1st day of joyous school
okay just got home from the first day of school. actually not that bad, almost fell asleep in most of my classes though...yup thats highschool for ya. oh well, i have classes with everyone and my lunch is kickass it has linsey, carrie, willis, jesse,annalou and nora. yeah and yearbook seems like it actualyl might take some work....which kinda sucks i have to sell 500 dollars worth of advertisements eh. oh well I CAN DO IT. okay peace out...did i really just say peace out?

school tommoorw
okay today i went to the movies with my mumsie and saw freaky friday, it was cute. i feel bad becuase i dont think ive been super nice to my mom or that i've been hanging out with her a lot. ...eh ill try to be nicer. well school starts tommorow woopie. i dont care at all what i wear anymore blah who cares ya know? eh school eh eh eh eh eh

yay
Hey, just got home from the mall with lou, dani, and linsey. it was great fun we found lots of hot boys hehe and i beat dani down for her cookie sample haha it was funny stuff. well i just got some shit from hot topic. well anywho last night we all slept over at linseys as a kinda party thing for her new house and we decided to call ashley, not to be mean just cuz we were bored or what not. well the girl FLIPPED OUT and her uncle calls me and was cussing me out and threatening me and shit, i have to say though it was pretty damn funny. i mean we werent even saying anythign mean!!! all we said was 'hey its eric im smoking my bong" ....its not as if we were being mean or anything..oh well i think ashelys a little too sensititive. thats all, I LUV ALL YOU GUYS!!! bitch, go make me a turkey potpie.

DAMN POSERS
okay just got home from the mall with linsey, it was pretty neat. we saw jack and tyler and they actually talked to us -gasp- haha i made linsey go into hot topic 50 times harhar. well i finally got the cd i wanted and i got some shirts and ther shit. well apparently paul told linz to not hang out with me anymore, im sorry but thats fucking BULLSHIT. she can hang out with whoever the fuck she wants! well anyway, me and linsey were talking about how punk is a trend and that theres all these posers and shit, im not one to judge i mean do whatever you want. it just kinda annoys me...oh well. yeah last night i spent the night at linseys, it was fun i love her baby puggles. OOO GREAT SONG sex and violence sex and viloence..lalalala

'Look for the girl with the broken smile...."
Okay i hate brian with a freaking passion for getting me obssesed with this song...anyway. nothing much has happened lately besides just going out and wishing summer wasn't over in a week. i think im losing 2 of my good friends, and i'm not nearly as upset as i thought i would be...i just think we're growing apart, or i dont know if we we were ever together in the first place....i dont know i just don't make sense. and i can't conentrate to study for my permit, yeah i know i know i was the one who always said that you should get your permit the day you turn 15, its just not important right now though. and im driving myself insane listening to this song but its just so fuckin addictive....peace

"A young girls heart lost of feeling..."
WOW fucken funniest thing happened today. okay well i call linsey to see if she wants to go watch american pie 3 and she says super. so i go to pick her up and she invites me in to look at her new house, so i go and were all looking at her pool and her two cute lil puggies are standing there, and i turn to linsey and say "do you think they'll ever fall in" literally 1 second later her pug FALLS IN THE POOL the stupid pug sinks and then starts to swim, i swear i wanted to die laughing. but yeah...so it was funny as hell haha we saw american pie 3 and it was really funny, while we were walking to the movie theater (beach theater) all these guys were hitting on us and honking and what not, so nice to know were appreciated! haha but yeah thats pretty much all i did today. love, peace, rock and roll

bad poems

Hard to breathe
shatterd glass in my heart stabbing with each breath exhale fast, make this one last
scars all over, burns on my face cast out one final glance
looking down always frowning
happyness sure to die in the light
fade away again like before, nothing matters anymore
racing heart, tears dry fast the land of the doomed, all will be consumed swallowed fast like the pills you took fall through ice dont think twice
Moving backward, striving forward
no prince on a white horse to save you now, it ends like this

temptations
Pushed to hard
made to go to fast
nothign can stop me now
im spinning out of control
losing all sense of reality
slamming full speed into you
the floor catches my fall
you stood by and watched me
save me is a request not a demand
you took it literally
nothing meant by those words
the hate poured into my eyes
the scalding burn of your fist
how could you do this?
i stand up for more but instead am embraced
embraced in your arms i feel safe
safe from the pain seconds ago you caused
again i fall wihtout you to catch me
you never catch me when i fall, only when i run

Movies
Hey all you cool pplz, just got back from the bell tower with linsey and...wow lots of ppl. anyway me and the linz saw tomb raider 2 today..it was freakin boring movie though. haha it was so much fun tonight though i met morgnas friend, boy, lol his name is alex but we called him boy the whole night ha. hes really sweet and he plays the guitar *drools* ha nah i dont like him like that...yet. sheesh i saw andrew too and wow no more feelings for him, it was weird though i dont know. blah and then all of pauls fucken idiot friends were being mean and linsey got sad/mad. and i hate when ppl hurt my friends do whatever you want to me but don't mess with my friends...but yeah all in all it was a cool night! PEACE

fuck everyone
Yeah, thanx fuckers the best birthday really great when you cry and want to fucking run away on your birthday. thanx, truly from the bottom of my selfish fucking heart. FUCK YOU ALL

eh
Last night was fun, ashley gave me a surprise party! yay, it was great we went swimmin and "bonded" lol annalou! well we all tried to sleep in one bed, that turned out to be quite intersting. ha and then ahsleys lil bros woke everyone up by coming in and pouring ice water on ppl. it was funny though. well today im goin out to dinner with the fam, fun actually! okay peace

"I can see you , i see you walking real slow and your smiling at everyone, i can tell you my love for you will still be strong after the boys of summer have gone"
Ya know what, so far this has been the best summer of my entire life. I've barely been home it seems and just a lot of great things have happened. I met new people, did new and uh, strange things. I think this is the summer when i've been the most myself, not following in anyones footsteps or imitating my friends. its a good feeling knowing that im my own person, or at least getting there. Don't get me wrong there have been a lot of sucky days this summer, and hurtful feelings. But really i think i needed those days so i could see how great other things were. I hope next summer will be even better and im even more assured of myself! PEACE

"And i want i her i need her and i want her i need her and i..."
Please someone save me from this misery......

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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Yes i am such a perfect girlfriend, thats exactly why I HAVE NO BOYFRIEND