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2005 26 February :: 7.47pm
:: Mood: Paranoid.
:: Music: Disturbed- Prayer
Let me enlighten you...
Today was... Long. *sigh* And, I want to go to Ralph's freaking party, but I don't know where his house is. Oh well.
Woke up at 6, got to Roland Grise by 7, then got on a bus for three hours. XD We stopped at McDonalds for breakfast, and we were all dressed up. People were looking at us so weird. It was great. We got to the church, and sat around for a long time... We did random things to pass the time... Played bloody knuckles, slaps, cards... And yelled at black people. (: But they didn't know we were yelling at them. It was great. XD
Went in. I was so nervous for my solo, even though it was really short. That judge was intimidating. I went kinda sharp near the end, but no one else said they noticed it. I couldn't feel my toes.
It was weird. For some reason, I kept thinking I was going to die today... Do any of you ever get that feeling? It sucks. o_o
Funny bathroom experiences:
(At McDonalds)
Me: *walks in bathroom*
Hispanic ladies: *look at me, then start speaking Spanish*
Me: *stares at them, turns around, and walks away.*
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(At Golden Corral)
Me: *walks in bathroom*
Girl 1: Who's in here?
Girl 2: Me.
Girl 3: Me too.
Me: *stays quiet*
Girl 1: Julie, are you taking a dump?
Girl 3: Yeah.
Girl 1: Me too. Will you wait for me if you finish first?
Girl 2: *walks out* You guys, be quiet, there's someone in here!
Me: *leaves bathroom*
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I was trying to sleep on the bus, and Nick kept peeking over the seat. "Do you want to listen to some British rap?" That stuff is the junk. XD It's soo funny. Nick is funny as Hell man. He kept asking all the little kids if they jack off. They were all like "EWW MAN THAT'S SICK! OF COURSE I DON'T! (=
Well I think I'll end this entry here. Later.
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2005 26 February :: 12.46pm
:: Music: rammstein-mein teil
LAYER ONE:--Spell your name with band or artist names.
C- Chevelle
O- Oasis
R- Rammstein
I- Interpol
N- New Found Glory
N- Nirvana
E- Edgewater
LAYER TWO:
FULL Name: Corinne LeAnn Bagley
Birth date: August 20, 1990
Nickname(s): Rinne
Location: Maryland
Eye Color: Hazel
Hair Color: Dark Brown [with NATURAL red highlights]
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Leo
LAYER THREE:
The shoes you wore today: My Steve Madden fuzzy slippers
Your fears: Syringes/Needles, Spiders [it depends]
Your perfect pizza: Extra Cheese
Goal you'd like to achieve: Umm...
LAYER FOUR:
Your most overused phrase on MSN: I dont use MSN
Your thoughts when you first wake up: I want to go back to sleep!
Most missed memory: Being stupid with Annette
LAYER FIVE:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: B.K.
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Neither
LAYER SIX:
Do you...
Smoke: No
Cuss: Yes
Sing: No
Take a shower every day: Yes
Have a crush(es): Yes
Do you think you've been in love?: Nope
Want to go to college: Yes
Want to get married: Eventually
Get motion sickness: No
Get along with your parents: Fairly well
Play an instrument: Yes -- Alto Saxophone [last chair...YESSSS!] and I *try* to play my Electric Guitar
LAYER SEVEN
In the past month, have you...
Drank alcohol: No
Smoked: No
Done a drug: No
Had Sex: No
Gone to the mall?: Yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Yes
Eaten sushi: No
Been on stage: No
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Yes
Made homemade cookies: Yes
Dyed your hair: No
Stolen anything: No
LAYER EIGHT:
Ever...
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes (:
Been called a tease: No
Gotten beaten up: No.
Shoplifted: No
Changed who you were to fit in: Yes -- in Middle School
LAYER NINE:
Age you hoping to be married: Umm...at LEAST by 25...
Numbers and Names of Children: I don't want kids
Describe your Dream Wedding: Umm
How do you want to die: Happy
Where you want to go to college: Who knows
What do you want to be when you grow up: A...Meteorologist or a Forensic Scientist
What country would you most like to visit: ITALY! [i'm already going...in about 100 days!]
LAYER TEN:
Best eye color? Umm
Best hair color? Either brown...or something unique
Short or long hair: It depends
Best first date location: Umm
Best first kiss location: Hmm...
LAYER ELEVEN:
Number of people I could trust with my life: About 4 or 5
Number of CDs that I own: Pfft...liiiiike...100+ [NOT including burned copies]
Number of piercings: 0
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: Quite a few
...i got this from laughter's journal. (:
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2005 26 February :: 12.38pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: korn-another brick in the wall
...on the way back from getting the drivers ed car, we stopped at mcdonalds. and i got a chicken sandwich. the edges were gross and soggy...but i dealt. anyways. soooooooo bored.
...i might go laser bowling again tonight. =P they know me by name in the bowling alley now. ahahaha.
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2005 26 February :: 10.04am
:: Mood: bored
all i have to say is...look who's talking now.
all the people that gave me shit and grief ((ESPECIALLY...right after my great-grandmother died...)) are getting it to themselves now.
at LEAST i had a high enough self-esteem to hold my head high through every fucking lie and thing someone threw at me.
anyways...i'm still a good person and i'm determined to be a good friend. you ALL know who i'm talking to...so...if anyone needs advice/help or anything...juuuuuuuust comment...or im me...or e-mail me...and whatnot. (:
oh yeah -- and "anonymous," whoever you are posting in annette's journal ((the mean one, anyhoo))...you're right about "what goes around comes around," but don't take it out on my friends. i'm still pissed about what all happened, but i'm trying to become friends with annette again ((well, "acquaintances" anyways; lol annette))...so...go the fuck away and post a lame comment in someone else's journal when what they REALLY need is help.
love
<3,
-- corinne
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2005 25 February :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: blah
About Me Personality Quiz | Created by jeffq1985 and taken 42476 times on bzoink! | What is your name? | Corinne | How old are you? | 14 | When is your Birthday? | August 20, 1990 | What is your zodiac sign? | Leo | Where were you born? | Hagerstown | Where do you live now? | Hagerstown | What color eyes do you have? | Hazel | What color hair do you have? | Dark Brown | How tall are you? | 5'7" | How much do you weigh? (Be Honest Ladies) | About 120? | What is your race? | White | What is your worst fear? | Needles | Do you smoke? | No | Do you drink? | No | Do you cuss? | Yes | Do you use drugs? | No | Have you ever or will you ever steal? | I have once | Are you dependable and/or trustworthy? | Kinda | Do you play in a band or play an instrument? | Yes | Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings? | No | If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be? | I dunno | Do you suffer from depression disorder? | No | If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be? | Flying off of a roller coaster and dying on contact with whatever I hit | Have you ever tried to commit suicide? | No | Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else? | No | What subculture do you belong too? | Umm | Are you evil? | Yes (:< | Do you believe that you can be possesed? | No | Are you a paranoid person? | Sometimes | Do you ever get jealous of somebody else? | No | Are you obsessive and/or compulsive? | Yes | Are you a violent person? | I can be | Do you take your anger out on other people? | Yes | Do you blame other people for your mistakes? | Sometimes | What is your favorite game? | Monopoly | What is your favorite movie? | Eurotrip | Who is your favorite band? | Green Day | What is your favorite song? | Waiting | What kind of books and/or magazines do you read? | Music/Snowboarding Magazines | What is your favorite color? | Orange | What is your favorite food? | Anything Italian or German | What is your favorite drink? | Dr Pepper | Do you own a pari of converse? | Yes | Do you own a pair of dickies? | Yes | Would you ever kill yourself or someone else? | No | Are you a virgin? | Yes | Are you kinky? | No | Do you like biting? | ... | Do you masturbate? | No | Do you watch pornography? | No | Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color? | Yes | Have you ever shaved your head in a socially unacceptable way? | No | Are you hyper active person? | It depends | Are you religious? | Kinda/Not really | Do you have any self inflicted scars? | No | Does pain turn you on? | No | Do you stand for originality and creativity? | Yes | Do you like meeting new people? | Yes | What do you like most about life? | I don't know | What do you dislike most about life? | I don't know | Do you believe in love at first fright? | No | Have you ever pierced a body part yourself? | No | Have you ever had to beg for dinner money? | No | Do you own a car? | No | Have you been to jail, yet? | No | Are your clothes held together with safety pins? | No | Do you have actual scars from punk rock shows? | No | Have you ever vomit while making out? | No | Have you held a job for less than a day? | No | Do you own more than two pair of jeans? | Yes | Have you ever had to fuck stuff up for no good reason? | Yes | Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house? | No | Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude? | No | Does the world piss you off? | Totally -- well -- it depends.. | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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2005 25 February :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: rammstein-du hast
umm...i cleaned out my friends. not out of...whatever. buuuuuut...go ahead and add me if you want.
-cry- i'm so poor. i have no friends ): lol
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2005 25 February :: 10.56pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: goldfinger-99 red balloons
*yawn*....sooooo....freaking....tired....
today, we were off...for the second day. who knows why. but hey...i guess i can't complain. anyhoo. i was on here all day...then em came up...and we watched eurotrip ((it was like...my...sixth time this week, no lie =P))...then she went away...then at like, 7, my mom, frank, and i watched napolean dynamite...
is it just me, or is that movie getting really old? i'm tired of turning every god damn corner and seeing someone wearing a shirt from the movie...or someone with pins...or paper...notebooks...folders, pencils and pens, you name it! and most of all -- people reciting it. ((now THAT is getting rrrrrrrreally annoying.))
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2005 25 February :: 6.37pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: the caesers-jerk it out
What breed of horse are you? Find out!
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2005 24 February :: 5.01pm
:: Mood: Eh.
:: Music: All American Rejects- Swing Swing
Boredom.
W means yes. V is sort of, or half.
Have you ever...
[v] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[w] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[w] rode in a taxi.
[ ] been dumped.
[v] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[v] been in a fist fight.
[ ] had sex.
[ ] had a threesome - kissing or otherwise
[w] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[v] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[w] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[w] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[v] lost your sibling.
[w] played 'clue'.
[w] had a sleepover party.
[w] went ice skating.
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf.
[v] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had a quinceanera.
[ ] had a car
[w] drove.
Do you...
[w] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[ ] have a crush.
[w] feel loved.
[w] feel lonely.
[ ] feel happy.
[v] hate yourself.
[ ] think youre attractive.
[w] have a dog.
[w] have your own room.
[v] listen to rap.
[w] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[v] listen to techno.
[v] listen to reggae.
[v] paint your nails.
[v] have more than 1 best friend.
[v] get good grades.
[ ] play an instrument.
[w] have slippers.
[v] wear boxers. (--to bed)
[w] wear black eyeliner.
[w] like the color blue.
[v] like the color yellow.
[v] like to read
[w] like to write.
[v] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[w] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.
Are you...
[v] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[v] ok.
[w] bored.
[ ] happy.
[v] bilingual.
[w] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[v] asian.
[ ] short.
[w] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[v] sick.
[w] a virgin.
[w] lazy.
[ ] single.
[w] taken.
[ ] looking.
[ ] not looking.
[w] talking to someone.
[w] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[w] tired.
[w] sleepy.
[v] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[ ] thirsty.
[w] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[v] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[v] ticklish.
[ ] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic.
[v] racist.((sometimes))
The last
-person you hugged: Aisha
-person you called: Jesse
-person who called you: Renee
-thing you touched: Cream Soda Bottle.
-book you read: currently- The Diary of Anne Frank.
-magazine you bought: ...Not sure.
-place you went to: Eckerds.
-person who said I love you': Either John, Aisha, or Marcus.
-perfume you sprayed: Victoria's Secret- Divine
-thing you ate: A sammich.
-drink you drank: Cream Soda.
-flower you picked: ...
-movie you rented: Harold and Kumar go to White Castle.
-letter you typed: "e"
-word you said: "That"
-person on your mind: John.
-place where you slept: In the gym on the mats. XD
-animal you touched: Doggy. :)
-time you cried: Monday night.
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2005 23 February :: 4.20pm
:: Mood: Eh
:: Music: Carly singing
"YOU ARE FUCKING DISGUSTING!!" "You just noticed that?"
Today was all right.
(Yeah, that's how it's spelled. Not "alright".)
So yeah... Today was okay. But, JT got mashed potatoes all over me at lunch... And I was about to spill milk all over him, but he grabbed my wrist and it spilled all over the table... Then, later, Taylor blew his nose in my hair. :( It made me sad. It was funny though, I yelled "You're fucking disgusting!", and Mrs. Potter came out, and she was like, "You just noticed that?" Haha. It was quite funny... Except for the fact that there's snot in my hair. (Still)
Well, that's all I've got for now. I'm on the phone with Aisha. Bye bye for now.
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2005 22 February :: 5.42pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: the ataris-in this diary
let's see. hmmm.
well, today i wore my new shirt. (: yeeeeeehaw! it says. "everyone loves an italian girl." everyone was like: "dude, you're italian?!?" and i was like: "uh...yeah..." ...anyways.
wowwwwww. in band, k went like, really crazy, and screamed at us for not getting the music right/for not counting right. then he made all of us line up and stuff. and then he rearranged all of the chairs and threw the chairs nobody was using like, across the room...then he had us sit down. i didn't really get why the hell moving the chairs helped us understand our music better. buuuuuut...whatever.
while i was waiting for the bell to ring, my purse and bookbag got stuck on me and i had a flapping-ish seizure. ahahahaha.
tomorrow is the north-south game! YES!
last but not least. i found my old screenname and its password!!!!!!!!!!!! so you can expect to see me using very mest up on aim a lot now, because everyone i had from like, elementary school and stuff are all on there and they still use the screennames...so...yeah. i'll wait until i tell them all my new one...anyways...so...dinner's done. and i'm hungry ((like he was today in german...hahaha i would've given you my oreos you know!!!))...so...
auf wiedersehen! <3
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2005 22 February :: 4.20pm
...Bit of a better mood.
I have no one left to go to formal with. Apparently, Rhianna is going with Aisha. Oh well. I might not even go. From the looks of things, not many of my friends are going...
Saturday, I go to Solo/Small Ensamble and I do believe I've got my solo back... I have to dress "cute" though. I don't know if I own "cute" clothes...
Anyways, I uh... love John.
Have a nice day, bitches.
(I think I'm bipolar. XD)
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2005 21 February :: 11.10pm
Lovely fucking day.
It's probably not a good idea to update now.
I'm so fucking hurt, pissed, and sad. I hate it. I'm about to cry. I hate being so fragile... I hate being liable to break at any moment.
Had nightmares last night. Much to my dismay, some turned out to be fucking premonitions. Then, in the car, mom accidentally spilled water all over me and my bag... I don't get this dance for Best Foot Forward, AND I missed practice for Solo/Small Ensamble... Johnson was in a bad mood. Livingstone was being a complete asswipe. I have a test tomorrow and I could not tell you one thing on it. Mr. Moore's class was good. Glasgow and Connors... Well, they were Glasgow and Connors. New seating chart with Connors. I sit next to Anna...
Came home to mom bitching about how I had to clean the kitchen.
John's back. (:
...The day just kept fucking getting better and better. Found out some wonderful news... Went to the UNCW concert with Keely, Aisha, and Matt... Only to be in a bad mood the whole time. Plus, Keely was ignoring me... I mean, I never get to see her anymore... and we rarely even talk... It just kind of hurts.
Whenever I try to hold something together, it all falls apart.
The end.
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2005 21 February :: 11.27pm
:: Music: pure hatred(chimaira)
concrete, go smoke
my voice is all raspy and low and crackly and flemmy right now. i just called emjay, and i was like "hhh-e-e-e.yy." yeah. kinda like that. lol.
yesterday MJ called lindsay lohan and she picked up and she called him a der and said never to call again. i called like 16 people. mostly fruck you's and whatnot. lol. now i found seth green and stephen king. i feel like an idiot for not seeing it before. seth green is hott. eminem has a trippy number, yo. its like 776 7643. lol. i called deryk from sum 41. and his answering machine was funny.
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2005 20 February :: 4.57pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: the killers-mr. brightside [again...?]
eeeeeeee. i'm at my dad's. (:
i have a question. it might sound dumb; but i could care less to blow $500 on an mp3 player [PLUS added fees for buying the god damn music]...anyways; can you insert a cd into your computer and download the cd onto an mp3 player through windows media player? that way, it would be free...
i'm just curious--i'd like to know because i might be getting an i-pod for when i go to germany, instead of carrying around all those cd's and my cd player.
comment with an answer...thank ya. <3
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2005 19 February :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: Meh.
:: Music: None. Speakers don't work. :(
"This autistic kid barks at me sometimes..."
Today was all right. I went to Bethany's house. (: I missed her a lot. It was good to see her, though... Even with all the awkward silences. Haha. Andrew is pretty cool, too.
I came home and talked to Aisha on the phone for a while, then went over to Ryan's. The Pistone's are in town, so I got to see them ^_^ Yay. But, I felt really out of place with Carly and her friends. I've become so distant with all of them. Even Cameron. He used to be one of my best friends, and he'd be over at my house all the time. Now, he got a girlfriend, and became closer friends with all of Carly's friends. It's sad. I hate losing friends... I don't know if I should go to anymore of Carly's friends' things... I always feel out of place now-a-days... I usually end up sitting somewhere by myself, not talking to anyone. It's become really pointless to even go, I guess.
I miss John so freaking much... When I was at Ryan's house... Mr. Brightside came on, and my heart just started racing. (That song makes me think of him, and it's his buddy alert on AIM...) It made me realize how much I really missed him. By the end of the song, I was nearly in tears. I love him so much...
I think that's a sufficient entry. I hope Aisha can come see me tomorrow. Voyager's concert tomorrow. I'm excited. And yes, I AM a loser.
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2005 19 February :: 1.37pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: the killers-somebody told me
Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... | Category | Your Score | Average | Self-Lovin' | 83.3%
Never taken out of the packaging | 65.1% | Shamelessness | 90.5%
Has yet to see self in mirror | 79.3% | Sex Drive | 100%
| 77.6% | Straightness | 100%
| 44.5% | Gayness | 100%
| 83.8% |
Fucking Sick | 93.8%
Refreshingly normal | 90% |
You are 91.82% pure
Average Score: 72.6%
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2005 19 February :: 1.01pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: blink 182-what's my age again
Are You Getting Some?
You have a
46%
chance of getting some.
Doing pretty good, better then most. Seems like you are the average Joe/Jane. Shaking your bootay might just pay off.
Are You Getting Some?
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2005 19 February :: 12.56pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: modest mouse-ocean breathes salty
LJ Friends Meme by You must tell 4 people about this game. Tom is the one that you love. Nick is one you like but can't work out. You care most about Mary Jo. Leah is the one who knows you very well. Priscilla is your lucky star. All the Small Things is the song that matches with Tom. Waiting is the song for Nick. Boulevard of Broken Dreams is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind. and So Cold is the song telling you how you feel about life Take this quiz
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2005 18 February :: 7.41pm
Ahh today was pretty good.
We're doing Firefly Darkness for Solo/Small Ensamble... I wonder if I'll get my solo again?
"CARLOS!! THAT TREE IS NOT THE BATHROOM!"
Oh God, I love my class this year.. For the most part.
I'll update later... Going to Casey's... :) Playin' poker. Haha.
<333
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2005 17 February :: 9.54pm
I'm ready to disappear. Vacation seems far from here.
Thank God tomorrow Tamarraw (annoying Mrs. Denton accent) is Friday.
This week was actually pretty decent.
I think I'm sick, though... :(
Woo. End for now. I don't feel like updating.
Bitches.
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2005 16 February :: 6.48pm
:: Mood: blank
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2005 16 February :: 4.28pm
Today was pretty good.
Random stuff. I hung out with Zach a lot today. He's cool.
At break we played some extreme hackey sack. XD Bret, Nick, Zach, Hunter, and I... God, people were looking at us like we were complete morons. XD Bret kept falling over and stuff.
The Holocaust is depressing, but whenever Mrs. Glasgow talks about it, it's sooo hard not to laugh, because all I can think about is South Park the movie! "Did I say death camps? I mean FUN camps!"
After the bell rang, I kicked Weiner. -_-; Ugh. Don't wanna get into it. It scared the shit out of me, though.
Taylor took my bag, so I was hanging on to the strap (it's a messanger bag.) ...I fell, and my butt hurts like Hell. He threw it. My cell phone was in it. Bleh.
I got to talk to John last night. =) I love him.
End.
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2005 15 February :: 7.15pm
I'm so badass. I stole shit, dogg. Haha. ;D
Today was all right.
I'm sleepy.
I love John.
I calmed down. I don't know why I was letting stuff get to me.
I'm glad Beffy Weffy is feeling better. :)
I BEAT WEINER IN GYM CLASS!! (Haha, Weiner is my friend. I named him Weiner Schnitzel because he's German.) It was fun.
Mr. Moore like freaked out today.
Megan asked what happened in a movie we were watching, so I said "they shoved a rifle up his butt." I really thought they did. Oh well.
I think I had a better day because I got to talk to John this morning. Haha. :D
I'ma go now. Eli's begging me to do my homework.
Shit, I haven't even done my own. Heh.
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2005 14 February :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: Depressed/Angry.
:: Music: HIM- You Are The One
Fuck it.
Fuck today. Fuck family. Fuck Valentine's Day.
Fuck all of it.
Today has sucked so fucking much. I'm about to cry. I hate it. I hate it so much.
Whenever it looks like anything's going to work for me, it all just screws up.
I hate feeling so alone. I hate feeling like I need to be surrounded by people all the time.
I hate being afraid of myself... I hate hating myself.
...I hate crying. It really makes me feel like a smaller person... It makes me feel... weak. I don't know why.
There are so many things I dislike about me...
I'm stupid, ugly and weak.
Self hatred really doesn't feel good... *sigh*
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[edit: 6:02 pm] I calmed down a bit...
PS- I still want your memories.
Post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened... Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you... [/edit]
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