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2003 13 December :: 12.31pm
:: Music: Garbage-"Only Happy When It Rains"
BOO!
Im getting ready for my party tonight!!! its gonna b ok i guess...... only good part is im gonna b drinkin!!
Awesome song!!!!
GARBAGE
"Only Happy When It Rains"
I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down on me (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down on me (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down on me (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down
You can keep me company
As long as you don't care
I'm only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I'm riding high upon a deep depression
I'm only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I'm only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I'm only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I'm only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I'm only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me).
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2003 13 December :: 12.10pm
:: Music: broken promises
i miss the way things were
No more lonely nights
Baby thats just what you told me
But you're no where to be found.
Something just aint right
Cuz I cant get you to hold me
Even when youre around.
Baby you promised me
That you'd always be there for me
Tell me Whats on your mind?
[Chorus]
What happened to the I love you's?
The hugs and kisses and the rendevous?
What happened to me and you?
You said you'd never change.
What happened baby talk to me
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy
Now your breakin my heart
With all your broken promises.
Open up your eyes
Baby thats what people tell me (thats what they say)
But its hard to let you go.
I cant take your lies
If your spending time with somebody else
Then you gotta let me know.
You promised me that you'd never run a game on me
Tell me whats on your mind.
[Chorus]
You say your gonna do this
You say your gonna do that
But you never come through.
And so its different lately
Cuz you dont call me baby
I just dont know what to do...
everything is different.. this life cant possibly get harder than this... ::knocks on wood:: eveyrhitng around me has swiftly changed.. although some may have been needed it still makes me sad to think of all of teh memories...
liek with meg, i do miss the times we spent toegther we were like inseprable i mean we went tp firggin las vegas together.. its torture to knwo that things will never be the same again...
with joe... it paisn me so much to know that he doesnt even think of me liek i do him. its not fair this immense pain kills me.. its almost 12*20 and i bet he wont even come up here to see kels em and chris n i its so horrible, he doesnt call me anymore doesnt ask me to visit anymore i cant understand why things have to change liek this.
with emily.. why does a school have to make a difference like that... its not fair why does it have to take her away from me.. all teh summer nights that we went to the mall and scoped out hot guys.. life was sooo free from pain nothing could vere us off our track. there were no drugs.. no alcohol to make us have a good time.. we did it on our own.. now its the weed that brings us together and it makes me so sad to think that beczu i love emily shes always going to be one of my best friends
i mean some change is good, i mean if i staye din my little cacoon of friends forever i wouldnt have met liz or holly and i would never have become who i am today.. and i love who i am not bette rthan the little scared girl i was before...
i miss katie and me and kels n meg always going to dug pond i mean my world revolved around you guys.. its not fair how time can rip people appart it makes me sick to think of hown fdifferent me all are now, even after vowing never to change.. the force of nature has ripped us appart.. but i still love you..
i miss chris.. i miss the nights at the mall with joe and hoim and kelsey and wed just wander around aimlessly while joe would spit on opppl haha and going in teh back hallways and being with joe alone.. and getting our pictures taken and him coming over my house and singing i wasnna knwo to me its soooo horrible
this hurt wont ever go away
these scars cant ever be erased
the tears that stream down my face
are an odd sort of lace
around me they hold me i wish it was you
the things that you told me were they the truth
undo this ribbon from my eyes
cnat you see that i love you its no surprise
yes i still think of you your always on my mind
cant put you out of my brain cant leave you ebhind
cuz love like ours, so juvenile , but true
each kiss that youd give me there was no1 better than you
my first for alot of things you gave me ur heart
poured your tears on my shoulders dont let us drift appart
cant see you anymore, theres so many miles
i miss the sound of your voice, miss the sound of your smiles
the candycane loving, on these winter nights
your warmth made my candle, my love light burn bright
i cant see you crying, do you pain like i do?
would u want to see me, do u miss me, is it the truth?
cant take the pain thats forced in my soul
dont want any presents, give me coal
the warmth of teh fire cant warmmy heart
cuz ill pain for always, as long as were appart....
i love you always and forever joseph michael russell...
- amanda...
http://expage.com/joesephmichealrussell
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2003 11 December :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: cant hold us down- christina auguliera
omfg shit goes down in east rockaway like every day and holy fuck it is all gddamn bullshit. this whole fuckin town is a bunch of shit talkers...i dont know what to do anymore. i wanna go to this school 'pace' in brookville. its an alternative high school. i would fuckin do anything to get out of east rockaway OMG this is all so fuckin ridiculous. but whatever. AMY - you know i always have your fuckin back no matter what. no fuckin bitch can tear us apart <3 but whatever. ugh everything is so fucked up lets go through whats happening with a bunch of my other friends....UGH SO MUCH DRAMA!
samm-she's been so depressed lately..aww
jenn-just her same old happy go lucky self
scutch-friggin psycho
vicky-punished for 3 weeks for coming home drunk
lauryn-yelled at me the other day :-/
marisa-just her crazy ole self
jaymes-im missin him cuz he's in chammy !!!
tim-is in chammy too :(
josh-doesn't drink really anymore and cut down on the pot. im SOO proud of him!
sal-i miss him b/c he's in fuckin boarding school
liam/larry/nick-I <3 THEM!
i love my friends and if it wasn't for them i wouldn't be living.
-this weekend should be fun!
now everythings about to fall apart <3
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2003 11 December :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Oasis-
EW!!
Yea i know this is naty and radom but i have to say it...... Candice and i where havin a conversation about who was hot in are school... and somehow me got into tlaking about who would have a big dick... or a nice dick .. then we went down hill to small nasty dicks and the subject of curcumsision(i can't spell) came up.... yea yea i know its nasty.. but i think u will agree with me and Candice it should b a law that every guy has to b!! lol yes yes yes i know im radom but i had to say it!CCD773: it should be like a law
now on a better note........
Christmass is in 15 days!!!!! im soo excited!!!!! DO U KNWO WHAT THIS MEANS!!!??? NOT ONLY PRESENTS BUT NO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't think im doing nething speical over vacation excpt sittin on my ass with Manda and Kelsey!!!
I LOVE THIS SONG 2!!!!! ITS SOO SEXUAL!!lol Kelsey told me to download it and now i love it!!
Joe Lyrics
"More And More "
Na na na Baby
Na na na You got that look on your face
Na na na Like you wanna go all night
Na Na And I like that
Ooh na na na I just want you to know that uh
Na na na I aint got no problem with that
Na na na just as long as we go to the next level
Na na na Na Na You know what im saying
For as long as your willing girl, want you to know that im willing to
And where you want me to go girl, I'll be willing to go there for you
If you want me to take my time, then I will be willing to spend the night
All you gotta say is please stay Joe and I will be stayin as long as you sayin
More and More, and then after that you want it
More and More, and then after that
More and More, and then after that
More More, I hear you sayin
More and More, and then after that you want it
More and More, and then after that
More and More, and then after that
More More
Now if you want me to make your love come, I will be willing to do anything
Even if you want me to kiss places, then I will be willing to make you scream
Said im down for whatever you say, all you gotta do is speak your mind
Want me here Monday to Monday, then baby girl its fine as long as you screamin
More and More, more more
More and More, and then after that
More and More, and then after that
More More, I wanna hear you say
More and More, and then after that you want it
More and More, and then after that
More and More, and then after that
More More
Girl we'll be going from the bed to the floor babe
Then we'll be going from the bedroom to the kitchen babe
Then we'll be going from the kitchen to the dinning room
Then straight to, straight to the living room
I'll be taking you up, take you up the stairs babe
I guarantee, I guarantee im bout to drive you crazy
We'll be all over the house; we'll be all over the house babe
As long as your screaming for me, sayin give me more
More and More
More and More, and then after that you want it
More and More, Ooh baby
More More, I gotta hear you say
More and More, more
More and More, its about time that I show
More and More, that im not your average Joe
More More
All the ladies sing with me
Na na na, na na na na na
Na na na, na na na na na na
Na na na, na na na na ooh
Na Na, all the ladies sing with me
Na na na, na na na na na
Na na na, na na na na na na
Na na na, na na na na ooh
Na na
wow this was my most radom enrty ever!!! lol i love it!!
And shes off *whoosh*
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2003 11 December :: 12.13pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: the silence of the room
my tummy hurts :(
hey.. im sitting in study right now im opretty bored theres onlye 4 other kid in here...
i just got back from lunch ouchies my utmmy hurts.. i had a chicken thingy and tator tots.. but it made me feel sick
sooo yesterday i had teh worst headache ever!!! ouchhhhhh i went to sleep so i would be able to go out later with my daddy to get nmy x-mas tree n stuff.. and i didnt wake up until morning! ahh 13 hours of sleep.. thats crazy, my dad said he cam in and tried to wake me up like 3 or 4 times but i wouldnt wake up! if you ask me, thats pretty creepy!
i woke up at 3 am tho.. i was crying from a dream i had :( it was about my mom.. i forget exactly but i know thats what it was... hummmm
today is a very deppressing day i feel so sad.. seeing mike and jimmy and stuff and not having them say anything in return makes me very sad, and nastolgic.. i dont understand why when life throws me something that will actually make me happy, it just takes it away and brings me something to cause deppression. i dont understand the logic in that at all... having something to make me smile and then ripping it from my grasps without warning.. its quite upsetting...
well... its so silent in here it creeps me out... im gonna write a poem... i already wrote one in the first half of study in a note for liz.. but hey theres always room for another ;-)
as these delicate fingers tap the keyboard so diligently
thoughts swirl through this brain of mine
not rhyming or to any sort of beat
just my thoughts my hopes and my dreams
people say they dont understand why i do what i do
and why i am the way that i am.. i cannot give u a clue or an explanation or two i just am, who i am
the silence of the room beffudles me
and i feel as if everyone is watching
everyone is inspecting what i am doing
what i am thinking
the whispers ooze into my brain
my self conscious ego
and i am broken down
i am read
i am examined...
lost in this whirlwind of allibies
i am forbidden to watch them
as if some tainted fruit will have poisoned me
can i not envision them?
can i not see what they do?
the definity overturns my body
and i am overcome.. taken within its grasps
and smothered by words
silver plated words...
words
as i fade off..
words
im finally out of words...
humm well thats an interesting one.. im surprised it wasnt rhyming, ive been getting into that lately..
well ill enter later.. bu bye
-mandie
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2003 10 December :: 3.55pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Billie Myers-"Kiss The Rain"
BlAh!
I can make it through the rain...
I LOVE THIS SONG!!!:-D
Billie Myers - Kiss The Rain
Hello...
Can you hear me
Am I getting through to you
Hello...
Is it late there
Is there laughter on the line
Are you sure you're there alone
Cuz I'm
trying to explain
something's wrong
You just don't sound the same
Why don't you
Why don't you
Go outside
Go outside
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I'm gone too long
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
We're under the same sky
And the night's
As empty for me as for you
If you feel
You can't wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Hello...
Do you miss me
I hear you say you do
but not the way I'm missing you
What's new
How's the weather
Is it stormy where you are
You sound so close but it feels like you're so far
Oh would it mean anything
If you knew
What I'm left imagining
In my mind
My mind
Would you go
Would you go
Kiss the rain
As you fall
Over me
Think of me
Think of me
Think of me
Only me
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I'm gone too long
If your lips
Feel hungry and tempted
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
We're under the same sky
And the night's
As empty for me as for you
If you feel you can't wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
(Kiss the rain)
(Kiss the rain)
(Kiss the rain)
Hello...
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me
HAHA well if u havent noticed from my journal that ur looking at that I have an obsession with rain u have a eye problem... don't ask y I love rain soo much... cuz i really don't know its just soo pretty.... almost as if everythin could b washed away just from running in the rain.....I know it don't work but it would b cool if it did lol.... my fav part of the rain is jumping in the puddles!!!! YEA HOLLY AND BRITTANY PUDDLE HOPPING!!!!Lol well now there will b no puddle hopping... its more like SNOW hopping!! which isn't bad its just cold!!!! lol well thats the end to my radomness for the day!! I hope u liked it!! I sure did!!!! I migth write back later but who really cares!!??:-)
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2003 10 December :: 3.50pm
Wow! You're Candice!
All the guys go ga-ga for you. You're very kind and
sweet to everyone you meet. You're subpar at
playing an instrument compared to the others,
but ability isn't everything right?
What kind of band geek are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
HAHAHAHAHA!!!! IM A GEEK LIKE CANDICE!!!!! OH LORD HELP ME!!!!!!!! haha im j/k i love u Candice!!!!
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2003 10 December :: 3.33pm
i have a fucking sinus headache
this week has been very shitty
but hey i <33 the ppl who make me happy :-*
b e a u ty hiDes: i love u
T e G G e R h: i love you
CocoPuff0210: I LOVE U SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CocoPuff0210: I LOVE U MORE THEN ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!
Vanished 1 2 2 0: do u love me
krazykelc1: yes i do
Vanished 1 2 2 0: how much
krazykelc1: very much
krazykelc1: more than any of my other friends because we've been friends the longest:-)
EmmyD89: hmm how do i put it into words...my love for you is unexplainable...i just love you so damn much
wellll i put those there.. so when im upset i can just look and see who loves me :-) lol if you doo... and ur not in there leave me a comment ;-)
well im gonna go take a nap cuz i have a sinus headache and i need to rest up cuz im getting my x-mass tree tonite and going shopping with my daddy :-p
call and make me feel better 6513618
- Manda
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2003 10 December :: 7.23am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: everythings coming up roses- gypsy
odd mood
well, im in a very odd mood i dont know why. last night me,selma,sarah,natasha,cassidy, and bailey went to fight jess ragusta and her friends..it was an odd fight but we won even though those girls are like 320854 million feet taller than us but whatever. i went to bed somewhat early last night, probably around 11:45 or something which is very odd for me yet i feel very shitty. probably cuz i have to wake up for school. UGH i hate school with the passion of a million suns. im feeling different like a color change of my journal. SOUND GOOD? idk. well i dont know what i want to do today after school, any suggestions? well school should be ok..nothing special
COMMENT PLEASE?
now everythings about to fall apart <3
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2003 9 December :: 7.43pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Aerosmith-"Angle"
:-D
You've Got A Friend
When you're down and troubled
and you need a helping hand
and nothing, whoa nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me
and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.
You just call out my name,
and you know whereever I am
I'll come running, oh yeah baby
to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall,
all you have to do is call
and I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend.
If the sky above you
should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together and call my name out loud
and soon I will be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer or fall
all you got to do is call
and I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend?
People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you.
Well they'll take your soul if you let them.
Oh yeah, but don't you let them.
You just call out my name and you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Oh babe, don't you know that,
Winter spring summer or fall,
Hey now, all you've got to do is call.
Lord, I'll be there, yes I will.
You've got a friend.
You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.
I just have to say i love my frineds all my true frineds to death!!!! Thank u for always being there for me when i needed u!!!!!! Manda never stop writing and being u!!!! Kelsey never stop being funny... and just never change!!!!!! I love u both sooo much just the way u are!!!! Holly u 2!!!! OLD SCHOOL SHIT ALL THE WAY!!!!!I love u guys sooo much!!!!! and I ALWAYS will!!!!! i love u all to death:-*:-*:-*:-*:-*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2003 9 December :: 7.33pm
madly deppressed
shit sucks..yeah
i confide in you
abide in you and tell you all my lies
secrets held in vaults away
hidden alibies
but i just thought nohting of
the way you held my hand
you went out of your way to make me smile
and tried to understand
was it all a trick?
did you really never care
cuz ill keep living my life
wishing you were there
this pained emotion
surges through my veins
slice them open and watch me bleed
im just alive im not insane
salted oblivion
lost in all of the darkness
i sit by the window
the tortured enchantress
but all you can tell me is
your sorry i shed tears
if you really cared
youd hold me, whipe away my salty fears
carresing my cheek
like some deppressing game
undying black love
and truthfull lack of fame
naricacistic empathy,
and my pathetic youth
each black lie you have told me
revealing some amount of truth
containment of heartache
causing me to cave into sin
living in my corner
never showing you the way in
i cant take this sorrow
which burns in my veins
they say i wont do it
that i just complain
but when you toy with these emotions
and drive me insane
i get the urge to take the plunge
to bring about pain
this self defense
only backfires now
bringing blood to this knife
bringing tears to this vow
undress me and see me
for all that i am
step up here and love me
dont cry, be a man
untamed and wild
s'what you tell me you are
why do you find glory
in every scar?
take away your mirror
your in love with your reflection
stop smoting her
you wont find perfection
you think i cant handle
this life at this pace
soon ill be gone
wont leave any trace
burn my fears
the embers flying in my face
emotions you have stolen
years wont ever replace
did you knwo you used to be my hero...
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2003 9 December :: 3.50pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: right thurr
well, today was not a bad day at all but not a good day. i went to school and what not and then got wendys on the way home then got home,ate it, and talked on the phone with amy for a while. now im on the computer and yeah i have nothing to do. my mom is picking my sisters up tonight cuz my dad has to help his girlfriend with some fashion show fundraiser shes doing. my dad never helped my mom with anything like that but whatever. i have nothing to do tonight. tomorrow is wednesday....THIS WEEK IS GOING SO SLOW! i dont know what im doing next weekend but whatever.
i like him soo much!!!
ex.oh.ex<3
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2003 8 December :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: everlast
What It's Like
We've all seen a man at the liquor store beggin' for your change
The hair on his face is dirty, dread-locked, and full of mange
He asks a man for what he could spare, with shame in his eyes
"Get a job you ****ing slob," is all he replies
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues
Then you really might know what it's like...
Then you really might know what it's like...
Then you really might know what it's like...
Then you really might know what it's like...
Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom that said he was in love
He said, "Don't worry about a thing, baby doll
I'm the man you've been dreaming of."
But 3 months later he say he won't date her or return her calls
And she swear, "God damn, if I find that man I'm cuttin' off his balls."
And then she heads for the clinic and
she gets some static walking through the door
They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner
and they call her a whore
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
'cause then you really might know what it's like to have to choose
Chorus
I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the downside of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
And smoked the finest green
I stroked the fattest dimes at least a couple of times
before I broke their heart
You know where it ends, yo, it usually depends on where you start
I knew this kid named Max
He used to get fat stacks out on the corner with drugs
He liked to hang out late
he liked to get shit-faced and keep the pace with thugs
Until late one night there was a big gun fight and Max lost his head
He pulled out his chrome .45, talked some shit, and wound up dead
Now his wife and his kids are caught in the midst of all of this pain
You know it crumbles that way
at least that's what they say when you play the game
God forbid you ever had to wake up to hear the news
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to lose
Then you really might know what it's like...
Then you really might know what it's like...
Then you really might know what it's like...to have to lose
This is a really good song cuz its rite..... don't go sayign shit when u don't knwo what ur talkin about... im not even gonna get into it but people who run there mouth and then cant admit who they are are just gay and shoudl die. Don't go saying shit when obv ur a pussy for not saying who u r or a dumb nasty cunt that i could make fun of to. ill show u howmuch of a "slut" i really am just tell me who u are..... oh yea and if just to let u know a kiss that ment nothin is nothin and u need to get out more often if u think im a slut and a horrble person for kissing him when plenty of wore things have happen with other people... so just fuck off ur gay u can't even say who u are so ur not worth my time faggot ass bitches!
on another note...
today was fun!! Manda Kelsey Candice and I went sledding at Walnut hill lol it was fun!!.. then we took are fat asses ofer to McDonalds:-):-DYUMMY! lol i havent been there is sooo long... then afterwe went back to my house ate and watched a video of me Candice and Emily in liek 4ht grade!!! It was soooo funny!! then after theat Candice went home and Manda Kelsey and i met up with Jimmy Robbie and Mike.. and we jsut kinda sat around and did ntohgin but it was fun...... now im off to go do homework:-(
~Toodles
*Lizzy Lizzy Coco Puff*
Haha i love being a dork!!!
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2003 8 December :: 9.00pm
Wow! You're Candice!
All the guys go ga-ga for you. You're very kind and
sweet to everyone you meet. You're subpar at
playing an instrument compared to the others,
but ability isn't everything right?
What kind of band geek are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
horray im candice!! wow thats kinda scarey...
lol well this morning i got up at 7:30 and got ready to go to lizzys bright and early then i went sledding at walnut hill with liz, candi and kelsey.. then we went to mcdonalds then back to liz's and watched movies hahah oh yes it was exilerating i have been out of my house for over 12 hours
im gonna go daddys yelling...
- manda
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2003 8 December :: 11.05am
waiting
this is really wrong if u ask me but idk:-/
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