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2004 7 April :: 9.34pm
hahaha i broke them down! Jessica has a date tomorrow night. I'm happy happy happy. My dad still thinks Evan is going to rape me tho so he wont let him drive...o well he'll get over it soon enough. Even my mom thinks hes being ridiculous. His truck is way to small for anyone to have sex in in it anyway...
umm wat else...tryin gto get a job at american eagle this summer my dad knows the district manager. $$$
I convinced myself I had mono...then I convinced danielle she had it...lol even jimmy said i had him wondering...my paranoia is contagious
took my makeup chem quiz since I failled the last one....we'll see chemistry is the bane of my existence.
im sooooooo soooooo sry danielle and heather I can't go out on friday my mom is starting to obsess over the briss and all the ppl comming she needs me to help clean and get the house ready. u guys go out and have crazy wild fun i'll be there next time.
danielle u do not have mono and u r healthy as an ox if u r not at school I will come over and poison your chicken soup...
im happy...nobody talk to me you will probably just mess it up
~I Love Everything~
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2004 7 April :: 7.49pm
:: Music: starting line - best of me over and over in my head
well today was fun, kinda. 1 1/2 fire drills. the one in 3rd wasn't really one so i think it was a half. so brianna jsut IMed me...i;m not fucking paying 2 dollars to keep my woohu. i have LJ fool.
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: hey! u gonna pay $2 to keep ur woohu?
iluvBITP: fuck no
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: lol
iluvBITP: im a cheap ass jew
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lifesuxsodanz
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2004 7 April :: 6.35pm
Who is keeping their journal? I could always move it format and all to livelog with my private one I guess but I lyk woohu. Idk I think Briana has a pretty good idea if every1 else stays i will cuz its really not worth it if all my friends arent on the same page. Half teh fun of these is keeping up with everyone elses buisness.
Speaking of friends....had an interesting convo with logan. Explained the difference between a friend and an aquaintence and what category he falls under...think I offended him a bit...im crying on the inside...really.
I HATE MY PARENTS! they make things so complicated it's ridiculous. I can't go out thursday nite cuz my mom didnt wanna pick me up late when shes gotta work in the morning. ok so I find a way around that u drop me off at the movies Evan will drive me home problem solved. But noo she has to sit up and wait for me to come home so it still wont work. wtf Im not 4 i'd prbly be home by 10:30 how early do u need to go to sleep?!
So i guess we're trying for friday but we both already kinda have plans on friday we need to work around....why does god not want me to see him? Why does my mother make my life so difficult. She bitxhes when i stay home that I need to get out of her face and find friends to hang out with....when I try and go out I end up having to change every1's plans lyk 40 times and having this fuckin complicated strategy. It's almost not worth the effort to have a social life. This shouldnt e so hard when I have friends willing to drive me everywhere idk how she manages. ugh! im just venting sorry jesus christ do I need a car.
well I have more to say but ill say it later
~Jess~
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2004 6 April :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: death cab - "tiny vessels"
i just feel so majorly passive right now. i almost freaking fell asleep in the bathtub. no, i didnt try to drown myself. and it's already 9:10, i need to get offline. we might not be going to gainesville because my mom cant get a hold of andrew (and is freaking out) and most of the hotels are booked this weekend. but i doubt i shall go to soco/yc even if i am in town. shrug. maybe im just not in the mood right now to be excited.
why can't those feelings just go away and stop haunting me?
i wrote my personal statement for art... kinda BS but kinda the truth. april 15th. be there.
i just have no idea what to say.
this is the moment that you know that you told her that you loved her but you don't.
tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did and so did i that day.
all i see are dark grey clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour. so when you ask "was something wrong?" that i think "you're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now. no, we can't talk about it now."
so one last touch and then you'll go and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more. but it was vile, and it was cheap and you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me.
... but you do.
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2004 6 April :: 5.40pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Big Shot-Billy Joel
hmm hmm news news nothing to say Danielle wasn't at school today missed my chub mucho.
I saw a fox in the annex today just chillen behin da bush. It was so cool...wanted to take it home and name it foxy...
Slept thru english, (I love how I bring nothing to class and sleep as soon as she starts talking and I'm the only one who doesnt get yelled at for it)...marked all my dances in 2nd hour because I was too tired and pissy to cooperate and do them full out.
Slept thru spanish (I don;t even think mrs. french can blame me for that) got a 48/50 on a spanish quiz got a 91% on my stats test yesterday I was happy cuz I did it all on my own. Chemistry was a lost cause played with janyll's calculator turned in another quiz practically blank (I have to retake the last one I failed tomorrow)
I just couldnt pay attention I had too much on my mind. Planned Parenthood (seems worth consdiering), school, dance show, captain auditions, choreography, officer interviews, friends, guys, dieting
Jessica is back on a diet...i'm running conditioning for Eagle-Ettes this summer no matter what position I get just because no one else will. But yeah I think my depression is becoming linked to the scale or how tight my favorite jeans get everyday. Then when i'm depressed I eat and it's a whole vicious cycle...we're going to fix this starting now.
I'm supposedly geting out of health tomorrow to learn some extra choreography with britney. Dicillo said she needed some strong jumpers to do a duet/backup thing in the Billy Joel medly with Dorianna's solo. That means just a lot of leaping, and that's what we live for lol. My mom'll be happy she likes seeing me on stage as much as possible. After 12 years of paying for studio and costumes and competition and trips she's earned w/e makes her happy I guess.
yeah so came home...refrained from eating, went online, updated livelog, picked a fight with Evan (god knows why), checked maddox's page called my mom, now I'm here updating woohu.
oh yeah my mom got in a car accident yesterday...sum guy hit her at a red light. She's ok though. Just a little whiplash I think. The guy's car was way more fucked up than ours we barely got a dent.
Dane Cook has a whole buncha jokes about accidents...i'll have to play them for her later.
what an incredibly boring entry...you all have no clue what I'm talking about
eh if your dissapointed....
no I really don't care don't read
~2 more days~
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2004 6 April :: 5.11pm
feelings of the moment: happy, tired, amused, tired of it all, confused, overwhelmed, at peace, indifferent. i must say that is an odd combination.
i am out of candy as well. thanks to lovelies around helping me.
show saturday night, should be exactly what the doctor prescribed. i cant wait.
other stuff.. eh. i dont understand how my brain works. one day it sees something one way, then the very next it can see it in the complete opposite way. oh well.
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2004 6 April :: 4.56pm
:: Mood: content
Best Passover Lines:
1. Let's make this night really different from all others nights.
2. Did that just say we were in bondage?
3. What's a girl like you doing at a seder like this?
4. I like my matzah thin, like my women.
5. Maybe when Elijah comes, we can make it a threesome
6. I could never Pass you Over.
lol. a bit funny to me and jews :)
chem that last half hour or so was a friken riot. sooo funnyyyyy lol christine, heather, ashley. omg.
all out of candy :) i'm a good sales girl.
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2004 5 April :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: anticipating
:: Music: SoCo
like that icon ehhh?
my wknd was good...friday was chillin with the girls, wendy's, natalia's, pimp my ride, spice world. Saturday and Sunday i hung out at the hotel with my cousin Pam and uncle and aunt. Last night, all my florida fam and them came over to dinner. Pam and i played with our cousins, it was fun.
well the next 2 months are gonna be crazy! concerts, school, dance show, exams, eagle-ette auditions + practices, parties, banquets...AHH! i'm worried just thinking about how i'm gonna get to do everything. This weekend is the concert- something corporate and yellowcard with my darling christini :) I'm just a bit concerned becuz friday i have practice, my permit test, and then have to go hang out with my in-town relatives. Saturday i probably have to hang out with them all day too becuz at night i'm going to the concert. Then sunday, somehow i will have to read 2 econ chapters, study for my stats test, and probly a bunch of other things the teachers will pile on. Fourth quarter is crazy and i just have to take it day by day and STOP PROCRASTINATING cuz i dunt have much time to waste.
i can do it. woooo. gotta get started! <3
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2004 5 April :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: changes-tupac
"dreading tha doctor visit"..lmao
haha..dat wuz THE FUNNIEST convo everrr..amara's a trip..metal rods..lmao..wooo..dat wuz great..newayz..bryan called me!!!!!!!..:D..we didnt really get to talk dat much cuz he wuz on his way to work..but it wuz great..he wuz tellin me how he went clubbin wid his dawgs..i found out he doesnt really like dancin..but he does wen derz alotta ppl..like a party or a club..so yea we were talkin for a lil while..he sed hez gonna call me back..wen he getz off from work..:)..
~i am sooo happy i wuz able to clear all dat shit up..but for real..i still have no clue wussup wid dat kid and his frickin gay ass self..grr..ok im done..lol~
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2004 4 April :: 1.01pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: roses-outkast
ugh..change tha clocks..
well..im up..i woke up at 11..n it wuz really twelve..i wuz so confused..it seems as tho tha day juss went by in like a heartbeat..i pretty much juss finish eatin breakfast n we're bout ta have an early dinner wid family b4 we head out..i wuz helpin mami make tha sum of tha dinner but gave up..lol..i made an ankle bracelet..it came out really cute..it has a charm on it wid sum black beads..neways datz pretty much it for now..we shudd be leavin around like 4 maybe..n den we get home around 7-8 ish..n den back ta skoo..ehh..i hope dis week is a good week n everything dat i want to happen happens already!!..see u guyz soon..x0x0..<3..kaila
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2004 4 April :: 12.55am
lalala. danielle was in lala land throughout that whole movie. i put myself in it instead of julia stiles. then it ended and i realized that i am still single and alone. got in the car and decided that i should start taking more chances. i hope my thoughts aren't just thoughts anymore and actions do actually occur. we will see.
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2004 3 April :: 10.47pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: yea-usher
juss got back..
so we went to steph's party..it wuz iight..saw alotta ppl i havent seen in a while..lotz of good food..lol..i got to chill wid taina..dey wanted us to watch tha kids..which were about 25 lil kids..psshh..lol..i ended up only watchin baby alex..he's soo cute..he's really tiny too..4 months..n taina juss watched her lil brother marc..newayz we walked around tha neighborhood..n i had tha baby carraige..n ppl were givin me weird looks when we took dem to tha park..lol..oh well..so tai wuz tellin me bout all her boy drama..n wanted me to help her out..so i heard her out n gave her advice..but itz tha middle school kinda puppy love drama..lol..so she had me crackin up..but dis gurl is goin out wid a junior n tha gurl is in 8th grade..derz definately sumthin wrong there..lol..so yea im madd tired..it wuz a busy day..we went shoppin earlier today n i got a really cute bathing suit at marshall's..itz white n red..can't wait ta wear it..guess datz it for now..x0x0..<3 kaila
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2004 3 April :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: happy
today made up for last night so much. lol danielel and i were stitting at home online discussing r pathetic lives then john came on and told me about his equally shitty night. So i had him call me cuz i was hyper and needed human contact. lol ended up keeping him on the fone till 2am and he does not enjoy staying up late.
So I promised him we'd spend the day together it was....interesting
lol started off going to the mall to buy him clothes I want to be a personal shopper I have so much fun dressing up guys. lol he wasn't ready for the ribbed polo shirt but it did look good. I need to stop watching TLC all i wanna do now is redecorate every1s house and give the world a makeover. John also picked out sum clothes for me...he wouldnt do well as a personal shopper.
From there we headed over to Barnes and Noble becuz john was absolutely amazed at the fact that I read....ya not getting in2 the insulting nature of that comment, but it was really nice we wandered around and got coffee. Then we headed over to the pet store to look @ all the doggies.
lol on the way back john was again amazed that there were 3 publixes in a row practically by my house so we HAD to visit one of them. lol so odd. then we ended up back in my neighborhood just chillen by the park. wat a random day...
*Sigh* i just added more to this entry but i guess i shall add it again....
ok so after i got home my mom and i went out to dinner at olive garden where r waiter was gorgeous (tho i couldnt understand a word he said) we talked and bonded etc.. then we went to target cuz i we needed a few things and i finally spent my $15 gift certificate from fcat on a cd.
ok...i am going to have 20 jews in my house on easter fricken sunday. lol my aunt had her baby last nite...Brett Tyler Rosenburg 7ibs 12 ounces. hes the first relative that ive met that i was there when he was born. i dont have any first cousins on the side of the family that we still speak to (yes i know lots of bad blood and dysfunction there). but uhh yeah my aunts husband just happens to be a superjew my moms family is barely jewish at all and my dad is fricken catholic...but we r having the kids briss at r house on easter sunday. For those of u who dont know a briss is a ceremony for a circumcision. I think its sick if u ask me...only the jews would have a fricken party for such a morbid event (no offense 2 NE1)
yeahh so if u havnt noticed or cared im back on woohu lol its been...a few days? but yeah i made another journal for all the dark/private stuff adn all this everyday boring crap can be saved for woohu. Thank you tho to the people who helped me get through that low point it's good to know that I still have people there for me like that. And I also have foundout some things about my friends that just makes me want to reach out to them like crazy. We are ALL having issues and hardships at home with ourselves etc and just no that you are as far as possible from being alone. We all have are highs and lows and we all need somebody to talk to. So don't hold it inside. I know I don't seem like it but if anyone ever needs to talk im here to listen and give advice if needed (lol ask heather bout my psychotherapy). So remember we're all gunna make it through so don't give up on love life or happiness and don't listen to the negative. Just smile
~Have a beautiful weekend~
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2004 3 April :: 1.01pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: brand new - "the quiet things that no one ever knows"
im just updating because i feel obligated to.
1smelly delray theatre - not cool.
2eternal sunshine of the spotless mind - interesting. a movie for a day off of school.
3the first week back at school - thank god its over.
4today's plans - nicole.
5my opinion on people - always fluctuating when i hear new things. some people i didnt like so much before, i know they're great people. some people i loved before, im skeptical on their character.
6what i need - a day of shopping. a day watching moulin rouge and eating chili <3. summmer.
7my body - needs more self confidence.
8my heart - needs to stop being played with and being confused.
9goodbye.
keep the blood in your head.
and keep your feet on the ground.
today's the day it gets tired.
today's the day we drop down.
give up my body in a bed.
all for an empty hotel.
wasting words on lowercases and capitals.
i lie only for you. and i lie well.
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2004 3 April :: 11.55am
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: something corporate- me and the moon
i am a butterfly.
so. lots of thinking this morning i suppose. woke up around 6.. couldnt really sleep. there is confusion in the land of the boy going through my head. and normally at a point like this, i'd spend my time crying. but i dont feel it necessary anymore. somehow i know that in the end everything will be okay, whether i'm with him or not, so there's no point in spending time crying and being sad when i could be out in the sun with my friends laughing and having a good time. i realize that im fortunate to have the life that i do, and i don't want to ruin it by being upset over some boy. which probably is over something misunderstood anyways. so, whatever. im going to live my life happily. because after all, these are the best days of our lives.
i have a date saturday night at the something corporate/yellowcard show with my fellow something corporate lover liz. i think i'll try and stop to get tickets tonight on my way home from the beach party. so liz, if you see this, call me and make sure you can go , for sure. and anyone else who wishes to see if they can go and want to join us, call me by 7pm on my cell phone
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