The girl with the dreamer's eyes and a soul for her smile...

:: 2004 29 April :: 1.04am

your tounge be not coiled on that silo of less use
for to the bear tounge sweet is the honey, while the bee grows numb

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tboblp

:: 2004 28 April :: 9.38pm

Conference Semifinals

* I want to win + I think will win

Western Cofnerence
#1 Detroit Red Wings (*+) v. #6 CALGARY FLAMES (2-4)
#2 SAN JOSE SHARKS (+) v. #4 Colorado Avalanche (*) (4-2)

Eastern Conference
#1 TAMPA BAY LIGHTNING (*+) v. #7 Montreal Canadaians (4-0)
#3 PHILADELPHIA FLYERS (+) v. #4 Toronto Maple Leafs (*) (4-2)

orfwashere

:: 2004 28 April :: 3.53pm
:: Music: one hot minute

cross postin;
yeah. pre-graduation party. my house. saturday. parents won't be home till monday. keg. mos def. spend the night. fold out couches like whoa. if you can read this, you're invited. 703-4691.

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:: 2004 25 April :: 9.21pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: "I Want It That Way" -Backstreet Boys (Don't ask, there actually is a reason)

Prom was friday. It was friggin awesome. I think I should type out a whole big thing about it....do I have time? I'll see what I can get down.

Will picked me up from school after chem and informed me that we did in fact get a limo, which made me really happy. I had called around all day thursday and couldnt find an affordable one. So I went home and got out all my nail polish and stuff so krystle could have a choice of every shade of blue imaginable, and headed over to leah's around 2. Her mom helped us out doing facials, and then we left for our appointments to get our hair done. We were at the hair place from 3 till like 5:20. It was insane. There was a little incident with Leah's hair, but the lady who did mine and krystle's did a really really good job. And leah had elana fix her hair after and it was gorgeous. ^.^ Funny story from the hair place, I will just post it from a convo with Leah.
Skillet9886: this guy came in while you and me were getting our hair done
Skillet9886: and he's carrying this box
Skillet9886: so he says hello to some people, and I thought he was like a delivery guy or something
Skillet9886: but he sets down the box next to me and is trying to sell me this book
Lanaofboca: lol
Lanaofboca: yeah
Skillet9886: he's like this has 40 disney stories in here, full color, this book sells for $40, but I'll make you a deal. I'll give it to you for only 10! And I'll make it even better! I'll throw in a free copy of children's first bible stories!
Skillet9886: so I was like uhh...thanks, but I don't have any little brothers or sisters or anything to give it to
Skillet9886: and he goes no? no neices or nephews?
Lanaofboca: lol
Skillet9886: and I kinda laughed at the thought of will having kids, and then I was just like nope
Lanaofboca: haha
Skillet9886: and he goes no kids?
Lanaofboca: lol
Skillet9886: and I was like what?! No, of course not
Skillet9886: and he goes what are you waiting for?
Skillet9886: and I said what am I waiting for to have kids?!
Skillet9886: and he's like yeah
Skillet9886: so I just said I'm 17!!
Skillet9886: and he goes oh..
Skillet9886: and then the lady doing that guy's hair was like sir, there's no soliciting in here, and she kicked him out.
I think that was the first time ever someone thought I was older than I actually am. Either that or he just expects 17 year olds to have kids.. So Will came and picked me up at the hair place and it was a mad dash to get home and get ready. When I got home the limo was already here, but that's his fault, he was 10 minutes early. Luckily Gabe was not here yet, so I just ran into my mom's room and she helped me get all ready with my makeup and dress and shoes and all. Gabe did get here while I was in there getting ready, it reminded me of one of those stereotypical movie high school date things, where the guy has to wait in the living room talking to the girl's dad because she's never ever ready on time. So I finally got ready and came out, Gabe gave me a dozen roses, and we got his bouteneer and my corsage on and all, and then we took pictures because my mom is picture crazy and we headed out. We picked up krystle at leah's and then went to dinner at Pete's on Glades Road. It was kinda expensive but really good. The people at the table next to us were so funny, because they could obviously tell that we were going to prom, so they started talking about their high school proms. This one lady said I never went to my prom because I didn't have a date. So the guy across from her goes well, did you ask someone? And she went Oh, I asked everyone! We found that pretty amusing. After dinner we had to go back to my house and leah's house because me and krystle both forgot our prom tickets, but that's ok.. So we finally got to prom at about 8:35. Well, I shouldn't say finally, because very few people were there. Me and Gabe went to go get our prom pics taken, because again, my mom is crazy, and then we ran into Mrs. Schilit, who was also picture crazy. She was getting pictures of everyone there. She asked if we had been in yet, and we told her no because we had just gotten there. And she was like oh, you have to see it! You can't even tell it's the civic center! It's so beautiful! So we went in and checked it out, and it really was decorated nicely. It was all oriental-y and all the centerpieces had those little paper fans and chinese lanterns, most of which were stolen before the end of the evening. Not that I'm complaining about it, I got one of each.. There was kind of a lull between seeing most of the people we knew and when Leah and Tom decided to show up. So me and Gabe went out to the lobby-ish thing to get another program, since someone spilled drinks all over our table, and Leah and Tom were just getting there, so it was good timing. We went back in for the crowning of king, queen, prince, princess, etc. Leah was all dance-happy, so she danced to the music in her head through that. Then after the crowning which few paid attention to, we hit the dance floor. Now, I dont dance, but after some pressuring and Peanut Butta Jelly Time even I was dancing. It was such a good time. After prom ended me and gabe and tom and leah came back to my place and we watched Not Another Teen Movie. Gabe left around 2:30 and Leah and Tom just crashed here, but I think we all fell asleep before the movie ended. Atleast I know I did and Leah said she did. I was so exhausted. We woke up at like 8 because Tom had to be out of there to get to his thing. So all in all it was a great night.

Last night krystle, alexis, miriam, adam, trevor and I went to Grease at boca high because krystle's friend christina was in it. Turns out Krista Corwin was also in it, so the entire corwin family was there, including Matt.. Yeah.

Today I did basically nothing. I slept forever because I was so tired. Watched some tv, attempted to get some work done, but have done none. Oh well, screw math internal assessment. Must read more Bell Jar also. Will left today to take his 2 exams and comes back thursday night. Grr, he's done with school. We'll be done soon enough though. This year has actually gone surprisingly fast. We have a month left. After AP's things ease up a bit too. Chem we only do labs. English we do orals, in ToK too. History will not get any better, but screw it. Precalc doesn't really need to get any easier as far as I'm concerned. Let's see, what else.. French is not really that bad as it is, although I think I will get another B this quarter, thus kicking me out of SHF. : \ That's about it. Extended essay class this summer, but not before I've had enough summer to recuperate. Then we have a month after that and back to band camp. Ok, remind me not to talk about that again until August. This year is not even over, it is not time to start talking about school next year.

I think that's it, kids. If I think of anything to write later I will.

:: 2004 22 April :: 11.17pm

your sticks. your stones. touch not. my bones.

snap snap snap

love not. live not.

:: 2004 22 April :: 3.02pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Various Children's show theme songs...namely Salute Your Shorts

Stole this from amanda's journal. I'll do an actual update later. I added my own little notes to them in parentheses, and when I say comments, I mostly mean the theme songs.

Childhood Memories
Place a star next to the ones you remember:

* Fresh Prince of Bel-Air (In West Philadelphia born and raised, on the playground is where I spent most of my days...)
* Fraggle Rock
* G.I. Joe
* Are You Afraid of the Dark? (What were all those kids doing out in the middle of the forest so late at night?)
* Secret World of Alex Mack
* Nightmare Before Christmas
* Welcome Freshman (This was such a great show, but it wasn't on very long)
* Space Cases
* Roundhouse
* The Muppet Show (It's time to start the music..)
* Muppet Babies
* Eureka's Castle (Eureeka, and Batly, and Magellan, and Kooey, and...those twins that were obsessed with peanut butter...someone and Bog, whatever, they were pink and orange, and those little clay worms in the rocks, and those three singing fish in the fountain, and everyone else that I just forgot)
* Salute Your Shorts (We run we jump we swim and play, we row and go on trips, but the things that last forever are are dear friendships...)
* Legends of the Hidden Temple (Olmec, the talking rock/mountain-ish thing)
* You Can't Do That On Television
* G.U.T.S. (Agro crag, super agro crag,..I forget the third one, mega crag?)
* What Would You Do? (Piepod. No more need be said)
* Double Dare (Ahh, the days when Mark Summers ruled Nickelodeon)
* Rocko's Modern Life (he's a WALLABY, people!)
* All That (Nothing can beat that original cast...Lori Beth Denberg, Kenan Thompson, Kel Mitchel...I could go on for days)
* Ren and Stimpy
* Clarissa Explains It All (Am I the only one who remembers that she had a pet alligator named Elvis? And why did Sam never use the door? He always just popped up his ladder in her window and they played that guitar thing)
The Torklesons
* Pete and Pete (I wonder how their mom got through airports...she had a metal plate in her head. And don't for get Artie, the strongest man....in the world!)
* Stick Stickley (Write to me, Stick Stickley, PO Box 963, New York City, New York State, 10108)
* Goodburger (Haha, gotta love all that spinoffs...it's like Wayne's World but for kid SNL)
* Angry Beavers
* Hey Arnold!
* AAH! Real Monsters (Ickis, Krum, and Oblina)
* Tiny Toons (We're tiny, we're toony, we're all a little loony, and in this cartoony we're invading your TV! Buster Bunny and Babs Bunny...no relation)
* Animaniacs
* Pinky and the Brain
* The Babysitter's Club
* Kablam! (Henry and June...didn't they have green hair?)
* Gullah Gullah Island (Let's all go to Gullah Gullah Island. Best show ever to watch when you're home sick from third grade)
* Richard Scary (The Busy World of Richard Scary. With that worm dude)
* Dumbo's Circus
Ocean Girl
* Mystery Files of Shelby Woo
* Snick Snacks
* Dunkaroos
* SNICK (Three words: Big Orange Couch.)
* Koala Yummies
* Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego? (Rockapella, the chief, gumshoes)
* Nick Magazine (Neckelodeon Magazine, Please!)
* The Goonies (Sean Astin before he became a hobbit)
* Ernest Movies
* Radio Flyer (are they talking about the movie or the actual wagon? Because I love that movie, it is awesome, hopefully that's what this is referring to...Elijah Wood at age 5, or so)
Disney Watchers
Adventures in Wonderland
* Homeward Bound (I must have watched this movie a million times. I can still recite it.)
* The Adventures of Yellow Dog
* Milo and Otis (This was my favorite movie when I was like 4. I watched it incessantly. That mischevious cat always making Otis run after him. Here comes the dog, strong and brave! ...that was the song Otis sang in the movie, I'm not just making it up)
* Neverending Story
* Who Framed Roger Rabbit? (I was SO afraid of Chris Lloyd when I saw this)
* The Lion King (Oh, please, what more need be said? Best Disney movie ever. EVER.)
* Labyrinth (Extremely frustrating when you are 5)
* 101 Dalmations (I was totally obsessed with this movie when I was little too. I still have a collection of 101 Dalmatian stuff. Oh, and whoever wrote it, dalmation is not a word. It's Dalmatian.)
* The Secret Garden
* Pete's Dragon
* Hocus Pocus
Secret of Roan Inish
* Land Before Time (It was good after Land Before Time, that one I loved...what are they on now? Land Before Time 36?)
* Dinosaurs (Was this that show about the dinosaur family? I'm the baby, gotta love me! Not the momma!)
* Fern Gully
Secret of NIMH
* Gummi Bears
* Care Bears (Good Luck Bear kicks ass)
A Little Princess
* My Little Pony
* Black Beauty (This movie made me obsessed with horses. It was so good, I have it on video)
* Rainbow Brite
Lady Lovely Locks
* Candyland (Every child's first board game)
* Sorry!
* Trouble
* Don't Wake Daddy!
* Mousetrap
* Jenga
* Don't Break the Ice
* Hungry Hungry Hippos (Loudest children's game every created)
* Cooties (I never actually played Cooties, I just liked building the little bugs)
* Tinker Toys
* Sky Dancers
* Polly Pocket
* Hypercolor T-Shirts (Yeah, those worked for like, a day)
* Lite Brite (I am proud to say that I still have my lite brite, it is still in my closet, and if I had free time, I would still play with it. Greatest invention ever.)
* Scrunchies
* Side Ponytails (Haha, the DJ Tanner look)
* Stirrup Pants
* Jellies (These were the worst things ever created. Seriously.)
Saddle Shoes
* Barbies
* Beanie Babies (I still have my beanie baby collection in my bookcase in my room. My first one was Seaweed, the otter)
* Tamagotchies (Or as mrs. Cosby calls them, Kamikazes)
* Yo-Yos (Fireballs, greatest yo-yos in the world. Mine is green. I still like to play with it)
Choose Your Own Adventure
* Pogs (Still have my pogs too. And all my slammers)
* Goosebumps (These were the shit in second grade.)
Magic Attic Club
* American Girl
* The Island of the Blue Dolphins
* Saved By The Bell (ahh, who could forget our friends Zack, Slader, Screech, Lisa, Mr. Belding, Tiffany Amber Thieson, and that other girl who later played in Striptease)
* Full House (Whatever happened to predictability, the milkman, the paper boy, evening tv...back before the olsen twins were every guy's fantasy)
* Step By Step (Suzanne Somer's attempt to reestablish her career after her "Three's Company Faux Pas")
* TGIF on ABC
* Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
* Boy Meets World (I have seen every episode of this show ever. Many multiple times. I can probably recite the series. This was the second greatest show of the 90's...second, of course, to the simpsons.)
* Clueless (Defined a generation)
* Mork and Mindy (I used to love watching this show with my dad. A very early Robin Williams show)
* Simpsons (C'mon...what's to remember about the simpsons? I still watch this show every day)
* Flipper (They call him flipper, flipper, faster than lightning. No one you see is smarter than he.)
Eerie Indiana
* Third Rock From The Sun
* Tracey Ullman Show
* Ghostwriter
* Growing Pains
* Family Ties (Michael J Fox as Alex P Keaton. If that show was around today, which it is, but on TV Land so no one really watches it, it would be the greatest IB show ever.)
* Titanic (Oh geez...Leo in his teen idol prime)
* Felix The Cat
* Jonathan Taylor Thomas (I was the envy of every girl on my bus one day in like third grade because I have the same birthday as JTT. Don't ask why I remember that)
* Home Improvement (Tim Allen post-prison)
* Tom and Huck (I think this was right when JTT became the hottest guy ever for like 2 months...in third grade)
* My Brother and Me (Alphie and Didi, and Gu)
* Kenan and Kel (something about orange soda...)
* Hanson (Mmmbop alsfjkaosicosdoowop)
* Inspector Gadget (do do do do do inspector gadget do do do do do do do)
* Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Let's see...Donatello was the purple one with the staff, Leonardo was the blue one with the sword, Michelangelo was the orange one with the nunchuks, and Raphael was the red one with those fork-y things, I have heard they are called sai blades, but I can't confirm that...oh yeah, that's skillin)
* Power Rangers (I was never really into power rangers that much, but my friend Thomas was, so we would still watch it every day during Nick in the Afternoon)
* Hot Wheels
* Creepy Crawlers
* Easy Bake Oven
* Flower Making Kits
* Weinerville (Mark Weiner. Do you know how much that guy must have gotten made fun of in seventh grade? What a great way to profit off an unfortunate name. Wait, was that really his name?)
* Wild and Crazy Kids (Omar Gooding, Jessica something, and what was that white boy's name? Nick?)
* Playdough McDonald's Sets
* Animorphs
* Rainbow Fish
* If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
Bailey School Kids
Wayside School
Mrs. Piggle Wiggle
* Boxcar Kids
* Ramona Quimby
* Amber Brown (Amber Brown is Not a Crayon)
* Roald Dahl (Rock)
* Allegra's Window (It took me like seven years to realize that all of them are named after musical terms)
* 3-2-1 Contact (3-2-1 Clasrooooom Contact!)
* Slip-n-slides (Ohhh yeah. I remember slip-n-slides. I snapped my arm on one at TNT in sixth grade.)
* Teddy grahms
* Candy Necklaces (I never actually wanted to eat the candy necklace though, because then you are left with just a string..)
* Popeye the sailor man (toot toot!)
* Barney (I love you, you love me...shut up!)
* Bananas in Pajamas (I never really got this concept...)
* James and the giant peach
* Good Night Moon (I LOVE GOODNIGHT MOON! The only thing that beats Goodnight Moon in my book is the Giving Tree)
* Dr. Seuss (Theodore Seuss Geisel)
* Dragontales
* Arthur (And I said Hey! What a wonderful kind of day! Where we can learn to work and play! And get along with each other!)
* Big Wheels

And I am now protesting to the absence of David the Gnome, Hey Dude, The Magic Schoolbus, Viewfinders, the Rugrats, Bernstein Bears, Where's Waldo, Robin Hood Men in Tights, Kerplunk, Mr. Potato Head, Shel Silverstein, and anything else that I come up with later.

tboblp

:: 2004 20 April :: 3.53pm

2nd Round playoffs near
Red Wings, Sharks, Flames, Avalanche move on
Lightning, Canadians, Flyers move on

Game 7 tonight:
Maple Leafs v. Senators

Awaiting end of the game to post second round match-ups all at once...go LEAFS!

1 TOUCH THE WATER!!! | LeAvE a PiEcE oF yOuR mInD!

orfwashere

:: 2004 19 April :: 3.59pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: haitian fight song

I wish I had a prom date.

I wish my car was ready to go.

I wish she would talk to me.

I wish I was in college allready.

I wish I wasn't the loser I try so hard not to be.

How come things never work out my way? I wish, for just once, that I could have a nice thing, and have it last.

Well, aside from my rant, I got two superiors at state S&E, and made district honor band. I was really impressed with the honor band, and hope that college will be like that, or better. I earned my spot to be the bari sax player fair and square, and Mr. Lerner tried to screw me out of it TWICE. asshole. I'm definately ready to go on to college band. I've had enough of high school, and it's directors, and their atitudes. I'm sick of high school in general. But on the brighter side, USF isn't offering me any scholarships, but around $8500 in financial aid. sweet. It pays to be poor.

and lonely.

:: 2004 18 April :: 10.25pm

Interconnected
Interconnected

and so said the dying man
"time has taken none
but my fears
and all these years
it was the one that ate me all
and the all that ate me one"

sitting on young, deaf ears
these words did fade
into a spectre to
loom and vex her
until a day she did awake
to these words; they did greet her
and were soon to eat her
questions stored
so her thoughts abhorred
so her thoughts seethed
while the words teethed
on her former self
sharpened, they carved her
anew: so did they give her new life
wise and true

infinity

all in the one
that cradles us all

4 TOUCH THE WATER!!!s | LeAvE a PiEcE oF yOuR mInD!

:: 2004 14 April :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: "Busted Stuff" -Dave Matthews Band

Putnam County Represent
Went to Gainesville this weekend. It was good, except for the fact that I have some kind of flu-ish thing. But I didn't let that stop me...atleast not till monday. I drove up on the bus friday afternoon and will met me in some random uf parking lot. Then we walked back to his dorm and chilled for a while before driving around campus a bit and heading to dinner at Las Margaritas. Then will drove down to Orlando to pick up Adina to surprise Jeff, and I stayed back in Gainesville and caught up on some sleep. Saturday we woke up and walked over to the O-Dome for the CALS (College of Agricultural and Life Sciences) open house thingy. It was not real informative...well, yes it was. But a lot of it I already knew. It was worth it to go, but I was selective about what exhibits I stopped at since it was so crowded. You're supposed to get this little card punched out at each different place you stop to talk to somebody, and after about an hour or so of cruising around I decided I had enough info and went to go cash in my card for whatever crap prize things they were handing out. The girl was mad at me for only having 6 punches on my card, but I took my CALS pencil and left. We went back to will's dorm and waited for a while before calling jeff and adina to go to the sinkhole. Mind you, I had had descriptions of the sinkhole, but nothing could have prepared me for Putnam county's pride. First of all, even though Gainesville is kinda in the middle of nowhere, you have to drive like 45 minutes outside of gainesville to get to the real middle of nowhere. After passing a few obscure signs for oysters and/or chicken places, you come to this dirt road. Now, I would think, upon coming to a dirt road in the heart of Putnam county, you would not want to turn there, but apparently, that's the turn. So you drive down this dirt road that ends up being no sort of road at all, just kind of a sandy trail, put the car in first gear, and find a place to pull off to the side (not like it's hard to find a place....there's nowhere really that you can't pull off). So then you walk a little and you come to this sinkhole. It's insane. It's like 80 feet almost straight down to even get near the water, and then once you get there, the only way in is to either jump off a rock ledge or a rope swing. At first, me and Adina decided that we would have more fun watching will and jeff and the drunk 16 year old putnam county kids make fools of themselves jumping 30 feet into this sinkhole. Yeah, they sure were drunk. At one point, someone said the cops were coming (why the cops would bother showing up to the sinkhole is beyond me, but whatever) and so they threw all the beer into the water. So the cops did show up, but they were putnam county cops. In other words, they did nothing but encourage the drunk teenagers to jump off higher places. Eventually the cops decided they had endangered enough young lives for one afternoon and they took their leave. Before the four of us left, I decided that there was a good chance I would not be back to the sinkhole, so I jumped in a few times. It was fun. I first jumped off of the smallest rock ledge, which we decided was about 8 feet, then went a few times off the next higher one. It's hard to describe, but it looks like a lot bigger jump after you have already jumped. There comes a point when you're falling through the air that you think ...why am I not in the water yet? But you eventually do hit the water, which is crystal clear blue and COLD. It's a natural limestone pool, so it's gorgeous, but it's really cold. Then you have to climb up this ladder and a few ropes to get back out of the water, and you're good to go. So we went back to our respective dorms/houses and cleaned up before dinner. The four of us met stan at Dragonfly for some really really good sushi. Then we went to Maude's, which is this really cool coffee shop where you can play free board games while you drink your coffee, so we played a game of scrabble. There were only three little letter holder thingies, so me and adina were on a team. It was so painful. We had the entire word zodiac and couldn't use it. We tried for so long to keep that together incase it could be played, but we ended up coming to a stalemate...since we weren't keeping score, we were just playing till someone ran out of letters. We headed over to Jeff's house and watched this movie...I forget what it's called now, the Run Down, I think. It's with the rock and sean williams scott. Then me and will went back to his dorm and went to sleep. Sunday we just kinda chilled, watched the masters a little, had lunch at Jimmy John's, and I went back on the bus.

I went to school a little on monday, but that's it. I have been sooo sick. Still attempting to write my ToK paper, it's not as painful as I would have thought, because I already had an outline for it and all the quotes and everything. I'll finish it tonight after American Idol. So I'll be back in school tomorrow, because I'm finally feeling better. Word on the street is that mr power's not gonna be there, so that gives me a break on that, since I've missed more math classes than any other. Yeah, that's about all that's going on. Ohoh, I got my ticket for the prom, going out dress shopping this weekend. I know, a little late, but hey, better late than never. If anyone knows people who are going who either need a limo or need more people for their limo, lemme know ASAP. So I will try to survive the rest of the week, and maybe I'll start updating more often. Hmm....well, I'll update in my free time, how bout that.

orfwashere

:: 2004 10 April :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: incubus - make yourself

So I enter the adult world...
...just a buncha bull shit. Buying smokes, porn, and lottery tickets never really appealed to me. Turning 18 just means I have more shit to do now. Gotta go get my "totally free checking account" this week, I'm getting my license next week, I'm gonna get more hours at work, less breaks, and now I can get into more trouble for the shit I do if I get caught, because I'm now an adult. I sure don't feel any older. It's all just a number.

All district concert band tryouts are on monday. I haven't done more than look at the names of the songs I have to play for the audition. It would be pretty funny if I didn't make it though, seeing as I got two superiors at state S&E, on my quartet and bari solo. Shit always has a funny way of working out like that. It wouldn't really matter if I didn't make it though. I allready took off of work on the days of the performances.

Since I get my license in a week, I get my car in two, or just before prom. My dad is really hooking it up. He's got his personal mechanic fixing everything on the mechanical end, it's getting new upholstery on the seats, new carpet, new dash, new head liner, new front and rear bumpers, the body shop is grinding out all my rust, fixing the dent on the rear qtr. pannel, it's getting the accents rechromed, and a new paintjob; going from ghetto spraypaint baby blue to a more masculine GM dark blue. So my dad is basically taking care of everything and totally hooking me up. I'm responsible for the stereo and wheels. I just dropped $300 on the head unit and front and rear speakers. I'll eventually get subs to give it some bottom. The wheels on the car now are apparently the most expensive option Chevy had in 1984. I bet in 1984 they were pimp as hell, but in 2004 they don't look as cool. They've got to go. I'm thinking a set of late 80's Camaro RS wheels would look hot.

Thanks to steph for liking my poem; if it is a poem at all. I'm flattered. And suki, you rule.
I'm out.

4 TOUCH THE WATER!!!s | LeAvE a PiEcE oF yOuR mInD!

:: 2004 6 April :: 7.53pm
:: Mood: Mixed Emotions
:: Music: It's Elton John Night on American Idol.

Haven't updated in a while. Figured you guys should know I didnt die. So..there ya go. I didnt die. I went to seaworld and had a real blast. I'd only been to seaworld one other time because anytime we go to orlando we go to disney. It was freakin awesome. We went the first day with Will and saw all the shows that we liked before so that will could see them since he didnt go with us before. Then we went to downtown disney, which had minimal pin trading, I was rather disappointed. But the next day, Friday, we got up really early because will had to take off for jacksonville for a golf tournament, then me and my mom got to seaworld about the time it was opening. We get to go for the rest of the year unlimited because I got a funcard and my mom gets in free since she's a teacher. So we went and signed up for all these behind the scenes tours and "Dine with Shamu." All were awesome, on the predators tour we went backstage of shamu stadium and the shark exhibit, then got to touch a shark, and on the Polar Expedition tour we went and saw seals, polar bears, and penguins from the back of the exhibit (much closer to the actual animals) and got to pet a penguin. Man, who would have thought penguins were so soft! But then after those tours and a bit of show-seeing, we went to Dine with Shamu. That was the coolest thing I have ever done. I'll hopefully add piccies later, someone remind me. But it's like a buffet dinner thing right next to the orca pool, and they do a little show for you right there. You get SO CLOSE to them!!! I could have touched him if I reached my hand out. It was so incredible. But anyway, enough about my trip to seaworld.

Been pretty sick the last few days. Sucks.

Today was Solo and Ensemble States. For the most part, excellents all around. Quite a few superiors as well. More drama then necessary, but that's ok. We'll get over it... Yeah.

My baby ducks that live in my yard most of the day that I love oh-so-much seem to have misplaced their mommy. : ( But they should be ok, because they are a few weeks old now, starting to grow adult feathers, (my babies are growing up!) and I feed them atleast once every day. So pretty much, I have adopted 7 baby ducks. I'll put pictures of them up here later too, even though my evil camera deleted the ones I had before. Grr.

Tomorrow is make up chem test, french test, and make up Precalc test. I have no idea what I'm doing on any of them. Wish me luck!

Apparently we have a new assistant band director for next year. This gives me mixed feelings, but I dont expect you to understand why. So just put on a happy face. The lady likes marching band and she knows IB music apparently, so...yay. Gonna go now. Pictures (hopefully) to come later.

sendmemoney

:: 2004 6 April :: 2.32am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: mariah carey - underneath the stars

it's an almost overwhelming sense of despair that begins to set in when i enter . i can smell it before my key is even in the lock , and the oblivious smile from one makes me realize that perhaps it is a sixth sense , while the obviously overly cheerful smile from the other confirms my suspicions . i'm eighteen , not nineteen , i want to yell . i want to cry , scream , jump over this white countertop and rip out your eyes with my bare hands , while he sits unsuspecting , blowing out candles . i avoid all eye contact because i am afraid of what will happen if it is made . for that one brief moment , our eyes meet , and i know that the hurt and disappointment in my eyes will mean nothing tomorrow , if anything today . i should be used to this by now , she reminds me , as you smile for the camera . i reach for the knife and soap both sides before sliding it into the dishwasher . i go upstairs to reapply the eyeliner that has faded because it is unfortunately not waterproof , to go somewhere that i know will only add to my increasingly fading emotions . i should stay . i should go downstairs and tell you i hate you to your face while i still have the chance . instead , i leave . before i reach the halfway point to my destination , i know i should turn the car around and go anywhere else . take my car to south county regional park and bury my heart somewhere in the sand beneath the slide , where it's not so readily available to you . instead , i ask you why you wore that shirt , when you know i'm a sucker for blue eyes . you kiss me , and i know why , and at that moment , i don't care more than i do .