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2003 27 February :: 12.58am
today is going to be a beautiful day <3
(i really hope so anyways...)
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2003 26 February :: 8.06pm
URGENT MESSAGE!!!!
Date Sara B.!
The.End.
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2003 26 February :: 11.18am
:: Mood: hurt
:: Music: rocking horse winner - when songbirds sing
was it worth it ? was it worth seeing me for the first time with no eyeliner because it had all been cried off instead of because i had slept over , and never being able to listen to rocking horse winner again ? and not having anybody to go to bright eyes or warped tour with and explaining to everybody at your work that you hadn’t been treating me good ? and always getting my answering machine because i could no longer waste the minutes i’d save on you, because i knew what you were going to say because it’s all so cliché that i could recite those lines with you ? but here i am , assuming you don’t have a good excuse . maybe you lied because you didn’t want to hurt me . so maybe you shouldn’t have done anything to hurt me in the first place . maybe you wanted me to get past my writer’s block and write and write and write three things in ten minutes . how fucking considerate of you . but here i am , justifying things in four different ways and pressing seven when i should be pressing three , and focusing on you instead of my research paper . and jumping to the window every time i hear a car door slam because maybe you’re here to apologize , and rehearsing in my mind all the things i have to say to you that will remain unsaid because i can’t call you because i know i’d lose my will . and i know you’re never going to read this , so maybe that’s why i’m so anxious to get it all out so i can move on with my life . but fuck . all i want to know is why . why you did it and why you couldn’t tell me before or afterward so that i wouldn’t look so fucking stupid to everybody who knew , because everybody knew . i wish there was some way i could go back and act on instinct instead of heart , and ignore all the sweet talk , because that’s all it was , no matter how much you told me it was true . i wish i could move on and stop living in the past and overanalyzing every word, every kiss, every phone call . that time i came over and she was there , and all the difference it would have made if i had just fucking walked inside . how you could have so little respect for me that you kissed me anyway . and denied being an asshole even though i said it lightheartedly . but it’s true . you fucking asshole . so why ? why do i want to see you again even though i keep telling you i don’t ?
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2003 25 February :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: defeated
:: Music: from autumn to ashes - short stories with tragic endings
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in
heartbreak number one . the way you didn’t call before nine o’clock because thirty-five cents a minute is out of my price range . and this afternoon when i left , and the leaves were blowing against my windshield , all i wanted was for them to be little shards of glass , bloodying my ears and eyes so that i could remain ignorant to what’s been going on. GODDAMMIT . is this what i get ? and i’m left wondering what would have happened if i brought it up when it was just a sneaking suspicion because i couldn’t distinguish between my and her perfume on your sheets . if giving you the letter would have prevented anything , or just been another laugh you two shared at my expense . and i don’t know if changing my mind will just bring heartbreak numbers two , three , and four , but i do know how foolish i’d appear . and that stupid Garfield shit that i laughed at – well, i’ll miss not seeing it in my driveway . and i’ll miss the bedtime phone calls , which i know i’m not getting anymore , because it’s almost 11:30 and my phone has not rang . and “i’m not done hugging you yet.” and all the other bullshit that i was too stupid to see through . all i had to do was turn on any romantic comedy and it would be right there , the 6654 lines i’ve been drinking down , but i didn’t . i’d “watch movies”, but not really watch them . maybe i should have paid a little closer attention to the movies and i’d realize they’d never quite live up to the movies you watched with her . i’ll never live up to her . so stop with the phone calls, because you’re breaking my heart . and even if you could read the sarcasm through pink type on blue background , there would be no need to try , because i’m not being sarcastic . actions speak louder than words, right ? then how come nothing i want to say is reflected in the way i hang up the phone ?
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2003 24 February :: 6.28pm
vivi = too tired :0( spent half the night writing my stupid world lit but its okay, I had Brian pseudo keeping me company telling me about his cartoons and such :0P
in response to the poem he wrote about me:
Brian E.,
why can't you see,
falling on your balls
won't make your children tall.
You are very cute
but you choose to refute
We all know its true
so don't be so blue.
Brian + Vivi + Drew + Sara B. = a bunch of sexy bitches. The End.
everyone still loves my hair!!! its really nice getting complemented all the time :0) and lots of people came up to me and were like "we're sooo cutting our hair now too!" I really don't know if I honestly do look hotter but I think I feel hotter haha
<3<3
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2003 23 February :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: uberzone - believe in beats
so no poetry , because i have nothing extremely emotional . haha . i crashed my car into another car going eighty miles per hour on i-95 on saturday morning . miraculously enough , the other people said they barely even felt it . their car was not very bad at all . my left headlight broke , and i have no front bumper ; actually , i do , it was in my backseat / trunk all yesterday ... steve re-mounted it today , and created a makeshift headlight / soda bottle turning signal for me . it is ghetto / awesome as fuck . it drives . sweet . i got a ticket for improper lane change , but the cop told me to take it to court because there is a 100 % chance it will be dismissed . with those odds, who needs lawyers ? not me . i am offering people a free cinnabun with donation of either a white escalade ext , 2002 model , or a front bumper for a 1998 white nissan sentra gxe . feel free to take me up on that offer . anyway , i should have died , because i got into my first accident going very fast on a highway , but i didn't , and i'm glad i didn't . haha . and the "i'm glad you're alive" comments ? so cliche . i didn't come near dying . my airbags didn't deploy . my neck isn't even sore . so like obviously i could have died anytime i go driving , so say that then . mm . i am very happy . haha . i was like cracking up after the accident ; like , after i cried a lot haha . i don't know . i just felt like letting everybody know that my car is super ghetto mmmm . haha <333 bye ladies .
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2003 22 February :: 10.52pm
So yeah. my hair is 14" shorter and pure sexiness haha... actually my mom says I have to wait and see what everyone says but I really don't care, I love it!
The show was great! ADASTRA won the battle of the bands!!!! take that Fallen from the sky haha nooo Adastra played soooo good tonight though, great great show followed by Dennys @ Linton & Federal.. good times cept 4 the damn bitches there. Got to see the twins <3 and everyone else. good times. oh yeah, Ben looked really hot in his atire tonight :0P ahh everyone looked really hot tonight :0P im me for pics if you want them
goodnight<3
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2003 19 February :: 7.39pm
APRIL 21st TAKING BACK SUNDAY, FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES, RECOVER, COUNT THE STARS!!!!!!!!!
whos sooooo there!
Also, COHEED AND CAMBRIA IS COMING!!! as well as THE ATARIS and THE JULIANA THEORY and BRIGHT EYES and CURSIVE!!!!
ohhh and MUSTARD PLUG on March 1st!!!! <- THE KNOW HOW will be there tooooooo!
i forgot. The Juliana Theory canceled for the show tonight :0( (Feb 20th) so Sara B & I sold our tickets... o well... i'll see them when they come w/the Ataris in April :0P
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2003 17 February :: 12.59am
:: Mood: "tired"
:: Music: beethoven - violin concerto in d major
don't you understand ? you were different from the others . i just told her that . you weren't supposed to make me cry . you weren't supposed to be the reason i sat in deserted parking lots at one a.m. , sobbing quietly to myself because i had no one to call . you knew good decisions from bad ones . but you weighed your options and she won . and you looked at my eyes turning slightly bloodshot , watched me avoid your stare , biting the inside of my cheek to keep from crying , sat and listened to me not speak a word to you for an hour and a half , and believed me when i told you nothing was wrong . didn't question it . so what now ? i can't just let it slide , but i can't let you go . you're different from the others . i should just fix my eyeliner and go home , smile , and hope for the phone to ring with that familiar unfamiliar number .
i love susan.
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2003 16 February :: 12.29am
so yeah. Tonight was ... fun? lol
Nicole picked me up and we were going to kiss to sell tickets but everyone there had already bought from the Fallen from the sky kids & Pipe Clay Rut. Umm it was fun seeing loads of people, some i haven't seen in a bazillion years ie: twins, Myra & Elsa <3, Nicole, Amy etc. I also met 3 people who i've been talking online with or know from woohu, Zac (justanotherkid), Haley (HaleySidelsucks), and Selma (who i apparently used to know.)The show was okay... Pipe Clay Rut was umm well they had a really hot guitarist and I talked to Sara's Mike & got loads of pics for her... then Angels without wings who were AWESOME!!! Really aspiring hardcore band w/ a SUPER hot singer (who looks like Elijah Wood!) Then Fallen from the sky.. eh. Then Adastra. It definately wasn't their best show... i'll leave it at that but the only pseudo pit of the night was during their set so it was okay.
By the end, Nicole and Sharif were making out and it was kind of weird. Ironic considering the whole entire Chris situation... whatever.
Brian Egan is a really cute kid, really. Wish he'd believe it cuz I bet he'd be a lot happier if he could think positively.
Dennys: Ben, Drew, Whits , Sara B. & I. We had the most kick ass waiter named Jon. We gave him a 35% tip lol
Thats it.
ehh. i really missed Chris tonight...should i have?
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2003 14 February :: 6.15am
HAPPPPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TROY!!!!!!!
<3<3
and a happy valentines day to everyone else i suppose.
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2003 13 February :: 9.25pm
first of all, everyone that has commented, called, whatever.. i just want you to know that you're great and it all made me feel a lot better. Thank you :0)
so a second chance.
maybe i'm dumb, maybe i'm not... can't really tell now but i hope it works out okay...
So to make myself feel better I am devoting myself to Brighton this Valentines... (i assure you it'll be better then last year :0P)
i send my best to all the little lovies out there, have a great night and for everyone that doesn't have someone then go out anyways with some friends and just have fun. Damn commercialized holidays :0P
PS. I am less white now :0P
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2003 12 February :: 5.54pm
so yeah.
guess whos single again.
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2003 10 February :: 7.19pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: against all authority - court 22
it's the "news at 10" that kills me . my only enemy . the one that gets me every time . the dark , sweaty grappling of hands on wrists and shoulders and tangled in hair . open mouths on uncovered necks in a slightly less playful way than earlier , when i was on the phone or wrestling the remote out of your hands . i can't hold your hand hard enough for you to comprehend the thoughts racing through my mind . with no concept of time , all i know is that i'm here , with you , though it could be anywhere and still not make a difference . so i keep my eyes shut tightly to avoid the red glowing numbers above and slightly to the right of your head . your glasses long forgotten , my self-consciousness gone with any inhibitions i may have had . it doesn't matter how toned my stomach is or that my eyeliner is smudged on my cheek or yours . i just want to feel your bare stomach on mine , barely grazing it , then on me in an instant where i don't even know how it got there , so hard i can barely breathe , but it's not your weight that's taking my breath away . i don't even know why . all i know is your breath in my ear , and i'm sent into this whirling oblivion where nobody has ever gone , feeling something nobody has ever felt . but it's gone . the forced whisper , the disappointment , the uncaring anchors taking away my everything in seconds . so leave the television off next time , and i'll never leave this place again .
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2003 10 February :: 5.02pm
i'm really bored so don't mind me.
First, this is really funny... well i was amused
In Japan, the fat intake in the average Japanese diet is
very low and the heart disease ratio is lower than in North
America and the UK.
However, in France, the average fat intake is very high,
and yet, the heart disease ratio is lower than in North
America and the UK.
In India almost no one drinks red wine and the heart disease
ratio is lower than in North America and the UK.
In Spain, everybody drinks too much red wine and the heart
disease ratio is lower than in North America and the UK.
In Algeria, the average sexual activity ratio is very high and
the heart disease ratio is lower than in North America and the UK.
In Brazil, everybody has sex like crazy and the heart
disease ratio is lower than in North America and the UK.
In Austria, adults smoke 2 packs of cigarettes per day,
on average.
Conclusion: Drink, eat, smoke and screw all you want.
It's speaking English that kills you.
1. DATE: Febs 10, 2003
3. Name on birth certificate: Vivi Tran
4. Nicknames: umm Viv's, Vi, Vister, Vivi (like Viv-e) umm i duno people call me all kinda things... midget, shorty etc.
5. Birth date: Dec. 20th, 1985
6. Age: 17
7. School: ATL baby!
8. Location: Boca Raton, Fl.
9. Email: picturesxstarsxdreams@yahoo.com
10. Colour of eyes: um brown... cuz i'm full of shit right? haha
11. Colour of hair: umm its debatable, black/dark brown
12. Height: umm i'm 2 feet tall... lol seriously 4'11" <- i know i'm a midget, shut up.
13. Shoe size: 7 - 7 1/2 depending....
14. Brothers or sisters and ages: Vinh 13
15. Who you live with: Mis padres, mi hermano y mi gato Princess
16. Bedtime: well... because I NEVER get to sleep now thanks to a certain someone :0P
17. Carpet colour in your room: ummm beigey white i think...
18. Wall colour in your room: pink :0P
HaVe YoU eVeR
19. Been so drunk you blacked out? nope
20. Missed school because it was raining? nope
21. Put a body part on fire to humour yourself? nope
22. Been hurt emotionally? lets not go there. Hurt is for the weak damnit!
23. Kept a secret from everyone? sure
24. Had an imaginary friend? haha
25. Wanted to hook up with a friend? yeah... i probably wouldn't recomment it..
26. Ever cried during a movie? ima wuss.
27. Ever thought an animated character was hot? lol ummm noo... ::looks away:: lol
28. Had a New Kids on the Block tape? nope
29. Been on stage? last night
30. Cut your hair? yep in 3 months i'll be chopping off 12 + inches!
31. Been sarcastic? Sarcasm takes real brains :0P
FaVoUrItEs
32. Shampoo: Herbal Essences! cuz its orgasmic rightttt??? haha
33. Soap: um... no preference i don't think
34. Colour: don't get me started on colors... but for Chris i'll put purple :0P
35. Day/night: night
36. Season: winter or spring or fall or ehh i like em all lol summers a bit hot though..
38. Food: anything latino almost :0P i like lots of foods
39. Ice cream: yummmmm ice cream...
40. Subject: um...school? lol
41. Person: haha my favoritest person in the whole entire would would hafta be my pussy w/Chris at a close second :0P
RiGhT nOw
42. Wearing: umm jeans & my pimpin yellow "emo" shirt as Ben put it
43. Feeling: sleepy
44.Eating/drinking: nada.
45. Thinking: i really wana see chris :0(
46. Listening to: nothing.
47. Talking to: was talking to AJ a sec ago but he just abandoned me :0(
In ThE lAsT 24 hOuRs
48. Cried: nope, Chris makes me all smiles :0)
49. Worn a skirt: yesterday yes.
50. Met someone new: ummmm maybe... actually yes, I met Jim and Greg :0)
51. Cleaned your room: not really
52. Done laundry: nope
Do YoU bElIeVe In
53. Boxes? its a state of mind. Is there a truth? haha TOK
54. Yourself? why not
55. Your friends? i'd like to
56. The tooth fairy? only if theres money involved :0P
57. Destiny/fate? I don't know... destiny proly not but fate maybe
58. Angels?it's a nice concept
60. UFO's? nope. aLIEn haha
FrIeNdS aNd LiFe
61. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yessssss! Tengo un novio! girls i'm taking applications :0P
62. Do you like anyone? Chris <3
63. What friend have you known the longest? that i'm still good friends with... umm proly Chris Z. (since i'v been 4) and Jenn since elementary school
64. Who's the funniest? all my friends are funny... Canadian Dave though i'd have to say :0)
65. Who's the shyest? Noah :0P I have lots of shy friends though
66. Who do you go to for advice? ummm depends on what
67. Who do you cry to? haha how many times have I called Chris (Z) balling now... Troy's heard me cry too many times too. And of course Jenn through all these heart breaks lol
68. When have you cried the most? when Sascha died.
70. What do you think the best feeling in the world is? just relaxing and not having a care in the world...
71. Worst feeling? there are lots of bad feelings.
MeH
72. Who will respond to you the quickest? um... proly by tomorrow 4 people will have this on their journal
74. Who sent this to you? i stole it from Jessika on deadjournal
75. Do you want everyone to send this back? um... no
MoRe QuEsTiOnS
Astrological sign: Sagittarius
People describe you as: short, cute, nice sometimes, bitch .. its all there :0P
Single or taken: taken :0)
Piercings: ears & belly button :0)
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