Scotch tape
Well I'm not at home again. I'm at Jorge's in Boca..what fun. In other words theres another hurricane here in florida. Yesterday when we were evacuated we came to Jorge's cause it was Frans birthday and we needed to make up for the party that was cancelled. It was fun though we had some people come over that we know that live in the same area as Jorge and we had burritos from Moes as well as chips and fajitas so its all good stuff. Friday I spent the night at Loreleis and we had fun. We went to the Boynton mall but it was closed then we went to the movies but there were too many people. We went to party city and I tried on a Cat Woman costume (just the top part) and it looked...sorta funny. After that she could see me looking over at Eckerds and she was like you wanna go over? I sorta nodded we get over there and I see Ryan skateboarding and Jose was there with some other kid and I was like I can't talk to him. He looked at our car cause we hadn't gotten out and he gave us this evil look I thought he knew it was us well that hurt me really badly and I was like Lorelei lets go please. She was semi-yelling at me but we finally left. When I texted Ryan later on he realized after we had pulled away that it was us. Lorelei is a wonderful friend trying to make me feel better and everything. We watched The people under the stairs and it was really good I reccomend it. I called Ryan last night and we talked a lil bit and from what was said and what happened...it seems to me that this is affecting him more then me...maybe the full effects of us not being together anymore haven't sunken in yet almost like its not real even though it is. I'm different without him...it's a weird feeling. I snap at people without meaning to. I'm sad of course, I find myself crying over little things. In chorus I asked my friend Cesar to give me some love cause I needed some and he came over and hugged me like usual and was like don't you have a boyfriend? I shook my head no and he wrapped his arms around my waist and was holding me like Ryan would and I was feeling really uncomfortable. I was just like we broke up. I dunno but I was like this is not your job this is Ryans I want Ryan to do this in my head of course I was thinking this. Blah. I bought Ryan's deoderant yesterday cause it smelled like him and the eckerds that I went to by the Boca mall Ryan's brother Miguel works there so I felt sorta weird. I'm sending Miguel evil death glares right now for what he said to Ryan. Ryan told his mom what happened between him and I guess his mom told Miguel. Well Miguel looked at Ryan with a straight face and said "I told you so". When Ryan told me that...I was like you evil thing you. I actually think Ryan and I will be back together soon so thats good. It's too hard being without him...but I'm scared its going to turn into what was going on before. I want to make this work really badly but maybe this small break is what we needed but I don't know anymore. I'm going to take a shower now. To all my Floridians be safe in the hurricane. And if anyone from Atlantic high reads this theres no school Monday.

-Chasmin-

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