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HEY THERE, i KNOW iTS HARD TO FEEL LiKE i DONT CARE AT ALL. WHERE YOU ARE AND HOW YOU FELL. WiTH THESE LiGHTS OFF AS THESE WHEELS KEEP ROLLiNG ON AND ON. SLOW THiNGS DOWN OR SPEED TEHM UP. NOT ENOUGH OR WAY TOO MUCH. HOW ARE YOU WHEN iM GONE?

 

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XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 29 June :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: 'nO BetTeR lOveE by YoUnG GUnZ

MuH sKaTeR bOiiS rUle!!!

HeYy sWeEts!!! OmG.. wEnT tO mArKs HoUsE anD cHiiLlEd tHeRe tiiLl BoUt 7.. yEaH.. iiT wAs CoOl.. brYaN wAs tHeRe anD sO wAs DoN.. tHeY aRe sO fUnNy.. ii wAs UpSeT aNd eVErYthiiNg sO tHeY kEpT fAlliiNg OfF tHeiiR sKatEbOaRd jUsS tO maKe mE lAuGh.. iiTs tHaT sWeEt!! wElL iiMa gO...

* MuChaS aMore *
xO `Ama ' nda´ xO

If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 29 June :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: 'Nuttin' by No One

Work SuckS
hEyY sWeEts!! aT wOrK.. JusS a QuiiCk uPdAteE.. BeAcH iin ThReE wEeKs.. YaY!!! iim So hApPy.. oKaY.. iiTs BeN sO bOriiNg LaTeLy.. mIIy SIIsTeEr IIs CoMiiN hOmE juLy 11 anD lEaViiNg the 25.. ii MiiTeE gO wIf HeEr wEll gOttA gO bEfOrE sUm OnE cOmEeS.. anD sEeS mEe.. ttyl.

*muchas * aMoRe * lUv yAz!! MaNdiiE

If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 27 June :: 12.08am
:: Mood: SHITTY
:: Music: 'Leave Dat Boy Alone' by D12

Broken Hearts Is The Worst Thing About Being In Love
okay.. so today sucks.. really sucks... i just found out my uncle jimmy is locked up AGAIN.. and the boy i 'like' goes out with sum one.. Crdabko : jon is soo taken ... so yeah today TOTALLY sucks.. and worst of all.. there is NOTHING i can do bout any of this... Every one i kno has some one that they call cal their.. cept christa.. and she is like the ONLY person that can understand me.. but im not sure she can understand me rite now.. i cant even undetstand myself.. any way.. every one has sum where to go tomorrow.. but me.. of course.. thats how every thing in this life of mine works.. every one has fun.. and i dnt.. boo hoo.. I FUCKIN HATE.. every one that is HAPPY needs to FUCKING die.. maybe this just isnt my day.. and the only thing is.. it just FUCKING started.. well maybe i will write later.. maybe..

1 Are a liar.. + | If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 17 June :: 12.36am
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: `Nadda´ by.. some one.. ha

Another Day Full Of Lies And Tears

*tOdAiiY*
weEnt tO wOrk.. bOriiNn.. whiicH ii mAy sAy sO miiY seLf.. thEenN caMeE hOmEe aNd aTeE a NaStY diiNnEeR.. thEenN taLkeEd ChRiisTa fOr a whiiLeE.. thEeN wAtCheEd sOmEe TV.. thEeN liiStEeNd tO muSic..

*KeElLii-beElLii*
OmG.. ii lOveE yEeW sO mUcH.. yEeW arEe thEe beEsT friiEeNd a giiRl caN hAvEe.. DnT wOrRiiy bOuT chRiiS.. hEe wiiLl cOmEe arOuNd sOon.. iiM aLwAyS hErE fOr yOu Nd yOu knOw tHaT.. wElL ii wiiLl tAlK tO yOu tOmOrrOw.. bOiiY taLk!! haHa.. ilU aAf nMw WaMh 2tDiiD tTeOt

*KriiStEeN-biiStEeN*
OmG.. iiTs bEeN rEaLl.. hAhA.. PENIS.. hAhA.. ilU mOrE thEn ii loVe miiySeLf.. ii wOulD dO anY thiiNg tO heLp yOu aNd ii kNow yOu wiiLl dO thEe SaMeE fOr mEe.. iim So gLad ThAt wEe ArEe FriiEnDs.. dOnT wOrRiiY.. mEe AnD wiiLl fiiNd tHaT sPeCaiiL sOmEonEe SoOn.. iiM aLwAyS hErE fOr yOu Nd yOu knOw tHaT.. wElL ii wiiLl tAlK tO yOu tOmOrrOw.. bOiiY taLk!! haHa.. ilU aAf nMw WaMh 2tDiiD tTeOt

*KeEr-BeEr*
OmG.. meE AnD yOu.. lAtEe NiTe TaLkS aLl sUmMeEr lOnG.. iTs bEeN rEaLl.. HoEeEeE!!!.. lOl .. sO mUcH fUn.. wEe gOtteEn sO clOsEe tHiiS yEeAr.. aNd ii KnOw thAt WeE arEe miilEs ApArTt fOr thEe suMmEr bUt.. AfTeEr A wHiiLe.. wEe wiiLl bEe tOgEeTheEr aGaiiNn.. GoOd lUcK wiiTh bObbiiY..iiM aLwAyS hErE fOr yOu Nd yOu knOw tHaT.. wElL ii wiiLl tAlK tO yOu tOmOrrOw.. bOiiY taLk!! haHa.. ilU aAf nMw WaMh 2tDiiD tTeOt

*sEeLlE-bEeLlE*
WeE aReE sO bAd wHeEn WeE arEe wiiTh EeACh oTHeR.. wEe hAvEe GOtT rEaL clOsE thiiS yEeAr.. hOpeE iitS bEeN gOoD dOwN thErE iiN oLd TEXAS.. ii miiSs yOu sO mUcH.. Nd dO mEe A biiG fAvOr.. DnT gEt HuRt RiiDiiNn AnY hOrSeEs... ii DnT wAnNa HaVeE tO fLy tO TEXAS tO sEe yOu iiN thEe HosPiitaL.. lOl.. iiM aLwAyS hErE fOr yOu Nd yOu knOw tHaT.. wElL ii wiiLl tAlK tO yOu tOmOrrOw.. bOiiY taLk!! haHa.. ilU aAf nMw WaMh 2tDiiD tTeOt

wEll iitS gEttiiNn LaTeE.. taLk tOo PeEoPleE tOmOrrOw..

-» LOvE yAz!!! «-
-» Ama`nda «-

If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 16 June :: 10.47am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: 'Addicted' by Simple Plan

Another Day Goes By Without A Change In You And I

Okay.. KeEr-BeEr iis deEaD theE neExt tiimEe ii sEe theE shiiYt.. sHeE calleEd meE wAy to eARlly fOr miiY taSteE.. but whateVEr.. thatS keWl ..

*LasTniiTeE*

WeEnt To tHeE moviiEeS.. ii ThiNk ii tOld yOu tHaT.. iim nOt suReE.. but anY wAy.. meE and DanNiiy haD a lOng TaLk lAsT niiTeE.. ii wAs uP tiiLl liikEe 4 taLkiiNn tO hiiM..

*tOdaY*
GottA gO tO wOrK.. eEwwWwW.. ii rEeAlliiy Dnt WaNt tO buT ii goTta gO.. tHeN ii dNt NoW.. sO yEeAh preEttiiY mucH nO OnE wAntS tO dO anY thiiNng tOdAy..

*TomOrrOw*
WoRk aGaiin.. thEn cOmiiNn hOmEe aNd caLLiinN sTefAnii tO sEe iif ShEe wAntS tO dO anY thiinNg oN fRiidAy.. HopFulliiY shEe doEeS.. cuz ii WaNna gO tO thEe MaLL.. whiicH meEanS ima nEeD moNeY.. haHa..

*FriiDayY*
PAy DaiiY.. ha Ha.. WeEll.. nO pLaNs yEt.. BuT ii Wiill KeEp yA uPdAtEd On ThiiS..

*SaTuRdAiiYy*
HaVeE nO cLuEe.. ii ThiinK ii hEaRd miiY mOm SayYiiNn ThAt wEe MaY gO sEe miiYy mOmmOm anD pOppOp.. thATs gOiiNn tO bEe fUn..

*SuNdAyY*
SlEePiiNn

SoO thErE.. thAtS iiS wHaT iim DoiiNn aLl WeEk.. WeEll immA gO iiTs AlMoSt tiimEe tO gO tO wOrK..

×º× LovE yAz!!! ׺×
-» Ama`nda «-

If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 15 June :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: 'Someday' by Nickleback

You've Taught Me Alot, Without Saying Much..

oMg.. TodaY was soO boOriinN.. ii hAd toO goO toO woOrk at oOneE and i gOt ofF at fiiveE.. but thAts AlL riTeE.. ii geEt paiiD goOd moNeEiiy.. weEll.. i got theE beEst neEws tOday.. *CaRlY iiS cOomiiNn HomEe* iim sO happiiy.. iits goiinN tOo beE craziiy haveEiinN heEr bAck HeErEe..

*LaStNiiteE*
weEnt toO theE moviieEs wif miiy KeEllii-BeEllii.. iits was soO funniiy.. wEe wEerEe standiinN iiNn liinEe waiitiiNn tOo gEeT theE tiickeEts nD kElLii was liikEe "isNnt tHats giirL FAT!!!" and theE giiRl shEe was talkiiNn tOo heEarD heEr.. omg... thiis Lady was SO biig.. sheE prolly would takEe up liikeE 2 or moReE chAiirs iiNn thEe theEatrEe.. iim sOo mEeaN.. but iit was FunniiY.. yOu reEalliiY shOuLd haVeE bEeNn thEerEe... thEen whEen weE weEreE leEaviiNn wEe ran iit tOo thEeseE seExiiy ASS boiiys.. OMG.. theEiiy wEerEe sOo cutEe.. and thEeiiy wOuldnt lEeT us siit OuTsiideE biiy OursEvleEs.. sOo thEeiiy sAt thEeReE wiith Us.. iit wAs sOoOoOoOo niiCeE oOf theEm.. WhEen wE gOt toO keEllis housEe.. thEerEe wErE thEseE tWo giRls OUtsiiDeE and ThEeiiy StarTeEd yEeLLiinN at KeEllii.. and ShEe isNt thEe BeEsT pEeRsonN toO YeEll at.. but ii diidnt StaY tO fiiNd out..

*TodAy*
kEeLLi cAllEeD at liikEe 8 somEeThiinN and tOlD meE whAt hAppEeNedD afTeEr ii LeEft.. hEer and thEe oneE giirl gOt iin A hugEe fiiTeE aNd mOmMy hAd to BreEak iiT up.. ThEeN i WeEnt tO wOrK.. thEn CamEe hOMeE atEe and wEnt tO juStiinS housEe.. hEes A craziiy onE toO.. but iim Not gOiiNn ToO wRiiteE why Cuz ii gEt gOiiNn..

love ya cutiiEeS..
-» Ama`nda «-

If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 14 June :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: 'Sweetest Sin' by Jessica Simpson

From Candy And Toys 2 Celly Phones And Boys *
omg.. ii loveE my frieEnds so much.. theEy areE so sweEt.. weEll fiirst of all KeEr-BeEar ii loveE yeEw swEetiEe.. iits beEn reEal geEting to kno you.. Chriista yeEw areE theE only onE pEeRson that can makeE meE laugh liikeE yeEw do.. iim so glad that ii haveE friieEnds liikeE yeEw two..

okay.. yeEsteErday was so crazii.. chriista theEreE to many HOTT ASS guyZz.. lol.. and whats up wiith theE liittleE kidSz.. ha ha.. weE haveE takeE theEm walksS morEe.. KeEr-BeEar neEveEr agaiin.. that was to lateE for meE.. iim prolly goiin to pay for that lateEr.. bUt thats keEwl..

Today was so much fun.. chriista watch your haiir.. ha ha.. iim stiill laughiin bout that.. ha ha.. told you.. lol.. iim so weriid.. riite?? woot woot.. ha ha lol

Justiin iima piimeEtteE so you beEtteEr watch out.. ha ha.. lol.. i lovEe yeEu
JonY ii lovEe yeEu.. you areE my pimp.. for eEveEr
KeEr-BeEr weE arEe gangtas for lyfeE.. ii loveE yeEw hunniieE
LaureEn and MeEghan ii lovEe yeEw twO deEath.. thiis summa is goiin to beE so much fun.. keEp iit ReEal

Summer 2004
* giirls jus wanna haveE fun *
Liiviin iit up

havEe a crazii summa.. ii kno ii wiill

<3 *׺-»AmA`nDa«-º×*

If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 14 June :: 5.18pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Nothing

im back..
omg.. okay.. i wasnt going to use this one that much any more.. but im going to this.. it is the easiest to use.. my so pissed at the damn sites for my other 2 journals. it wont let me change the title at the top of the page like on the bar. and its look ugly the way it was so im back on here. at least i kno how to use this one. plus i paid for this one. so yeah. i want to get a thing on dead journal but i dnt kno who has it that can get me a code cept stef and she cant do it cuz of the controls.. well ima go my mom is home.. <3 amanda

If I'm just bad news..


xvivaxlabamxfanx

:: 2004 14 June :: 11.16am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: nothing

eh
ok.. so yeah.. i havent updated this in a while.. and i might not be able to update this for a while.. ive gotten grounded off of everything.. and im soon reporting my mom for the fuckin weed. so who ever reads this.. im telling you now that i might not be on for a while..

and jay.. ur are NOT hideous!! =D
-x-

6 Are a liar.. + | If I'm just bad news..


XuNsPoKeNxFeArSzX

:: 2004 13 June :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Breakup 2 Makeup

Summer is finally here
okay.. i kno i havent written in here like a really long time but i have been busy.. sleeping school work homework eatting nd all the other stuff.. i dnt have much time any more.. but its finally SUMMER!!! yea.. but its been kinda bored.. im trying to get christa to come out but she is never on and i dnt feel like going over house.. but i want to take a walk in the graveyard or sum thing. but you kno.. i dnt want to go by myself.. maybe she will coem out side today.. i dont thnk she will but yea..
omg.. im so confused.. i hate the word *love* i mean.. im not really sure what it means but i mean.. some times you just kno how you feel. you kno?.. but see... i REALLY sum one but i cant get this other person off my mind and i have idea what to do. yo can prolly guess who im talking about. that person you prolly dnt kno.. well thats okay... i will find out how i feel..
i wish there was really a place like neverland.. and i wish there was a boy named peter pan and really could fly.. and i wish i could be like wendy and go away to neverland.. i mean.. just to get away fom this place and never come back.. then i wont have to deal with FEELINGS.. they really suck and i cant handle it any more.. i want to die so bad.. but i dnt want to do any thing stupid to hurt any one else.. so i dnt kno.. myabe i just need to get away from this place for a while.. maybe wheni go to to the beach i could meet a boy that can make forget about every thing that is here.. in chichester.. i mean.. thats all i need.. is to meet sum that i really like and they feel the same way about me. but that will happen.. will it.. it would a dream come ture if i did.. any way im going to get going..
<3 amanda

If I'm just bad news..


xvivaxlabamxfanx

:: 2004 3 June :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Blink 182

..i swear that i can go on forever again..
ok.. so me and Lena just had a wonderful talk. lol, ya kno.. im glad she started talkin to me.. i feel as tho shes one of the only ones that actually understand me, and have some of the same views as me.. i hope she dont mind that im gonna put the convo in here..

GE r l g I r MS: hey
GE r l g I r MS: whats up
zgo0dcharlottez: hey
zgo0dcharlottez: n2m
zgo0dcharlottez: getting myself into fights
zgo0dcharlottez: other than that.. nothing
zgo0dcharlottez: u?
GE r l g I r MS: sorry about the other day i had an appointment thinger at child guidance 1230 and those things last long cause i was getting evaluated
GE r l g I r MS: with who?
GE r l g I r MS: nothing just got in now im doing nothing
GE r l g I r MS: just...perspiring
zgo0dcharlottez: i got threats from candace.. ive been fighting with josh since yesterday.. and now i got my closest friend flipping out on me
GE r l g I r MS: wow what was candace saying
zgo0dcharlottez: that she was gonna beat me up
GE r l g I r MS: she probably wont
GE r l g I r MS: like
GE r l g I r MS: if she has no reason to
zgo0dcharlottez: and while i was down there tryin to watch those girls.. i got "Yo! Shreks so manly!! Shrek, you look like a man!"
GE r l g I r MS: then she wouldnt
GE r l g I r MS: dont listen to anyone
GE r l g I r MS: but what you think is right
zgo0dcharlottez: and when we went to walk them home, some boy rode up to us on his skateboard and was like "yo candace said she was gonna fight shrek"
GE r l g I r MS: thats one thing ive learned
zgo0dcharlottez: and theyd say that and id be "o0o theres a new one"
zgo0dcharlottez: about the manly and fat thing
GE r l g I r MS: i hate that like when im friends with someone and another and they dnot like eachother
GE r l g I r MS: its weird
zgo0dcharlottez: yea i get that all the time
zgo0dcharlottez: like whats his name.. who was in charge of the kids.. he came up to where me and felicia were on the swings, and shes goes "what the fuck were they saying down there? i kno they were talkin about steff, what were they saying" so hes like "yea, they were all like 'poseur' and 'it looks like she wearing an intertube"" and i mean.. the fat shit dont bother me.. i kno im big.. and i dont hate it! lol
GE r l g I r MS: its kind of immature and petty of them to be saying that shit
GE r l g I r MS: well
GE r l g I r MS: it is
GE r l g I r MS: like i dunno
GE r l g I r MS: wehn im aroudn them i jsut dont say anything
GE r l g I r MS: i just think its dumb of them to make fun of someone they dont even know
GE r l g I r MS: and dont even take the time to get to know
zgo0dcharlottez: thats what that boy was doing.. well.. he said he laughed and he couldnt help it.. and i didnt care coz i laughed too.. i laughed coz they actually think that it offends me
GE r l g I r MS: what boy
zgo0dcharlottez: and thats what i say, they're sitting there judging me like they kno me.. and the only thing they really kno is my name and the type of clothes i wear
zgo0dcharlottez: the one with the girls
GE r l g I r MS: eaxactly
GE r l g I r MS: oh i dont know which that was
zgo0dcharlottez: ..uhh.. goalie
GE r l g I r MS: dan?
zgo0dcharlottez: no.. i think chris?
GE r l g I r MS: i dont know
GE r l g I r MS: you cant really tell who people are under those goalie suits
zgo0dcharlottez: lol yeah
zgo0dcharlottez: and while we were walkin away.. he was like "im gonna get all this shit coz of them seeing me walking with you" and i was like "well.. if they say shit or ignor you for hanging with whoever you want to hang with.. then they're not good friends"
GE r l g I r MS: exactly
GE r l g I r MS: people are dumb to like
GE r l g I r MS: follow rules of what tro wear or who to hang out with or what bands to like
GE r l g I r MS: its so dumb to me
zgo0dcharlottez: and think they're better than everyone when they're acually not
GE r l g I r MS: yup
GE r l g I r MS: its liek
zgo0dcharlottez: and yea.. im not gonna sto listening to a band i like just because THEY dont like them and im not gonna listen to a band i hate just coz THEY listen to them
zgo0dcharlottez: *stop
GE r l g I r MS: you must not be that good of a person if youre going to sit there and put someone down who you dont even know
GE r l g I r MS: just to hurt their feelings
GE r l g I r MS: exactly
zgo0dcharlottez: or at least think youre hurting their feelings
GE r l g I r MS: how is taht being a poser?
GE r l g I r MS: yeah
GE r l g I r MS: i dotn think youre a poser
GE r l g I r MS: thats one thing i dont like
GE r l g I r MS: theyre like
zgo0dcharlottez: i dont think anyone is poseur.. well.. cept for avril.. coz she called herself something that shes not.. otherwise (besides avril) i dont beleive int he word poseur
GE r l g I r MS: being all.... clique-y
zgo0dcharlottez: YES "clique-y" is the PERFECT way to describe them
GE r l g I r MS: i do only when i see people trying to fit into a certain social group or whatever say someone just dressing a certain way and listening to a certain music jsut to fit in with certain people
GE r l g I r MS: yup
GE r l g I r MS: like
GE r l g I r MS: people who try to be all gangsta
GE r l g I r MS: like wear the white tees and lsiten to nigger msuic and think oh im so cool and gangsta
zgo0dcharlottez: they stay within their own circle of friends and put down anyone whos they think is trying to be them.. when they're just not
GE r l g I r MS: yeah
GE r l g I r MS: like
GE r l g I r MS: how would they feel
zgo0dcharlottez: like.. half of them i could care less.. but some are like "well.. why does THAT ONE hate me" ya kno? i mean.. i dont have a problem with them.. and few have found that out.. like you and kevin.. and candace at first.. till kevin started talkin to me at work
GE r l g I r MS: yeah
GE r l g I r MS: thats why im like
GE r l g I r MS: if anyone doesnt want to talk to me cause im your friend
GE r l g I r MS: they can fuck off
GE r l g I r MS: cause ill be friends with whoever i want
zgo0dcharlottez: yeah, and that shows what a great friend they are to you, respecting your choices. they blow ppl off when they dont do what they would do
GE r l g I r MS: yeah
zgo0dcharlottez: i mean.. even with robyn and crystal.. me and crystal became a lil close at youth group.. and we'd talk and stuff.. and i let her borrow my boots for a concert and stuff.. and the one youth group thing im talkin to her and robyn and i tell them how at the time i liked frank.. and they didnt say anything.. then that monday i walk past robyn and frank in the hallway to my class and robyn goes "hey, there goes your girl friend"
GE r l g I r MS: thats dumb
GE r l g I r MS: oh well they are the ones being close minded and missing out
zgo0dcharlottez: lol yeah. being open minded opens you up to different situations and different turff so to say.. being close minded only keeps you in one sopt and those people wont get very far
zgo0dcharlottez: *spot
GE r l g I r MS: yup

1 Are a liar.. + | If I'm just bad news..


xvivaxlabamxfanx

:: 2004 3 June :: 8.07pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: AFI

woah..
mkay.. first.. i went to the park with fee and i had all them down there shoutin stuff at me and all i was tryin to do was babysit these two girls with felicia.. and supposedly i had candace treaten to beat me up... ya kno, whatever, if they were gonna beat me up, they wouldve done it right there.

so yea.. heres more on the fight:

Aguileraskeys: wyf
Aguileraskeys: wtf*
zgo0dcharlottez: wtf what?
Aguileraskeys: why the fuck did u print the fucken convo WE HAD and show it all ut so called friends?
Aguileraskeys: how mature is that
Aguileraskeys: yea i went to the 9/10 with .. a big mistake
Aguileraskeys: get over it and DONT EVER do that petty shit ever again
Aguileraskeys: u thought i mean yesterday.. u can get worest
zgo0dcharlottez: heres a hint.. ever heard of english?
Aguileraskeys: heres a hint
Aguileraskeys: grow up
Aguileraskeys: why the fuck would u do that dumb sht
Aguileraskeys: shit*
Aguileraskeys: ia m graduating in less then a week and u WANNA RUIN my image at chi
Aguileraskeys: FUCK CHI
Aguileraskeys: and at this point fuck u
zgo0dcharlottez: and thats supposed to insult me?
Aguileraskeys: so if u wanna be "cool" and print out what the fuck i say.. u kno what do so.. cause ull like the ass
Aguileraskeys: so AS I SAID B4 grow the fuck up and get a man that doesnt liek dick.. NO GAY GUY WANTS A STRIAGHT FEMALE AS A LOVER.. get it thru ur head
zgo0dcharlottez: how many fuckign times do i have to tell you i dont fucking like you
Aguileraskeys: im gay and NEVER will like u and u need to understand that
Aguileraskeys: go head tell all ur "cool" friends that i am an ass
zgo0dcharlottez: you are an ass
Aguileraskeys: cause they are all basically 12 anyway
zgo0dcharlottez: and they can see that
Aguileraskeys: i am damn near a grown man
Aguileraskeys: FUCK THEM
Aguileraskeys: i am goin to COLLEGE
zgo0dcharlottez: so.. grown men can be ass holes too
Aguileraskeys: i dont care about some dumb ass freshamn
zgo0dcharlottez: aww but you seemed to with alex a while ago
Aguileraskeys: WITH ALEX?
Aguileraskeys: never was WITH ALEX
Aguileraskeys: ever..
Aguileraskeys: so dont say shit u cant back up
zgo0dcharlottez: o, im sorry i didnt save that e-mail
Aguileraskeys: yea cause ur a fucken stalker
zgo0dcharlottez: uhhm.. no
zgo0dcharlottez: dont think so
Aguileraskeys: bitch please, i was never wth alex and why would u bring that shit up...
Aguileraskeys: GROW UP
Aguileraskeys: i am a 18 year old man and dont need this dumb shit goin on.. find some other guy that uwanna be wierd around.. cause u need to get a life and MOVE ON
Aguileraskeys: 9/10 MWAS DAMN NEAR 3 MONTHS AGO
zgo0dcharlottez: i have a life.. not a good one.. but i have one.. and i have moved on..
Aguileraskeys: yea an printed out shit so pl can read it
zgo0dcharlottez: the only thing i was pissed off about was you lieing.. then you had to go and make it more
Aguileraskeys: real good life.. u moved on.. yea and im straight
zgo0dcharlottez: all you had to fuckin say was that "yea, ok, i went" and i wouldve been fine.. but then you had to drag all the other shit on
Aguileraskeys: i lied and i would lie agin if i was there again
Aguileraskeys: get over alot of ppl will lie to in ur life
Aguileraskeys: MOVE ON and dont be petty about it
Aguileraskeys: so tommorrw as im PRACTICING for graduation.. something u wont do for years, I DONT WANT TO hear form someone.. so petty bitch was showin ppl theses papers..
Aguileraskeys: CAUSE THAT WILL MAKE MY DAY
zgo0dcharlottez: wow.. one day.. on fucking day will be ruined for you.. but you werent the one that had to go every fuckin thing i went through.. everything that didnt even include you.. so dont go and judge me makin my life seem hell of a lot better than yours, coz trust me, its not
Aguileraskeys: i dont care. sry i dont..
zgo0dcharlottez: a lot of people dont
Aguileraskeys: all i want is u to get over it.. i LIED
Aguileraskeys: i fucken lied
Aguileraskeys: dont pull teh guilt trip on me
Aguileraskeys: about u ahvein a bad life
Aguileraskeys: cause my life is no apple in the sun
Aguileraskeys: ok so pass it over to someone else
zgo0dcharlottez: what the fuck could be so bad in ur life that makes it worse than mine?
Aguileraskeys: bitch i was sexually abuse when i was 5 until i was 8.. and then my mom cheated on my dad for 5 years and i couldnt tell my dad
Aguileraskeys: my dad hits me
Aguileraskeys: so anything to say to that>
zgo0dcharlottez: ok .. thats family.. i have family shit too.. like my druggie mom and bitchy dad.. but i mean, at least at school you have like a ton of friends that actually care about you and shit
Aguileraskeys: no i dont
Aguileraskeys: where ami right now?
Aguileraskeys: HOME
Aguileraskeys: SO I HAVE FRIENDS
Aguileraskeys: YEA
Aguileraskeys: SO GET OVER IT
Aguileraskeys: WEL ALL HAVE IT BAD
zgo0dcharlottez: yea i am over it.. and im done this fuckin internet fighting.. if you have anything else more to say.. you kno where i live
Aguileraskeys: IS THATA THREAT?
Aguileraskeys: OMG.. GROW UP
zgo0dcharlottez: i didnt see it that way.. but i guess you do
Aguileraskeys signed off at 7:34:19 PM.

zgo0dcharlottez: wow.. again he blocks me before i get my last sentence in
alexholzbaur: u people need to quit it, but hez right, hiz life iz kinda bad
zgo0dcharlottez: well.. as he said.. we all have bad lives..
just certain ppl get different ends of it ya kno? so i didnt go thru the shit he did.. but he hasnt been thru the shit ive been thru either
alexholzbaur: tru
zgo0dcharlottez: so as they say.. to each his own
zgo0dcharlottez: and the last thing i was gonna tell him.. then i was gonna block him.. was this: all im saying is if you got anything else tosay.. come say it to my face and not behind the computer screen.
alexholzbaur: smart
zgo0dcharlottez: why thank you
zgo0dcharlottez: =)
zgo0dcharlottez: coz i was like "yea i am over it.. and im done this fuckin internet fighting.. if you have anything else more to say.. you kno where i live"
zgo0dcharlottez: adn he wa slike "is that a THREAT?"
zgo0dcharlottez: "OMG GROW UP"
zgo0dcharlottez: then he blocked me
alexholzbaur: smart on hiz part to. I kno that ur mad at him, but hez really not that bad of a person. I mean, he has hiz flawz, but so doez everyone else. When u raelly get to kno him, he can be a really sweet person
zgo0dcharlottez: i thought i knew him.. i thought he WAS nice.. then all this shit happened
zgo0dcharlottez: and i didnt even mean it as a threat
zgo0dcharlottez: he TOOK IT as a threat
zgo0dcharlottez: all i was saying was that he knew where i lived if he had anything more tosay
alexholzbaur: he still iz tho, u just never gave him the chance for u to get to kno him
zgo0dcharlottez: he felt weird around me.. like hes gonna want me to get to know him
alexholzbaur: idk
zgo0dcharlottez: took u that long to type that
alexholzbaur: sry
zgo0dcharlottez: i gave him plenty chances for us to become better friends.. and he either ignored me when we went somewhere.. or ditched me and blew me off
alexholzbaur: lol
alexholzbaur: sometimez he WUZ actully buzy, lyke with the moviez
zgo0dcharlottez: no.. i mean... when we all went to tom jones that thursday night of the play.. then ditching me at the 9/10... and blowing me off for tom jones
zgo0dcharlottez: i could care less about the movie date.. that was more of a thing to set felicia up with rick
alexholzbaur: idk, no one will ever understand that kid, but you kno that hez not usually lyke that. Just appologize and give it one more shot...
zgo0dcharlottez: FUCK NO
zgo0dcharlottez: i aint apologizing for shit
alexholzbaur: but hez deff. worth it
zgo0dcharlottez: if he wanted to be my friend.. then hed fuckin apologize for starting this whole fight..
zgo0dcharlottez: then IF.. thats a BIGG if.. if he does apologize for that.. then ill apologize for letting TWO people read that conversation
alexholzbaur: which two?
zgo0dcharlottez: besides social studies class.. my friend at the bus stop and brittny sutherland
zgo0dcharlottez: but i tell brittany everything.. its not like shes gonna go tell someone
alexholzbaur: 'cept danei
zgo0dcharlottez: like danei cares about my shit? and why would brittany tell danei about my shit?
alexholzbaur: she tellz danei EVERYTHING
zgo0dcharlottez: well whos danei gonna tell then
alexholzbaur: idk, steph schriber?
zgo0dcharlottez: woah, big whoop.. steph scrieber
alexholzbaur: lmao
zgo0dcharlottez: its not like they're telling nicole or someone
alexholzbaur: nicole who>
alexholzbaur: ?*
zgo0dcharlottez: cinaglia
zgo0dcharlottez: or jess salvey
zgo0dcharlottez: ya kno.. someone who sees josh on a regular basis
alexholzbaur: hez not talkin' to either of them really
zgo0dcharlottez: well.. they are the only two i can think of right now.. idk whos hes still cool with or what not
alexholzbaur: ohhh
zgo0dcharlottez: but yeah.. like i said.. im sick of the internet fighting.. is hes got more to say, im home and he knows where i live
alexholzbaur: lmao
zgo0dcharlottez: seriously ... i saw this pic of this kid wining the special olympics.. and the quote said "internet fighting is like winning the special olympics... you may win, but ur still retarted"
alexholzbaur: LMAO
zgo0dcharlottez: yea i thought it was funny too
alexholzbaur: lol
zgo0dcharlottez: but yea.. did u tell him that? or is he really off?
alexholzbaur: hez really off
zgo0dcharlottez: mkay
alexholzbaur: yupperz
alexholzbaur: g2g
alexholzbaur: ttyl
zgo0dcharlottez: kk ttyt


time to get another pic of him and burn it at the busstop tomorrow morning.. AGAIN

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xvivaxlabamxfanx

:: 2004 2 June :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: mix.. GC Superman Cant Walk

Josh
well this week sucks..
first, my friend wasnt where i was to meet her yesterday, then i had to walk home in the cold hard rain.. i keep having visions of my date on saturday screwing up.. first off with him not showing up..
then i just got into a HUGE fight with josh and sorry to dissapoint some.. we did NOT make up..


Aguileraskeys: really?
Auto response from BeNJiSout2getMeE: ignoring an immature asshole
BeNJiSout2getMeE: yes really.
Aguileraskeys: why ?
Auto response from BeNJiSout2getMeE: ignoring an immature asshole
Aguileraskeys: u really need to grow up
Aguileraskeys: ACT UR AGE NOW UR SHOE SIZE
Aguileraskeys: IM GAY
Aguileraskeys: DONT WANT U AND never will sry
BeNJiSout2getMeE: o i need to grow up?
Aguileraskeys: and get over me if u like me
Aguileraskeys: i DONT WANT U
BeNJiSout2getMeE: i DONT like you
BeNJiSout2getMeE: i pissed that you lied
BeNJiSout2getMeE: *i'm
Aguileraskeys: i lied cause i felt wierd around u
Aguileraskeys: and felt bad
Aguileraskeys: so i HAD to drop u off
BeNJiSout2getMeE: well why didnt you just say you didnt feel like going
Aguileraskeys: i wanted to go.. BUT things got wierd
BeNJiSout2getMeE: you didnt have to make up a lame excuse about needing sleep
Aguileraskeys: i did though
Aguileraskeys: shit it worked
BeNJiSout2getMeE: yea, unitll that saturday
Aguileraskeys: well u got over it
BeNJiSout2getMeE: "oh stef, i saw josh at tom jones last night.. where were you?"
Aguileraskeys: well need to
Aguileraskeys: well get over
BeNJiSout2getMeE: if you had just said "ok yeah i went" then itd be fine, but u even had to lie about going
Aguileraskeys: when was that
Aguileraskeys: GET OVER IT!
Aguileraskeys: sry i am being rude
Aguileraskeys: btu i am beig real
Aguileraskeys: i am graduatin in less then a week
Aguileraskeys: i am over thsi high school petty shit
BeNJiSout2getMeE: you are being rude.. i thought u were a lot nicer than this
Aguileraskeys: i am nice
Aguileraskeys: BUT I HATE PETTY SHIT
BeNJiSout2getMeE: but im gonna tell you the same thing you told me. to get over it
Aguileraskeys: i am over it
Aguileraskeys: i could careless
Aguileraskeys: just dont say shit u cant back up
BeNJiSout2getMeE: wtf have i been saying that i cant back up?
Aguileraskeys: well u think
BeNJiSout2getMeE: if its not pointed out, then how am i supposed to know?
BeNJiSout2getMeE: yeah, thats what i thought
Aguileraskeys: no im over u
Aguileraskeys: SO GET OVER ME
BeNJiSout2getMeE: omfg, who the fuck siad i WASNT over you?
Aguileraskeys: well read ur away messge
Aguileraskeys: GET OVER IT
BeNJiSout2getMeE: o, you want me to delete that away message? ok.. done.
BeNJiSout2getMeE: happy now?
Aguileraskeys: so have fun in ur own lil world
Aguileraskeys signed off at 7:44 PM

zgo0dcharlottez: im sorry.. my world dosent include fun
zgo0dcharlottez: and im not that dumb to look at my other buddy list and see that u didnt sign off
Aguileraskeys: well make ie
Aguileraskeys: it
zgo0dcharlottez: i try, it doesnt seem to work
Aguileraskeys signed off at 7:47:03 PM.

Apartment xx 26: i try to make my world include fun.. but ignorant ppl just love tearing it down.. such as urself

SmellsLykeCheeze: oh... nothing to say?
Aguileraskeys: BO JUST NOT U
Aguileraskeys: no just not u
SmellsLykeCheeze: what?
Aguileraskeys: well this is what i have to say.. GET OVE IT
SmellsLykeCheeze: how many times do i have to say that i am
Aguileraskeys signed off at 7:51:00 PM.

iWontBEignoredLP: how many times do i have to tell you that i AM over it for you to fuckin beleive it?
aguileraskeys signed off at 7:53:44 PM.





zgo0dcharlottez: he keeps blocking me everytime i try to finish
alexholzbaur: lmao, I don't think u ever will, but let me try to get him to listen to u
alexholzbaur: he won't listen to u
alexholzbaur: o
alexholzbaur: well
alexholzbaur: get over it
alexholzbaur: thatz all u can do


heres somethin else i can do!:


and i can just tell the rest of this week is gonna keep going downhill from here...

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xvivaxlabamxfanx

:: 2004 2 June :: 9.05am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: finch.. the same song over.. and over.. and over..

duhh
omfg.. im so fucking stupid.. i didnt relize that this player was on "repeat track" and now.. with like, 5 minutes left of class.. i realize ive been playine track one for the past 35 minutes..

*looks at floor and shakes head*

im such a dumbass.. and i kno theres ppl that agree out there..

If I'm just bad news..


xvivaxlabamxfanx

:: 2004 2 June :: 7.09am
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: was Finch.. now the spinning of the fan.

this week.
ok.. first off i want to point out zachs kindness on my way into the library. I walked around the corner and i dropped my notebook while trying to do something in my bag. so i did this little step back thing while i finished what i was doing and he came up and picked it up for me.. hes so nice (well, when he wants to be). ya kno?

so anyways. i went to the sev yesterday after school. NO ONE.. i repeat NO ONE was up there. Steves mad at me for my live journal.. Lena never showed up.. so i started to walk with steve, b.j. (blech), dave and some other boy. They stopped at wendys then decided to go over someones house and at that time i decided to go home coz i didnt feel like having another incident of b.j. "getting back" with me and trying to feel me up.

and i felt sick yesterday.. i skipped lunch to get extra credit in social studies and i didnt each my frist meal yesterday till around 4 or 4:30. and it was a little sandwich.

oo.. jakes mad at me.. i think jays not talkin to me.. im writing copies of my poems to give to my ex b/f.. i keep thinking about my date this saturday (which makes me smile) then i think of all the things that could go wrong.. first off with him not showing..

-x-

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