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angel_bob

:: 2007 1 December :: 2.44pm

I am published
Hi Rachel,

I am delighted to let you know that your submitted photo has been selected for inclusion in the newly released fourth edition of our Schmap Amsterdam Guide:

Rijksmuseum

Thanks so much for letting us include your photo - please enjoy the guide!

Best regards,

Emma Williams,
Managing Editor, Schmap Guides

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joeydomina

:: 2007 1 December :: 9.36am
:: Music: CSS- My hot hot sex

I should quit watching I am legend trailers
I had a dream the other day. Zombies where attacking the world and I was the last person alive. I fended them off with a club I made from a tire iron. My hideout was Rivertown mall, especially Dicks sporting goods. I slept in the rafters in a canoe and climbed up there with a rope ladder. So if any of you become zombies.... stay away from Dicks sporting goods or else.

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skife

:: 2007 29 November :: 3.59am

this song gets stuck in my head. It plays when i read my woohu.


STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO LYRICS

"Point / Counterpoint"

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
My finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

If there was something wrong would you be oh so strong?
Would you do what it takes to move this hollow life along?
I'd like to think I would, you know I'd like to think I would
but I can guarantee that what you see is not reality
and every time she makes a point, I make a counterpoint
She said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
and you know that's only just the way that it goes
You said it right man, That is just the way that it goes

And the days, and the days they seem like forever
And the days, and the days they seem like forever
But forever isn't ever enough!!
I'd like to sing a song
Promise you won't be long!
I'll try not to be long but I don't want to get this story wrong
There was a kid who never cared about the little things
Don't even bother because I'm tired and I'm sick of it
And every time she makes a point, I'll make a counterpoint!
She said It's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
And you know that's only just the way that it goes
You said it right man, that is just the way that it goes

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

Oh, you don't know where I've been!
Oh, you don't know what I've seen!

If I did something right
Would you give up this fight?
Would you say you were wrong and maybe someone else was kind of right
I'd like to think you would
You know I'd like to think you would
but I can't guarantee that what you get is an apology
Jump back to the day we met
I never thought that it would end this way
If ever I let you down I want to ask of you
To take it down a notch and we can talk it on through

And the days, and the days they seem like forever
And the days, and the days they seem like forever
But forever isn't ever enough!!
I'd like to sing a song
Promise you won't be long!
I'll try not to be long but I don't want to get this story wrong
There was a chick who never cared about the little things
Don't bother 'cause I still don't give a shit
And every time she makes a point, I'll make a counterpoint!
She said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice
And you know that's only just the way that it goes
You said it right man, that is just the way that it goes

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

Oh, you don't know where I've been!
Oh, you don't know what I've seen!

So tell me friend, how's it going to end?
When the shit goes down and there's no one left around to get your back
You'll crack
You'll smile and agree with everything they say
They'll try to tell you that it's all okay
But it's not and you're shot and you're bleeding pretty bad
And you can't stop thinking about the things you never had
Like a wife and a kid and the things you never did
You're running around
You're living a life that's empty in the end, my friend

No, you'll take back all you've said
Oh, when the regrets fill your head

Trust me I've been there before
I would not wish it upon my greatest enemy
What irony!
Once friends, but I find
You'll have to learn this lesson on your own

So I waited by the phone but that phone never rang
and I sang so loud so I wouldn't hear the bang
When the bang never came and I never got the call
Fuck It! Thank You! I Love You All!
Some are going to say that we're doomed to repeat
all our past mistakes
Great!
But that's not me
and even if it was I would always disagree
Because in the end I always get the better of me

I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock
And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked
and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock
and even if I could I would never give up.
With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung
I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung.
And if and when I die won't you bury me alone?
'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song.

Oh, I'll take you where I've been!
Oh, I'll show you what I've seen!

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skife

:: 2007 28 November :: 9.38pm

i've decided that i'm pretty much fucked.

and i'm pissed as hell that this kinda shit happens to me.


what the fuck did i do to deserve this?
i'm stuck now, no money, broken ass truck.
i'm pretty much fucked.

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skife

:: 2007 28 November :: 1.43pm

chris is on the phone with the evil empire right now getting me a price for a rebuild kit.

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skife

:: 2007 27 November :: 10.47pm

was on my way to nates tonight, truck decided it wanted another motor.

22RE = seized.

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skife

:: 2007 25 November :: 5.19am

it works.

still need to get wireless drivers installed and flash and java installed.

OMG is it fast though
espically compared to windows vista.

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skife

:: 2007 25 November :: 3.11am

i'm loading ubantu linux right now.

kinda nervus but excited at the same time

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angel_bob

:: 2007 24 November :: 8.48pm

Liveblogging November 2007
Katti is drunk. It is hilarious.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 23 November :: 9.12pm

I've been working so much lately. Yesterday was horrible at work. "Black Friday" makes me want to kill someone, or a lot of people.

But, I did get some humor out of it all. I was doing a Western Union Transfer for a lady, and one of the other people at the desk asked for my help and the lady was like, "No, you need to do this for me now, I'm in a hurry."

So I said, "Okay" and went as slow as I possibly could. I am normally very fast at typing and processing the transfer, but I made sure to look over everything a few times before I sent it. Then, when I gave her the receipt, she ripped it out of my hands and tromped away.

I hate my job.

And people at the desk are dropping like flies. One guy went to the pharmacy two weeks ago, and another girl found a new job. She said she'd come in for her last few shifts (Thursday through this Sunday), but she hasn't shown up yet. This is not the season where you don't show up to work.

Ah, well, the semester is almost over, only two more weeks and then exam week.

Rueben and I are moving into another apartment on the fifteen of December because the people we're with right now are giant assholes. But, Jessie is coming to Central and we'll all live together in our four bedroom town house happily ever after. Yes.

I have to write and give an after dinner speech on Wednesday. I have nothing. I guess I'll just wait for the last minute, like always.

Time to start packing...again.

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skife

:: 2007 22 November :: 1.22am

ITS HERE!!!!!!!!

Read more..

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skife

:: 2007 20 November :: 7.51pm

today was one of my best friend's mom's funeral.

she was catholic, wich doesn't bother me at all.

except i felt intimidated while going into the church.
I walked in and the cathedral (is this the right word for it) was huge!!! there was this giant statue of jesus on a cross and it just didn't seem like a happy place, they played the orgen and it sounded depressing. the pews we're hard wood and we're built in an angle so that your back began to hurt after sitting in them for awhile. when the paster/priest(again, i dont know the proper term) started to speak his voice echoed through the giant room. it was extremely intimidating. then everyone else knew "the lords prayer" and all this other ritual stuff.

Death has become a common thing with me lately, in the past month I have lost 3 people i knew. It makes me think about my beliefs, question them, question if there is a god or not.

in one hand i think "hey, there is no god its just a big myth"

then i look at it as "why would people dedicate their lives to something that doesn't exist, something has to be there"

i'm just in a state of confusion lately.

dunno.

at least i got my exercise today though "stand, kneel, sit, stand, kneel, sit"

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m&ms487

:: 2007 20 November :: 10.12am

I gave myself the morning off from classes. It felt so good to SLEEP. They gave me thirty hours this week, and next week. I don't know how I'm going to be handling that, but I guess I'll find out.

Papers to write, but I have four hours now, so that shouldn't be a problem. I need to take some time off more often.

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rayray

:: 2007 19 November :: 12.43pm

Yesterday I spent a good portion of my afternoon, and evening at the hospital.
My grandmother was admitted for observation because they still weren't quite positive why she quit breathing. They think it may have been a mini stroke.

This is already a hard time of year as it is.
6 years ago wednesday my grandfather passed away. (it was the day before thanksgiving that year as well).
3 years ago my grandmother passed away the day before christmas eve.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 19 November :: 9.25am

It's Monday morning and I've had a very long weekend. I worked last night until eleven, went home, and wrote a paper for this morning. I didn't write the other paper that I needed to, but I'm sure she said something about we can wait until Wednesday to do it. I hope, at least.

I'm working thirty hours this week. Although I don't have school on Thursday or Friday, it's still going to be hell. I'm going home on Thursday so Rueben and I can go to his family's Thanksgiving. Then we're driving back up the same day so I can work on Black Friday. Ugh.

Now, off to Communication Theory, which strangely, I've come to enjoy.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 18 November :: 10.11pm

You don't have to read this.
I am uber-depressed. This shit sucks, bitches.

I am still having serious trouble readjusting. I am not going to class, slacking off when I actually am in class, not writing papers until late or not at all...it's like work is the only thing I am doing. And I latch onto that to get me through the day.

It's like after four months of vacation, I can't do anything but be very lazy. It's a good thing I'm not the only one feeling like this or I'd think I was crazy.

I can totally see how that girl who went to France a few years ago dropped out of school and wasn't able to make it through. I just feel like I can't do this. And this is a thousand times easier than being in France.

It's like I can't do life anymore. This is so frustrating.

I went to help with the study abroad orientation and the coordinator of the program asked if any of us were having or had trouble with reverse culture shock. We said yeah and then she asked how bad it was. I said it was just as bad as adjusting to France but it's not. It's much, much worse. I've been home for longer than I was gone and I'm still having trouble. No one cares about my pictures, my stories, I have to work, pay bills, write papers, go to class, be in Michigan, talk to people on a consistent basis.

Oh, and the cat we were going to get died the weekend before we were going to get him.

The end.

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joeydomina

:: 2007 16 November :: 3.19am

coolest mcdonalds ever

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sugarjackj

:: 2007 15 November :: 4.02am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Chad VanGaalen

My hardest classes are the one credit music classes...
Next Semester:

-Sight Sing Ear Train II -
-Concert Choir -
-History Survey Music II -
-Academic Learning Skills -
-Mass Comm Contemp Socty -
-Piano Class II -
-Bowling -
-Voice Lesson -
-Studio Class -
-Voice Area Recital/Music 097 -
-Opera -

And the grand total?..............

Only 15 Credit Hours.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 12 November :: 6.52pm

Smoking Prohibited Except in Designated Areas.

User Information Board.

Do NOT Change Settings on the LCD Screens! They are already correct and if YOU leave them along they will STAY correct!

No Food Or Drink Allowed on the Computer Desk.

DO NOT ATTEMPT TO FIX PAPER JAMS!!

Welcome to Pearce Labz!

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rayray

:: 2007 12 November :: 2.19pm

So Christmas came early at my house last night.
Mike bought me a 20 inch Widescreen (because they only had widescreen) Flat Panel Monitor.

I have a sort of interview tomorrow, to take an IQ Test.
There is a place in Edmore looking for an Office Assistant and April from Manpower is looking into that for me.

I think Unemployment is trying to screw me over.

That is about it.. haha

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skife

:: 2007 11 November :: 3.09am

i have way way way to much shit.


anyone want anything?

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angel_bob

:: 2007 9 November :: 5.12pm

We are getting another cat. This girl in my science class has a dairy farm, or her parents do, and they have this indoor cat wandering around getting into trouble. It fell in a bucket of milk already.

He is fixed but still has claws (so does The Baron so it's okay). He will be joining our household on Monday so I am thinking of names.

I want him to have a title like our Baron von Richthofen so I've been going through the presidents.

None of these names can be stolen or your soul is mine etc etc.:
Mewtherford B Hayes (I woke up with this name in my head. I don't know why. It's my favorite by far.)

Mewman Capote or Truman Clawpote or Trumew Capote (He is black and white so it'd fit with Truman Capote's Black and White Ball.)

Mewlysses S Grant (Hannah says I cannot name our cat after this drunk, useless president but the name is too awesome. I promised not to do it unless the cat has a swagger. And even then, only barely. She says Mewtherford B Hayes is better since he fixed all of Mewlysses' mistakes.)

Charles G Paws (While not a president, Charles G Dawes is Hannah's favorite Vice-President so he still has a title. Also, Dawes died in the city I was born in so it's like we're connected already. Also, he looks like Houdini. Seriously. So that makes him ten times awesome.)

Jean-Luc Pawcard (Title: Captain, of course.)

Meowssolini (Title: Dictator)

William Henry Harrison (My favorite president. I think his name can stay as it is.)

Walter Clawncrite (Title: Mr. Awesome)

These I don't have titles for, they're just cat names I have lying around:

Atticus Finch

Rufus

Billy Pilgrim (Billy Pawgrim?)


I'm really leaning toward Mewtherford B Hayes. Nick probably won't like it but he doesn't like The Baron's name either.


I love you all.

P.S. Urgent message from The Baron: "3
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skife

:: 2007 9 November :: 12.27am

uggggh, i don't want to be couped up at home tonight alone. :(

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allyson

:: 2007 8 November :: 1.00pm

i want passion ... i want romance and most importantly, the truth.

are these the things that women leave their husbands over?

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angel_bob

:: 2007 8 November :: 9.59am

I'm wishing my life was a Jane Austen novel again. That would be great.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 7 November :: 4.46pm

The soup turned out okay, I guess. It didn't really taste like anything at all. Well, no. It tasted like a bunch of things but none of them were particularily good or delicious.

It was a decent first try. Especially since I had no idea what I was doing. At all. And I just threw things together.

I think my dad misses me a lot. He said that there are cooking lessons at D&W we can do together and we can go to one of those places where you make a week's worth of meals. His excuse was that Nick mentioned I don't cook but I really know that he misses me a bunch.

In other news, GHIII is awesome. Nick and I did career co-op and it was a bunch of fun.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 7 November :: 2.09pm

I can't stop popping my ears and it's driving me crazy.

I just finished baking brownies, and I will be enjoying them in a little while.

I have to work tonight from six to eleven. Pooh.

Wednesday nights are usually fairly slow.

UGH!

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skife

:: 2007 7 November :: 2.05am

i'm excited for tomorrow :D

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sugarjackj

:: 2007 6 November :: 6.27pm

I'm on fire, and I'll burn burn.

Tonight is Kate's concert. I'm excited :D

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angel_bob

:: 2007 6 November :: 6.25pm

I am experimentally cooking soup with beans. This experimental cooking did not go well last time but we will see.

And you shall know the result.

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