is school. we have to wait until what, april for another vacation? lalala school is almost over. i might graduate half a year early because i am taking economics now instead of in 12th grade. well, i hope everyone is having a good day :)
i<3youall
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2004 22 February :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Twiztid-"Rock The Dead"
eek!
well this vacation sucked ass.... that might b becasue all i did was sit on my ass but w/e.... its soo sad to think then in like 10 hours im gonan b sitting in my fuckin mAath class wishign my fucking teacher died.... i hate school.. and i deff don't want to go back :( i don't even think im gonan bother goign to first period.. ill jsut sit around in the bath rooms with Kelsey... cuz i know she hates mondays as much as me.... well im off to bed need my rest for a horrable shitty day and Natick High....
<3 Lizzy
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2004 22 February :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: shitty
:: Music: some shitty rap music
First best friend: samm and jaymes
First real memory of something: sleeping in laundry baskets with my cousin
First real kiss: my boyfriend in 7th grade
First Job: carvel
First screen name: actingbug1
First self purchased album: spice girls i think
First funeral: my great aunt frans
First pets: dog- casper
First piercing/tattoo: my ears
First true love: tomm
First enemy: jessica ragusta
First big trip: florida
First play/musical/performance: i was in project rescue in 3rd grade
First musician you remember hearing in your house: billy joel prob.
Last cigarette: last night
Last big car ride: when i drove to florida
Last kiss: a while ago
Last good cry: ummm when when jack died
Last library book checked out: i dont remember
Last movie seen: ummm save the last dance?
Last beverage drank: snapple?
Last food consumed: mint chocolate chip ice cream
Last crush: him<3
Last phone call: my mom
Last tv show watched: i dont know?
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: my silver and white etnies
Last item bought: i dont remember
Last disappointment: OD not calling me last night :(
Last soda drank: last night?
Last ice cream eaten: today :)
Last shirt worn: my koRn 'still a fuckin freak' one
Here's a New 1 ...
[name ]: Marissa Leigh Fein
[ nicknames ]: riss,riss-ma,rissa,mariss,rissy,lil pissa,shrimp,marizzle
[ born in ]: oceanside
[ resides in ]: east rockaway
[ good student ]: pretty good
[ eyes ]: hazely
[ hair ]: brown with blonde highlights
[ shoe size ]: 7-8 somewhere in that range
Last time you...
[ had a nightmare ]: i dont remember
[ said "i love you" and meant it ]: today
[ ate at mcdonald's ]: in wantagh a couple of weeks ago
[ dyed your hair ]: umm like 7 months ago
[ brushed your hair ]: last night
[ Washed your hair ]: when i took a shower
[ checked your e-mail ]: today
[ cried ]: a couple of days ago
[called someone ]: last night at like 10
[ smiled ]: right now
[ laughed ]: 1 second ago
Do you...
[ do drugs? ]: not anymore
[ sleep with stuffed animals? ]: i sleep with my pug and my yorkie that OD gave me
[ have a dream that keeps coming back? ]: yeah...when i was like 5
[ play an instrument? ]: i used to be able to play violin and clarinet but not anymore
[ believe there is life on other planets? ]: yes
[ read the newspaper? ]: sometimes i do
[ consider love a mistake? ]: depending
[ like the taste of alcohol? ]: yeahh pretty much :)
[ believe in god? ]: nahh
[ pray? ]: nuh uh
[ go to church? ]: im jewish...
[ have any secrets? ]: tons
[ have any pets? ]: my cat dusty
[ talk to strangers who instant message you? ]: yupp
[ wear hats? ]: yeah
[ have any piercings? ]: in my ears
[ have any tattoos? ]: nahh
[ hate yourself? ]: yes
[ have an obsession? ]: haha yeahh
[ have a secret crush? ]: yuppsss
[ collect anything? ]: shot glasses
[ have a best friend? ]: yeah, i love you all so much<3
[ like your handwriting? ]: ehhh sorta its like a combination of print and script
[ have any bad habits? ]: yupp
[ care about looks? ]: alittle
[ boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: nah
[ friends and other people? ]: nah not at all
[ believe in witches? ]: yup
[ believe in satan? ]: nope
[ believe in ghosts? ]: yes i do
Current...
[ dress ]: pajama pants from my bat mitzvah and a koRn shirt
[ mood ]: pissed
[ make-up ]: none
[ music ]: some shitty rap music
[ taste ]: nothing
[ hair ]: straight and down
[ annoyance ]: fake people and shit
[ smell ]: nothing
[ thought ]: emohogotuoytnawi
[ fingernail color ]: nothing right now
[ refreshment ]: none at the moment
[ worry ]: nothing
[ crush ]: why do you care?
Last person...
[ you touched ]: my mom
[ you talked to ]: sherri
[ you hugged ]: uh i dont remember
[ you Instant messaged ]: chris
[ you yelled at ]: my mom
[ who broke your heart ]: ...
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2004 22 February :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: tired/shitty
:: Music: nothingface
im updating now but i have nothing to write about. basically everything was written yesterday when i was drunk..HAHA. umm i'll update tomorrow about sunday and monday at school.
laterloverz<3
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2004 21 February :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: maroon5- this love
im drunk, i got bagels and ice cream. i asked the guy if i was slurring my word...LOL it was fucking funny as hell, i dont know what else to write so thats it. aright? i'll talk to you later
i<3danrichieandod
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2004 21 February :: 5.24pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: none
hello
hello im at ryans right now! heheh were just sitting here on are asses.... we meaning me ryan, brittany, kevin, and katie....... yea soo ill write back later cuz i have nothingelse to say
i love u
Lizzy, Sinner, Hoe, Hick
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2004 20 February :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: Lisa Loeb-"Stay"
POOP
well i havent written in here forever soo i decited to say hello......
alot of shit has happend sice the last time a wrote in here but i really don't gfive a fuck and im not gonna get inot it cuz all it will do is make me mad.... soooo
well i jsut got back form lunch with my mom, sis, and uncle Jimmy Bob... lol we went to frinedlys!! haha it was good... well nothign else is new excpt VACATION IS ALMOST OVER!!!!!! its soo sad!! we have liek 2 days!!!!!! then we have to go back to gay ass school :( but i guess its not that bad not to long tioll april vacation!! yay!! lol and then schools liek over! i have the feeling this summers gonna suck nuts! but i guess thats cuz this summer was so fun that nothin could b better... lol but who knows.... not me!
And im off!
<3 Lizzy, Sinner, Hoe, Hick!!
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2004 20 February :: 11.54am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris
quiz..im alil bored
Name: Marissa
Nicknames: rissa,riss,mariss,riss-ma,marizzle,shrimpy,lil pissa
Screen name: m3ntalshorty,maj0rd0rkage
Sex: Female
Birthday: 11/16/88
Height: 4'10"
Hair color: dark brown with blonde highlights
Is your hair long or short: long
Eye Color: hazel
City born in: oceanside, NY
Location now: east rockaway, NY
Siblings: 2 sisters...nikki(8) alexis(6)
Parents married/divorced: divorced
Who are your closest friends: samm,jaymes,amy
Who makes you laugh the most?: joshy lyons
Who knows the most about you?: samm and jaymes
+++WHO WAS YOUR CRUSH IN...+++
Kindergarten: shane
1st Grade: kenny
2nd Grade:
3rd Grade: billy/bryan
4th Grade: billy/bryan
5th Grade: david
6th Grade: david
7th Grade: matt/bacci
8th Grade: john/tomm/joey
9th Grade: emilio *ew*
10th grade: richie
11th grade: ---
12th grade: ---
Boy/girlfriend status: single and wanting him <3
+++OTHER STUFF ABOUT ME+++
Do you have a job: i used to
What are you scared of: being alone forever
Who's your role model: my mom
Most interesting thing you've done this summer: drank too much alcohol
What store do you shop at the most: pac sun,h & m
Are you a ditz: haha sometimes
+++FAVORITES+++
Day of the week: saturday
Thing in your room: my bed
Cousin: jamie and lauren
CD: korn(issues),pantera,killswitch engage
Song(s): maroon5 (this love)
Animal: dogs,horses,cats
Ice Cream: box of chocolates,chocolate and peanut butter
Alcholic Drink:mikes,long island ice tea,sky vodka and cranberry juice
Thing to do: play soccer,tennis,dance,acting,singing
Movies: jack,schindlers list,october sky,gothika
Hangout: my house
Favorite pizza topping: i like buffalo pizza so - buffalo chicken
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: college
If you could live anywhere: san fransisco<3
Dream house: anywhere but ehre
What age do you want to get married: around 25 if possible
How many kids do you want: 1 or 2 so i can spoil them
Girl's names: shoshanna (nice and jewish..lol),savannah,cheyenne
Boy's names: jacob
+++HAVE YOU EVER...+++
Been in love?: yes
Lied?: Yes
Cheated on a test?: Yes
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: once and i felt really guilty
Tied your shoes together?: no
Eaten something with a lot of fat?: yeah, plenty of things
+++FEELINGS SIDE+++
Worst Feeling in the world: being alone,being hurt
Best feeling in the world: being with someone you love
Can you define love? no, you can define real love
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Are you ticklish?: hahaha,yes.
+++OPPOSITE SEX+++
1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes,and smile
Perfect "dream" date: dinner and then cuddling on the couch
What do you look for in the opposite sex: personality
What does the opposite sex not know about you: cuddling is better than any sexual thing
+++NIGHTIE NIGHT+++
What do you wear to bed: pants and a shirt
What's your bed time: anytime i want
Do you wish on stars: i try
Is there a TV in your room: nope
What's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: nothing really
How many schools have you been to: 8 different schools
Are you passive or aggressive: more passive
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Would you rather be hot or cold: cold
What is your curfew: about 3?
+++FRIENDS+++
Person you can trust the most: samm/jaymes
What is the best quality of a friend: honesty,trust,caring
What friend do you have the most fun with: everyone :)
Name your friends: samm,amy,scutch,jenn,vix,lauryn,maris,jess,krys,chris,selma,sarah,leigh,cassidy,sherri,jen,jaymie,jaymes,tim josh,larry,liam,sal,nick,and so many other people that i really don't feel like writing down ...BLEHHH
+++SILLY STUFF+++
Do you glow in the dark: uhh nope
Do you posses magical abilities: sure why not
Do you keep your underwear and socks in the same drawer: yes
Can you name all 4 Teletubbies:lala,dipsy,what asre the others?
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: mostly everything
Have you ever tried to kill yourself: never tried but i've thought about it
Do you know anyone who SERIOUSLY wanted to kill themselves?: eddie commited suicide.......
What are you addicted to?: my cell phone?
Do you like jewelry?: ehh alil
Do you wear a watch?: nah, never
Do you believe in God?: no
Do you believe in love at first sight?: nahhh
What are your favorite tv show(s)?: everwood,7th heaven,friends
What color tooth brush do you use?: i dont rememeber
Is the glass half empty or half full: emptyyyy
Are you listening to any of your CDs at the moment:no, but im listening to splash waterfalls
my mom's bringing pizza home, but sherri probably can't come over this weekend and now im fucking mad as hell.
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2004 20 February :: 11.19am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris
im listening to splash waterfalls by ludacris and SHIT this song gets me fucking horny...heh.
well, the days have been alright. i have a pack of cigarettes and only smoked one when i was stressed and aggravated and yeahhh so thats good. cigarettes are not a daily thing for me anymore, there more like a stress reliever, just like alcohol was to me.
today:friday, i dont know whats going on today hopefully something but its ok if nothing happens, lol. sherri is coming over today and we might go to the witches brew with her and her friend crystal and her friend. well see what happens tonight and if anything else is going on. OH WELL.
saturday sherri,amy,and brian are going to be here and were going to drink and shit and amy and brian are going to smoke. thats really it. this vacation is over and i honestly cannot believe it. it didn't really go fast but still i can't believe that its already over, shit.
iheartodandrichie<3`
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2004 20 February :: 1.21am
:: Mood: iffy
:: Music: criminal - fiona apple
I've been a bad, bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love
Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come
Oh help me but don't tell me to deny it
I've got to cleanse myself of all these lies 'till I'm good enough for him
I've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high so I'm begging you
Before it ends just tell me where to begin
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welllll
vacation is all too soon coming to an end :( it seems as tho ive loast track of all teh days.. i havent been home half the time hehe havent had time to write or anything :(* so sad but im listening to new music.. yay! always happy when i find great quotes and things haha im such a geek...
well all this shit with "krew" vs "krew" is quickly coming to an end as well.. falling thru as quickly as it came.. but some cease to realize the immaturity of their ways...
inspiration...
the sun rises for yet another day. shining its golden rays upon each crevase of the earths surface. do you choose to be seen? to hide? living in the shadows of reality watching life unfolding like a flower. each silk pedal blooming with radiance, and cowering to blackened skies. i hear every echo..see every tear drop each translucent bead of acid rain spiriling through the skies. i am passing quickly, each picture around me blurred with speed. and colors running together, creating pure beauty. releasing madness, chaos and truth to each scene. to be seen with the naked eye, past perfection. i, half asleep now, recollect your presence. and envision your face and sweet lips upon mine. "but i wont call you baby anymore, if i need you i'll use your simple name. only kisses on the cheek from now on. and in a little while, we'll only have to wave."(love ridden 0 fiona apple) you'll pass me by with insinserity in your eyes. and once again the sun which beats so viciosly, now begins to set. and this sky darkens, in the shadows i lurk. and in a little while, we'll only have to wave...
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2004 19 February :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: angry
bull shit!
so for now the only thing i can really say is BULL SHIT!!!
.................
What does the word BESTFRIEND mean to you?? i think it means not lying, not talking behind your back, and always being there for you! it looks like i cant trust anyone!!
Vacation sux!
hopefully going to amandas house this weekend!! (maybe even today!!) but i dunno! my phone doesnt work so i cant call her!! grrrrrrrrrrr.... there are a few people that i know will always be there for me and she is one! i can count on emme, lizzy and christina too! (cant forget Darien) i miss emme!! i havnt talked to her in so long :'( it makes me sad to think about it!
we used to be inseperable and now look what has happened... its like the whole thing was a waste of my time... but when i think about it i cant say that because it could NEVER be a waste of my time! those were the best times of my life!! i wouldnt be the person i am today without those people, that person! i love her so much... but its like now that its over theres nothing i can do to save it! i guess im happy that shes having a "better" life and getting to know "better" people... but it still hurts inside to know that i can be dropped like that... for someone that is so much better than me!! I love you so much... and i always will! the phone calls every once in a while dont cut it... i never see you... when we used to talk about it i couldnt imagine even a day without you... how long has it been now? weeks? months? i cant help thinking about it because it makes me cry... I miss you... i really do!!!!
... so if you ever need me i'm here... dont ever forget that... dont ever forget me! i love you!
<3 nikkie
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2004 19 February :: 12.28pm
hey.. haha im at brits right now and i like havent been home for a long time haha were going out in a few.. just wanted to leave a little note cuz im cool liek that haha :)
i <3 usher
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2004 18 February :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: the sound of my concience!! lol
blah!!
i spent like 3 hours trying to find the html codes for the pictures in this thing because funky-chickens is down!! i finally found a good site!! yippie!!! isnt it pretty?? i like the waterfall one:) im so tired and excited!! my aunt got me kiss concert tickets so once again i m going with her... but unfortunatly my sister is going so i cant bring any one! hopefully i will see janet there and we can sneak up to the front!!! hell ya!!! cant wait till then baby!!! lol!! Bahamas in a few months!! needa loose at least 15 pounds!!
someone tell me not to eat!!!
<3 nikkie
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2004 18 February :: 8.31am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: kiss 108 guy talking!
computer!
Havnt written in a while............
I fucken dont have a computer!! its all gone for like 3 weeks!!! :( im so sad! i hafta use my aunts computer... but it doesnt have aim!! someone help me! ok so anyways my vacation have been so boring!! it has consited of going to the gym with my aunt, going to hicksville Nh with my parents, going shopping with my grandma, and talking to darien with text messageing!! somebody save me!!! going to amandas tomorrow hopefully... and going out to dinner with my baby BECCA!! i miss her so much words cant even say!! i like cry when i talk to her on the phone because i think about last year and i dont know how i am making it throgh this year without her! its amazing i miss emme and amanda too!! last year we were inseperable... now this year i dont see any of them... at least emme and amanda still have eachother at school!! i love them ohhh sooo much!!!
anyways.... i think im surviving mostly on the part of lizzy darien nd manda!! they are so cute! Me manda nd lizzy need to chill over vacation... im way to stressed!!!
Kiss Concert 2004!!! hell ya baby cant wait!!
me and auntie cindy go every year!!!!
<3 Nikkie!!
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