spinoangel
|
::
2004 20 May :: 4.27pm
:: Music: matt nathanson - "sad songs"
i love NOT having homework. it's such a new experience. sigh. today in spanish i told branden, this freshman who sits in front of me, how his life is going to change next year. he wasn't as restless as he usually is, and he said he felt weird so i told him that he's growing up. and i told him to be ready for a sophomore year full of being tired and depressed. i think it's just a rite of passage for us PIBs. then he said ok next year tell me how being a junior is. and i said, ok if i have the time. i think we might all just become so immune to depression because we'll be so busy doing things. fun, right? yeah.
the future holds so much in store. this weekend is ashley's weekend and my guitar recital. then next weekend i'm leaving to go to houston rafter school. i will be so cleansed in houston. seeing my aunts, my cousins, experiencing the idea of NOT worrying and stressing out. like i can just sit on the plane and listen to music. and no homework to do. i just can't imagine how happy i will be to get away, even for just a weekend. i will miss people. but i need it.
mmm.. i think i like this guy's music. im not exactly sure yet.
i'm waiting up for you to rescue me to come around and cover everything.
relying on my best memories. to breathe for me, breath for me...
so much better than all this, all of this.
tired of singing all the sad songs in my head.
but i can't find enough of anything to drown out what you said.
and i can still smell summer in your skin.
and i can still remember giving in.
wrapped all up in your hips and in your sheets.
it felt great, falling, falling...
i feel so faded, so far gone. nothing surprises me anymore...
and sometimes i find i catch myself letting you back in.
like nobody's
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 19 May :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: o0o0o0o
small? slut? yeah!
good day & i am definitely looking forward to tomorrow - art history. such peace.
chem - took our test. well the 1st half. i think i did alright. studied before class. and i was pretty sure of my answers. s0o its good. now i just have to study # 4,5,6 on the review sheet! SUPPOSIVELY they are SUPER similar.... hint to people.
spanish - handcuffs lol. dressing justin up in the bathing suit.... sexy. but yeah.. those handcuffs man... "look at the lil' slut!" - jb. "u looked very experienced putting those on justin...." - britt.
lunch - .... boring.
anand: "i'm so happy i only have to come for like 3 more days."
avi: "but then u gotta come back for 2 more years."
english - took our exam early. i definitely didn't finish. i definitely just wanna fail it and be done. 90/100 on the poetry analysis essay. woot.
biology - mr. hawk was there. he's cool. gave us study time. took our "quest". idk how i did, but i studied. i think i did well... i guess.
afterschool - picked up that good ol' cookie dough. they were s0o weak. not many of those girls could lift those boxes. w/e got in & outta there.
park vista - tried on a wholeeeee bunch of shit. bloomers, warmups, rain jackets, bodyliners, racer tanks, v neck tanks, shoes, socks, shorts, skort, lined skort, uniforms. michelle & i talked about the whole c00kie // james situation. yeah. i feel horrible 4 michelle. then chelsea definitely has an infected finger, yucky stitches. this lauren chick = slut? perhaps. angie = sweet, me & her are pretty much the same. mikey.... hadda leave the room cause he's a guy & we all hadda try on a buncha clothes. michelle & karen... GET THAT DAD OUTTA HERE! HELLLLLLLO! lol. good stuff. that uniform smelt like B.O. lol. 5-13 WOOT! 9-12, ta a 5-13. niiiice i like. SUPER cute uniforms. <3
anyways... i'm out. gonna watch this white girl on MTV be made inta a hip hop dancer. lol...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ELLEN!
1 watching |
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 18 May :: 11.17pm
:: Mood: driven
:: Music: through the rain // mariah carey
lemme take a breath & update.
school!
chem - don't ask for help unless its from a teacher. nobody is willing to help. it's IB. realize that these kids are all for themselves. nothing more. remember the days when we talked on the phone going over homework?
stats - played uno. went outside the class.. walked around campus. watched over the edge of the 2nd floor & just... thought... s0o0o many things.
economics - epstein woke me up... but i WAS paying attention. whatever. did some bio hw.
lunch - went to landaker's office. got my exit papers from IB. easy as one 2 three. goodbye atlantic. dunno whether to be happy or sad. thank god i missed most of lunch tho... because when i returned... adam was spitting on a napkin to create shapes of the continents... disgusting. i don't even want to know what else happened.
art hist - now that is a class. phew. i was more into watching everyone else work, than doing my own thing. i was eager to go and watch christina paint. but u know that an artist needs her privacy & peace, plus i think she would have thought i was strange.... s0o i watched everyone else. ari. sunil. carlos. sameen. sam. kaila. s0o interesting. then i helped anand.
bus - slept. torn. =/
home - got home, went to cheer gym in boca. woot. nice. work out with jumps.
ate dinner... and studied like shit. yuck i hate it. +sigh+ idk i don't care anymore. honestly.
pyce. shower & more studying. bedtime = i think.... not.
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 17 May :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Where A Dream Takes u// Mya../ Behind Blue Eyes// Limp Bizkit
beautiful day in the neighborhood.
School! .... almost over.
Chemistry: was boring, we wrote up our lab reports... only i still don't know what i am doing and we have a test on Wednesday and Thursday that i must pass to get a C in her class... anyone wanna help me?
Spanish: anyone who is willing to help me... do something to ms. french... i would be in great appreciation. we had a test today, and JUST reviewed the damn quiz, right before the test, and we weren't even in her class enough to learn anything. gosh. 3 more days with her. wed, fri, & tues. thank god.
lunch: let's just say i'm sick of hearing people complain.
english: i didn't feel very well... considering i'm sick... s0o i just rested my head. but i love how morone taught hawthorne. i enjoyed it so. i mean english literature is such an art. its not visual tho, it's s0o auditory. its like... beautiful. now if only i could understand it like i understand art history, i'd be good. but its beautiful.
biology: i didn't think that class would ever end. taking notes pissed me off... but i was learning and thats all that mattered. there is so much due... i need to work, i have the will to work.... i just dont feel like doing it, cause i know it will begin to frustrate me.
bus ride home: Charlie horses.... lol. but man, i fell asleep next to jeremy. b4 i fell asleep, he kept watching me play my BLUE BLOCKS game on my cell. but when i woke up... all the sophomores were sleeping... cute.
home: i rested. watched GOTHIKA. what a great movie. its something that brings my heart where i wanna go. like i imagine myself in it. me playing Halle Berry. just like DON'T SAY A WORD. the phyciatrist movies always get to me. its just... idk... i love it.
thank u 4 the compliments today for looking cute... somehow... i guess i managed to look decent even after i felt like shiiiiiit. and thank u to those who wish me better health.
i feel s0o calm, s0o free. no worries. no issues. no tension. clear head. <3 perhaps i will work on my art history idea.... s0o peaceful, with some mariah carey music. xoxo
1 watching |
like nobody's
|
boricuababy
|
::
2004 17 May :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: welcome back-mase
MASE IS MAKIN A COMEBACK..HOLLAAA!!!!
ahh..i remember in like 4th grade i wuz obssessed wid mase..no lie..lol..no he turned preacher..i wonder if he still looks tha same..
so yea..dis weekend wuz pretty good..saturday: woke up madd early..cheer clinic..dat wuz alotta fun..got to hang out wid briana, ashley, bailey, maryellen, courtney..and all my otha cheer buddies..lol..we learned alotta new things..basic stunting..which we got down pack..uh huh..go us..lol..i cant wait till sleep away camp!!! itz gonna be so much fun..imma miss u tho briana!!..:(..have fun at ur other onez tho
like nobody's
|
alwaysfalling
|
::
2004 16 May :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: pleased
:: Music: penny and me
hi people.
i had a nice weekend.
-jazz on the ave. and dinner
-band banquet
-shopping and troy
-cousin's graduation party
the end. good night.
like nobody's
|
bocaheath05
|
::
2004 16 May :: 7.58pm
what'd we just go through?
hsaw aknow
what's that? japanese?
no. wonka wash spelled backwards.
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 16 May :: 5.43pm
:: Music: Watching// TRUE HOLLYWOOD STORY = MARiAH CAREY
went 2 work from 11-1pm. i was too sick. unfortunately, i left early, which sucked cause christian, michael & walter were there.
walter: go, go, go!
briana: +flicks off walter+
walter: i have a height requirement for those who want to flick me off.
briana: i'm goin' home early.
walter: nah uh. how?
briana: come here... i'll show u.
*coughs on walter*
walter: maybe i'll get lucky & go home now.
michael: sup?
my mom: don't piss her off... stay away... she'll get u sick.
briana: we tight, right mike? lol
anyways, i found some quotes online:
It's sad cuz everyday we have spent together iz slowly being
replaced by everyday we spend apart
If u* ..look.. inside a girl heart<3 n c
how MuCH she cries u'll find secrets,friends,n lies
but wha u'll c tha MoSt is
How HaRd it is 2 stay :StRoNg: wen *Nothig*
is !right! n ^Everything^is !wrong!
*WaNnA* b the gurl
that makes ur bad day b e t t e r
and the 1one1 that makes u say
"My life has c h a n g e d since I met her."*
**i KnOw yOu kNoW tHiS..
bUt tAkE iT fRoM mE..
CaUsE yOu dEsErVe sO
mUcH mOrE tHeN yOu
rEcEiVe.. LiStEn tO yOuR
hEaRt aNd LeT iT sHoW..
dOnT HoLd oN tO yOuR
pAiN.. JuSt LeT iT gO*
U dont get 2 choose
u juss fall & end-up with
someone in front of u who
is so wrong yet so incredibly
****RiGhT*****
>You< smile =) when >you< ...*feel*... like crying ='(
>You< ~act~ like your "okay" when you /falling\ apart >inside<
And >You< let it ...~go~... >You< move on..
Because there is (nothing) else >You< can do
d0n`t make sum1 ur priority
when u still remain their option
i wanna be like those girls in the movies:
2 have a man s0o in love it makes him drop 2 his knees
that's all 4 now... xoxo, i needa go lie back down +ahhh chew+
like nobody's
|
|
spinoangel
|
::
2004 16 May :: 1.36am
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: ben jelen - "falling down"
i can't say why. scared for my thoughts. scared that what i feel is true. or maybe i'm just dragging myself down again. i just want so badly to run away and be alone because i can't stand this.
but this seems a little bit too hard.
and all the questions come running through my mind.
will i see this another way?
the simple truth is i'm falling down
and i don't want to drag you through the bottom.
and there she says
sit in front of me. turn around, you'll see.
i'm everything you want, all you'd ever need.
come back into my world. you know i'm always yours.
and she makes so much sense.
when she says
don't throw this away.
it's hard to know what's real when it all seems wrong.
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 15 May :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: stuffy nose.
:: Music: none.
peanut butta jelly time, SPREAD OUT! lol Alyssa
today was different.
woke up @ 6am, not feeling too great. but i got ready for cheerleading, ran 2 jackies, (woke her up =/ sry <3 ) and then went to gym. 8-3pm wow.
Steph jacked the pizza. lol. s0o much pizza, everyone got their own box. <3 ATL
Courtney tellin' Alyssa & Steph about how she got suspended. STUPiD, STUPiD Bellin.
UCA teaching the dance to the girls. look at the lil' ones... they were s0o cute.
Captain is COMiNG. Good game, good game xoxo Mary Ellen doesn't know what she is doing, but Kaila is winnin' woot!
it was a long day, but we made it. even though this wasn't "real" camp.... i know it brought people together. (me, steph, alicia, kaila, courtney, alyssa) i surely enjoyed.
when i got home, i took a shower & was SOOO tired that i laid in my bed with my fancy robe & was gonna turn on the t.v. but didn't & just fell asleep. then jackie called me and woke me up lol, i deserved it. then had dinner. talked to jonah. can't go back to sleep now. s0o i talked to sherman. he's gotta flight to Maimi on the 29th. maybe i'll c him this time. +shrug+
anyways how is everyone enjoying their 3day weekend...?! its gotta be nice right. 10 more days of school. xoxo enjoy.
hm... i rented GOTHIKA... GOTTA get to watchin' it now...
2 watching |
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 14 May :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: people come for the party, but stay for the cory!
LALALA
today = nothing. woke up, talked to jonah all day. took a shower, did laundry. got in trouble for breaking the dryer. o well. its old anyways... we were doomed to get another one. haha so now mommy has to get one tomorrow. now, i'm babysitting and i was having a hard time eating my salad. tried stabbing a croton to get on my damn fork, and the chicken flung into my hair. +sigh+ forget that salad.
s0o i was thinking... this whole friend thing. idk none of it works out for me. no calls, no invitations, no nada. its like... i = never part of the girls "group". if i went somewhere, i'd invite u people... altho i don't go anywhere that u people would enjoy. but i'm saying... idk. i just wish i could be thought of. or am i one of those annoying girls of atlantic, but i just don't realize it. cause i think i seem to be. i take the effort to approach people... but they don't approach me. perhaps i am correct. cause i notice... the annoying girls approach people to talk.... but they are never approached. i lie in the same boat, obviously. i just wish someone would have warned me about it earlier.... w/e, i'm done complaining.
talking to pj now... gas money or walk to baseball.... lol
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: MR. PATRICK ZEITZ!
Baseballa4eva17: MRS. BRIANNA EVENSON!
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: ms. briana kristine evenson.
Baseballa4eva17: mr patrick jermaine zeitz
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: jermaine....? interesting.
Baseballa4eva17: u never herd mike call me jermaine
Baseballa4eva17: ?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: nottttttttt that i recall.
Baseballa4eva17: lol
Baseballa4eva17: my m,iddle name not jermaine
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: ..... then why did u say that?
LiLsHorTcaKe2315: +confused....+
Baseballa4eva17: to have a lil fun wit ya
anyways... danielle g and i are discussing how i feel right now. yeah... i miss these talks. unfortunately i realize i don't have anyone to blab to anymore... cause since her & brittany moved... hell has been my home. it may not seem like it.... but its hard to find a girl to confide in. cause a guy doesn't understand. i know hema, & danielle g have always been there 24/7, whether they pretend to listen to my b.s. or if they really do... but everyone else just gives me a "shrug" or just that look... like... 'why are u telling me this?' s0o i've just not been able to open the can of worms inside of me.... o well.
i'm 0out. hahaha. my throat hurts again. this morning... i woke up without a voice. [stress=losing my voice]
4 watching |
like nobody's
|
|
boricuababy
|
::
2004 14 May :: 6.00pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: tha ATL seniors song (stuck in my head)
sam..u gotta tell me how tha rap goes!!!..lol
"im sittin in ma room..thinkin why oh why oh why..we gotta say goodbye..goodbye"..lol
today no skoo..hollllerrrrrrr..lol..wha i do??..i woke up late..watched hip hops toughest rhymes on mtv2..lol..good stuff..went to meliz house..hung out there for awhile..looked at yearbooks..did u kno that spanish river yearbooks come with a DVD yearbook too?!?!?!?!?!? how frickin tight is dat??..wow our skoo is cheap and ghetto..lol..so we watched tha dvd and made fun of alotta ppl..cracked up bout omar..i saw hema in tha video..and danny runnin tha track..kept rewinding it..lolol..ayy..dat wuz funny..den we signed each others yearbooks and juss talked after dat and watched videos..it wuz fun..we kept juss crackin up..wha i do yesterday??..me and sammi walked to...ahhh!!!..shit i juss burned my pizza!!..and tha kitchen is filled with smoke!!
LiLMiZzBLoNdiE26 [5:57 PM]: burnt it? is it frozen?
LiLMiZzBLoNdiE26 [5:57 PM]: OMG kaila
LiLMiZzBLoNdiE26 [5:57 PM]: stop drop roll
NuYoRiCaN019 [5:58 PM]: lmao
NuYoRiCaN019 [5:58 PM]: hahaha
NuYoRiCaN019 [5:58 PM]: wow..ooopz
NuYoRiCaN019 [5:58 PM]: no dinner for me now
LiLMiZzBLoNdiE26 [5:58 PM]: aww
LiLMiZzBLoNdiE26 [5:58 PM]: i'll bring u food
lol..wow..adrenaline rush..i saved my house!!..newayz..back to wha i wuz sayin..me and sammi walked to veteran's yesterday nite..met up wid carlos, sunil, myeong, and den amara came!!..we had fun..there wuz this lady sittin on tha bench next to us cheering her kids on saying "ra ra sis boom ba!!"..lmao..wow..i needed to show her sum real skillz..we watched tha guyz play bball..and ppl kept getting hurt..and sam n carlos were crackin on me cuz i wanted to call a paramedic for tha guy who hurt his ankle..lol..O-M-G LINE DOT!!..lol..amara..at veteran's i saw tha same guy who wuz stalkin me at paladium that one nite i went wid meli..wha are tha coincidences of that??..wow..scurriness..sam thot it wuz pretty funny..after dat we went back to my house n juss hung out..den everybody went home..:(.wha am i doing now???..talkin to amara and eating burnt pizza..actually not dat bad..lol
X3QTpiEx3 [6:09 PM]: ::burp::
NuYoRiCaN019 [6:09 PM]: wuz it a good burp??
NuYoRiCaN019 [6:09 PM]: or a weak one?
X3QTpiEx3 [6:09 PM]: man...it was weak..
X3QTpiEx3 [6:09 PM]: it was pathetic
NuYoRiCaN019 [6:10 PM]: lol
NuYoRiCaN019 [6:10 PM]: u needa step up ur game gurl!!
X3QTpiEx3 [6:10 PM]: i kno :-(
X3QTpiEx3 [6:10 PM]: >:o ::BURP!!!::
X3QTpiEx3 [6:10 PM]: dat was better
NuYoRiCaN019 [6:10 PM]: good job!!!!!
X3QTpiEx3 [6:10 PM]: lol
interesting convo huh??..lol..datz us chicas!!..we crazzzzzyyyyyy..i mite chill wid my semi bebi tonite..if we can pull rides..talk ta u guyz laterrrrr..x0x0
2 watching |
like nobody's
|
|
spinoangel
|
::
2004 14 May :: 11.58am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: damien rice - "cannonball"
ever get that feeling...
that you know you miss something, but you can't explain why or how? you realize that you still need it. you realize that life is different without it. you finally want it again. and you don't want to recognize it, but you know it's there. and that it's too late to ever get it back. yeah.
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 13 May :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: amused
chem:
*ms. swanson is priceless. "i don't know why u have to be such a pussy about it!"
*adam adding the one drop of NaOH to our vinegar! grrr... turned it dark pink, he definitely isn't a good titrator.... nor is he a good shaker. but christina & danielle rock my sox.
stats:
*spoons LMAO!!! omg, mike, pj, anand, avi, stu, logan, ashley, heather, me, pretam... i love this class. "i owe u a ride, don't i?" and a way to hold the hand. goodness.
*mike gettin' hit with the pen in the neck.
*pj gettin' 4 of a kind & not gettin' a pen lmao.
*anand & his baller hat that he wants to get.
*me & heather knocking over that stupid game.
*ashley & BS. BS. BS. BS. i KNOW u don't have ANY Jacks. lmao.
econ: sleep. simple as that.
lunch: heather & i talked. & even though she mentioned that she has told s0o0o many people about her situation, i still... felt good because i haven't had anyone like her talk to me in awhile... and i mean, i got so used to listening to jackie & carlos & brittany & groton, that i just.... it felt good to hear someone else talk to me, about something new. idk its like... heather actually found it worth telling me... idk it just was nice.
art hist:
*wrote in sam's yearbook. who thought u could write so much for people u barely even know... i guess... just like writing in liz's book... i wish i had gotten to know some of these people better... cause they look so sweet & they look like if we hung out... we could have fun together.... when summer comes... we're hanging out. <3
*talked to carlos.... it was pretty much a free period. (spain, & ur haircut lol)
*u know i owe u a ride home... don't i?! lol
allaround222: did patrick ride u
allaround222: *give u a ride
anand.... urrrrrr dead. lol <3 come on. i have jonah, lucky me!! <3333 pj just offered me a ride home... which i intend on getting... maybe. tuesday perhaps. +shrug+
bus ride home: determined to win solitaire on Kayli's IPod. but u know what... since i didn't win today... i still have monday. <3
now... i think imma nap... today was a great day... but it wore me out. now if only my boyfriend could make it better.... maybe i will see him, or alex & i will ACTUALLY get together & go for ribs. lmao xoxo
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVI!
2 watching |
like nobody's
|
|
playmate101
|
::
2004 12 May :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: pleased
:: Music: what a wonderful world // louis armstrong
school isn't officially out, but its almost over. this is all we have left:
Chem - lab & exam.
Spanish - role play project & exam.
English - vocab quiz & exam.
Bio - buncha stuff.
Stats - done.
Economics - done.
Art History - simple project, then done.
simple. simple. no more AP tests. thank goodness. i forgot the stickers along with pretam, carlos, heather, and ashley t. lol ballers.
i need to go see landaker. need to get papers for departing Atlantic. =/
my kitty: she went to the vet. doctor said she has a cancer tumor. he also said that we will know the signs of when she is too sick to live. the only way for her to survive is to amputate (sp?) her leg.... at which, is a risk considering how old she is. mommy cried. she made me cry. she's very emotionally stressed about the situation. 17 years. its been long... my kitty is my baby. i went to pick her up last night, & i just carry her on my side like a baby and she wraps her paws around me... and nudges at my face. so loving. so sad. that's going to be the day. grandma emily. papa. & now my kitty. i don't want it to happen. *pray, o, pray*
on a better note: jonah & i = 7 months. 1o.12.o3, congratulations to us. we made it. no hell. no no no. feels very refreshing, clean & nice. no matter how i feel, i don't want this love to end. endless.
alex, ribs. lol thursday, por favor? perhaps, we'll try. xoxo
time to blow dry my hair, pick out what to wear, & clean off the bed so i can get some shut eye.
i see trees of green, red roses too
i see them bloom from me and u
and i think to myself
what a wonderful world
i see skies of blue & clouds of white
the bright blessed days & dark sacred nights
and i think to myself
what a wonderful world
the colors of the rainbow
so pretty in the sky
r also on the faces of people passing by
i see friends shaking hands
saying "How do u do?"
they're really saying "i love u!"
i hear babies cry, i watch them grow
they'll learn much more than i'll ever know
and i think to myself what a wonderful world
and i think to myself....
what a wonderful..... world
like nobody's
|
|