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2004 22 August :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: hjdbsvjbh
:: Music: scat man
OMG!! MY HAIR IS GONE!!
she def. cut it shorter than i wanted it. :(. i do not like it at all. i just keep telling myself it'll grow back. heh.
anyhoo, Exorcist was a good movie. scary in the sense that it jumps out at you a lot. and the possessed lady had a creepy face. but it didnt give me nightmares lol.
Rachel's party was a lotta fun!! danced the whole night away. good people, good music, good times.
thats all for now. xoxo.
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2004 21 August :: 11.01am
Everyone had moved on the livejournal. I feel guilty for not using this. But I like woohu. I think everyone has moved onto livejournal besides Kaila and Sam ?
Well after getting sort of a pattern for school, it feels a bit better. But I don't wanna focus on anything negative in this entry. School's great cuz I get to see all the familar faces... that part is awesome. I have friends in ALL my classes. And even if I don't, I have the ability 2 make new friends and not be resistant 2 change. It'll be ok. There r worse things than this. And I really do like some of the subjects. I like learning- just the test/quiz aspect of it. But u know, life is all about becomin a better person and broadening your horizons, and yeah.. we'll never be finished wit that, but why not strive. If no one's with me, then I guess it's me against the world.. and that ok :D
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2004 20 August :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: breakaway // kelly clarkson
i won't forget all the ones that i love // kelly clarkson
i'm not sure what i want to say, or what i want to do right now, but, yeah.... goodnight.
i'll help u cope with it. i'm nothing. remember that. mean nothing, am nothing for u.
don't u think its amazing how u feel so skinny when u're doing certain things?! lol.
for real now, goodnight ---> u hot people.
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2004 20 August :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: finch- letters to you
woohu is in neglect.
i don't really get it.. we all pay to keep our accounts here.. and then immediately stop using this and move to livejournal.
shows how we love to throw money out the door : )
even though it's only two bucks, but still!
yeah, that's the cheap side of me talking.
so school hasn't been that bad. i mean, yes, it's already considerably harder, and yes i don't get to see the people i used to see a lot that much anymore, but i think the change of that is good, cause you get closer with different people. so yeah.
lots of parties coming up, it seems like there's 38749823 birthdays between now and the end of september, so there should be some fun there.
mm yeah.
i like to be around people that make me smile. i'm starting to realize that when i surround myself with those kinds of people i never seem to think about the bad stuff. so keep the good times rolling!
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2004 20 August :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: happy--really good mood.
:: Music: sunshine - its my new song
WUSSUP HOME FRIES?!?!
its been a while since i updated. hmmm...
tuesday: had a long convo with amy on the bus. signed up for dance. talked to carlos for a long time.
wednesday: i dont recall anything special happening.. sorry
thursday: those spanish quizzes can kiss my bootay. english wasnt that bad. but i learned that schilit has a cat named Samantha Susan, nicknamed Sammi Sue. yeah-n she thought of that when i told her i wanted to be called sam. weirdo. then a long chat with amara and amy.
friday(today): was a good/funny day. it brought up the whole week. in ceramics we just made tiles. math- "do you know the muffin man? the muffin man? THE MUFFIN MAN!" lmao. thats me and kaila's new line.
sam: "i thought of a way to remember the name for raccoon in spanish. you know how its mapache?"
Kaila: yeah..
Sam: ::uses hand gestures:: you know how they have patches around their eyes?
Kaila: yeah.
Sam: ::still using hand gestures w/ a funny face:: just say " ma-paches"
lmao. that was great. although amy didnt think so. then dr. baum thinking i have a mustache. and the whole class staring at me. lol. lunch- kaila's a bully. jk. jk. you had to be there. social anth- i dont think anything happened. but im kinda excited about the observation thingy. bio- took a quiz that ashley and logan freaked me out on. got a 70- not too bad. paid attention/ talked to amy. bus- made fun of davis and his neck. lol. "sam youre gonna be 16!" WRONG. lol. then i went to kaila's picked out her outfit for tomorrow. did a bunch of quizzes and read through a magazine. watched music videos. crossing my eyes like the cat then freaking out. lmao. fun stuff man. then amara called a lil bit ago to ask if i wanted to see the Exorcist. i got approved. im excited/ scared. lol. then when i got home, there were these two repair guys. well the older one was like 50-60's age range. so i said hi and everything and walked inside. so later, my dad comes in, and i ask, "why did you say, 'thats my fucking daughter'?" turns out that he was a nasty old man. gross. if you get what i mean. my dad was pisseddd. thank god he's gone.
tomorrow's rachel's partay! looking forward to that. but now i gotta go eat before i go. later homies. xoxo.
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2004 20 August :: 4.40pm
yay friday
oh man ashley...fucking rocks lol that girl made me the best half birthday present ever. haha she didn't have anything to make a cake so she took rice krispy treats and and candy and footlong fruit rollups and made them look like sushi. who does that? i don't know but it was still awesome. lol lemmie alone that was seriously the high point of my day.
thank god im only taking dance for one semester i can't stand the mixed classes. grr
i fucked up that spanish verb tense quiz and i got a 70 on the bio quiz but i feel better about those now because i know what to expect and i don't think they are worth a lot anyway.
not much else has been going on i want to take the car and get out of the house for a bit this weekend even if i just go somewhere by myself i just need some space. space outside of the confines of my house and school. maybe i will go to the mall and see chub if shes working or get liz a bday present idk. someone should meet me there and we'll hang out. or maybe ill make jimmy finally show me his damn pictures from europe i just remembered he hasnt. bah
my social life....i give up...seriously i've got plenty of friends to talk to and enough close friends who id trust with my life if need be. if there's some guy out there who is right for me and can actually put up with me and care about me like no one has been able to thus far...then he will find me. ive tried for too long to force what wasnt meant to be with all the wrong guys so im giving up on my better judgement and letting life take me where it will....im interested to see how all that turns out.
oh yeah unrelated topic...talked to Dom last night out of nowhere that kid just pops up at weird fucking times in my life.
i'm so over the bus seriously...just give me my damn car. I rode it for like the 1st time this year and the freshman just grrr they are probably sophmores but w/e they are all freshman to me. there's a couple juniors to keep me sane but still. lol tony tried to be funny and jack Dane Cook's shit today but he got shut down lol i know that cd by heart.
yes well im gunna go be lazy and enjoy the weekend.
<3
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2004 19 August :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: Baby ft. P Diddy- Do That
I think all my entries for like.. a year now r gonna be about how much work school is and how badly is sucks- sorry in advance
I seriously start at 4:30/5 and work until about 10/11 at night. [Obviously wit the necessary breaks..] I dunno, I think it's cuz I have my computer on/music playing. Maybe tomorrow I'll try without the music/computer on- wait, scrath that, tomorrow's Friday, I'm NOT workin that hard on a Friday. Some of the classes rn't that bad though. [English, Chem, and surpringly Bio]. History and Spsanish sucks major ass. History, just cuz it's boring. I have no clue what 2 expect 4 the test ?! so I gotta read this weekend and get up 2 date on everything in that class. Spanish- it's just a hard course. And I'm confused in Pre Cal [not sounding conceited, but..], which I rarely ever struggle in MATH. What's up with that? I dunno, it just feels like I'm runnin a race wit the clock whenever I get home. Can u believe these two girls in my Bio class were like.. DISAPPOINTED/WORRIED we didn't get any homework?!
But I'm glad it's Friday tomorrow. Then I get TWO WHOLE DAYS to do homework- just kidding! Rachel's party, and I wanna go 2 the movies.. I WILL go the movies. Good stuff.
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2004 19 August :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Dreaming of You-Selena
this year is nothing like what i thought it was gonna start off like..
we've been in school no more than a little more than a week and i've already been hit wid so much crap that i dunno what to do with it all..it's so frustrating and stressful..and it's not only school stuff..family is playing a big part in all this too..my mom and i have talked a couple of times already about getting out of IB..i completely went against everything she was saying..i love ATL..u all kno that..just check out my bag..lol..and everybody's at ATL..so i dont wanna leave...and i was so looking foward to cheering on varsity this year too..but it's all kinda headed the opposite way..my mom said if by the end of 1st quarter..if i have any C's or D's shez pulling me out whether i like it or not..my whole thing about it all is that i dont wanna regret it in the long run and i dont wanna feel like i've wasted the past two years of my life..u kno??..and im thinking i made it this far..why not keep going??..but it goes deeper than that..family issues..blah blah blah..it's hard to understand..i know my mom is just lookin out for me but shez juss throwing all this crap at me at once..so it makes it all even more stressful..if i did get out..i'd have to go to Olympic..i REALLY dont wanna go there..i'd rather go to West Boca..but i dont even wanna get out..i do but i dont..i wanna have a life..i DONT wanna leave all my friends..especially sam amara sameen n amy..i wanna be able to get into UF..i dont wanna stay up really late doing homework every night..i dunno..maybe im making a big deal outta it..but im confused and i need to get my priorities straight
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2004 18 August :: 6.26pm
:: Music: jealous sound - "recovery room"
sometimes i wonder
if people can see the welling in my eyes
if they can sense the tenseness in my face
if they know how much i want to go away
if they feel me drifting far off into myself
if they can hear my heart as it falls to the ground
if they know how much i love/miss them
i wonder what could happen if i could just end it all ? is there a place called heaven, or would i just go be reincarnated and start hell on earth all over again, but this time even worse? my life is great, ya know? it really is. i just don't feel great. so many times in the day i feel more like an outsider than i have in all of high school. you think that wouldnt happen since it's junior year, but its true. i don't see my friends, and when i do, i can't truly enjoy my time with them. the only thing i look forward to during the day is going home with danielle. if not for that, i'd be sobbing into greta's shoulder everyday. but that doesnt sound too bad every now and then either. it's simply asinine and unnecessary for me to put myself down and feel like crap all the time. but i dont know. i cant help it.
just forget everything that i said and wash out the wounds.
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2004 17 August :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: depressed
i am sooo fricken stressed out right nowwww
i need somebody to talk to other than my mom..and either everyonez away or people arent on..:(..guess imma hafta wait..itz no biggie
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