(So Many Assume) <marquee>...So Little Know...</marquee>

:: 2005 3 May :: 1.10pm
:: Music: switchfoot - meant to live

[ well.. alright then ]
i'm in florida right now. my mom wanted to go and sit by the pool allllll day, and i didn't.. so she got me this web tv thing. it's alright. i miss my computer tho lol. it's just somethin ima have to deal with. can't get on aim or msn or anything like that. oh well tho. i got my email at least so that's alright.

prom was.. different. the actual dance was lame until about 10 minutes before i left. kinda wanted to stay longer since i was having fun at that point, but oh well. prom night i realized i'm never gonna trust a guy, ever again, for the rest of my life.

j didn't come like he said he was going to. since he got shot and all.. which is fucked up. it's one of those things where i'm torn. i wanna believe it because.. i hate thinkin somebody would lie about somehin like that. but whatever. either way, he wasn't with me like he said he was going to be. let's say he did get shot and all that, dont you think that he'd avoid a situation like that if he cared enough to come here? whatever. i'm not gonna sweat it anymore because i'm done with him. for real. if he lives, he knows my email and my number and.. whatever else he knows. he can talk to me if he feels like it, but i'm done with him. -shrugs-

okay, then there was josh. which isn't a big deal really, but since i've been lied to already in a major way on prom night, it's great to know that i was blown off again.. by someone who wouldn't spare 4 minutes with me. thanks.

anyway, i'm done. i'm gonna just enjoy being away from cedar springs for the next 4 days and then.. get back to my pathetic life.

oh, jacki got me in on some blind date thing. we'll see how that goes.

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jennapie

:: 2005 2 May :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: okay

wow, I don't know what to say or think anymore, I like having everything figured out, and then I always get so screwed up! I HATE it! I wish everyone would just be terrible blunt with me, and always say what they're thinking, so I never have to wonder or question what I thought that they meant, and I wish that I wouldn't ever get my hopes up, that's so disappointing, because things never work out the way you hope, I don't know, too much on my mind.

I can't talk about it, I'll get in trouble.

oh and because I'm trying not to hold anything back anymore, Dani, you really pissed me off today, in english.

swimfan14

:: 2005 2 May :: 11.21am

I didn't go to school today. I don't know why either. I woke up and I didn't want to get up so I just came and told my mom that I didn't want to go to school and she said okay go back to sleep. I was so tired and last night I couldn't fall asleep. I had too much on my mind but I haven't missed a whole day of school up until now so I guess thats okay. I needed to sleep in for once since I didn't get to at all this weekend and my room needed some serious cleaning anyways.

This weekend was really fun but really long too.
Friday: I went to Aarons
Saturday: I had to go to Detroit for modeling. They did my hair and the whole process was about 3 hours. It was so boring sitting there and it was so hard to take everything out too. After we got back I went to my friend Jessicas.
Sunday: I went to Church and Sunday School..very boring that was then I came home and hung out with Jon.

So my weekend was awesome.

I'm really happy with everything right now. I've waited for that for so long you have no idea.

But I should go clean my room, since I stayed home for that right?

I love you.

XOXO, ASHLEY*

just_peachie

:: 2005 2 May :: 10.39am

Wow, for some reason today, it just hit me. I'm so excited about college and the whole experience. I figured out what classes I'm taking
Principles in Macroeconomics
Principles in Microeconomics
English 250
Interpersonal Communication
Business 122-Intro to business
Principles of Accounting 1

Yay! Stuff that I actually kind of already understand. I'm definitely psyched!

:)

just_peachie

:: 2005 2 May :: 12.44am

To finish off my other entry, as most of you know, I got in a lovely car accident. Yippy skippy! I got side swipped by a dumb lady in a MINI VAN (:@), who didn't know she hit me until I followed her to the BP and crawled out the passenger side of my car and told her, at which time she replied, "Oh that was you, I thought I hit the curb." Nope, it was me, sorry I don't think the curb honks and squeals it's tires trying to stop. Geesh. So, needless to say, my car is an absolute piece of shit now, and I absolutely cannot stand it.

Well of course then there is prom...everybody has talked about, so I figure, hey, why the hell not.

It was wonderful. I felt like cinderella, and every one told me I looked like it too! :) Justin was the sweetest, I've never felt more beautiful than he made me feel that night. He would just look at me and I'd ask "What?", and he'd reply as if he was lost in thought "You're absolutely gorgeous." Aww! What a sweet heart. After prom, me, justin, damian, molly, and jeff tackman all went bowling. That was really fun, even though I didn't do very good with my nails! Then it was back to Justin's, where we fell asleep in eachothers arms watching The Notebook. It was soooo perfect, and I'm soo happy to hear that everyone else had such a great time, too. I even made a new friend, Molly. She's such a sweetheart, me and her are going to hang out just us girls sometime soon.

Saturday night was poker, which was awesome because I'm actually getting to play it quite well! I took out 3 guys, all of which thought I didn't know how to play because I was a girl. I love breaking stereotypes!

In other news...school :S Everyone is soooo excited about leaving, but to tell you the truth, I'm not really all that anxious. But then again, I still have until May 25th until I'm out, just to make up absences. Although, after all this making up credits b/s is over with, I think it will be tons easier for me. Then there's Ferris in the fall, along with a lot more freedom from all the responsibility my family wants to hand to me. I know that may sound quite paradoxical, but it's true. I'm going to be far enough away from my families that I don't have to be the most responsible but close enough to visit them on weekends. And of course, I've got friends like Dani Lynn and Jacque and Katie and Shelby and tons more that are going to be up there, too. Plus, my brother is going to Mid Michigan Community College, and I'll be close to him as well. Now if only I could have Justin up there, too. :(

Anyways, I'm completely insomniac tonight, and I think I'm going to watch a movie. I hope all is well with everyone, and goodnight!

brokenmentality

:: 2005 1 May :: 10.50pm

yeah, so i cant even describe prom... it was that awesome.

and awesome really doesnt even do it justice. EVERY aspect of the night was perfect. and i know i use perfect alot.. but this time more than any other do i mean it. short paragraphs seem fun... mine probably wont be as short as keegans.. but hey i'll give it a go.

hair: 2 and a half hours... my cousin audra did my hair and makeup.. we watched the entire meet the fockers.. and still were doing my hair a little before and after... but it turned out SO good, and it didnt even lose the curl the ENTIRE night...

the getting ready process: after my hair and stuff was done and i got home.. it took me maybe a half an hour.. i put my dress on, but my flower in my hair... waited around. yeah, i got ready by myself. .how sad... KEEGAN got ready in 12 minutes... pshhh. laughs* i was really scared, i called him at like quarter to five and he wasnt even in the shower yet, 15 minutes later i call him and he's on his way. im like... whaaat.

pictures: my house first. my mom, keegan, my aunt susie, and suprisingly yancy... im so glad he was there. then we went to keegans house, when we got there his mom had little orange cones set up all over the yard for "picture spots" laughs* it was so cute. (i got all my pictures back today by the way... and keegans too.. those cones sure payed off, cuz every single picture turned out SO good)... aww and when we got back to keegans he gave me an orange and yellow rose that matched my dress... because i dont like corsages.. crazy i know. but usually i always tell my dates NOT to get me a corsage.. yes they're pretty, but they get in the way, and i'd rather not wear one.. *giggles. .im SO not a girl am i?!* so now my rose is hanging upside down so it can look like the rose he got me for swirl.. which is beatifull and makes my room look so elegant.... THEN we went to brandees house for pictures. and those were good...

Cygnus: we seriously must have eaten at the nicest resturant out of everybody.. it was the most incredible view i've ever seen. top floor of the amway. our waitor even PULLED out mine and brandees chair. our napkins were CLOTH, and there were lit up trees in the middle of the resturant.. i felt like i was gonna break something just sitting there. we got really good pictures there, even better food, and the best memories!

Horse and Carriage ride number ONE: awwww.. so elegant. i felt like a princess! :) our horses name was Morty *and i JUST happend to notice that that JUST happens to be one of johnny depps names in a movie... TALK about making the night even more perfect!* i've never been on a carriage ride before..... it was just the best ever!

Prom: like keegan said.. all the other high school dances combined couldnt even compare with this one. the museum was the BEST place we could have had it. it was beautifull. the dance floor WASNT that small.. and if it was.. i liked it cuz everyone was so close. the carasel was the pefect touch, our prom picture is gonna be fabulous *we did our gangsta pose... :) .... we didnt want to be all posed and such like.. OHHH look at us all romantic and stuff.. thats just not how we are.. so we had fun with it* we danced, keegan breaked, i got so many good pictures.... it was just the perfect night. everyone looked so good.. SO good. and i REALLY felt good in my dress. for not finding one for the longest time... i REALLY did find the perfect one. i felt so elegant... :) i didnt want the night to end, and it ended so fast. but the best part was that the ngiht was far from over.. we did so much before and after, it was like one mega prom experience... and i had the best date i could have ever asked for. we coordinated so good, we fit together so good. WE ARE SO GOOD! laughs*

Horse and Carriage number two!: this time it was even better cuz it was night and we were all so tired. it was so relaxing and so romantic. it picked us up right from the museum. talk about a grand entrance and exit. before and after prom... it was just the perfect way to get there. espeacially cuz the amway valleted *spelling i know* our car. the whole night was all about us. everything we did was catered to us so perfectly, that i just felt like *repetitive... * such a princess! not only did i have the best prom ever, but i have this amazing boyfriend who just proves to me over and over and over again how.. well amazing he is! what other guy could have thought of all this.. to make my night so incredible, so fun.... all i can do is smile.. because he's MY boyfriend. and i dont have to share him! he made prom night OUR night, and i LOVE that... even if i dont love him. and the best part about THAT is i dont have to. because he doesnt, and we STILL had in my opinion the best night out of anybody. and yeah thats probably biased, but seriously.. it was that good. (i just got way off topic there... but by the way for anybody who cares... im falling in love with keegan...... :) it'll take a good couple of years before it'll happen and i'll admit it..... but thats how we roll... *laughs.. because i love everything about US.. and i cant wait that if God permits it, i love him too.) (*ok sorry, back on topic) we even (on the carriage) got the best picture of us kissing that we ever have.. and just cuz im cute and can do this and want to show off my wonderful boyfriend im gonna post it in the next couple of days... *giggles again.. aww im being so girly.. prom night was so girly.. i loved that!* so then the carriage brought us back to the amway, and we got the car. (valleted of course... smiles)

Oasis: i had never been there before.. .but it was so much fun. i got some GOOD pictures there. we ended up in the tropical rain forest one.. it was outside and had this waterfall and bamboo.. it was really pretty. we were there for an hour.. it just added to the night and was such a fun touch. i LOVE brandee weeks, we had so much fun together. and we had the best dates... i never really hang out with her.. but GOSH was she fun! i say gosh because i'm nerdy and dont like the alternative to it.... we even got that sparkling grape juice stuff cuz we're losers, but enjoy being losers.. because in all reality, the REAL losers were the ones... nevermind i shouldnt say that...! in other words.. we didnt have to be drunk to have a good time. and we still remember every detail of our night! something i wouldnt trade for the world. OH and i got to wear my new swim suit.. and i love it. just thought i'd throw that in there. :)

Dani's: after oasis we stopped at my house and got some clothes and all that good stuff, and then the four of us went over to danis.. and that was a blast. when we got there dani, jenna, becky, and josh were in the hot tub.. but they got out and we went upstairs and ate a WHOLE bunch of food.. including this fruit dip that seriously was like an edible orgasm.. it was THAT good... *laughs* awww.. i love jenna and dani! *and of course becky!* all of them looked so pretty on prom.. and were so fun at danis! between the (stops to count) 8 of we talked up a storm.. it was great. then we went downstairs and brought out a massive ammount of blankets and all fell asleep watching beauty and the beast. talk about the perfect way to end the perfect night. i fell asleep with my OWN (corny.. get ready for it) prince charming.. watching a classic fairytale, to top off our own fairytale night. and yes i KNOW thats the ultimate corny line.. but its so true. the ngiht was seriously like a fairytale.. every part of it. i got to sleep with my perfect boyfriend on prom night, and it was so innocent, and it was so just... ( i simply cant find the words.... i hate how corny im being... but ahh.. ! ) and oh my gosh we didn't conceive children! *laughs.

in the morning everyone woke up, layed around for awhile, then danis mom made us breakfast.. and this woman can COOK. she made everyone pancakes and sausage... mmmmmm. i was lookin pretty scary by this point... eh, i was surrounded by friends, so it didnt bother me. finally my prom experience came to an end when i had to leave Danis to go to our red flannel thing... but maaaaann... i dont know what to say without being overyly repetitive... which i already have been... but yeah.. my prom kicked so much ass! it was just... *smiles.

keegan: you're amazing.

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paradox

:: 2005 1 May :: 11.23pm
:: Music: Isley Brothers- Shout

Weekends are great... With you...

Paradox

:: 2005 30 April :: 4.54pm
:: Music: Def Poetry- Grey Skies

Ahh yes.. Prom... I figure that once people get back online here, there's going to be alot of blah blah paragraphs about prom, so I'll keep mine short for the readers pleasure.. Lol...

Outfits: Erika looked stunning, she is absolutely gorgeous, and very creative with the alterations she made on her dress. Mine was cool, I liked the gold.. Felt like a pimp...

Pictures: Took alot of pictures, fave one's on my phone, ask me to see it

Cygnus: Paid alot for not so much alot of food, but it was good! Micah and I split a 130 dollar bill... But the food tasted excellent, the scenery was beautiful, Waiter was great, Had a blast.

Horse and carriage: Fun, funny looking host, looked like a mix between a leperchon, a midget, a drunk, and a carni... But the ride itself was romantic

Dance: Blast... I've got a burn on my forehead from a headslide while breakin... Damnit..

Horse and carriage: Better the 2nd time, we had it longer, and it was night out so the lights were on, beautiful, I love the city, VERY romantic.

Oasis: Relaxing, A fun time and yet a very intimate time as well.

Dani's House: A Blast.. Great food, great people, great time...

Worst part about the entire night was dani's house tho, because we fell asleep, and the night was over... :(

Prom was amazing, combining every other high school dance still lacks in comparison to how great this one was. I thank Erika, Micah, and Brandy, for that... Espescially Erika...

So my entery was longer than I thought it would be... Cry about it.. Lol

That is all...

-K. Loye

http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net
www.the-lobby.cjb.net

jennapie

:: 2005 30 April :: 2.59pm
:: Mood: drained

Prom was...in a word.....PERFECT!! wait no...WONDERFUL......nno.....beautiful!! I loved every minute of it! It was so awesome! I am really sad though that that was our last dance, it was perfect. And then after wards we came to my house and changed, and then went over to Dani's and ate chocolate and fruit and stuff, and I got my birthday present from Dani, which I LOVE, and then we went hottubbin with Gilly and Becky and Josh, and then later Micah, Brandee, Keegan and Erika came over, and we all ended up eating some more, and then watching Beauty and the Beast in Dani's basement, on the pull out couch and tons of blankets, and ended up all falling asleep and stayin the night there! Micah's my snuggle buddy! and even if we were REALLY close, it was all so innocent and cute! I loved every minute of it. And Erika and Keegan are so freakin cute! and Josh and Becky are OFFICIAL now......ahaha yeah!!!! and Dani's hot tub tried to kill us all!! ahahahah!!! no but it was really awesome! I have always secretly wanted to have a slumber party with guys, and now I have, and I even slept with em too! ahahah, anyways, I better go..I think I'm gonna take a nap, because we went to bed so late, and got up waaayyyy to early! I LOVE YOU ALL!

I love you Jon, thanks for last night........and everything! You are the best friend anyone could ask for! EVER!

BigBen61

:: 2005 29 April :: 11.09pm

Today i was thinking about how lucky i am and how thankful i am for all of my friends. God truely blessed me. I'm so lucky especially for cherie, shes my best friend and i love her so much. I'm lucky for all of you guys too not just cherie, i was thinking about different people and i found myself with a huge stupid looking grin on my face and i'm just so glad i have all of you.

:: 2005 29 April :: 4.48pm

j was shot

5 Chances | Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 29 April :: 12.08pm
:: Music: christina milian - dip it low

[ prom tonight ]
so my prom date stood me up, i knew it was gonna happen.. but i didn't want to believe it. his loss tho cause ima have fun without him. for a long time. i'm not talkin bout just.. prom. i'm talkin bout the next.. 80 years of my life. i doubt i'll be alive that long, but if i am..

anyway, i'm leavin to get my hair done and.. shop a lil bit :) shopping is fun when you find stuff lol. okay, so yeah. i'm gon.. do a lot tonight. a lot of bad. ima be real bad.. lol.

anyway, i'm out. see ya.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 28 April :: 11.57pm

i spent all day with emma today.. and it was awesome.

we got our nails done and we went shopping... and it was just a perfect day! aww, she's so fun... at times it doesnt even seem like she's keegans sister cuz we just laugh and talk ALOT... laughs* i know she's quite a bit younger then me.. but today was a blast, and i love getting closer to keegans family.

tomorrows prom... :)

eyesofcrystal

:: 2005 28 April :: 7.06pm

Wahoo....
Prom is tomorrow.
Im going with Tony (he's my date(duh)) and Jordan and Kelli and Shae are going with us. (Pfft...stupid tag-a-longs) HAHA....just kidding i love you guys. Im excited cuz i really like Jordan and Kelli.....there my new friends...their fun.....
but yea...so prom tomorrow....
lots of fun....
Charlies Crab (anybody who reads Jordans or Kellis journal already know this so why am i saying anything??)
yea...im excited...i hope all you who are going have fun. see you there.

bye

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kellilynn21

:: 5 48 April :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: cheerful

:)YaY :)
*.:This Weekend:.* Friday (tomorrow): PROM TOMORROW! Hell Yeah. Im so excited. I really didn�t think I was gunna go because just everything wasn�t working out and everything was shity. BUT, everything is totally fitting together now. Theirs no more drama no more nothing- just� the normal stuff like getting ready and having everything ready and stuff like that. But other then that� about like signing up (which we didn�t have to do like everyone was telling us we had to) and all that other stuff. Tony is such a sweet guy and Erica is so nice! They are so perfect for each other lol. I love them both. So yeah tomorrow is prom. YA! Ok I�m going to Jordan�s were gunna hurry and get ready then� were gunna take pictures� then go to Charlie�s Crab for dinner, then� guess what? THEN PROM! I�m so excited. Saturday: Jordan�s� then maybe Ashley�s. We haven�t really decided what were doing yet but who knows. So that�s just a random day. Sunday: Probably my laundry and all that good (boring) stuff. So yeah that�s my wonderful last and this weekend. Comment if you love me and you read this! :)

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swimfan14

:: 2005 28 April :: 6.25pm

thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We�d be alright,
We�d be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I�ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won�t forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I�d never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I�ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You�ll remember me my friend,
You�ll be wishing I was there for you.
I�ll be the one you�ll miss the most,
But you�ll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You�ll wonder why,
You�re all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

Thats just how I feel now.

BigBen61

:: 2005 28 April :: 4.37pm

Why do people skip school because of prom? What could you possibly do that would take you that long to get ready?

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Paradox

:: 2005 28 April :: 4.17pm

New Website! www.the-lobby.cjb.net

This is NOT a site directed towards one certain group of people, this is a site where all views on any topic can be expressed. So please feel free to come to this site and share your perspective on anything!

-K. Loye

http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net
www.the-lobby.cjb.net

:: 2005 28 April :: 3.31pm

[ i fucking hate this week ]
i hate everything about this week. it all sucks. all of it. not one good thing has come out of this week, and i'm so fucking done, i'm not kidding.

i dont have a fucking prom date. i have a god damn dress for a fucking stupid ass dance i didnt want to go to in the first place, but somebody fucking talked me into going. yeah, fuck you by the way.

i locked my keys in my car so my mom had to leave work to get my car open. fucking great. i've seen more fucking cops on the road than ever.. senior interviews were fucking gay, and i have to deal with stupid fucking people all god damn day. fuck. i'm so pissed.

maybe my plane will blow up saturday. that'd be nice.

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breezeyluvsu

:: 2005 28 April :: 2.02pm

I really, honestly , and truly hate it when we fight. Its like he picks his fights and just �.uses everything I do against me. Sometimes I cant take it.

ATTENTION JENNA::

you , me , and anyone else bowling..Saturday�rockford or Greenville, or Sparta,�we�ll figure it out but it will be a blast. GIRLS NIGHT. Its about time I think I earned one� Yeah. It shall be a jolly time.

Tonights oc night and Im thinking about spending it at work.. My choice by the way. But that will just cause more chaos.

Im afraid that ill always be broken. I wrote this poem cos im very...idk confused. Here it is.

I remember the days
of living in fear
It's all coming back
the feeling is near

I cant think strait
and i cant sleep at night
I do something "wrong"
which then stirres up a fight

tears fall down
i've been down this road before
I'll soon be shipwrecked
and searching for the shore

Maybe its allitle of you
but mostly its me
This is how i am
my fate: i can finally see

In order to change
You have to want to
Want to do whatever it takes
Just to get to you

Ive gone this far
with you by my side
I've cut off my friends
now theres nowhere to hide

Leave some love im desperate lol

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Paradox

:: 2005 28 April :: 8.08am

Yes... 1 more day until prom... Yes... I'm excited... Yes... Erika's gonna look beautiful... No... we don't know what were doing after yet!!! Yes... Plans are working beautifully... I'm excited.

-K. Loye

http://inspiringtruth.cjb.net

just_peachie

:: 2005 27 April :: 5.01pm

So, I've concluded that you don't talk about how many car accidents you've been in without first being within 5 feet of wood that you can knock on, or your day is going to go from shitty to worse in 2 seconds flat. More about my lovely ordeal later. I've got a customer.

swimfan14

:: 2005 27 April :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: confused

Today was better than yesterday besides the fact that this girl in my 2nd hour had a rabbit in our class and I'm allergic to rabbits- - so that didn't work out too well.

Matt is so nice to me. Yesterday I hit my knee on the table really hard on accident and I had a big bruise and he's like "do you want a kiss to make it better" and I was like "sure" and he kissed me it was cute and then today I seen him and he was dressed up for senior interviews and I was like "Hi Matt, you looked cute today" and hes like "hey precious you do too, but you look cute everyday". Hes one of the nicest friends I have.

Apparently I'm Cohens g/f now..j/k im not but thats what he told everyone after school but he was joking.

Brianna- Thanks for keeping our poster. H was going to make me keep it but I didn't know what to do with it. bRiE..BRIE* Brianna haha that was funny when we played that question game and Michelle was like "why do you have braces" and then I'm like "why dont you have braces" and Brittani Matthews was like "yeah thats the question you should ask Ashley" lol our class is awesome, I must say.

I think this time we both want differen't things, unfortunately. Looks like its going to be my problem. Of course one of us had to change our minds on what we want, why not be you? I don't even know what you want anymore and I don't know what I want and I just feel like pretty soon time will run out. We can't be like this forever.

I want to talk to you about this but I know you wont so I'm done for now. I have to leave anyways.

Always,
Ashley*