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You Are "Fuck"!

What Swear Word Are You?

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i likes bondage!!!good results today....

Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage &
Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances
are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,
and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a
little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!


What kind of porno would you star in?
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YaYs as i like him and i wanna tear my head off!!!

You are Cheshire Cat!

bailey is always right......
on friday i went to schylars and slept in a tent with her and rox and smoked a lil weed and froze my ass off then burned. on sat, i went to bais and we went to the food basket thing and were VERY bored. kids without kars is kool, but nobody was there. the ppl that WERE there seemed to move whenever we kame....then shane kame and i was happy kuza that, but he seemed to not enjoy hangin with us, but then again...who would?? we are sooo borin....lol....bethy, cari, roxanne, schylar, and charlie went, but left kuz it looked to "uncool" for them. after the show, we went to bais house but left after like 2 minutes kuz shane had to be picked up by his parents in like 15 minutes so we walked bak to food basket. his ppl were sposed to kum at lie 6 30 and we stayed there till 7 25 then he asked kenny to give him a ride and he was gonna give us a ride bak to bais. bai convinced kenny to "kidnap" us ad he did and took us outta town to the river and it was like a scenic lookoutor sumtin and he and bai fucked for ten minutes among uther things whilest i just sat there in the bak seat playin with my piercing and lookin and bugs and birds. i thot lots too. i didnt enjoy sitting there and i was bout to kill bailey. afterwards, we went BAK to her house, convinced her mom to go out, and stole prozac and took them with alcyhol. it has a very awesome effect..it makes me VERY hyper yet horny and wantin to fuck sumone then kill them by stabation with a safety pin. =)i was told by schy that i was rather amusing to talk to on the phone.i was told to go to eds house to fuck. i believe it was charlie, but i want to kill whoever said that....that is just fuckin CRUEL.....

koolionesses is a fun word

You are COMPLETELY INSANE! Welcome to my world!
*Evil laugh* MWUHAHAHAHAHAAA!!! You like to
tease friends about their so called
"male/female friends". You love to
torture them with agonising questions they
can't answer! YOU ARE EVERY PERSONS NIGHTMARE!
Cant i be you're friend
?


Are you a complete Phsyco?
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last day of skool.it was NOT sad.i got bitchy with dumbass tobocco kuz she was all like"ooo...is ur hair different??....do u have any piercings??" then brit kelly kame up and was all like "y do u have a problem with kelsey?" dumb ppl today...and there were LOTS of them.....i will see everyone for the next four years and all my actual friends i will keep in contact with. so wuts the big deal? i enjyed loffin at ppl who cried and pretendin to be sad. tonight i gonna "camp out" in schylar's backyard with her and roxanne. they have weed....yumm.....i gotted lotsa hugs today. mainly from shelly, gwen, nick, and josh kuz they were just like THERE the entire time it seemed and i kept runnin into them.tommorrow should be fun at the show. me, bailey are goin and maybe schylar, roxanne, bethy, shane, cari, raab, and all those fun pplz. i am gonna steal bais ca,era to take sum pics!!!

i left my yearbook in the H wing foyer! FUCK!!!!
i have a disposable camera black semi perm stuff and im sittin here naked cept for a towel :) i am thinkin bout tommorrow...i am not sad. i know i will miss ppl over the summer, but only like 4 of them and most i will see sumtime then anywho.the only one not goin to gfh is nick. and u WILL communicate in summer and such....yes..or i will get my freak friends and we all will stalk u......that could be fun...but ud enjoy it too much!/\...moving on... o dam i hate ppl...i made bai a mix cd and put a few joj on there kuz she likes em too and jodi the hoe who should die heard them and is now dlin a BUNCH of there musik kuz she kan "reelly relate to strawberry gashes..." wut a fuckin poser! she MAY kut herself up, but rarely and only for attention. she shows it off. she is never depressed. maybe when she didnt get to fuck a guy she wanted, but THAT is fuckin not depressed!!! tommorrow get ppl to pose for me!!! =D =D goddammit i will be fuckin pissed if i get yelled at for THEIR mess....i am naked!and i have roxannes shoes and i stoled ur wand too!!!! muahahahahahahahahahahaahaha!!! and im still naked!!!!(in a towel only...)

i get my hair temp dyed/cut tonight maybe!!
today was the bbq and class olympics. i am sticky with cotton candy in my hair and all over my hands. at the bbq, i was informed today is all national male grope day. i had tons of fun with that, only effectively gropin nick, josh, and alex tho. i shall get shane on saturday. tommorrow shall be women groping day, but i doubt i will be cot. i got cotton candy bit off my fingers kinna by nick and sucked off by schylar and roxanne. =D josh looked at me funny at this.... o holy hell i just realized how tired i reellly am...i still have to clean the house then i stay the night at bais, so maybe i update later.

sum ppl shall never know a thing....
ok...schylar told me sumtin that made me feel special...she has a crush on ME...actually i had been guessing that for a lil while now but then not kuza sumtin and now i Finally know....i have still not made decisions as to whether to be straight,bi, or borderline tho....but she is great and perty but after seein wut hapnd to her and roxanne...do i want that?i know i dont want THAT..but....changing subjects.....shane u have NO idea how much i am loffin at u right now...i always seem to have such diverse convos with u....nice tellin me...o well yalls gottsta go to show on saturday!!! and thats all so schylar and roxanne kan read

i gotted imerntet and have lots to sa\y and...just...forgot ...it..all........
this weekend:friday kinna sucked.saturday MUCH better....i stayed the night with schylar, bethy, cari, and charlie. charlie wasnt even a complete ass. but tyhen again...he was rather adequately preoccupied.....schylar had weed...LOTS of weed...cari had a lil REEL good weed...i got sooo stoned. they all thot i was asleep lots more than i was. i saw a lot more than they thot.cari is soo cute! i just got a pic of her from bethy in undergarments and fairy wings. yumm.....wow there was sum great pics...bethy ad charlie got a lil...well lets say AQUAINTED.....yah...to every extent of knowin each other cept actually fuckin....i dunno cept im grounded for not uttin my moms clothes on hangers and she is still a bitch so peace out and only 1 and a half more schools!!=D

i wanna fly away
i am cunfuzzled now with numerous pplz. i did get pierced and surprisingly my mom even kame and paid for it. i also got a cuteness shirt. nobody kame to my bday party but i still luv u all and i could understand y with all the changin and cunfusion and such. im stayin the nigth at schylars tonight with her bethy carrie and charlie. stayin the night with him is gonna be a bitch but ill live. i am cunfused bout lotsa stuffs right now. i just wish i could fly away right now and come back in a week. i have a counselors appoint ment on monday and i have to leave before lunch. i also have a mandatory stage crew meeting after school, so it all sucks. i do not wanna go see a shrink. i supposedly have to be analzed. i still say theyre gonna replace my brain with a potatoe. once again i will live. schylayrs mommy is gonna be here soon, so i am done.

wut happned
as i am guessing u all aready have been informed, my mom is a bitch. she kame home and flipped. i am not quite sure as to y. the house wasnt klean...perty much stuff i didnt know wut to do with like a bunch of the kids' shit. i did clean the majority of it and she said absolutely nuttin was done. she then said no bday party and get my ass off phone, computer, etc. now i will be on in odd times like 5-6:20 in the morning(its 6 now), when evryone is in bed from like 10:45-midnight or however late i want to stay on, and after school from whenever i get home till like 3:40. i dont reelly like it and prolly wont be talkin to all y'all for quite sum time now. i had a concert and told her that for the hundreth time and she said she wasnt gonna take me. she said just to leave. this i did do and went to bais, got ready for my concert and we walked there. she was even willing to sit alone kuz she knew nobody. luckily ona went, so she sat with her. i kant get my chin pierced unless i pay for it myself. i have 70 dollars from family, so technically i COULD,but that leave 20 dollars for the warped tour, and tickets alone are like 22. i reelly wanted my piercing tho....hmm ill have to decide b4 after school today because that is when carl is coming to pick me up. o yah...back to the "party"-bailey kame to the rescue and said we kould have it at her house. VERY few ppl-4 is the limit. isnt it coincidential that the 4 ppl i am inviting are the ones allowed to read this and do? michelle, nicko, schylar, and roxanne. we now have like NOTHING to do there and she has nothing at her house, but o well, we'll live. im now teased kuz i kalled the counselor at gfh and left a messsage and paused and said yah...and hung up.i do that lots. my lil bro is gonna try to help with my mom. even tho he was the worst last night, he is ok every once in a while. last night at the concet, mrs. haverlandt started crying. she klaims she has sumtin with us she will never feel again because it is us and we are SPECIAL. she almost cried during ill remember u throught the years too. i would have had to loff lots. other than that, our concert sucked. too fucking hot. i just dont like them anyways. and schylar im reelly cunfuzzled now and prolly never gonna get it, so just tell me!!!i thot i new, i will not tellu WUT i thot i new, but u twisted it....

how KAN i be a micheal jackson punk poser goth wannabe??
y do pplz SUDDENLY hafta start up again with alll this fuckin labeling??omg...i found a glove an put it on...im preatending to be micheal jackson-i REELLY wanna be too...i wore a bracelet..omg..i am a poser kuz im reelly tryin to prove sumtin by wearin a god damn bracelet...i wear black nail polish...i am a goth in disguise....i wore black some yesterday...im definately goth now...i hang with schylar...i am suddenly copying her on evrything i have.....GOD DAMN U PPL!!!! will u NEVER stop?? i am ME...no labels needed..i do wut i please, NOT wut i think i SHOULD to be "kool".it suddenly all started up a few days ago when sum preppy like jock like dudes were sayin how hey are all "punk" and wanna go to the warped tour. that kinna bugged me as they did not know half the bands-only the ones that had videos, but i could reelly kare less. o grrr.....

hmmm
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

grrr will she never stop?
my mom kame home from work today and "sumthin hapnd she could hardly handle".one of her client's daughter and her friend were gonna commit suicide. my mom had been acting like she had seen them die. they r still alive. they did not even try. my mom was involved in no way.I have been in WAY worse situations and been fine. she said it all reminded her of me. they were "into the poems" i am and had marilyn manson in the cd player and i recently kame home with a pentagram necklace i got from brandon. the poems i read i ony read kuz i like. omg...i read a poem that is telling how the world REELLY is...i best go kill myself!!! i am wearing EVIL...i lik nonchristian musik.....DEFINATELY time to kill myself now!!!goddam its pathetic. i guessshe has FINALLY began to open her mind to ways other than hers and i dont like it. i suppose i will never honestly be happy, but this is worse than b4 kuz i am evil now. grrr. i no none of u like hearin bout my borin complaints bout my mom, so i will now be done but i still kant believe i did not get into drama and are now stuck in debate next year :( and yes....i reelly am turnin 14.....

ok...now im suicidal
i wrote mr.b a note and said i think bout all aspects of life including death. it may even be better. so he kalled my mom and klaimed i now am suicidal so my mom sent a friend of the family out to give me a talk. it sucked lots.O.o i zoned out most the time tho.o!o! good news!!! as some may know,my bday is on friday. carl(friend of family) told me to be home from school at 3 30 and hes gonna pick me up on the motorcycle. funfun! but then imade my lil bro tell me wut he was takin me to and he did and im gettin my chin peirced!!!=D o YaY!!!!!i excited! ok is go now...lots to do....

poo!
on friday, i was grounded.my mom was being a big bitch, so i was all like u know wut? im leavin and i did and went to baileys.i now at the grandparents house.i had another strange dream....there was ma,bai,and a guy friend of unknown.we were friends with this super hot goth dude.he had long black hair.i could put makeup on him and he looked soo yumm....but anyways...he had a friend.he told us to help his friend. his penis had been lest say...NEVER BEEN KISSED....so we were to help him experience life.our dude friend had never given head, so we were to in a way kill two birds with one stick and teach him to properly do it too.i was to hold blonde haired freind of yummmy black haired dude down while freidn gave head.he wanted to use teeth.he was about to bite down and drag the entire distance.i got pain from the idea of that.OWWWW.bai was to stand there, and when instructed, get her wrist slit so head given dude could drink her blood.we then had to hide after it was all done, kuz there were ppl after us and we were not sposed to be anywhere near there.i hid under a van and bai and dude disappeared. i soon woke up not being caught.i wanna know wut it all means :(

wtf?!?
ok, today nick had kool feeling pants. i liked touching them.i felt like shit all day.in english i fell asleep.i had a strange dream. there was this perty chick with reelly soft and beautiful skin. i bit her.it broke the skin and she started bleeding and just sat there.it kinna reminded me of when in thse vampire movies and ppl ask to be bitten and know it hurts but just sit there in silence kuz they asked for it.there was another weird one, i kant member it tho.in gym, i hadda run the pacer test.i had already been feelin like i could pass out and it didnt help.when i was done, i could see white flowers blooming in my eyes. it was kinna kool.they kept goin together in the center and it reminded me of a kaleidoscope.then stephany rogers kame and asked if i was goin out with ed. i told her no and im pissed at that dickanus.she said sumbody told her weve been like fucking and shit lately.i would never fuck him!i asked how the fuck she got that and she did not know. it doesnt bother me as much as it prolly should, but i fucking hate ppl in general.on the way home, i membered i had safety pins on my shirt.it was amazong how much blood lil pricks kan bring.i put my bracelet bak on over it all. i shall wash my bracelet now :-S none of my blood went to waste tho....

i forgotted bout it all!
today, i got info for my english class and wut i gots to do to go into honors english next year. over the summer, i hafta read the grapes of wrath. :s i hate reading. i have to have a typed dialectical journal with 25 enrties in it. i have to have a typed essay on well, i dont exactly know wut, but i soon will figure it out i hope. to top it all off, at the first day of school we have a test on the book. for this year, due tommorrow,i gots ta write poems.i have to have a book with a onomatopoeia, an assonance?, an alliteration, a personification, and a repitious poem with an aa bb a pattern. i have a VERY pathetic attempt at the alliteration lol. dont loff at me too hard. here goes: Death's kiss decomposes desires and dreams woelessly at the dawn of dusk which ascends from darkened laughter. lol. help me in any way shape or form anyone!!!!poo, my grandmas here, i gottsta go*accepting any attempts desperately*!!!

my strange day and WoW i just found a pic of my davey with a heart under his eye =D
ok, this morning was ok. i was in a very crazy yet happy mood. i gots nicko to be my rubber ducky :)i think he my favorite ducky yet kuz he always has sumtin to say and while most the time its not for my benefit in any way, it still helps as its not bad, if all that makes sense. and he squeaks when i squeeze him!!=D=Dthen in math(3rd period) i felt like i could drop over asleep right on the spot. i hadda take the district algebra test, so i got sent to the library to do so. i finished like ten minutes before the bell rang, so i sat there kuz i dint wanna go to class. i found the safety pin i put on my shirt for wutever i may need it for and had lotsa fun with that. im amazed i didnt get caught. i put my bracelet bak on and went to class after 5 minutes of that.in choir(5th), i broke out loffin most of the time i was in there.i was just imagining a very funny sight while listening to the sopranos sing.in 8th, i was about to break out crying.i could feel the tears and evrything, but i prevented it to the best of my abilities.in 9th, i hung in the bathroom and had more fun with mr. safety pin.on my walk home, after stayin after for art, i bit myself. it was VERY releiving. not only did i have the satisfaction of biting, but also the pain of which i have grown soo fond of.my wrist looks perty bad after that and all the safety pin fun. i shall put my bracelet bak on from wheel chair man. i reelly needa bite sumone right now...

bitch i have for a mom
last night schylar and her mom kame and "rescued" me. i left my mom a note becuse i did not wanna wake her and schylar was like begging me to let them kum and get me. i said yes and kalled my mom in the morning. she was a bitch and seemed to forget y i left in the first place. i was like cryin nonstop for like a half an hour. she asked that if i was alone, then y did i need to leave?? she will not listen. she KANT listen. i have my own demons that attack me whenever i am by myself and she will not believe that. she then decided she was either gonna send me to the emergency room or kall my doctor. the emergency room??...wut good would that do??? maybe they will remove my brain and replace it with a potatoe or sumthing =D that would be kool!!!so that is y my mom is the biggest bitch i know of today.the end

so i stay, in my pain...please god make this go away...forever stranded in this rain...no i dont feel ok....-i found those lyrics and thought they were kool sounding so i adopted them. i thought more about them..they reelly say how i seem to feel alot. i thank the person i found them from. i am now goin to keep them. i have been saying good bye to ppl i choose not to have contacts with anymore. i am keeping very few...if i dont say bye(i prolly will not to anyone who reads this) then it means i DO consider u to be my friend deep down. there is one person i choose to say bye to in person, and give a huge hug, but that is not reelly possible so i will just keep out of contact and avoid that person as much as possible. i found out i am able to cry again today. it does not hurt extreniously anymore, although i almost wish it did. i must go now.....

none at this time....
i am very pathetic and nobody should even WANT to know me...i dont think they do, they just think that if they do they will have one more person in the world to loff at in troubled times...i have been getting worse...there is no need for any of this....i wish i could just end it all..now....i reelly wish i had razor blades...they would help soo much....i reelly do enjoy them, but all mine got lost when we moved and i havent been able to find them...will anyone donate??.....

owwee my eye hurts :(
i just got home from the doctor. they didnt open till 8 and we got there at like 7 55, so we went to m&h and my mommy got me a nummy cappucino =) then we went to doctor again and my eye is sensitive, so mr. doctor man shined a light right in it! it was mean and hurt. i now have drops of which i put 1 or 2 in evry 4 hours for 5 days. i no wanna go to skool tommorrow, but i may hafta. i dont think my moms gonna make me tho. i feel like shit. im gonna go bak to bed now then in a few hours eat yumms cereal with strawberries =D

ok, good news:i gots shanes e-mail address and added him on msn =D borderline news:bailey and charlie broke up. i dunno if that is good or bad because she is happy and i dunno bout him but also lots more of my time will be needed to go towards her and ive been wanting to stray away from her and hang with ppl where life isnt so routine and i kan have more fun/adventure/beautiful ppl.i have been thinking lately bout strange stuff and one of the things shane triggered me to thnik bout more/again kuz i had thot of it lots already and i believe roxanne and shane r the only pplz who know wut that is. then there is just strange stuff like life and the meaning and deep shit i kan not formulate into words. kinna like when i have so much to say but have forgotten how to talk. i wanna leave all these ppl tryin to cheer me up but only making it all worse. my eyes hurt like a bitch, so i kant even cry. i must be gone now so peace to those who kare enuff to read and nicko update ur damn journal!!