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2002 15 November :: 11.39pm
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2002 15 November :: 11.30pm
ATL vs. Cooper City = 27-7!! soo yeah we're 11-0 and advancing on to the quarter finals!
So yeah. My love life is soooo freaking confusing :0( As of now its teh Shane vs. Matt question... Shane told me to go out w/Matt and Matt told me to go out with Shane.. bleh lol ummmmm. I don't know and it drives me NUTS! School was decent. Afterwards I went w/Matt 2 his house 2 pick up his stuff and we got a chance to talk... amazing i think considering most of the time we're yelling at eachother but yeah. He told me that he didn't really mean what he said in the email he sent me but that he wanted me to go out with Shane cuz after we'd break up then it wouldn't be an issue anymore. I'm not sure if i agree with that but ehh i duno... We then went 2 Drewish's house for Frugby. It was mucho funness & Ben G. got me a SAVES THE DAY shirt!!! I love it sooooo much. thank you Ben <3 Yeah. I missed STD last night :0( that really fucking blew... ummm Shane thought i was mad at him but i wasn't. After the game I told him that we were going back to Boca and he gave me the cutest but saddest look in the world :0/ After a kiss or two or three.. lol we were off! Us bums.. (me, Stephy & Jenn) ended up at Checkers on Atlantic Ave. where we bumped into AJ & Brock & supposedly Vanessa went through the drive thru but we didnt' see her. We talked bout guys and shit & Stephy made it known that she wants Paul lol then again Paul = total sexiness sooo who WOULDN'T want him heh
A wonderful day indeed <3
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2002 14 November :: 11.23pm
Today was excellent!
1st period was sooo fun... I spent the whole time drawing pictures on Sara B's leg... I drew an AMAZING pic of Keith on her left leg w/ Keith = Sexy next to it heh
3rd period I stole Drew's(ehh. Rosensweig not Drewish) Spiderman Sweater and swapped it with my Orange Billabong one. It was funny... my sweater is a small so it came really short on him.. he looked pretty damn sexy though :0P Band was okay.. I counted the 5/8 & 3/4 sections for Ms.Stoneman due to lack of better things heh
Lunch - Saw Shane, he looked REALLY good in his sweater & the EMO glasses lol Matt and Paul were skipping and invited me to leave with them to which i resisted... for a while anyways lol Ummmmmm... o yeah.. the drummers were all fucking around and Tucker stuck Shane in the face & he was bleeding and shit.. it was NOT pretty :0(
I ended up giving in (I know.. its SOOO bad!) Paul and I got into Matt's trunk (i'm an amazing contortionist haha) and Matt had a pink pass to leave school. Paul and I were really nervous bout leaving and the consequences if we were to get caught... It was soo scary when Matt was at the gate talking 2 Ben (the gate guard)... We heard voices and something bout Bellan (AP!) I got soo scared.. i started tearing up & Paul was just like "oh shit" I think I coulda died when Matt opened the trunk.. I swear I heard Ben or Bellan say something bout opening Matt's trunk... bleh but we got away... We ended up at Ben Garb's house for 3hrs watching billion episodes of a Makeover Story and Jenny Jones & Marching Festival tapes. That was fun cept Ben's devil 28lbs cat clawed me to death :0( Ehh we then dropped off Paul and I went back to Matts where I stayed for dinner.
After Matt's me, mommy & Vinh went 2 Town Center where Vinh got me an early X-mas present!heh I now own the pimpest orange tie-died converses! YES!!!!
An excellent mood most definately <3
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2002 14 November :: 6.39am
the beginning of a new day.
past = let go.
future = here i come
:0)
.. my first smile in about a week <3
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2002 12 November :: 7.39pm
i fucking hate boys. they're so fucking worthless... only there to make you cry.
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2002 12 November :: 6.53pm
time. the universal healer? maybe.
as i start to fix my problems my life begins to settle and normality returns.
Two big obstacles in one week... leaving me weak but now I have the oppurtunity to stand up taller (shut up) then before. My heart still aches yet I know things are going to be okay and there are many oppurtunities in my future. I have been lucky... lucky to have friends that care about me and someone that still likes me regardless of everything that has happened. Thank you to {him} and to everyone else.
Free of obligation. This is what getting out of prison must feel like :0P (sorry... watched Oceans 11 for the 1st time yesterday heh)
15days till I get to see my Kevy Wevy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2002 11 November :: 12.39am
Tonight was really fun :0)
I ended up going to Merkel's halloween party and had a great time :0) This was the first year that I didn't bring anyone with me (like a guy) so I wasn't obligated to drag someone around and I could freely float around and mingle :0P I went as a Jester/fairy person with my very cool mask I got in Venice. The mask got really annoying so I ended up taking it off 10min into the party. Whigham, the Mobleys, Demony and this kid Chad ended up showing up. It was cool.. I hung out w/Demony a lot. They left at around 9:45 10ish. IT was really creepy.. when they were leaving that kid Chad came over 2 me and was all like "i think you're really cute" and started kissing my neck to which i pushed him away and was like GOODBYE!!! lol Lets see... I made Dom go & I stole his chair while using his phone to go online :0) Baby'nana! haha ummm Drewski was my "emo boy" bitch for the night hehe Drew makes a very, very sexy emo boy :0) ummm Merkel looked like Little Richard in his Hook wig. Umm... Leah brought a really cute Yugoslavian exchange student named Ivan. Courtney and Dennis were there and they were soooooo cute despite Courtney lookuing like a complete and utter whore! Kachina looked great and we enjoyed touching eachothers breasts' all night. All together a good night. I'm really glad I decided to go <3
Now... now i'm talking to Shane :0) soooo yeah. this is the end <3
goodnight world<3
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2002 9 November :: 6.57pm
VidaDura87: females r only good for 2 things....making babies and cleaning up after guys ;-)
wow. lol DOM = PIG!!! haha
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2002 9 November :: 12.14am
Atlantic vs. Olympic Heights 24-7
we're 10-0.. the perfect season.
Tonight was kind of depressing... Because of ... how can I say this, prior comittments? I have really fucked up potential relationships. Matt.. well Matt's a different story but Shane.. I think I've royally fucked that one up. He looked soooo good tonight it was ridiculous. He was wearing these very "emo" glasses and had on the tuba baret and I swear if he was wearing that sexy sexy sweater I think i woulda just raped him on the spot :0P You see.. this all sounds fine and dandy but no. He spent the whole night with Sam... GRRRR!!! A week ago and that woulda been just ME and now its not :0( Ashley says hes just doing it to make me jealous and he still likes me but I don't know... I think i'm going to call him tomorrow & c if hes going to the Halloween party.. I really hope he is...
After the game we went 2 Fridays where lots of people were. It was fun, we just hung out. On the way home Ash & I had the top down & we saw these two really cute guys at the stop light. One was in a white eclipse and the other was on a motorcycle type thing. We got smiles and waves :0) Its fun getting attention from cute boys :0P Now i'm home. It's 12:20... my bday :0) heh Vivi = dorko so yes.. get over it.
Thank you Kevy Wevy... you are my world <3
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2002 7 November :: 11.07pm
fuck it.
worthless.
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2002 6 November :: 10.55pm
...Tonight, it seems as if a beautiful friendship is emerging...
And so.. my predictions were true. I think this is the best way to get your heart broken.. I can honestly say that i'm okay right now and I can smile because I truly believe that things are going to be okay despite "status" or such. I think I prefer it this way.. being open and honest.. I'm far too paranoid about these things to have it on my chest making me worry to death. For the past 4 months every "relationship" I have engaged in has been an absolute mess because my heart has been bound. Love doesn't fade easily... more times it just doesn't fade at all but I think I got the closure I needed.
and to (you) like I always say, Unconditional. (You) have been my world for what seems like forever. As a friend as a whatever I will love you unconditionally. A beautiful friendship... almost better.
...the end of a beautiful era...
to the wonderful people who have been with me through this just know that you're truly the best and I don't know what i'd do with out any of you. Thank you.
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2002 5 November :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: numb
wow.
noone told me unconditional wasn't forever.
(tear.)
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2002 5 November :: 8.23pm
"Tell your mom you need the day off. So we can play out in the rain..."
"This song will become the anthem of your underground"
"Close your eyes, you're beautiful when you're sleeping"
"I picture you sighing softly. Only in my dreams"
"Heres a thought. If you're willing to listen"
"A beautiful girl can make you dizzy"
"Its yet to be determined but the air is thick and my hope is feeling worn"
"so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick"
"Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun"
...things that make me happy...
It was never written in the stars,
Or whispered to me in a fall breeze,
It didn’t come from traveling to a land afar,
Nor did an angel come to me in my sleep,
I sought no answer in god’s scriptures,
Or sipped some magical potion,
It did not take first sight of a picture,
Nor some unexplained sense of divine devotion,
It is not even in the words in this poem I write,
Or hidden in a the lyrics of a song,
All I know is what I feel in my heart is right,
For you are the one my soul has so longed,
It is something that will be forever true,
That love I have been vested shall never fade,
For my life is complete now that I’ve found you,
Because it was you for which I was made.
...unconditional...
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2002 2 November :: 1.48am
The Perfect Season... well almost anyways 9-0 and one game to go and its just against Olympic Heights soo no sweat :0P
Tonight was okay. I got to see Lauren from Dwyer which was really cool. Matt and I are mad at eachother again but then again whos REALLY surprised? Yeah.. me either. ummm Score. 22-14 ATL-vs-Dwyer.
I fell asleep in a really ackward position on the way back & was in a really cranky mood. We (me, Ben, Stephy, Jenn & Whitney) went 2 Taco Bell where we met up w/a gazillion people. It was okay cept Matt getting all mad at me.
Thank you Ben <3
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2002 28 October :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: interrogative
Free Your Mind
what if. your world collapsed. what if one day you looked through someone's eyes and saw into their head. peered through a television set. what if you looked through all of these material objects as if they were invisible? what if all the meager little threads in the parchment that holds your life together were to suddenly snap. because someday. things will enter a state of full collapse. and sure, there you are, in your comfortable, cozy mindset. funny thing is, most are too absent minded to realize something has collapsed. that something is wrong. and then there some never even realize anything has ever happened. A Native American could see the absent minded nature of most humans in the 1700's, and was,I believe,to effectively sum this up in one sentence:"The only thing the whiteman can understand is a mustket ball to the head." Unfortunately for you, that is your only cure. Free Your Mind.
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