:: 2003 6 August :: 10.35 pm
:: Mood: bitchy

oops. me feel bad
Hey everyone. Ok so, Amber is back from outta space! hehe.

I was talking to Jeremy and Mike on the phone and I wanted to have a nice conversation w/ Mike on the phone before he left to go to the keys for the rest of the summer. Well Jeremy and Mike kept talking and leaving me out. So i sat back and listened to them. (sigh) After like 20 minutes they finaly realized I was on the phone. Their like are u their michelle? I'm like oh, yeah now u remember me. I dunno I was being a bitch to Mike. I was all mellow and stupid and gay and evil. I was dissing on mike and stuff too. I was being an evil g/f. When we were saying good bye he's like I love u guys and i'm like ahuh w/e get off the phone.

I felt soo bad afterwards, But i dunno i was mad at him and just wanted to be a bitch. I just don't knwo why i did though. so weird.

Well tomorrow Jeremy is soppose to come over, so yeah.

I'll talk to u l8r or rather write or type later.

AndI

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:: 2003 5 August :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: surprised yo!

Yahoo!
I spent today w/ Mike and phil. It was fun. Mike is a TubuLAR dude yo! We layed around my house watching movies and t.v. Then we went into my room and Jesse (he was over 2) threw a tapon in my room! I was like ewww! Get it away! lol. Phil and mike grabbed it and putted it in water to c it expand and then they put ketchup on it to make it look like it had blood on it. Dude, that's gay. I was pissed at 'em for it. But w/e.

After Mike left phil cam w/ me to drum practice. It's OUR candy store. (Candycane lol) He ditched me for the guitars as soon as we stepped inside. After that we went to Jc Penny's. Fun place. Then we went home.

When I opened my front door My face lit up soo much. Phil sai dhe never saw it like that before.LOL. There right in my living room is a pearl drum set! I'm like wahoo! It's awesome yo.

So right now it's in my room, my very own drum set. I also have Phil's guitar in there too. He let me borrow it for 1 night. It's fun.
I'm in happiness right now.

Mike though. Boy he got me a lil mad. He's leaving for a week to go to the keys ya know? Well, he wanted to go to teh movies tonight at 10. I'm like no can do. My parents wont let me b/c their bums. Well He's there at the movie and i'm here. He could of gona sooner but no, he had to go at 10. He's w/ his sister and brother an dtheir g/f and b/f. Lucky him. He's the 5th wheel. Maybe he'll miss me. O knows? well his leaving tomorrow. Wont c him or hear him untill sunday. Tear but a smile. Smile b/c well i dunno. Ok, just a tear. lol. L8r home cats!

AndI

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:: 2003 5 August :: 8.57 am
:: Mood: blah

blah blah blah goes the Loser (that's me!)
Eyyy! Well I am just sittin here, being the bored one of the bunch. O well.

I got a letter from someone i met at camp:) and I was all happy u know like this :). Well I started to read the letter and my face went like this :( more and more soon I was all like this >:(). u know GRRRRdified.

The chick that sent me that letter didn't want to know whow i was doin, nooo of course not. Or to tell me that she misses me, noooo can't be that either. She wants my friends Levi's number,address and all that. Boy, i'm gonna throw that letter to him fo shizzle.

I've noticed that there's a lot of ppl getting to know that i have a journal. I really have to be careful at what I type now. Right Germany? Or maybe I wont. I'll still speak my lil Loser mind though. NO one can stop me, ever. Well maybe not ever. But u get it.


AndI

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:: 2003 3 August :: 9.37 am
:: Mood: chipper

Then there was no more space
Hi. I've changed my opinion about ppl that are mad at me. I don't screw no more. I say screw if ur mad at me for a stupid reason wich some of u are. But some of yeas have a good reason like Jeremy. oops, my bad guys.

Jeremy and I are friends again just not as close friends as we were at one time, but we're workin on it.

I spent yesturday (sat) w/ Mike. Woo! It was ok. We just hanged around his house and then we picked up his bro from the airport then we went out to eat. Mike's so gay i swear. Funny gay, not gay gay. SO we're in his room right? We're in there alone for 10 minutes. You know what u can do in 10 minutes? A lot, that's what. It was perfect to make a move i mean we were both on his bed laying next to eachother, alone, u know what happened? Nuttin, that's what, nuttin. He's so stupid. But he saved himself when he walked me to my door.(sigh) Lets just say there was no more space left, of n e thing.....

Well I'm gonna go to church today and then have a lil party at my mom's bosses house and he's not there so i'm gonna take advantege of that!


AndI

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:: 2003 1 August :: 8.16 pm
:: Mood: .:*Wooo*:.

Weeee!¡!
Ya everyone! Ok, I came to a conclusion, everyone that is mad at me for a stupid reason like for having a b/f for instance, then screw u. I'm tired of it and i'm not gonna let it stop me from being happy like last time. It's my life, my desicion, get over it...ok? OK.

I've been hanging out w/ 3 neato ppl. I had so much fun this past week. It's been great. I went to the movies w/ phil,amanda, and mike and his cuz. It was really TubuLAR.

Tomorrow i'm going over mike's house. Fun Fun Fun. hehe.

Monday thru like today i've been hanging out w/ Phil and Mike. Their so TubuLAR! If u want a b/f and ur a girl tell me and i'll hook u up w/ my friend.

It's gonna suck major blue monkey bum's b/c when school starts i wont be able to c a lot ppl all the time b/c we're going to different schools. :(.

I've been having such a great time w/ mike. I'm so happy. he's soo awesome.
I'm gonna go and talk to Mike. Later.

AndI

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:: 2003 30 July :: 9.15 am
:: Mood: frustrated

Everyone
Ok....so what's sizzling on ur side of the skizzle? I'm so frustrated w/ everyone and their stupid problems. What they think is trama is not at all. It's sooo stupid. They make the problem seem bigger than it really is, so that ppl can feel sorry for 'em or they have nuttin better else to do.

Take Jeremy for instance. I love the guy to death but dude, he's such a drama queen! He told me that he doesn't want to talk to me for a while b/c he was angery at me, an hour later he forgaved me and didn't tell me, so I would think he's really and truely pissed. AH! Now all of a sudden he hates Mike. Just like that. It's so weird. One day he's saying I love you Mike and now he's like I hate you. He wont tell Mike the reason why he hates him, but I know. It's b/c Mike is going out w/ me.

Now, Joe.....i love him too. I guess he has a pretty good reason to hate me, but not the way he's doin it. He's like exaggerating his anger. It's stupid. He wont tell me what's wrong or why he's GRRdified at me. I hate it. But I think it's b/c i'm goin out w/ Mike.


I can't have a b/f, it makes everyone angry and jealous. I hate it. I mean HELLO! I'm single and free, i can do w/evas i please. But no! Ppl have to make a big deal outta of it all the time. It's weird some ppl wont hate on me but they'll hate on my b/f like it's his total fault that we're going out. Hello! It takes 2 ppl to go out w/ eachother. duh! Well i'm gonna go and I hope that everyone would chill out and let me live my life!

AndI

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:: 2003 29 July :: 1.02 pm
:: Mood: happy/grrdified

so gay!
i've been having a TubuLAR time these past 2 weeks. It's been great.


Well i can't have a b/f at all n e more. Ppl get all jealous and angry and they get mad at me and my b/f. It's soooo stupid. i mean hey! I'm not going out w/ them and i'm free, so i can do w/e i please, so don't get Grrdified at me.


I hate it all! It's romeo and juliet all over again!

AndI

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:: 2003 26 July :: 11.44 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

Guess who!?
I'm back, From outta space! hehe. I'm sooo happy now.

I'm glad that I left. It showed me that I need to choose friends more carefully. Like ones that will up lift me and that are christians. The ones i have now are great but i need more that are christains. I have to space out from my friends that i have right now so that I can grow more closley to GOD. It's gonna be challenging. But don't worry i'm not gonna stop being friends w/ them.

I want to grow to be more of a better Christain and if I do it i'm gonna be pulled back more. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to go to Hell. I wanna go to heaven and be w/ my brothers and sisters of GOD. It's will be an awesome place.

What if I die tomorrow? I think I will go to hell. That would Suck so much blue bum monkey.

I would appreiciate it sooo much that if u talk to me to ask me if I read the bible or w/e for today. It will help.


I want u all to know that if u need a prayer request or u need to talk, i'm here. even if i don't talk to u. I'm here. I love u all.


AndI

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:: 2003 18 July :: 7.36 pm
:: Mood: Wooo!

Hey ya'll!
Ok, i'm leaving tomrrow! Woo! Finally outta here! Um....i wont be back. I dont' know where i'm going but i'm gonna go w/ these guys i met b/c i need to get outta here. hehe. It's time for me to focus on me and c what i want to do. I need to space myself out from ppl. Everyone's been like "clingy" to me even though their not but u get it right?

Um.....i'm actually happy right now. Today was the best! I hanged out w/ Jared,Jeremy,Mike, and Philip. My men! lol. Their awesome.

We were sittin on the side of the lil bridge and Jeremy started to pull up his pants and show some leg and he then put his shirt off his shoulder and he turned his hat and and he's like heeeyyy to all the cars that passed. It was great. Then everyone else started to do it! lol. I loved it! The big riggs honked at us. lol

Well after a while I just hanged out w/ Phil and mike, their neato guys. It was all fun. Ok, i'll yalk to u all later like forever later.


I'm gone.....don't know how long, but i'm gone....

AndI

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:: 2003 15 July :: 6.55 pm
:: Mood: aweful!!!

CRAP!
Ok, now I have 2 ppl that hate me and don't want to talk to me no more. GOD! It sux ass!

I hate it. This week sux soo much monkey bum! AAAAAAAAAA!!!!

My life sux! I'm gone...

AndI

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:: 2003 14 July :: 1.18 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Here w/ out you~~~3 doors down

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:: 2003 13 July :: 8.21 pm
:: Mood: Woo-Hoo

Weeeee! lol (sorry)
Hey ya'll! I'm in a TubuLAR mood! Wooo! lol. Sorry.

First of all, Germany, I am soooo Freakin sorry for the way I acted at the party. It sux that I missed the chance to show what a neato friend that I am. Poo....

OK, I went to a party. I thought it was ok. But it was still fun! A lot of my friends were there, well not all, but most.

Matt Todd was there! Ok Todd w/ no shirt, no problem! It's sooo weird he is the Hottest guy that I know besides Alan and Alex and Joe and....i can go on, lol, no really I can't, but n e ways, I have no "boyfriend attraction" to him. I'm freaked. It's weird and it sux b/c he's sooo awesome.

Well Joe looked really hot that night. Well hotter than usual. His band was there and they played. It was more of just fooling around though. It was still swell.

Alex and I hanged out a lot. We cuddled in a room (w/ no one). We were getting more "flirty" (hehe) lol and Jordan walked in. Then more ppl walked in, they ruined it. So practicly the whole time we flrited. Later when I came home I found out that Joe is mad at me. Why do u ask? B/c of Alex and I. So I found out Joe likes me and I'm like super. I think he was more jealous than n e thing but w/e. I like joe. He's sweet and hot and everything else.

A couple broke up at the party though. :( (sigh) (wipeing a tear) lol.

Mostly we played pool, hang out outside, basketball, go swiming. In the pool we had a water gun war. Todd didn't need a gun (lucky bastard, lol) He used he's hands to squirt out a force of water into your face. It hurt.

Alex, Joe, Mike, Jared, Jeremy, and I were outside laying on the driveway getting a moon tan. There was no moon though, or stars. But some how we got burnt,,hmmm? It could of been the street light though.. or wasn't it? Interesting......

So yeah, today I had church and I helped the kids. I got a kiss by a cute guy in church !
He's 3 but he's a fine lil boy. lol. Well I'll write later if the site is actually working. Later....

AndI

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:: 2003 10 July :: 8.47 pm
:: Mood: confused

Haya! Them....ooo
Hello. Today was boring as usual.

I found out that some guys like me. (woohoo) I like 3 of 'em. But i'm not serious about n e of 'em to go out w/ them. I want to go out w/ this really hot one, but there's the other one that is a lil more innocent that i want too. Then there's this really really hot one that is soo TubuLAR and I would LOVE to go out w/ him more than the others, but me and him talked and we're not gonna go out, just fool around. hehe.

We're not gonna go out b/c we don't c eachother a lot and some ppl that we know will think it's weird. But we like eachother though.

I'm going to a party on sat. and 2 of the guys that like me are gonna be there. I wonder how it's gonna go down. I mean I'm attracted to one more then the other one physically, but i don't know mentally.

Yeah I know what ur thinkin, o what a problem. But i don't think it's a problem just a situation that has good and bad in it.

Well i'm gonna go. I'll talk to u later.

AndI

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:: 2003 9 July :: 11.38 am
:: Mood: Sorry, TubuLAR

Hello.
Sorry I havn't been writing but woohu wouldn't let me on. It should be called yahoo now. lol. yea...


SO lately I just been hangin at my home, Sk8brding and crap. U know teh usual.

Drum lessons:Grrrr. I'm so frusterated w/ it. I can't get some measures down and it's killing me. My family are freaks man. If we can't do somethin we try and try till we do even if it kills us. I think i'm dead right now.

My 4th of July sucked as usual. I went to my Aunt's party out in Hickvill (south fort myers). Rednecks were everywhere. (O by the way I'm related to rednecks. I'm a country girl living in the city world.)A guy was drunk by 5 pm. It rained off and on and it was hot and mucky out. Poo. The band was playing country music. I don't perfer country. N e ways, My sisters and I left there like around 7.

After that we went to our friend's house, Ginny's. (HI ginny). We watched the fire works, Movies, and Old movies back in the hood when I was a lil cat. Wow, We all sucked at singing and danceing. I'm better at the dancing now. lol.

Eddie sang me one of his songs and it was so neato. I'm like ahh..eddie u rock my world..he's like hell yeah. lol. yeah.

U know it's hard to trust a girl for me more than a guy b/c how can u trust something that bleeds for 5 days and doesn't die?

I woke up today w/ Jesse here. That boy never goes home I swear. j/p.

In 2 weeks i'm going away again for another week 2. I'm going to go white water rafting again! YeppY! lol.

I haven't talked to DLM for a loooong time. yeah....

Well I'll check u all later. Byes...

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:: 2003 3 July :: 4.41 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Yeah....
Dude! Hello! What's sizzling on ur side of the skizzle?

I love my answerin machine. It's sooo neato. Some ppl don't leave messages b/c they think they got the wrong house. lol. I love it.

Today I went to the mall w/ Jesse and my "hot" sister, as Casey would say. hehe. It was fun. Jesse was trying on girl's hats. He made me try on and cowboy hat thing and Boy did I look good.....hehe.

I am Fed-up w/ this one person, I dunno. It's weird. It's just not the same n e more. But I guess all I have to do and wait and c if everything is ok. (sigh)



AndI

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