silentcriez
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2004 6 June :: 5.02pm
this may never start
we could fall apart
and not be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can now be your memory
so get back back
back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back
back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this may never start
i'll tear us apart
could now be your enemy
losing half our years
waiting for you here
i'd be your anything
so get back back
back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back
back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this could never start
tearing out my heart
and id be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings disappear
can not be your memory
so get back back
back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back
back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this could never start
we could fall apart
and id be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can not be your memory
can not be your memory
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cocopuff
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2004 6 June :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: none talkin to my Jessica on the fone!!
wow
Well today was fucked up... i found out that one of my best friends was never relly my friend at all and just pretended to b my friend cuz i was friends with manda.... but u knwo thats ok i was sad at fist but now im fine with it i just happy to know the truth now... :-) and im not gonan let that cunt bother me cuz she mad it obv that thats all she is a CUNT!!:-D so i hope she has a good life lieign to ppl and beign a cunt and never going ne where with her life cuz shes to much of a bitch to ppl... lol but its all ok cuz i have soo many friends that really do care about me and shes nto loss....
Well yesterday was crazy!!!! lol me and nikkie and jess and Kaite, got chased by this fuckign crazy kid yellign at us to fuck him and and suck his dick... lol and we were scaired cuz 2 min before he was playign with a knife soo we thotutgh he still had it and jess and i got stuck in a prickerbush and got all wet
it was horrable but funny!!!
Well i have to clean my room today.. and i have homeowork soo im off...
Lizzy
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2004 6 June :: 3.20pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Heres To The Nights
I Love My Brokies.
Arrived at Vickis. We went to the beach!! It was hot. WE SAW RICKI MEYERS! i love her. Then we ate lunch on the beach and then went back to her house.
At vick's we went online, and web cam, lol no comments there, and then we watched Stuck On You and then Julia Samil came over! i love juliaaa!!! yayy! she made my day! and then Vicki's friend Rachel came over, and she is coming to camp this summer so it was nice to meet her.
We played Name Nucomb..such a camp sport. then we had a dance party and then we played tackle football, i scored two touchdowns, the huskers won! yayy! and thennn we had a bbq for vickmo's birthday. yum. then we played BS and President.
Later we had cake and Ice Cream and got ready to go out. we went to see SHREK 2. SO GOOD! i recommend it very much. Hilarous if you ask us all. and we met BEN! yay for ben!
Then after the movie we all went back to vicks ( the girls, and ben) and ate more. then we went to the basement, had a dance party, and told stories. YES- JODI STORIES! yayy!! haha, anyways....
Everyone tried to sleep around 230...and vicki and I stayed up talking till about 330 not knowing everyone was listening to our "stories"..hahaha, and yeah we did wheres the jello to caila..very funny haha i love that girl! and then we woke up at 10.
we had a huge breakfast made by vickis mom and then we all watched TV and went home.
I love my 0319ers. I love brokies. I love Jews. I love my favorites (minus one).
Great weekend girls, 24 days till we do it all again! woohoo!!! yayyyy!!! :)
Caila-Wheres the Jello? Caillllaa...lol, Iloveu
Alyssa-LoveMyFavsMinus1! yayy! gts loveu
Jodi-well..thats me so yeahhh...ilovemyself
Samantha-woohoo!loveu!i trust him, its ok
Vicki-loved our talk we had, happybday iloveu
Aly-cam-er-on! yay! ur too cute! gts loveyou
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2004 6 June :: 12.59pm
:: Music: Smooth Criminal
EmmyD89: kelsey i love you so much...i cant believe this all happend last nite.. but im not allowed to see you and meaghan anymore
:'(what the hell am I gonna do
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krazykelc1
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2004 5 June :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: booked
:: Music: Jadakiss ft.Anthony Hamilton-Why
I am a fuck up
I just got back from the Security Office of Filene's....
I've never fucked up so bad in my life....
everything I've ever done I've gotten away with somehow and finally tonight some people gave me what I deserve.. a nice record of shoplifting and posession of stolen material or w/e the fuck they call it.
Not only did I fuck up my own situation but I got my friends booked too... and their gonna have it 2x as bad with their parents then I am.. and thats even worse.
so please don't ruin your life by making dumb mistakes like I did, that will stay with you FOREVER.... a permanent record stays with u ur whole life..
if ur gonna do drugs... be my guest but dont fucking get caught
if ur gonna steal... dont be a dumbass about it and dont think JUST cause you get away with it once that you NEVER will, cause thats not the case
Auto response from x we4k inside:
From now on im gunna try to do better. No more drugs, no more lying, no more stealing, no more being depressed over nothing..im gunna fix my life...i dont wanna be known as a fuck up.
I second that
So now I'm desperately waiting to here from Emily.... thats probly my biggest concern right now :-\ I can't imagine losing one of the best friends I've ever had because of one of the stupidest mistakes I've ever made..
and meg.. when I think about it you are the only one who has stood by me through everything.. and never walked away when I needed you most. Thank you so much for just simply being there... I know I can always count on you to be by my side
I love you guys, always
laughh it up and leave a comment >>>
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krazykelc1
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2004 5 June :: 1.05pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Brandy ft. Kanye West-Talk about our love
LOOK ITS MEG!!!
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krazykelc1
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2004 2 June :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Ja Rule-Caught Up
Summerr is right around the corner!
the four day week is half over... then only 5 more days of actual school.. & finals the next week, then we're out!
I dont know if I should be excited or not...
I love the summer but I also hate leaving everyone at the end of the year..
and I know this summer won't be the same as last summer, no doubt about it.
Last June around this time, I probably found myself in the same position as I'm in now. Thinking to myself, what the hell am I gonna do this summer without them? well... by the time August of last summer came - the them's were replaced by a new group of people.. who I became very close with in that one month and changed with a WHOLE lot. I wouldn't be what I am right now if I hadn't met them... Everyone knows how I was in 8th grade, and should see the difference between now and then... and if you were wondering how it happened-its all because of them.
And the one person who started it all doesn't even talk to me anymore..
When I met her last summer and became really close with her I left alot of my old friends out of my life for a while.. and thats exactly what she did to me and Lizzy and Amanda sometime at the begining of the year.. and I'm not writing this to make her feel bad or guilty in any way.. because I know growing and changing and meeting new people is all a part of high school.. I just hope she knows how much her friends cared about her and missed her.
This summer is going to be real hard for me at first... and I think I can speak for my friends as well when I say that. We will make something good out of it though-we always have. It's just going to be a whole lot different.
As long as we don't spend our vacation reminiscing in the past.. we should be able to make new memories with new people. Although it may be hard to look into a new future when you are desperately trying to hold onto the past... people DO come and go, just hold onto the ones who are with you now-they are all you will need to make it through. And remember there is always a reason why some people dont make it to your future.
- SuMmEr '04 -
I love you Elizabeth Amanda & Meaghan
MajkL* & everyone else.
HappY 15tH BirthdaY KateliN!!
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GoLdIe18
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2004 2 June :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: Depressed
:: Music: Guster<3
E m O hugs
through teh wind i whisper your name
into teh snow i call your name
and ill wait for teh day that you love me
hang up teh fone, just want you to call right back
how can i get enough of this
i dont know what has come over me
something i just cant explain
far across across teh empty sky
i will ride these endless clouds of white
and there all the imperfect will become perfect
just teh way they are
but how can these stars they shine liek theyve never
been shining before
i see them brand new and calling
i see you alone and wanting
and my heart returns its call
wont you hold me in teh darkness
wont you love me dont know where ur heart is
just wish that someday youll find a way
whisper into these empty skies
my last call for sanity
tell me all i have to give
maybe ill get you to love me?
tell me what it is when u say all teh right words
tell me why u know just what to say
with just one look into your blue eyes
i lose myself that way
no matter all that i sing
or anything that i could ever say
it could never tell you how much you mean to me
you might say i dont understand
dont knwo what its like to have you by my side
you might tell me that i dont know all about love
maybe your right, but i know what i feel everynight
and it just happens that i love the way you make me smile
tranquil kisses, soft embraces
the love is all around
its in teh air and its in your heart
beauty so profound
what is it that keeps me wanting
what is this diseas thats come over me
am i binded and tainted
and bleeding for all to see
these stars hold no comfort tonight
if your arms arent wrapped around me
and these hands are so empty
when not entwined with mine u see
so tangle me with words
tell me all that it is you heard
just wrap me up inside your sheets tonight
tell me, tell me, tell me what it is you see
and love me, oh love me tonight
-Emily's journal....thanks emmyboo! miss u!
Echo.
close my eyes let the whole thing pass me by
there is no time to waste asking why
id run away with you by my side
id run away with you...
by my side...-Trapt-
What the hell is wrong with me? Honestly...
I have NEVER been jealous of someone before and its so bad. I love this person, but im jealous. I wish I could change everything thats happened between us since the day we met. I wish I could go back in time and change the WAY we met. I love you more than you know....and I always will.
Stephie baby- I LOVE YOU! you are amazing, thanks for always being there for me, thats what best friends are for...I owe ya one! xox
Kay- story times cheer me up, and you make me laugh evennnn harder i love youuu! xox
Jessa and Sam- thanks. I love you girls. xox
Samantha (Mell!!!)- Thanks for being there, letting me tell you everything. Thanks for listening and being someone I can ALWAYS trust. I love you so much. always here for you.
Girls- you are my saviors. thanks for EVERYTHING. i love you.
someday somehow
gonna make it alright,
but not right now....
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silentcriez
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2004 1 June :: 10.26pm
through teh wind i whisper your name
into teh snow i call your name
and ill wait for teh day that you love me
hang up teh fone, just want you to call right back
how can i get enough of this
i dont know what has come over me
something i just cant explain
far across across teh empty sky
i will ride these endless clouds of white
and there all the imperfect will become perfect
just teh way they are
but how can these stars they shine liek theyve never
been shining before
i see them brand new and calling
i see you alone and wanting
and my heart returns its call
wont you hold me in teh darkness
wont you love me dont know where ur heart is
just wish that someday youll find a way
whisper into these empty skies
my last call for sanity
tell me all i have to give
maybe ill get you to love me?
tell me what it is when u say all teh right words
tell me why u know just what to say
with just one look into your blue eyes
i lose myself that way
no matter all that i sing
or anything that i could ever say
it could never tell you how much you mean to me
you might say i dont understand
dont knwo what its like to have you by my side
you might tell me that i dont know all about love
maybe your right, but i know what i feel everynight
and it just happens that i love the way you make me smile
tranquil kisses, soft embraces
the love is all around
its in teh air and its in your heart
beauty so profound
what is it that keeps me wanting
what is this diseas thats come over me
am i binded and tainted
and bleeding for all to see
these stars hold no comfort tonight
if your arms arent wrapped around me
and these hands are so empty
when not entwined with mine u see
so tangle me with words
tell me all that it is you heard
just wrap me up inside your sheets tonight
tell me, tell me, tell me what it is you see
and love me, oh love me tonight
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silentcriez
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2004 1 June :: 6.47pm
hello journal my name is amanda and i am on the fone with mr sean hays and i am happy :)
got into a figth with meg teh other day i dont see why she has to lie to me, mayeb im doing something wrong?
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2004 31 May :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: none...
hmm
yea well its 10:30 and theres school tomorrow which means i shoudl really b in bed... but i cant sleep tomany things on my mind so i decited id write in here....
u know its really sad to lose a friend.. and i have lost many i can sadly say...but um not sure if im ready to give up on some now.. i want to give up i really do but i can't... i really believe that if we all make and effert we can b frineds like before.... and i know for a fact that not one of my friends invloved can say that they dont want to tery and make things work... i say fuck it.. start over new... no fucked up ties to eachother due to sexul reasons... fuck all the fights weve had becasue think about it... how pointless were they.. and i can answer that for u they were fuckin stupid and nothign that shoudl have ever caused us to not b freinds.. and as the summer gets closer and closer i get sadder and sadder thinking abotu how last year we were always together, and now i cant even remeber the last time we were together.. and its soo fuckign sad.. things never shoudl ahve gottn this bad.. and truthfully i dont understand y they did.... but im gonan try now.. i really am im gonna give everythign i have to try and b friends again.. and if it dont work then i quit and its all done.. but i really hope it dont get to that point :(
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GoLdIe18
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2004 31 May :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Just Another Foreigner
great day
great day with the boyfriend and his family.
michelle entertained me very much...haha shes wicked weird but wicked cool...I dont know why I ever "hated" her...I guess...I dunno. Hayett's cool too.
Adam Baby- Love you more than life itself. Forever and Always You and Me. Ill miss you so much this summer. Write everyday. I love you. xoxo *3.5.03 and forever after*
good mood. inspiring...keep it up yo "Amy"
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silentcriez
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2004 31 May :: 8.35pm
its remarkable how you capture me
how you feed my soul like its never
been fed
and in you i see myslef
reflecting in your bottomless
blue eyes
images of what i wish we
could be
but were lost in the dark
upon a distant star
starring far off into the distance
continue to capture me
continue to love me
just hold me i dont care what
they say
taint me wiht kisses
and lure me inot oblivion
where noting can b wrong
we cant b wrong
for if were wrong i fear for what i feel
taste, see, know
it may all b wrong
wrong
wrong
my heart it may all b wrong
and i wouldn't know how to
let you go....
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2004 31 May :: 7.53pm
:: Music: Brandy- "Have You Ever"
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krazykelc1
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2004 31 May :: 3.31pm
:: Mood: fat
:: Music: Fuel-Falls on Me
I wanted to go back..
Back to the way I was before.
But the truth is, you've changed me
I'm not the same anymore..
x o x o
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2004 31 May :: 3.26pm
:: Music: 3DoorsDown-The road I'm on
The funniest thing ever
krazykelc 1: omg wanna hear the funniest story ever
x we4k inside: wat? lol
krazykelc 1: last night i walked in to honeyfarms with jessie and amanda and we got visine. and amanda had to spend more than 10 dollars or somethin like that cuz of her visa ... so we got lots of candy bars n stuff. and we walk up to the cash register and there was marcus and his friend or something.. and they were both staring at us and wen it was our turn in line we put the stuff up on the counter and then i was high so i didnt realize wat they were saying but then jessie turns to me and goes "omg did u just hear wat they said?" and i go no... so then i started to listen and all of a sudden one of the guys goes "i remember when i used to have the munchies....i would get 11 sandwiches go upstairs then come back down around 11:00 for more.. the worst part was looking at my parents though.. oh man" and jessie turns to me and starts laughing her ass off. and they were like "visine... yep that stuff doesnt even really get the red out.." and we turned to leave and start laughing and then they go "you girls got the munchies?!" as we were leaving
krazykelc 1: and then like an hour later we walked by honeyfarms with ice cream and slushies...ahahaha and they saw us and started laughing... then one of the guys gets in his white truck and drives by us and yells "STILL got the munchies?!!?"
x we4k inside: LOL!!!!!!!!
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GoLdIe18
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2004 29 May :: 9.37pm
:: Music: none
sickk again
my dad thinks I have mono again...
Ive been sick all week, head, stomache, everything. Last night- a friday night... I feel asleep at 7:30 and slept for 13 hours woke up at 830 and did nothing all day but sit through one of my sisters soccer tournament games, and then I went to get some books for summer reading stuff...Hot Zone-UGH! anyways, I got the 5th gossip girl! yay! no im not a book nerd..i just read chick books..trashy stuff! hahaha anyways...
if i have mono again someone please kill me cause camp is one month from tomorrow and I better be there on opening day....
Happy Birthday MARCY!
Happy Birthday Tomorrow SMERLS!
i love camp pembroke.
seems like Ive been sick all year:: November with mono and since then ive been off and on sicknesses... :o/
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GoLdIe18
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2004 29 May :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: mix!
mussiiicccc
"California, a place they say glistens gold.
I wanna go there and never come back home, yeah."
- Rock Star Land by Yellowcard
Just then i see a twinkle twinkle in the old man's eye
And a wave tossed bottle is thrown to the sky
I cought it on the rebound and landed with a soft sound
I took out the message and put the bottle down
Inside was the antidote to the spell
And I read it to the man 'cause he couldn't read so well
Said don't worry about a thing ya know your path is true
Just ease your mind have a banana or two
Well goodness goodness woe is me
The man nearly flipped to learn that he was free
But just before we left he started kickin' it
I picked up the bottle and star sixed it
Kick kick shuffle shuffle back to the beach with a
Tune on my lips and my quest in reach
That woman come to see you with her song so sweet Say
"Damn let the poor sucker sleep...let him sleep"
- Bang Bang by Dispatch
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
- Gravedigger by Dave Matthews Band
can you tell im in a music mood...
one month from tomorrow...CP
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2004 29 May :: 2.29pm
I was never faithful
And I was never one to trust
Borderlining schizo
And guaranteed to cause a fuss
I was never loyal
Except to my own pleasure zone
I'm forever black-eyed
A product of a broken home
I was never faithful
And I was never one to trust
Borderline bipolar
Forever biting on your nuts
I was never grateful
That's why I spend my days alone
I'm forever black-eyed
A product of a broken home (Broken home)
Black-eyed
I was never faithful
And I was never one to trust
Borderlining schizo
And guaranteed to cause a fuss
I was never loyal
Except to my own pleasure zone
I'm forever black-eyed
A product of a broken home (Broken home)
Black-eyed
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2004 27 May :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: sumblime
missin you...
whenever you feel like giving up
think of all the reasons why
you held on for so long..
I dont think Ill ever know what the cause is, I dont think Ill ever fix it, I just think that I first need to find someone I trust, before I spill my heart out to them. Otherwise, they rip it out and let the blood drip into puddles on the floor.
33 days.
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2004 24 May :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: bored
well im bored soo i figured i do this 2...
[four beverages you drink frequently]
1: water
2: water
3. coke
4: alcohol of some sort
[four things to do when you're bored]
1: talk online
2: smoke
3: listen to music
4: sleep
[four things that never fail to cheer you up]
1: food
2. weed
3: all my friends.. i love u girls!! and Jimmy!!
4: sex..lol
[four things you can't live without]
1: Food
2: friends
3: music
4: sex
[about ten years ago ]
1: i met Jimmy!!!!
2: Johnson was big and new
3: i lived in Arlington
[about two years ago]
1: I started smokeing weed
2: Holly and i were INSEPERABLE
3: i was obsessed with Robbie
[about one year ago]
1: i was in 8th grade
2: i was still obsessed with Robbie
3: Holly and i were still always together
[today...]
1: went to Johnson with Manda
2: eat at Georges
3: did this...
[3 things you dislike]
1: Fake ppl
2: ppl who lie
3: noesy ppl
[four CD's from your collection that you will never get tired of]
1: 40 oz. to freedom
2: Twiztid Freek Show
3: cheeseburger cd Kelesy made for me
4: lol ym whole itunes playlist
[four vacations you have taken]
1: Florida
2: Cearder Point Ohio
3: Woodward
4: Canada eh!
[Three things you'd like to learn]
1: how to spell
2: how to fly
3: how to not have my heart broken by thoes a care about most
What is your favorite...
gum: Big Red
restaurant: JOHNNY ROCKETS or MCDONALDS!!
drink: rum and coke
season: fall
type of weather: RAINING!!
emotion: giggly
thing to do on a half day: get high with my friends...same thing i do everday lol
late-night activity: sex
city: ...??
store: Weathervane, Marshals, Bobs...
When was the last time you...
cried: friday night had a big cryign fest with Manda, Kelsey, Meg and Jimmy.. i love u all soo much!!!!!
laughed: all day wihty Manda
hugged someone: today i hugged Tony
felt depressed: friday...
felt overworked: everyday in school
faked sick: thursday
What was the last...
word you said: ok
thing you ate: Cheeseburger sub and fies for georges YUMMY!
thing you drank: water..what else do i drink
song you listened to: stand by me by Oasis
place you went to: Georges
movie you saw: scary movie 3
Piercings: ears
Tattoos: not at the moment
Height: 5'4"ish
Hair Color: brown
Siblings: older sister, younger brother
Natural Hair Color: brown
Eye Color At Birth: blue
Eye Color Currently: greenish brownish
Glasses/Contacts: yes
Birthdate: June 26
Sign: Cancer
Current Age: 14
Siblings names: Angelina & Nick
School: NHS... the school of unneeded drama!
Current Grade: 9th
College Plans: not sure.. i want to go to Cali. but Manda want to go to New York and i dont want to go that far away for her and my home.. :-/
LAST
Song that was stuck in your head: Mandas fuckin ring tone lol
Person that called you: Kelsey i think
TV Show you watched: Wild Boys
Person you were thinking of: Joe
DO
You have a crush on anyone: lol more like an obsession :-[
Wish you could live somewhere else: Natick and the ppl in it suck.. but i wouldnt leave my friends for nething
You think about suicide: no i think its the PUSSYS way out
Others find you attractive: umm only my tits >:O
Want more piercings: i want my belly botton done
You like cleaning: when im bored....
You like roller coasters: LOVE THEM!!!!
Who...?
Have You Known The Longest: Jimmy
Do You Argue The Most With: no 1 really
Do You Always Get Along With: Manda and Kelsey
Is The Most Trustworthy: Manda and Kelsey
Makes You Laugh The Most: lol manda kelsey meg jess brittany and jimmy!! lol i love ppl who make me laff!!
Always Has A Man/Woman: jess u pimp u
Is The Most Sensitive: Klesey
Has The Coolest Parents: Brittany
Has The Coolest Sibling(s): I love Mandas sister
Is The Most Outgoing: Manda
Is Most Rebellious: Meg
Is Most Likely To Become Famous: Manda with he BEAUTIFUL voice and INCREADBLE poetry
Is Most Likely To Become Rich: the famous one wouldn't u think...?
Is Most Likely To Wind Up In Jail: Robbie for baeting his wife lol
Is Most Likely To Have A Million Kids: lol i hope none of them have that many....
Always Wears A Smile: Jess
Without Thinking About It, Who Do You Think Would Die For You?: Manda, Kelsey, Meg, Jess, Brittany, Jimmy...lol the important ones
Complains The Least: lol we all complain..all the time..
Do you want to die: Ha! alot of ppl
Biggest Flirt: hmmm...
Never EVER Betrayed You: Manda
Biggest Pimp : James Patrick Young.... my first husban!!
lol oh that was fun ahahah...well im off
<3Lizzy
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2004 24 May :: 6.24pm
Enter value(s) in comment, then copy & paste to your own journal
0= I don't know you
1= I like you
2= I love you!!
3= You are funny
4= You are cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I want to fuck you
7= You are sexy!
8= You have a nice body
9= I want to get to know you
10= I hope you die
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dear amanda-
i hope that the end of school is coming fast enough for you. It musty be different without kailtin there. dad said you were kind of down last week and i wasnt sure if it was due to mothers day, or my letter to you. i just wanted to tell you that i love you; i love your poetry and your lyrics and your caring nature. i know that you are still very angry, but its important for you to see me and spend some time together. it might help me to be able to hear from you in person just how hard all of this has been for you. ill be coming to see you on Friday, june 4th after school. id really like to take you out; at least to talk and tell you in person just how much i love and miss you
<3 Mom
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2004 24 May :: 4.14pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Fat Joe ft. Remy Martin-Lean Back
Blahhh Monday
Friday was interesting.
My advice to anyone who's ever kept their feelings inside as long as I have - its to just let them go. And if the person who your feelings are directed towards doesn't care, then you shouldn't either.
The sad thing is, is that it shouldn't take people enough to be intoxicated in order for them to tell people how they feel. But I'm glad I did because now it doesn't bother me anymore for some reason. I've just given up on caring about ppl who don't care themselves. And a conversation with Meg the other day led me to remembering all the people I've become close with in the past... and have had to let go of somehow. And if I can move on and love new people as many times as I did before, then I can again.
Dont miss anyone from your past..
Theres a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
To Katelin, Amanda & Meaghan..
I love you three so very much thank you for standing by me through the years... Out of everyone you have been the ones to carry on our friendship the longest.
Emily-We went through so much 6th through 8th grade and there are so many memories between us and I know they won't end this year... This year has been a big change for us because of the schools but I know you are always there for me whenever I need you
MajkL* Your my everything I really don't know where I would be without you..
*Meg*Amanda*Jessie*Kelsey*Lizzy
BFF girls I'll never leave you
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2004 23 May :: 10.03pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Vertical Horizon-"Best I Ever Had"
long ass time....
wow it has relly benn a long ass time since i wrot in here, btu i think im gonan try and rember to do it again... lol not liek i have no time to do it ahahah...
~~~~~~~~Summer is sooo CLOSE!!!!!~~~~~~~~
school is comming to an end. Thank God!! lol i cant wait till the summer.. but somehow i dont think its gonan b all that good nemore.... i thougth it would b eay to stop cearing about ppl who dont care abotu it... but its nto that easy when u love them soo much....
Friday night Manda Kelsey Meg Jimmy and I, had a nice BIg crying fest(well jimmy didnt cry lol) but yea us girls got shitfaced at my house and then went up to are home (Johnson) and Jimmy came to visti is... lol littl did he know he would ahve to sit and listen to 4 girls start crying abotu nothign and everythign all at the sem time.. ahahahah but i thik it was good cuz we all got out what we really wanted to say...sad but good i guess....
lol wel today was a good day tho... sat around my house wiht a few ppl and go high lol as neone can tell if they walk in my room seeign as how it still smells like weed... lol but its all good cuz mommy believes me that it was insence ahahah.....
I love u Manda Kelsey Meg and Jess!!! ur mo loves forever!!!!! <3MAJKL!!!!<3
off to bed cuz im sooo tired!!
<3Lizzy
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2004 23 May :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Phone with adam<3
nerUSY<3
This weekend was unforgettable. I love my USYers. Jewish people having fun, Jewish people we are one. Yes Berkster it was the first weekend of the year I spend USYing every day. I love it! Meeting JP, having to dance with him because you paid 30 bucks to SATO! it was crazy fun! Andy likes Becca? Becca Windmuller is skitzo. The Red Sox Won. Everythings great...then it ends. This year of USY was incredible and as fun as this summer will be, I will miss each and every one of you. I love you with all my heart. xoxo
Memories last forever, never do they die.
True friends stay together, and never say goodbye.
Ill never let you go. xoxo
<3 Jodster!
xox I Love You Adam. Always. Forever. <3 xox
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2004 22 May :: 2.24pm
JEWEL LYRICS
Foolish Games
You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window,
always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees
CHORUS: These foolish games are tearing me apart
You thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart
You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, Baroque moved you,
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
You'd teach me of honest things
Things that were daring, things that were clean
Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean
So I hid my soiled hands behind my back
Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself
CHORUS
You took off your coat and stood in the rain
you were always like that
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2004 22 May :: 1.37pm
She falls apart by herself
No ones there to talk or understand
Feels sustained, dries here eyes
Finds herself, opens the door inside
People see right through you
Everyone who knew you well
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasteful
Runaway runaway [Rodney background:] runaway runaway
Hold, hold you but your going away
Runaway runaway [Rodney background:] runaway runaway
[Rodney: Want]
Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
You walk along by yourself
There's no sound, nothing is changing
Been gone away, left you there
Emptiness is nothing you can't share
All those words that hurt you
More than you would let it show
Comes apart, by yourself
All is well and everything is wasted
Runaway runaway [Rodney background:] runaway runaway
[Rodney: Want]
Hold (Want) hold you but your going away
Runaway runaway [Rodney background:] runaway runaway
[Rodney: Want]
Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
Sometimes we'll feel around and this dance instead can't be down
All the sound of me on my own
Any sound of me again it's time away surround around a friend
I know where I know where no where to runaway
She falls apart, no one there
Hold her hand, it seems to disappear
Falls apart, might as well
Day is long and nothing is wasted
Runaway runaway [Rodney background:] runaway runaway
[Rodney:] Want
Hold (Want) hold you but your going away
Runaway runaway [Rodney background:] runaway runaway
[Rodney:] Want
Hold (Want) you tomorrow but your leaving today
Runaway Runaway
Hold (Want) hold you (Want) but your going away
But your leaving today, but your leaving today
[four beverages you drink frequently]
1: diet coke
2: water
3. sprite
4: alcohol
[four things to do when you're bored]
1: smoke
2: talk online
3: sing
4: write poems
[four things that never fail to cheer you up]
1: jimmy hugs
2. drugz
3: talking to sean
4: talking to my friends
[four things you can't live without]
1: writing
2: friends
3: music
4: food
[about ten years ago ]
1: i was 5
2: i was at the wellesely coopertive nursery school lol
3: i didnt realize my full potential.. and didnt appreciate how happy and carefree i was
[about two years ago]
1: i was in 7th grade
2: i hung out with katie kelsey and meggy everyday lol
3: i was 13
[about one year ago]
1: i was in 8th grade
2: i fell in love with joe russell
3: i was friends with different ppl
4: i met all the framingham kids
5: i was at the mall everyday haha
[today...]
1: watched goldmember with lizzy and meg
2: talked on the fone with sean
3: picked a ringtone
[3 things you dislike]
1: people that lie
2: when ppl tell you they love you.. then leave you -- deciet
3: ppl who overramatize to get attention
[four CD's from your collection that you will never get tired of]
1: Twiztid
2: Dark Lotus
3: my joe cd
4: hmm.. idk?
[four vacations you have taken]
1: barbados
2: Florida
3: Aruba with kristin
4: Las vegas with meggy :-)
[Three things you'd like to learn]
1: to write a fluent sonnet
2: how to sing high notes
3: how to sing in front of ppl and not be scared
What is your favorite...
gum: dentyne (sperament)
restaurant: ehh
drink: a screaming orgasm :-)
season: spring and fall
type of weather: sunny
emotion: happiness
thing to do on a half day: hang out with my friends and... smoke?
late-night activity: partying ;)
city: boston?
store: hot topic, pac sun, wet seal, blahhh i dunno
When was the last time you...
cried: umm last night with meggy kelsey lizzy and jimmy I LOVE YOU GUYS
laughed: with lizzy and meggy this morning
hugged someone: today i hugged jimmy! =) lol
felt depressed: last night..
felt overworked: school bites my ass
faked sick: ive lost track
What was the last...
word you said: i dont remember
thing you ate: ramen
thing you drank: water
song you listened to: desperately wanting
place you went to: johnson
movie you saw: goldmember
Piercings: ears
Tattoos: none..yet
Height: 5'3"ish
Hair Color: dark brown with light brown streaky things and pink streaks as of now lol
Siblings: a sister
Natural Hair Color: dark brown
Hair Color Currently: you def already asked me that..
Eye Color At Birth: brown
Eye Color Currently: brown
Glasses/Contacts: yes
Birthdate: April 21
Sign: taurus
Current Age: 15
Siblings names: Kaitlin
School: NHS
Current Grade: 9th
College Plans: def college in newyork with all my friends
LAST
Song that was stuck in your head: desperately wanting
Person that called you: sean
TV Show you watched: pimp my ride
Person you were thinking of: sean
DO
You have a crush on anyone: you can call it that
Wish you could live somewhere else: all the time
You think about suicide: uh yeah.. unfrotunatley
Others find you attractive: prolly not..
Want more piercings: getting my belly button done again .. (i closed it up)
You like cleaning: NEVER
You like roller coasters: hell ya
Who...?
Have You Known The Longest: kelsey
Do You Argue The Most With: kelsey
Do You Always Get Along With: lizzy and emily
Is The Most Trustworthy: lizzy and emily!!
Makes You Laugh The Most: meg and lizzy
Always Has A Man/Woman: jess lol
Is The Most Sensitive: sean
Has The Coolest Parents: lizzy
Has The Coolest Sibling(s): lizzys bros pretty cool .. when he wants to be lol
Is The Most Outgoing: lizzy
Is Most Rebellious: meg
Is Most Likely To Become Famous: lizzy (victoria secret model)
Is Most Likely To Become Rich: uh.. ?
Is Most Likely To Wind Up In Jail: cozzy cuz hes shady
Is Most Likely To Have A Million Kids: um no clue
Always Wears A Smile: ...who says that
Without Thinking About It, Who Do You Think Would Die For You?: Majkl :-)
Complains The Least: everyone complains at some time...
Do you want to die: a certain krew... excuding jimmy and robbie and um ppl who are nice :-D
Biggest Flirt: lizzy
Never EVER Betrayed You: lizzy
Biggest Pimp : jimmy haha
well there you go :) have fun
this entry is dedicated to the one and teh only emmy d!!!! i wuvv you emmy :-)
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