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holiday

:: 2005 9 December :: 10.06am
:: Music: Bright Eyes- Gold Mine Gutted

You were a stroke of luck
You were a gold mine that gutted us

I got out of work at midnight last night. So tired. After class I drove to Bethany Christian Center's National Office and waited for everyone to show up w/the truck and van. Then we unloaded and got plating on the salads and desserts and entrees. There were 100 people there. We had to wait for their presentation to be done til we could clean up and leave. So we got out of there around 9:30. Then we went back to Applause and unloaded 5 trucks and cleaned cambros and all that other stuff. I fell outside on the ice. I was just too pissed off to care. There were 12 parties yesterday. That's insane! My friends went to Fredrick Meijer Gardens for a St. Mary's party where they had 7 chef attended stations! Holy crap.
I signed up for more classes. Here's what I'm taking so far:
-Table Service
-Ice Carving
-Survey of American Government
Who knows if they'll stay. I'm keeping Ice Carving though!!! YEAH! Chainsaw! hahaha.
I go to the doctor next week. whoop whoop. not.
I have to work today at 2.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 9 December :: 6.03am


We should not have school. Whoever makes that call is stupid.

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holiday

:: 2005 7 December :: 11.27pm
:: Music: Beck- New Pollution

I've been secretly falling apart
I can't get Aqualung "Strange and Beautiful" out of my head. I was sleeping at Char's and singing "I put a spell on you, you fall asleep"
or something like that. It just wouldn't stop...
Anyway...
I love that aqualung song.
ANYWAY...
hahaha. I have sooo many projects and I just am really busy. Work has been crazy. Tomorrow right after class I have to go to Bethany Christian Services for a banquet or something. I have no idea how to get there...we'll see how that goes. It's fun though. Very hard work but rewarding. :-) Crazy. This is the first job that I actually enjoy. YAAY! I go to the doctor next week. hmmmmmmmmmmm hehehe.
I'm tired and just ranting and raving.
Well, that's about it i think....

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 6 December :: 6.13am

Remember?

I forgot to do WHOOSH! and now we don't have a snow day. Sorry kids.

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holiday

:: 2005 6 December :: 12.05am

Oh yeah. I forgot. My job is pretty awesome. I found out some stuff tonight. I don't watch harry potter but I guess we did a huge banquet for some people involved w/it and for all of you who do watch it, harry potter 5 comes out in june 2007 i think. you may have already known that. whatever. And, this girl i work w/went to the bishop of GR's house tonight. She goes there every week because we do a party for him every week. Theres some interesting stuff about that. I think it's cool.

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holiday

:: 2005 5 December :: 11.49pm

AHHHH
Work went well today. I'll post a pic of some stuff we make. Sometime. Sometime soon. I need to go to sleep. I barely did any homework lately because work has been so busy. Here are some platters that were done today. Jose did the awesome salmon platter and I worked on the little olive one. Which wasn't that hard but still fun. I did a ton of dessert trays yesterday. One was for 450.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 5 December :: 4.06pm
:: Music: System of a Down

No more crappy CD selections

I just picked up AP (Alternative Press) magazine, and it's their 50 most anticipated albums of 2006 issue. Some of the greatest bands are on their. Stuff like AFI, Brand New, The Used, Taking Back Sunday, The Strokes, Muse, My Chemical Romance, and Thursday. Just all awesome stuff. 2006 will be a good year.


I have about 80lbs of homework I should attend to.

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stinko

:: 2005 5 December :: 8.55am

this essay isn't going to write itself . . .

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holiday

:: 2005 4 December :: 11.24pm

Hmm...Let's see...
Not going to class tomorrow. Weekend has been going crazy fast.
Friday after class I worked all night. Spent the night at Char's.
Saturday I worked from 2-midnight. Went to Fredrick Meijer Gardens and did a banquet for 180 there. Went back to Applause to unload trucks and such. After work I went to Char's and we ate a little food and I got home around 1:30. Then I went to bed around 2. Got up for work this morning around 6:30am. Worked all day till 3. Went to Charlie's and hung out. And now I'm back home. I am not going to class tomorrow because I need to try to do stuff for finals. I have to work tomorrow and I probably won't be getting out until late, there are at least 7 parties going on. Ugh. It's okay though. Not getting enough sleep is not okay though. Hmmm.
Well Charlie and I have some news but I'm not supposed to say anything yet. Until . .. Nevermind I said too much! Oh well.
Pepsi is good.

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holiday

:: 2005 1 December :: 11.38pm

Oh my gosh. Today was so crappy! I was freaking out about getting our project done. We finally finished it but were late for class. OH WELL. I was goin' crazy. Just a crappy crappy day.
I saw Jenna! haha :-) That was cool!
I hung out with the girls last night after work. So tired but we talked a lot and it was nice. I hung out w/Charlie today and that was really nice too. We went to Panera and stuff.
I think it's really happening this time, NO F'ing joke. For real.
Anyway, g'night!

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 1 December :: 9.58pm

Refrain

Tomorrow is going to suck. A 90 minute Dolbee session? What the fuck am I going to do? I bet most classes will just goof off for the extra thirty or so minutes, but knowing Dolbee, she'll take the extra time to make us learn or some dumb shit like that.


What do you call a black guy who flies air planes?

Read more..



I plan on telling this joke numerous times at the assembly tomorrow.

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holiday

:: 2005 30 November :: 11.41pm

Work was interesting today. After class I went to Applause and we had a huge party for like 390 or something. Fun fun. I made 900 bread-rounds and some bruscetta. I'm so good. Haha. I was just really enjoying how awesome it feels to work hard. Sometimes. haha. But I mean, first semester is almost done, and I love my class. The difference between other classes and culinary classes is you form a family. We're so close. And it's almost done. We've always got each other's backs. It's cool. I sound like a dork though I'm sure. But I love it. And today, it was nice getting all that food out and getting complements and knowing you did well. Even though I burned the fuck out of my arm. It hurts. Bad. It's not a huge burn though. But anyway, works going to be super busy the next few weeks.
As for other things, still have no clue. Wish I knew. I don't want to just assume it's not happenin'... But I've been havin' addictions to cola. Which is strange, I haven't drank pop in a while, and now all I want is diet pepsi.
eHHHHHH
g'night.

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holiday

:: 2005 29 November :: 12.22am

I definitely should be asleep right now. But no. I got some really yummy shampoo last night with Becca now my hair smells wonderful! I love Biolage. mmm. Sorry...
Anyway, trying to get classes at cc sucks so bad. grrr. So many annoying customers today. "Can I have a kaiser roll, just a kaiser roll."
Me thinking : WE DON'T SELL THOSE JUST ORDER FOOD DAMMIT
"You're out of a lot of stuff. Grr. Well. WHINE WHINE WHINE"
Me thinking: Yeah, you came a half hour before we close. Get over it. We're a class, we're learning.
"Can we split the payment on two cards"
Me thinking: GO DIE!!!!
Ha j/k
But seriously, ANNOYING. Oh yeah, it was funny. A couple guys walked in and they go: "We'd like 2 double cheeseburgers"
Me: "Dubble Cheeeese buurgers???" (confused look)
Them: "Oh, we're not in McDonalds! hahaha"
I made the most out of all three registers though, that was cool. $429
Holy crap I have to get to sleep.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 28 November :: 11.05pm
:: Music: Autolux - Turnstile Blues

Frostbite

Winter activities are piling up while the car hasn't even been looked at. What are we supposed to do, walk? Certainly not drive, not with a hole in the windshield. It was not shield us from any wind. It's purpose would be worthless. Might as well take it out. Hell, might as well make it into a convertable. But that's enough cynicism for tonight. Or is it?

This has been a day of recollection. And memories with so much detail are extremely better than the frail skeleton reveries I'm used to.

One day stands out from them all.


I wonder if my blanket is dry. I washed it earlier today and forgot to put it in the dryer. I went to lay down and to my great dismay...NO BLANKET! I couldn't have that. So, I went into the kitchen, grabbed a butcher's knife, went into my brothers bed room and stabbed him repeatedly. My plan was to kill him and take his clean blanket, but amidst the stabbing, blood splattered it's yellow, flowery pattern. So, I put my blanket in the dryer and it's drying and I'm waiting until it's totally dry. It will be nice and warm once it's done.

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holiday

:: 2005 28 November :: 2.58pm

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Whoo. I'm tired. It was kind of fun being a cashier although everyone was crazy today.

I don't know what to do anymore.

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holiday

:: 2005 27 November :: 4.20pm

I don't know what to do. I am scared.


Thanksgiving went well. It was nice to see my family and Charlie's family. Friday I went to work all day. There was a wedding in-house that spent SOOO much on food. (They ordered 3 chef-attended stations and a chocolate fountain. Each station costs $900, the fountain costs $5 each person!)
So it was a pretty interesting day.
After work Char and I went to Rivertown. Then I spent the night there. We watched Home Alone. hahaha :-) and Guess Who. Saturday we went shopping and stuff. Then at night we saw the lights @ 5/3 ballpark w/Lissa, Cory, and the baby.

Goin to dinner w/Becca tonight YAYAYAYYA :-D

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Kate

:: 2005 24 November :: 12.35pm

I went to my old entries and looked at what I wrote last year:

Thanksgiving: done.

All I got out of it was food that made me want to throw up, an intense irritation, and the strong reminder of why I hate existing so much.


Oh my how time changes things... or rather doesn't at all.

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holiday

:: 2005 23 November :: 11.01am

I am excited to see my family. Yay! Tomorrow I'm going to my grandma's then I'm going to Char's grandma's :-) YAY
Yesterday was so long. I was so tired. Holy crap. Then I hung out with Charlie and we ate some pie. hahaha.

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anachronism

:: 2005 23 November :: 10.18am

If anyone has the essay outline for Econ that we got, please send it to me in some form. Just what the essay is supposed to be about or whatever. It'd be really appreciated. Thanks.

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holiday

:: 2005 22 November :: 12.07am
:: Music: Division of Laura Lee

I WALK ON BROKEN GLASS
BLAHHHHH
I got home an hour ago. Went to school and worked 5 hours. Went to work for 8. First I got there and Ken and I had to open up 60 turkeys for tomorrows God's Kitchen dinner for 3,000... 3 fricken thousand. Holy crap. So yeah, that took a little while. Then I left and rode w/Ken to Frederick Meijer Gardens. We did a party for 300 tonight. It was cool, all canapes and dessert platters and veggie trays. Yummy. Breakdowns went fast. Kinda. We got to drive the big truck back. Then unload it. And then I got to go home. Yay. Sleep. But no, first I had to write a paper for class tomorrow. So yeah, now I can sleep. Tomorrow night after class I so get to see Charlie :-) :-) :-) I hope I can surprise him with something. If I ever find out. Blahhhhh. I think that's about it... Oh, I found a cute house but I can't find it online or anything. G'night.

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holiday

:: 2005 22 November :: 12.00am

I love... music.
Love will tear us apart...
~
A house of cards, a supple heart, is not a place to dwell. Now you have your cake, don't hesitate. C'mon just do it, c'mon just do it. Put it in your mouth, there is only now. Tomorrow has to wait. But know there's
No Backing out
This is going to be, reality, you can never dream and doubt.
I have no way of telling the two apart.
Well I made amends in the general sense
But the devils in the details. And I know the cards. And I want to stop
But I can't do it, I just can't do it. There was love i meant. There were accidents. So tell me which is which. Cause I just CAN'T WORK IT OUT. But for memory and for clarity, we had better write it down. I have no way of knowing the truth with timed results. . .I put the past into the ground, I saw the future as a cloud. If theres no time to turn around, I'm going to. It's just one day I fell asleep, and now all day and night I dream, I'm the first one I decieved. If I can make myself believe. The rest, is easy.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 21 November :: 5.43pm
:: Music: the Mars Volta

Always the optimistic one

So...biology. I have a lunch detention tomorrow, because I didn't finish my packet. First of all, I didn't know the packet was due. She says it was on the board. It wasn't. If it was, I would have done it. I'm not the kind of kid who just doesn't do a 100 point assignment. Second of all, even if I had known I had to do it, I wouldn't have been able to. This shit is so confusing. I have to read a paragraph like 4 times before I even begin to comprehend it. Oh, and guess what.

The test is tomorrow.

At least tomorrow is the last day before vacation. And today is seven months.

Time flies.

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stinko

:: 2005 21 November :: 9.52am

oh you know!

sometimes i wish i was older so i could get married and have a house and fight over taking out the trash.
how grand life shall be.

i have never been happier. i don't even hate hardcore today. i pretty much just want to sit and smile.

:)

oh gosh! falloutboy/thestartingline/motioncitysoundtrack/boysnightout and harry potter totally rocked so much a lot. and so did robby.
yippers.

oh and sarah, i swear one time you come home and we hang out with anyone other than a puzzle we will both be not pissed. someday. pissed not. also not pissing on things. nothing that has to do with pissing on, pissing off, pissing around, being pissed, pissing away, getting pissed, putting the piss on, letting the piss off, or even thinking of the piss.
*robot/giant/elfdance*
shabam!

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 21 November :: 6.20am

Good morning

I would like to crawl out of my clothes and fall back into bed and wrap the blankets around myself and just drift back to sleep.

Why? Not because I'm tired, no. It's just because I don't want to face the massive amount of homework I'll recieve, and the dirty looks I'll get from the homework I didn't even attempt. Oh, and the test I have today which I haven't read the chapter for.

Fuck.

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anachronism

:: 2005 20 November :: 1.51pm

Attention: Anyone in the play
If you have any pictures from the play, practice, cast party, etc. Please get them to me in some way. I can give you a blank CD to burn them to, you can email them to me, send them to me on MSN, etc. Just, please let me know. I have no pictures from it. Thanks.

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holiday

:: 2005 19 November :: 10.55am
:: Music: Fugazi

I've got, this epic problem, this epic problems not a problem for me
And inside
I know I'm broken, but I'm working as far as you can see...
~
I love this song.
So yeah, chances are likely, and probably around July 26th, 2006. I feel like there's never enough time. :-( I have all this stuff I want to get done and it just never feels like there's any time. This sucks. Break should go well though, except that I have to work on projects. Blahhhh what do I write for an All About Me essay? You'd think this wouldn't be that hard. I hate it.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 17 November :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: shocked


We hit a deer on the way to my house.

It was the scariest thing to ever happen to me.

We're okay.

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holiday

:: 2005 17 November :: 9.49pm

Man. So tired. Class went pretty well. Char and I hung out. It was sooooo nice. And we laid in bed and snuggled while it was cold out. It felt so good. So yeah, we may have some big news here.
I'm so in love.

Oh yeah, this morning, on my way to the expressway, I took 18 mile to shaner instead of 17 mile cause there was a crash, and I pretty much jacknifed my car near the intersection and almost hit a stop sign. My car spun sideways. It was really scary! Tomorrow Becca and I are meeting for breakfast then driving to class.

G'night :-) <3

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holiday

:: 2005 16 November :: 11.28pm

Ahhhhhhh SLEEP
Tummy. Ow.
Tired. Blah.
Today. Ah.
Can't. Talk. In. Full. Sentences.
Eh, whatever. Today was boring. Saw Charlie for like, 30 minutes. Worked on our Menu project for like, 4 HOURS. I'm sorry I didn't call Jessi, I just realized and I believe it's too late now :-( I am sorry :-(
Time for sleep.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 15 November :: 11.00pm
:: Music: Tool - Sober

Anticipation

This play will be the death of me. Well, not me really, just my grades. I haven't gotten home earlier than 10 in a long time. And I'm so tired when I get home, all I want to do is go to sleep. Tonight I actually have some energy, which is the only reason I'm still awake. Must have been the coke. I have a backpack at my feet filled with three subjects of homework. It will stay there until morning when I leave for school. Oh well, school is just a haze to me anyway. I can't remember anything, and I can't pay attention enough to even try. We are in the hardest chapter of biology, which I think might be a good thing, and I know nothing. I write down the notes she gives us, but nothing sticks. Just two more days though, I can f(m)ake it. I'll sleep all day Sunday and be back to myself in time for Monday.

Oh yeah, and, I have three comics coming. They'll be done by next week.

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